Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Well since I wasn't feeling too great yesterday, Monday was chore day. I got everything done but vacuuming (because I don't have a vacuum yet) and the dishes (because I hate doing dishes), but I'll at least get the dishes done tonight. Laundry is done, and this mid afternoon I'm re-doing my hair.
I received an email from a "Monica Foster" follower/fan today asking if I'd consider breast implants. Hmmmmm. In the past I've always said, no, but truthfully if they were FREE and I had no obligation of any sort to whoever got them for me and they were done by a top notch surgeon and would be removed for free in 2 to 3 years, I'd definitely go up to a DD. Why not. However nothing in life is free though. I sent my stipulation to the fan and told him/her to throw in a new car. LOL.
Anyways I'm dedicating this week to make lots of new Monica Foster videos. Been saying that for a while but now I'm set to do so psychologically.
I wasn't going to even mention this recent incident which occurred in my life, but I've opted to do so because it's something that's happened to me on more than one occasion since developing MonicaF.com and it's frustrating, depressing, and makes me sick due to the fact that I struggle so much for such little (if any) reward.
I was recently contacted to do a "pre-interview" for a documentary. I went in, did the interview and about halfway through, I realized that the guy (surprisingly a young guy) conducting the interview just wanted to meet a chick in porn and possibly fuck her. The guy was nice enough on the surface though, so I gave him a chance and hung out with him again (he took me to lunch), but surprise surprise (not), I was right about my initial hypothesis of him. He was just another dude trying to fuck me. Oh and to top it off, he had the nerve to tell me in not so direct terms that since Jenna Jameson could never get a mainstream role due to the "powers that be" other than appearing as Jenna Jameson, that I don't have a chance in hell at ever doing anything mainstream. Needless to say, he didn't accomplish his goal of fucking me. Not even close.
Recently when I was cast into a "mainstream" film, it was the same case - but with the director - yep, he just wanted to get with a cute black chick - it didn't happen.
Shit like this happening, in conjunction with me busting my ass just to make my rent and bills really makes me wish some days that I'd never made the the move to California. Many people here are just plain bad. I suppose I'm dwelling on the negative because I'm still not feeling 100% health wise, I HATE CATCHING COLDS, but everyone is entitled to wallow in self pity at times.
I think for shits and giggles I might post a personals ad today - yep I'm lonely and I'm determined to find someone decent soon who actually WANTS to be with me and who I want to be with.

oh and ps: I'm really SICK of assholes both via email and in person inferring that I didn't build and don't maintain my own website. No I did not HIRE anyone! Do I have to make ANOTHER fucking youtube video showing that I did like I how I had to prove I do my own photos? Yea, I might not be the brightest light on the x-mas tree considering my life and financial status, BUT I managed to emit enough brainpower to build a simple HTML based site.

and another ps: If any of you sorry fucks who have conned or tricked me into meeting you in person have the nerve/balls to write and sell a miniseries, book or screenplay script using my blogs/life story as inspiration I will not just sue you, I will hunt you down and CASTRATE you because I'm a chick in life with NOTHING to lose at this point in time.

Yep, I'm a little crazy and it works for me.