Monday, September 15, 2014

JEWACRE – EPISODE 01 : a cartoon about the porn industry featuring parody of Britney Spears

Jewacre concocts a plan to trick Britney into sleeping with pornstar Zander in effort to attain a celebrity sextape to release exclusively on  the website The Fake Pornwikileaks.  Throughout his efforts Jewacre has multiple flashbacks about the woman he's been obsessed with for over 20 years...anti-porn activist Sherry Rubin (formerly known as Roxy).

Episode 01 features parody of Britney Spears, David Lucado, Shelley Lubben, Callie Lee, Xander Corvus and many more public figures that you'll have to identify on your own...

Sunday, September 07, 2014

Jewacre - a new series that tells the truth of the adult film industry - from Porn Worth Watching


Welcome to the launch "Jewacre" - a new animated parody series from the mind of Alexandra Mayers (formerly known as Monica Foster).

Jewacre will relate much of the truth of the Los Angeles porn industry in an insightful, educational & comedic way. This series may get a bit vulgar at times, however the character it is built on was inspired by a man who has harassed, terrorized, stalked and bullied Alexandra for over 3 years...if you were to encounter this man, you would quickly realize that there is no amount of vulgarity an animated series can illustrate that compares to his actuality.

If you have followed the blogs of Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster over the years, then you know that much of what she's lived has taken her to the edge of sanity. In effort to continue her healing process, Alexandra has elected to utilize her artistic skills and uniquely dark sense of humor to relate in an easy to understand way exactly how the organized crime elements of the adult film industry nearly destroyed her and several others she's met on her journey into, and then later out of, porn.

Saturday, September 06, 2014

Breaking bonds and moving on..

Well, it seems (at least today) that my progress in regards to "Re-examining the darkness from the light" has reached the finish line far sooner than I'd anticipated.  Today I felt very clear and free of quite a few issues that have been weighing me down for years.

The other night I had an emotional episode that concluded with a realization in regards to the element of "trauma bonding" that I probably wasn't ready to face in the past.  Read my commentary here to get an idea as to what I'm referring to.

When people talk about "love", they really should be more specific, because there's "healthy love" vs. "dysfunctional love".  Unless you've experienced "healthy love" apart from the "dysfunctional" version, it's hard to know the difference.

My time in the porn industry was the final catalyst for a cycle that I needed to break - a cycle that I'd been trapped within for much of my life.  The porn industry enabled me to learn a lot about relationships, friendships, business, the seedy "underbelly" of society, and life in general.  I stand by my research and commentary in regards to the pornographic industry and would never suggest anyone enter that world.

However, the pornographic industry is not the ONLY "world" out there that can be a catalyst for someone stuck in a dysfunctional way of living and being.

I'm sure many will disagree with me on this, but I think one of the most selfish things a person can do, is to have children.  It's actually quite the narcissistic act.  Being that I feel this way, I think that it's a parent's obligation to be completely selfless in regards to their children once they're born and throughout their life. In other words, parents need to make responsible choices and live their life right the moment they have a baby.  They shouldn't enter dangerous situations or circumstances (or do stupid things in general). Parents are their children's LIFE LINE and from my perspective their life should be 100% about their children. No child makes the DECISION to be born - that's the parent's CHOICE (whether or not certain choices are really meant to be is debatable - I don't think anyone on Earth really knows the answer).

If you can't find it within yourself to be completely selfless when it comes to any children you're considering bringing into this world - DO NOT BREED.

I was thinking today about whether or not people I've had contact with in life would be better off had they never met me...if I'd never been born.   Don't get me wrong - I am NOT in a suicidal state of mind or anything...it's just something I was thinking about - and not just in regards to people that I love or like, but in regards to people I dislike, who are my enemies or who I've never even met as well.

I guess I was contemplating "the ripple effect".

Today in a brief conversation with Jesus Christ, I prayed for everyone I've ever come into contact with to simply to be happy if God see's that it should be that way.  I prayed that certain individuals completely forget that they ever met me.  I also asked Jesus Christ to approach God about removing me from any of life's equations which I wasn't designed to be a part of so that in time, I can slide into place where ever it is that I belong.

A part of the reason that I remain single and don't like to interact with many people personally nowadays is not so much due to my fear of getting hurt, but because I don't want to inadvertently hurt others anymore than I may have in the past.

I was created through what I believe to have been a very selfish energy.  I'm not the only one who has been, but I think acknowledging the reality of "selfish energy" is the first step. Today I broke my bond with a large portion of that energy, and I'm very happy about it.

Free will - God's greatest gift IMO.


Wednesday, September 03, 2014

Constructing an outlet for my anger regarding my realization that I was with a very bad man

As I stated in my previous blog, I'm allowing myself to re-evaluate in detail a relationship I was in while I was active in the porn industry.  I've received feedback from people who read my blogs about my decision to do this...some of it positive, some of it negative...

Regardless, I feel that in order for me to be able to fully heal and properly love (and respect) myself, I'm making the right decision to do what I'm doing.  So far, it's been painful but I feel I'm making progress.

One of the elements that really makes me angry in regards to the man I'm referring to, is that HE KNEW the realities of the pornographic industry and DID NOT TELL ME (and he had ample opportunity to do so, as I asked him questions about many issues in regards to the porn industry while I was with him).  This particular man had worked in the business for around 20 years - so he knew the truth VERY well, but he apparently was OK in regards to the abuse that occurs regularly in that world, which the public only recently has become aware of.

KNOWING NOW what I know, and KNOWING NOW what he knew - it disgusts me that I was with him.  I wasn't blind, I was naive - and he was predatory.  I'm completely incapable of understanding how any individual with a heart and soul could remain in that environment as long as he has without taking a stand in regards to the mistreatment of human beings.  That's the thing though - I suppose God didn't create me to be capable of understanding such a mindset (thankfully).

As of today I'm very ANGRY that people such as him exist.  I WISH HE DID NOT EXIST.

The man I'm referring to, from my perspective, is extraordinarily dangerous because he is able to keep up the appearance of being a "nice guy" and "harmless", but has no issue with turning a blind eye to the physical and spiritual abuse of human beings.  I'm starting to wonder exactly how involved (personally and directly) he has been in the destruction of other women who have crossed his path over the years.  It makes me literally shudder to think about.

In order to cope with the anger I've been feeling, I decided to construct a sort of distraction and outlet for my emotions.  I built www.MMAoutline.com - visit the site to learn what it's about.  At the end of the week I'm treating myself to my first UFC fight pass and I'm excited about it.

A part of me wishes I could beat the living hell out of the man I'm referring to in this blog, but it's really not my style to do such a thing (I've never been a physically violent person) - so watching MMA matches really helps me...I find it incredibly therapeutic.

Do I fantasize that the man I'm referring to in this blog posting is one of the contenders getting the crap beat out of him as I watch MMA? Absolutely...perhaps MMA is a sort of "porn" for women who are rather upset with certain men.  If you're a woman out there who's walked a path similar to mine - take a look at the world of MMA - you might find it INCREDIBLY appealing :)

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Re-examining the darkness from the light

I've made it known on my twitter that over the next few days, I will be re-examining and working through (in part publicly) my thoughts and feelings in regards to a man I knew while I was active in the pornographic industry. I've had several other relationships with men throughout my life that I have been able to properly move forward from, however, this particular man is someone I've never been able to completely get out of my system (and I'm hoping to completely figure out why).

In the past, when I've mentioned this man, certain people (who I label as my stalkers) have bullied me into silence about him.  I'm not allowing that to happen anymore, because there's something about that man and that time of my life that I know in my core needs to be addressed and resolved.

As of tonight, I attribute my lack of ability to clear this man from my thoughts being due to some issues and events surrounding the relationship that were extraordinarily abnormal on a multitude of levels.  As I've stated in my blog several times in the past, one of the most difficult things one must do in life, is to look at THEMSELVES and at their PAST honestly.  I've reached a point in my self imposed healing process to where I feel brave enough to really THINK about and EVALUATE some of the memories in regards to the man I'm referring to.  I'm hoping God will provide me with some answers as well.

I will share a lot about whatever I realize, but I doubt I will share everything.  Research "trauma-bonding" - here's a link to get your started: http://avalancheofthesoul.wordpress.com/2014/02/22/what-abusers-hope-we-never-learn-about-trauma-bonding/

Abuse isn't always physical or "in your face" psychological.  I've come to understand that my "scars" from abuse have manifested in my actions and choices.  I don't believe abusers always realize that they abuse.  Other times people who are on the receiving end of abuse don't realize that they're being abused.  I feel that there are instances to where people have been in unhealthy and/or dysfunctional relationships (or maybe just ways of living) for so long that they have no concept of what "normal" or "healthy" really is - so they become desensitized.  I think it's even possible for people to habitually and KNOWINGLY REJECT a healthy or normal relationship for a dysfunctional one, because the dysfunction FEELS more FAMILIAR than anything else (I believe, in part, what's happened to me).

I hate already being 35 years old and just now identifying some of these issues, but I subscribe to the philosophy of "better late than never".  I'm glad I don't have any children at this time, and I hope I get through this process relatively quickly.  I believe I've reached my final step in closing the book on a phase of my life I began in early 2008.

I know my sharing my thoughts as I do is strange to certain people in my life (or who I may never have met).  I do it because I don't believe that I have been (or will be) the only woman in the world to have dealt with some of the situations, people and events which I have.  I find it comforting to think that my blogs just might give someone else out there a reference point as to where they are on the map of life.

Yes, my blogs are selfless - yet selfish. Funny how that is...isn't it.


Saturday, August 16, 2014

I am angry.

In this blog, I will admit that I am VERY ANGRY.  I'm angry because on many levels I've been victimized, but I'm more angry that I haven't fought back as hard as I should have for many years to regain my personal power.  Tonight I went on a "twitter rant" and I believe it was my first solid step in releasing the anger I've been carrying due to many things I've noticed within the world that I've felt the need to restrain myself from sharing.

My views and observations are simply that of what I've experienced in my 35 years on this planet.  I don't expect everyone (or anyone for that matter) to agree with me.  I don't need anyone to.  I don't expect a shred of support. I understand completely how I will be labeled as prejudice, intolerant, unforgiving, hateful, etc... and I'M FINE WITH IT.

I see how in many instances it's better to keep your opinions to yourself - especially if you want to be monetarily "successful" and "fit in" in this world.  I just wasn't created to be that way and I will not apologize for it.

I don't have an issue with taking responsibility for or being punished for anything I've genuinely done that's been wrong and without just cause because I'm not the type of person to do anything wrong without just cause.  It's not in my nature.  HOWEVER I HAVE A MAJOR PROBLEM WITH BEING TOLD THAT I AM WRONG ABOUT ISSUES, EVENTS & INDIVIDUALS THAT I KNOW I AM CORRECT ABOUT.

When I don't understand something, I look for an answer and I ASK for an answer.  I have ALWAYS questioned things that I don't understand which is what's led me to become an independent researcher on a variety of issues.  It's the pursuit of the truth that turns me on more so than anything in this world. I LOVE learning systems and how things work - that's how I was created to be.

Within the United States of America (and maybe the world as a whole), people are being encouraged at an ever increasing rate NOT to question how things work.  I feel that people in general are being told to just sit down, shut up and be accepting of whatever is given to us by whoever is in power.

I'm not OK with that.  I don't feel God designed me and sent Jesus Christ to die for me to tolerate such an attitude.

I don't expect many people to relate to how I think, or be as I am - it's far easier not to. When it comes down to it, I'd rather be cast out from much of society and viewed as "a problem", than to not have shared my perspective or opinion.  

Maybe rather than saying to yourself "oh, she's just a typical ANGRY BLACK WOMAN" - maybe you should question, "How did the stereotype of ANGRY BLACK WOMEN ever come to be?  What and who exactly prompted certain Black women to BECOME so angry?"  

I'd say that this blog which goes back to 2007 will tell you the answer...at least in part.

Wednesday, August 06, 2014

Do the Right Thing - an update on the defamation / libel lawsuit filed against me.

do the right thing 02In regards to the lawsuit I'm currently contending with, in late July I took note of how the opposing counsel appeared to be baiting me (via the location of a required Early Court Conference) into violating the terms of a Protection Order requested by the opposing party.

The Protection Order was issued through the Nevada courts against me by default (I was unable to attend the hearing), and the order request was based solely on non-direct Tweets & a piece of artistic parody (a First Amendment issue).

In response, I filed an Early Court Conference Report outlining the situation.  A few days later, the opposing counsel AGAIN has attempted to coerce me into violating the CLEARLY STATED TERMS of the Protection Order - a violation which would result in my being charged with a FELONY (which would result in my imprisonment from one to twenty years).

Objection To Notice of Early Case Conference 

Objection To Notice of Early Case Conference exhibit A

Objection To Notice of Early Case Conference exhibits B - J

Objection To Notice of Early Case Conference exhibit F

Download the following court documents above (in their entirety) to learn about the situation.

This is a perfect example as to how individuals are routinely silenced at all costs (even by "legitimate" attorneys) when they speak out in regards to situations such as organized crime & civil rights in our society (in my particular situation, I've been in activist in regards to informing the public and individuals in government positions about why certain legislation should be enforced and passed to protect the health and safety of adult film performers).

The Protection Order which was issued to me clearly states:

“You are prohibited, either directly or through an agent, from contacting, intimidating, using, attempting to use, or threatening the use of physical force or otherwise interfering in any way with Applicant [redacted] and/or the following persons: [redacted], [redacted], [redacted] including, but not limited to, in person, by telephone, through the mail, through electronic mail (e-mail), text messaging, facsimile, or through another person”.

It is NOT good enough (or legally binding) for the opposing counsel to simply state that they would not consider my attendance or communication with them as a breech of the Protection Order terms.  The opposing counsel DOES NOT have such authority.  ONLY A JUDGE of the NEVADA, UNITED STATES OF AMERICA COURT system has the authority to define (and change) the terms of the Protection Order issued against me (if they determine they should do so).

As of current, the Protection Order's terms completely prevent me from participating in the Civil Court Judicial process - therefor through legal means, I am experiencing an Obstruction of Justice. do the right thing 

Below you can see exactly who in (and attached) to the Los Angeles, California pornographic industry had interest in coercing me into being charged with a felony: porn director Jeff Mullen aka Will Ryder, porn camera man Matthew Holder and porn disinformation figure Ari Bass aka Michael Whiteacre.

Jeff Mullen aka Will Ryder, Matthew Holder, Ari Bass aka Michael Whiteacre 

If you are an adult film industry performer - I strongly encourage you to avoid Jeff Mullen and Matthew Holder.  At one point in time I made the mistake of viewing both men as individuals who were decent human beings who I could trust.  Matthew Holder in particular... at one point in time I believed I loved him very much.      

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster interviews Olympic silver medalist Josh Mance

Alexandra Mayers interviews Olympic Athlete Josh Mance about TMZ, Skin Diamond, Racism & more!
Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster interviews Olympic silver medalist Josh Mance about his recent encounter with media gossip outlet TMZ, pornstar Skin Diamond, a situation involving racism he experienced on his 21st birthday that was heavily covered by mainstream news, his life as an Olympic athlete and his "fetish" for older women.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Is Porn industry attorney Ronald D. Green attempting to frame Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster as a stalker? The evidence.

***UPDATE: The stalkers Alexandra Mayers named in this legal issue obtained the Early Court Conference Report Alexandra filed in regards to this issue and posted it on the porn news gossip blog they operate - but not in it's entirety or with truthful commentary. Download the complete papers & the exhibits here.

As many who follow the pornographic industry news know, Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster is currently being sued by a client represented by pornographic industry attorney Ronald D. Green of Randazza Legal Group in Las Vegas, Nevada.  The client is the wife of Ronald D. Green's business partner and employer.

Since Ronald D. Green and his client filed the lawsuit in April of 2014  (which they unsuccessfully attempted to settle out of court a few days later), it appears Green has been abusing the legal system to fight Alexandra Mayers' constitutional rights to represent herself and defend herself in court. Due to the financial difficulty Alexandra Mayers is currently facing, to defend herself in the lawsuit the Nevada courts granted her In Forma Pauperis status (a "fee waiver" for her court filings).  Ronald D. Green immediately filed an opposition to Mayers' In Forma Pauperis in May of 2014.

On June 2, 2014 Ronald D. Green's employer and partner at Randazza Legal Group filed for a protective order against Alexandra Mayers based on public tweets (which were not sent to him directly) that he perceived as threats against himself, wife and family.   Though Alexandra Mayers never contacted Ronald D. Green's employer and partner at Randazza Legal Group or his family via telephone, has never met him in person and asked him on multiple occasions to cease communication with her via email (he habitually emailed her - click here for details)  he felt the need to attain a protective order against her which specifically stated that she should be ordered to not visit the offices of Randazza Legal Group. 

Alexandra Mayers was unable to attend the protective order hearing on July 25, 2014 - so the protective order was granted by default to Ronald D. Green's partner and employer at Randazza Legal Group.

On July 22, 2014 Ronald D. Green submitted a Notice for an Early Case Conference to the courts and sent a certified copy of the notice to Alexandra Mayers.  HOWEVER, though Ronald D. Green was well aware that his partner and employer filed for a protective order against Alexandra Mayers as of June 2nd, 2014 - which INCLUDED the business address for Randazza Legal Group, the Early Case Conference paperwork which Ronald D. Green sent and signed HIMSELF lists Randazza Legal Group's office as the location for the conference (as you can see below).ronald d green randazza legal group after protective order 01 ronald d green randazza legal group after protective order 02

There is no way that Ronald D. Green did not know about the protective order that his employer and partner filed against Alexandra Mayers - so what exactly is Ronald D. Green doing?  Is he simply an inept attorney? Is he attempting to frame Alexandra Mayers as a stalker? Is this a method to obstruct justice? Or does Ronald D. Green have the agenda of painting Alexandra Mayers in the false light of being a threat to children due to the fact that in actuality Ronald D. Green's employer and business partner is an EXTREME THREAT TO CHILDREN considering his essay in the DEFENSE of a book entitled "The Pedophile's Guide" AND his professional association and affiliation with INTERNATIONALLY KNOWN CONVICTED PEDOPHILE August Kurt Brackob aka Kurt Treptow.

Was it Ronald D. Green impersonating his client in the electronic communication Alexandra Mayers received in late January - which is what led to this lawsuit?  It seems likely.

This is not the first time Ronald D. Green has been caught essentially committing fraud on the courts.  Independent Investigative blogger Crystal Cox (who recently won through a Federal Appeals court the same free speech protections for bloggers as traditional journalist) alleges that Ronald D. Green deliberately lied in  regards to her legal issues and stated he "flat out lies about his targets, distorts laws and makes things up purely to intentionally harm his victims".  Click here to read about the situation in detail. 

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Sex Trafficking News - www.SexTraffickingNews.com


Please take a look at my newest awareness project:

www.SexTraffickingNews.com

The pornographic industry currently promotes, is directly connected to & is built on organized crime and sextrafficking.  http://www.SexTraffickingNews.com addresses the truths of the matter.
I believe that for ANY elements of the United States pornographic industry to successfully proceed into the future, their ties to organized crime and sex (human) trafficking must be severed completely.

Monday, July 07, 2014

Where Monica Foster ends... Alexandra Mayers begins.

Buckle up and prepare for the real ride.
Make sure you follow @AlexandraMayers on twitter if you don't already.



Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Completion

*Update: The afternoon after I posted this, click here to learn what else the pornographic industry threw at me for BEING MYSELF and exercising my legal & spiritual RIGHTS

*Update 6.19.2014: Today I achieved my first legal victory against Marc Randazza - he failed to succeed in getting what he wanted from a judge in court today.

*Update 7.01.2014: Today my Motion for Dismissal wasn't granted, however I was successful in getting everything on court record via my paperwork which needed to be.  Before the case began, I already won by allowing Jesus Christ in my life to restore & save my soul. I may not make it much longer, so please CLICK HERE to read my latest thoughts and evidence of the gangstalking (organized stalking) I've endured in a blog post I've entitled "Being in Porn Can Kill You, but Speaking Out About It is the Deadliest Part" .

I found the answers I was looking for. Click here to read the truth of how far the corruption goes in regards to the pornographic industry and politics: http://pornnewstoday.com/pnt/?p=7683

If I died at this moment, I'd be OK with it. Everything (even elements I didn't anticipate) came full circle and I completed the puzzle.

My court date is July 1st, 2014. I don't even care as to the outcome. Anyone "fighting" me, in actuality is just fighting themselves.

I've been fortunate enough to do just about every single thing I've always wanted to do in life.  I even have had the opportunity to do music...just recently...and you know what's funny? I don't ever need anyone to hear it. I just wanted the chance to do it.

Friday, May 16, 2014

A chart and image map of the lawsuits I'm facing - the TRUTH of the porn industry & organized crime

This is a chart and image map of the lawsuits I'm facing. It is the TRUTH of the porn industry and organized crime.
click to enlarge and download
I am not mentally ill. I am not crazy. I am not a failure.

I am an intelligent woman who's brain is wired differently than most people's. I see things that escapes many, and I do my best to convey the best way I know how what I've noticed and experienced.

I have documented the history (to my knowledge) and my interactions with the above individuals: Diane Duke of the Free Speech Coalition, Sean Tompkins of TheRealPornWikiLeaks (TRPWL), Matthew Holder, Ari Bass aka Michael Whiteacre, Will Ryder aka Jeff Mullen, Marc Randazza of Randazza Legal Group, August Kurt Brackob aka Kurt Treptow and Julie Meadows aka Lydia Ann Lee on my various websites all linked through www.MindOfMonica.com (namely www.PornNewsToday.com, www.PornstarHookerAlert.com, www.MonicaAtHome.com & www.SexTraffickingNews.com).

Take a look at who's pulled pleadings in regards to this lawsuit . Jeff Mullen, Mathew Holder, Ari Bass - this will be on court record.