Friday, November 05, 2010

"There's no such thing as free."

That seemed to be the theme phrase of which consistently popped up at random times throughout my day yesterday - and I can see why. I not only needed to hear that message - I needed to understand it and relate it to all of you - my readers, fans and friends.

Many people who work within the porn arena seem to be consistently bitching and moaning about "free" tube sites making it more difficult for porn studios, producers and companies to make money. Well it's all a crock of shit - because the larger studios and companies are making MUCH more money than they EVER have due to all of the free content circulating - the only thing is that it's only a FEW key studios and companies making the money. They are giving away the product for free in order to squeeze out the competition, indoctrinate the upcoming generation of consumers to only like THEIR product, and to justify paying the talent, production crews and small scale content developers less. IT'S ALL A GREAT BIG SCAM.

How do I know this? Well it's begun to happen in MY primary market of porn - webcamming...and I am VERY upset and I'm not going to go down without sinking my venomous teeth into certain parties first, unless I get a payoff.

About a year or so ago - a little website popped up called - seemed harmless enough so of course I signed up as webcam girl and have logged on to work every now and then. I will not anymore though - want to know why? Because I can't make any money on their network - and neither can anyone else.

The site itself makes plenty and the audience LOVES it because it's "FREE". You can (and are encouraged to) get completely naked ("tastefully" of course) in free chat and then BEG for the viewers to donate "tokens". Now do the majority of viewers donate? No. And why should they? It's "free". A few nice guys here and there do though and most likely the actual website moderators do some donation "simulations" from behind the scenes to make it look like the money is flowing to the performers, but is it really? No. Also keep in mind that keeps a large percentage of each performer's "donations". has fucked it up for other GOOD, fair, professional and hardworking webcam networks such as and - both of which feature free CLOTHED chat, but make the viewers pay in order to see more.

Look, I am all about change and progress but I am very ANTI-SLAVERY and business model is all about turning good webcam girls into essentially STREET BEGGARS and SLAVES.

It has gotten so bad for webcam girls at this stage, that even on the GOOD webcam network sites, the viewers have been so conditioned as to how works that they consistently berate and insult the cam models, because they are not getting to see whatever they want for "FREE".

Being a webcam girl used to give the model the power to name her price. Now, it has changed to where the viewer decides what he feels like "donating" AFTER he's received the product. I refuse to allow someone else to decide what I'm worth. I DECIDE WHAT I AM WORTH.

Seems to me that the porn industry started to notice that webcam girls were making a good living independently and though they have MILLIONS of dollars, it just was not enough so now through , large key porn companies have decided to roadblock me from being able to make just enough money to pay my rent and bills.

On many occasions I will be online doing webcam shows in the free chat section and I consistently have viewers say "hey, let's chat for FREE, but I don't need a live show because while we're chatting I'm watching you get fucked in a porn scene I found you in on a FREE TUBE site".

So I've basically been totally roadblocked as a pornstar AND webcamgirl.

Unless a guy is a true fan, I can't make any money through my doing live webcam shows much anymore. I don't receive any residuals for any of the porn movies I've done. If I ever were to shoot a scene for another porn studio again, I doubt the rate I'd be offered for a scene would be over $700. I will never be a "contract girl" being that I'm almost 32 years old and black - and it's not likely that my investor will come through in the end for me to even start my own production company properly.

I need a regular job at this stage, and I'm not even certain where to begin to look being that I haven't had a non-adult industry related job since about 2002. I definitely am intelligent and embody a certain area of expertise - but it feels hopeless.

Fuck you - Fuck you tube sites which are heavily supported by Brazzers and Jules Jordan (I have a strong inclination that is SOMEHOW being backed by whoever backs Jules Jordan considering that one of his key pornstars will be signing at THEIR BOOTH at Exxxotica in New Jersey this weekend) and FUCK YOU INDIVIDUALS who have attempted to break me (yet failed) and have attempted to tell me WHAT I AM WORTH.