Official Blog the Artist, Musician, Author, Investigative Blogger, accidental Adult Industry Expert & unconventional Christian (who is sometimes known as former pornstar) Monica Foster. Official website: www.MonicaFoster.net
Thursday, May 26, 2011
So the harassment continues from the losers behind pornwikileaks. This is the email that was sent through the contact form of my building's website to my apartment manager - at least now I have someone local who can vouch for this crap from these psychotic people.
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Hi ****
Here is a copy of the email we received. It came from the 'Contact Us' form from the building website.
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From: MF (note how they inserted my email in the from field)
Subject: Franklin Park Apartments
To: (removed)
Date: Thursday, May 26, 2011, 12:35 PM
Below is the result of your feedback form. It was submitted by
MF (MonicaF001@yahoo.com) on Thursday, May 26, 2011 at 15:35:07
Message: we have reason to believe (twitter comments) that *** in unit 118 is keeping several pets (birds, etc) in the apartment without paying the pet deposit of $250. she has just acquired a white dove and has tweeted several pictures of the animal.
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I hate linking to their stupid site, but here's the thread link on PWL that initiated this: http://www.pornwikileaks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=69231
You've Got to be kidding me - God sends me a dove (Phillip) and I took care of it and then released it. I have one little dog and another bird (a love bird) which my apartment manager has known about since I've lived in this building (since July of 2008). Luckily I live in a building with really good people who know what I've been dealing with since exiting the porn industry and speaking out.
When I think of all the stress, anxiety, pain and anguish that this has caused me and others - I want to scream but God is watching.
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Hi ****
Here is a copy of the email we received. It came from the 'Contact Us' form from the building website.
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From: MF
Subject: Franklin Park Apartments
To: (removed)
Date: Thursday, May 26, 2011, 12:35 PM
Below is the result of your feedback form. It was submitted by
MF (MonicaF001@yahoo.com) on Thursday, May 26, 2011 at 15:35:07
Message: we have reason to believe (twitter comments) that *** in unit 118 is keeping several pets (birds, etc) in the apartment without paying the pet deposit of $250. she has just acquired a white dove and has tweeted several pictures of the animal.
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I hate linking to their stupid site, but here's the thread link on PWL that initiated this: http://www.pornwikileaks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=69231
You've Got to be kidding me - God sends me a dove (Phillip) and I took care of it and then released it. I have one little dog and another bird (a love bird) which my apartment manager has known about since I've lived in this building (since July of 2008). Luckily I live in a building with really good people who know what I've been dealing with since exiting the porn industry and speaking out.
When I think of all the stress, anxiety, pain and anguish that this has caused me and others - I want to scream but God is watching.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
When I first recorded this and reviewed it I thought that this broadcast was a bit - well for lack of better terms "out of the realm of understanding" for most - but though it is edited - it's actually not and it's exactly how I feel. Enjoy - and to my enemies - you made a huge mistake tonight.
After you watch this I suggest you get to know someone who affirmed to me that I'm fine being exactly as I am : Shirley MacLaine - here is a recent interview with her on Coast To Coast AM - it is excellent! Click here to listen (you probably have to be a member of the site to listen).
After you watch this I suggest you get to know someone who affirmed to me that I'm fine being exactly as I am : Shirley MacLaine - here is a recent interview with her on Coast To Coast AM - it is excellent! Click here to listen (you probably have to be a member of the site to listen).
Monday, May 23, 2011
There's something I feel the need to address tonight in written form - especially considering the content of my most recent broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com
The issue tonight I will be addressing is rape. Lately I've been having recurring nightmares about this incident again - so I feel that God is telling me that it's time for me to share this.
New Years Eve (2008 into 2009) I was raped in a bathroom of a loft/condo off Hollywood and Vine by a man by the name of Chase. I pushed this incident into the back of my mind and never blogged about it here (there are actually MANY things I have not blogged about here out of fear, and out of the selfishness of wanting to build a long term career for myself within the porn industry), but I am today.
I was invited out by Scott David of X-play / All Media Play to a party at Ecco Lounge - where I had a really good time. Then afterwards we went to an afterparty at the residence of a guy by the name of Robert Quinn in a beautiful loft/condo building off Hollywood and Vine. I wound up getting drunk - incredibly intoxicated in fact that night and wound up talking to a guy by the name of Chase in the bathroom. He seemed nice, friendly, etc - and I let my guard down being that he was a black guy (I've never had any black / African American males be aggressive with me in life - at least not up until that point).
Chase was talking about his son, and showed me a photo of his son from his wallet - and I told him that I thought he had a cute kid. Then he asked me if I did privates. He specifically used the term "privates" (meaning escorting/prostitution). I told him that I was working as a porn actress currently. Not even 5 seconds later Chase had me on the floor and raped me. I didn't know what to do because I'd never been pinned down like that before. It only took about a minute and I went into a mental shock/black out mode - I didn't know what to think, how to react or even what to do. When he got off of me, I got up, left the bathroom, tried to act normal and told Scott David what happened.
Scott became really angry and attempted to fight Chase - I yelled at Scott to stop (because I just wanted to get out of there asap) and we left the party.
After that night I didn't want to think about the event and I pushed it to the back of my mind. I know now thinking back that I should have gone to the police and to the hospital but I didn't and I'll tell you why. Shame - I knew that in the eyes of the law and in the eyes of anyone (in my view at the time) I would be seen in a negative light - especially being that I had sex for living as a "pornstar". I didn't want the issue to come up in the relationship I was in at the time, and I didn't want it to get around in the "porn industry" that I wasn't easy going. I wanted to just let the whole thing go.
In time I started having nightmares about the incident. I contacted Jeff Mullen / Will Ryder and asked him for Chase's number (I wasn't sure whether his name was Chase or Chance). He gave it to me and I called Chase and screamed at him and told him he'd better not ever do anything along the lines of what he did to me to anyone else ever again - then I hung up the phone. He called me back but I didn't answer the phone. That was a pointless thing to do, but it's all I had the courage to do at the time.
Chase is a piece of shit with a mentality the unfortunately isn't too uncommon for jerks like himself who are on the fringes of the porn industry. I'm not sure exactly how or why Chase was at that party, I don't think he works for any porn studios (at least I'd never seen him on any of the sets I'd worked on before) but he somehow tight with Jeff Mullen and his friend Robert Quinn. Men like Chase figure that simply because a woman does porn, it's OK to be sexual with her anytime anyplace whether she likes it or not. I truly wonder how many other women Chase has done this to who felt like I did at the time - ashamed and afraid.
It's most likely to late to do anything about the incident now, but I would like to track this fucker Chase down and at least file a formal complaint against him of some sort - so I'm going to investigate how to do so. It sickens me that men in the porn industry such as Jeff Mullen and several others maintain friendships with men like Chase who feel that it's OK to violate a woman's body and space.
As my reaffirmed relationship with God and Jesus Christ grows and strengthens, and I as develop more internal strength and courage, and as my mind clears of the poisonous energy I picked up through my interactions with certain individuals within the porn industry - I'm realizing that it's imperative that I share my experiences and tell the truth about the events I witnessed and the situations I was in over the past few years - because it might save other young women and men from suffering the same fate as myself.
Tonight when I tweeted via twitter that I'm actively searching for the contact info of this Chase jerk so I can at least try to file some sort of legal complaint against him - Jeff Mullen immediately sent me text messages stating that I am a "liar" and that he's "disappointed in me" and that "he's one of the good guys" and that I'm being "unChristian".
I decided to post photos of the texts I received tonight because I'm sick of people calling me a liar nowdays when I am being honest, telling the truth and not holding back (which I feel is nearly killing me).
I strongly advise that if you're considering entering porn, or if you currently are a porn talent (or even if you are not in porn) DO NOT work with X-Play / All Media Play because apparently Jeff Mullen not only attempts to portray depictions of children having sex in his movies as I outline in this youtube video here - he also maintains friendships with men who think it's OK to sexually attack women just because they may be sex workers to begin with.
I suppose this is what happens when you just can't live a lie and withhold the truth anymore. Tonight I'm just going to pray to God and Jesus Christ my lord and savior that things in my life will work out however it is that God has planned for me. I have to retain faith. I feel like I'm being attacked from all directions at this phase, but I truly believe that God is standing with me, and I know for a fact that nothing and no one can triumph over God.
I'm documenting all of this because I feel like there needs to be a record incase someone out there decides to attempt to hurt me. I'm not overly afraid, but I am aware.
***Update 1: I found out tonight from someone on twitter ( @xxxVIP ) that "he answers to Black Shrek. He shows up late to parties to scrounge for rufee'd porn girls." - hopefully law enforcement or someone will be able to put a stop to not only Chase - but this trend in the porn / adult entertainment industry.
****Update 2: I found out that Chase uses the last name Styles or Stylez and DEFINITELY answers to "Black Shrek"
The issue tonight I will be addressing is rape. Lately I've been having recurring nightmares about this incident again - so I feel that God is telling me that it's time for me to share this.
New Years Eve (2008 into 2009) I was raped in a bathroom of a loft/condo off Hollywood and Vine by a man by the name of Chase. I pushed this incident into the back of my mind and never blogged about it here (there are actually MANY things I have not blogged about here out of fear, and out of the selfishness of wanting to build a long term career for myself within the porn industry), but I am today.
I was invited out by Scott David of X-play / All Media Play to a party at Ecco Lounge - where I had a really good time. Then afterwards we went to an afterparty at the residence of a guy by the name of Robert Quinn in a beautiful loft/condo building off Hollywood and Vine. I wound up getting drunk - incredibly intoxicated in fact that night and wound up talking to a guy by the name of Chase in the bathroom. He seemed nice, friendly, etc - and I let my guard down being that he was a black guy (I've never had any black / African American males be aggressive with me in life - at least not up until that point).
Chase was talking about his son, and showed me a photo of his son from his wallet - and I told him that I thought he had a cute kid. Then he asked me if I did privates. He specifically used the term "privates" (meaning escorting/prostitution). I told him that I was working as a porn actress currently. Not even 5 seconds later Chase had me on the floor and raped me. I didn't know what to do because I'd never been pinned down like that before. It only took about a minute and I went into a mental shock/black out mode - I didn't know what to think, how to react or even what to do. When he got off of me, I got up, left the bathroom, tried to act normal and told Scott David what happened.
Scott became really angry and attempted to fight Chase - I yelled at Scott to stop (because I just wanted to get out of there asap) and we left the party.
After that night I didn't want to think about the event and I pushed it to the back of my mind. I know now thinking back that I should have gone to the police and to the hospital but I didn't and I'll tell you why. Shame - I knew that in the eyes of the law and in the eyes of anyone (in my view at the time) I would be seen in a negative light - especially being that I had sex for living as a "pornstar". I didn't want the issue to come up in the relationship I was in at the time, and I didn't want it to get around in the "porn industry" that I wasn't easy going. I wanted to just let the whole thing go.
In time I started having nightmares about the incident. I contacted Jeff Mullen / Will Ryder and asked him for Chase's number (I wasn't sure whether his name was Chase or Chance). He gave it to me and I called Chase and screamed at him and told him he'd better not ever do anything along the lines of what he did to me to anyone else ever again - then I hung up the phone. He called me back but I didn't answer the phone. That was a pointless thing to do, but it's all I had the courage to do at the time.
Chase is a piece of shit with a mentality the unfortunately isn't too uncommon for jerks like himself who are on the fringes of the porn industry. I'm not sure exactly how or why Chase was at that party, I don't think he works for any porn studios (at least I'd never seen him on any of the sets I'd worked on before) but he somehow tight with Jeff Mullen and his friend Robert Quinn. Men like Chase figure that simply because a woman does porn, it's OK to be sexual with her anytime anyplace whether she likes it or not. I truly wonder how many other women Chase has done this to who felt like I did at the time - ashamed and afraid.
It's most likely to late to do anything about the incident now, but I would like to track this fucker Chase down and at least file a formal complaint against him of some sort - so I'm going to investigate how to do so. It sickens me that men in the porn industry such as Jeff Mullen and several others maintain friendships with men like Chase who feel that it's OK to violate a woman's body and space.
As my reaffirmed relationship with God and Jesus Christ grows and strengthens, and I as develop more internal strength and courage, and as my mind clears of the poisonous energy I picked up through my interactions with certain individuals within the porn industry - I'm realizing that it's imperative that I share my experiences and tell the truth about the events I witnessed and the situations I was in over the past few years - because it might save other young women and men from suffering the same fate as myself.
Tonight when I tweeted via twitter that I'm actively searching for the contact info of this Chase jerk so I can at least try to file some sort of legal complaint against him - Jeff Mullen immediately sent me text messages stating that I am a "liar" and that he's "disappointed in me" and that "he's one of the good guys" and that I'm being "unChristian".
I decided to post photos of the texts I received tonight because I'm sick of people calling me a liar nowdays when I am being honest, telling the truth and not holding back (which I feel is nearly killing me).
I strongly advise that if you're considering entering porn, or if you currently are a porn talent (or even if you are not in porn) DO NOT work with X-Play / All Media Play because apparently Jeff Mullen not only attempts to portray depictions of children having sex in his movies as I outline in this youtube video here - he also maintains friendships with men who think it's OK to sexually attack women just because they may be sex workers to begin with.
I suppose this is what happens when you just can't live a lie and withhold the truth anymore. Tonight I'm just going to pray to God and Jesus Christ my lord and savior that things in my life will work out however it is that God has planned for me. I have to retain faith. I feel like I'm being attacked from all directions at this phase, but I truly believe that God is standing with me, and I know for a fact that nothing and no one can triumph over God.
I'm documenting all of this because I feel like there needs to be a record incase someone out there decides to attempt to hurt me. I'm not overly afraid, but I am aware.
***Update 1: I found out tonight from someone on twitter ( @xxxVIP ) that "he answers to Black Shrek. He shows up late to parties to scrounge for rufee'd porn girls." - hopefully law enforcement or someone will be able to put a stop to not only Chase - but this trend in the porn / adult entertainment industry.
****Update 2: I found out that Chase uses the last name Styles or Stylez and DEFINITELY answers to "Black Shrek"
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
It's not even 12pm here but it's been quite a long day already. I had the opportunity to attend and speak at an LA City Council meeting this morning - quite the anxiety filled experience (I have no problem chit chatting with hundreds of people live online - but offline...that's another story...I'm shy) - but at the same time a much needed experience. I'll detail it all later. For now enjoy last night's broadcast of Monica Foster @ Home.
In the beginning of the broadcast, I share my thoughts on Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross and the lack of balance between pro-porn and anti-porn groups. I address why I was an active participant in Not the Cosbys XXX 1 and 2 though I disagree with the character of "Rudy" played by Nina Devon which I feel depicts the sexualized image of a child.
I go over why watching adult content can lead a person to a false view of the type of partner they feel they should be with and unrealistic expectations of standards of beauty. I also touch on why I feel older men (especially those who work in the porn industry) are as obsessed with young women as they are, which I feel is due to their stunted unhealthy psychological state - a part of the reason as to why the porn industry is consistently active in recruiting women as young as possible (for both adult content AND for the men who work behind the scenes who are addicted to sex).
I give a live prayer session with my live viewers and pray for those affected by the Pornwikileaks issue.
Later in PART 2 of the broadcast I discuss the shady recruitment methods of porn industry "professionals" via social networking sites and possible extortion tactics within the porn and adult entertainment industry that people (espcially youngsters) should be aware of.
In the beginning of the broadcast, I share my thoughts on Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross and the lack of balance between pro-porn and anti-porn groups. I address why I was an active participant in Not the Cosbys XXX 1 and 2 though I disagree with the character of "Rudy" played by Nina Devon which I feel depicts the sexualized image of a child.
I go over why watching adult content can lead a person to a false view of the type of partner they feel they should be with and unrealistic expectations of standards of beauty. I also touch on why I feel older men (especially those who work in the porn industry) are as obsessed with young women as they are, which I feel is due to their stunted unhealthy psychological state - a part of the reason as to why the porn industry is consistently active in recruiting women as young as possible (for both adult content AND for the men who work behind the scenes who are addicted to sex).
I give a live prayer session with my live viewers and pray for those affected by the Pornwikileaks issue.
Later in PART 2 of the broadcast I discuss the shady recruitment methods of porn industry "professionals" via social networking sites and possible extortion tactics within the porn and adult entertainment industry that people (espcially youngsters) should be aware of.
Saturday, May 07, 2011
This week's broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)
Part 1
Part 2
On this particular broadcast of Monica @ Home I discuss my faith in God being reaffirmed, AIM (the primary STD testing facility for porn talents - www.aim-med.org) shutting down which has left the current active talent in a very dangerous situation without a primary STD testing facility (and verifiable database) along with an aspect of the porn industry that has been bothering me for quite some time: the depiction of children in adult content (which is against the law according to chapter 110 sections B and C of title 18 of the United States code which governs Child Pornography).
Monday, May 02, 2011
The evening of April 29th, 2011 after attending the Free Speech Coalition meeting (which I had a hell of a time making it to) and grabbing some dinner, a new friend decided to come and stay with me for a while. He appeared on my patio wall and wasn't in the mood to fly away, so I brought him in.
Phillip
God speaks to us in interesting ways.
Dove, Pigeon, Power Animal, Symbol of Peace, Love, Maternity, Gentleness, Spirit Messenger
Arrest Of Jesus
Possible proof that a law in regards to Child Pornography has been broken in Not the Cosbys XXX 2
(read the comments)
Phillip
God speaks to us in interesting ways.
Dove, Pigeon, Power Animal, Symbol of Peace, Love, Maternity, Gentleness, Spirit Messenger
Arrest Of Jesus
Possible proof that a law in regards to Child Pornography has been broken in Not the Cosbys XXX 2
(read the comments)
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