Thursday, September 09, 2010

As many of you who are my "regular readers" may have noticed, I've slowed down a bit on my regular blogging - and it's due to quite a few reasons - from realizing that there are some vital things in my life I need to attend to in order to put things on the correct track, to simply not wanting to share all of my ideas in regards to a few projects I have in the works.

Los Angeles - it's not really the city of dreams - it's the city of DREAM & IDEA THIEVES. Unfortunately many who reside here couldn't come up with an original idea or concept to save their life. I don't mind in assisting in the natural progression of things to come, but I DO mind others twisting something that may be good, positive, wonderful and progressive into a concept that is self serving to only a few (which is why I find it difficult to find others to work with professionally in this city).

A good friend of mine has helped me in MANY ways on my journey to where ever it is that I ultimately may end up - and his only request has been that I "pay it forward". In today's world - that's an idea that many know of, but few actually live by. My goal in life is to live by that ideal to the best of my ability.

Recently I've noticed in the adult industry news that there's been talk of a new "adult industry"/"porn industry" business model that supposedly has been launched and put into action by Vivid Entertainment (one of the largest and most successful porn studios as of current). Well, yea...exploiting celebrities and their kids, who are down on their luck I suppose COULD be considered a new "business model"...however is this concept to say that nowdays following your dream to reach your personal concept of "heaven" as an artist or entertainer can in the end land you in the pit of "hell" which is what the current state and attitude of the porn industry is?

Some may argue with me and say "Oh, porn didn't work out for you or simply wasn't for you so why are you deeming it as hell?" - hmmm, well porn actually DID work out for me in regards to progressing my long term goals which I didn't even REALIZE were my long term goals at the time, and as for porn not being for me...well it's not for me as a talent true, but that doesn't mean that I won't be around in other capacities...

Look, lets face some facts here: If the CURRENT state of porn wasn't so "hellish" then why is it that so many porn "stars" are scrambling over each other left and right to make it into "mainstream" entertainment? Just take a look at , and to see what I mean - every single time a "porn star" gets even the most MINUTE mainstream gig it's plastered all over the front page of such websites - it's rather comical at this stage.

If the current state of porn wasn't "hellish" then why are so many "pornstars" essentially homeless and "couch surfing"? Seems to me that more "porn professionals" who handle these "pornstars" aren't doing their job in helping these men and women make a living - it amazes me that top adult industry "agents" and "pr companies" are even still seen as "credible" considering the impoverished lifestyles their clients lead.

In actuality there is another "business model" for porn AND mainstream entertainment alike which is glaring everyone right in the fucking face, but few want to really take the time to look at, because the true NEW "adult and mainstream entertainment industry business model" is a model of which any INDIVIDUAL or very small team of people can implement into their adult entertainment industry careers - minus middlemen, minus agents, and minus large (and unnecessary) production companies.

When I first entered the "porn industry" back in March of 2008 and I related to other "porn industry professionals" who I came across what I was doing with my website, webcam shows and other ventures the majority belittled my ideas and concepts - well that was short sighted (and quite telling) on their part because as of current the "webcam girl" phenomenon is growing by leaps and bounds DAILY. Even long time "retired" pornstars are jumping on the bandwagon of which I have been on since 2002.

Being an individual and solo webcam girl is WHERE IT'S AT right now in the world of adult entertainment (the young girls get it and from what I can see - the smart pornstars and exotic dancers are quickly picking up on this trend too) - I knew this back in 2002 and guess what? I know what's going to be hot in 2014 (and it "ain't" parodies OR 3d porn).

In the next few weeks on I'll rewrite the section of the site entitled "the future of porn" because it's dramatically changed even since I entered AND retired from working as an adult actress.

Am I willing to share with you what will be hot next? Yep, but not at this moment - you'll have to keep watching me to find out what the real, stable, lucrative and enjoyable "future of porn" (and entertainment in general for that matter being that my ideas are too broad at this point to restrict them only to porn) really is.

I'll give you a hint as to what the future of porn is NOT however - it's not what's being produced now - why? Because the majority of porn put out now has ZERO substance and ZERO respect for what it's based on which is SEX.

Tube sites are not what's killing porn - pirating is not what's killing porn - lack of ethnic talent or diversity is not what's killing porn. It's the LACK OF UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT SEX IS REALLY ABOUT in it's most CORE ESSENCE that is "killing" (but in my eyes clearing the way for something better) porn.

SEX = PROCREATION which in it's core essence is about LOVE. Unfortunately most of who create the current "porn" product don't know what love is, and if they do, they've chosen to take a path in the opposite direction. Right now the majority of porn produced is attempting to sell the idea that SEX = CONTROL which is an incorrect equation. The future generation of consumers have picked up on this and they don't like it. Who are the future consumers? To find out I'll suggest the book "The Care and Feeding of the Indigo Children".

Truthfully, it's not always the direct fault of some who have gotten into the "adult content development game" as to why they can't see or understand this simple fact - they either entered "porn world" WAY to young OR they entered from a very damaged place in life and they haven't repaired their flawed thought processes.

Porn needs to depict RESPONSIBLE sex. Responsible Sex = Using Protection if you're not going to procreate (I have a potential directing gig for a company coming up and I've made the firm decision that if I CAN NOT depict responsible sex in what I want to produce and direct, I'll have to pass). There doesn't need to be a LAW to make this happen - people just need to use their BRAINS!

Porn also needs to stop with the hate and violence. As of current the porn industry consiously is DIVIDING humanity rather than UNITING humanity. Young people SEE, UNDERSTAND, and "GET" what's going on within the adult content marketplace and they're NOT going to spend their hard earned dollars on crap. You can NOT achieve success long term on any level via division.

The "porn industry" has a TREMENDOUS opportunity to educate young people in regards to what the HUMAN EXPERIENCE really is - I just don't understand why people who have the power as of current to take the reigns and do what's right won't get off their asses and DO IT...I'll tell you this, if certain individuals fail to do what's right, everything they have amassed via doing the WRONG thing will be taken away in the next year or so.

Someone who I used to have at least a shred of respect for, but now I realize is simply a washed up weirdo, who's been essentially replaced even (and by an industry that she panders to consistently no less) by the beautiful Misty Stone, twittered me recently accusing me of thinking I have "all the answers"...

Well I don't have many answers at all, and I don't claim to (I only have about 45 answers really in total - lol), however I do have a certain gift when it comes to identifying where industry trends are going - it's been documented at this stage.

Hell, I've entered and exited the porn industry as a "talent" within the span of under 2 years (and I've changed the industry a bit within that time), whereas this certain individual is STILL trying to maneuver her way through (and unsuccessfully I might add) it using an outdated plan which is doomed to FAIL - and in her case it's been over 5 years (which is FAR to long in my view to be a "talent" without segwaying into being primarily a studio owner/director - at this point she might as well give up and start all over again).

"Pay it forward" - as of current I'll pay it forward via teaching other people about what I've learned and observed - later I'll pay it forward to those who need it via other ways.

So all in all, these are my thoughts for tonight/this morning - this week has panned out to be relatively busy and it's still not over so catch up with me next week or feel free to say hello while I'm live on webcam for private webcam shows or on this Friday's live broadcast of

I'm not sure what I'll discuss on Friday's Monica @ Home show, but two things I WILL touch on is 1) how any porn company who's still distributing their product primarily on DVD is not even worthy of riding the short bus and 2) how fucking AWESOME liquid DnB music is and how such music increases the rate of your thought processes!