Monday, December 31, 2012

Alexandra aka Monica Foster live on webcam

Alexandra aka Monica Foster live on webcam from here on out. Have a wonderful 2013 - links to me can be found on

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Redesigned and Relaunched my Official Monica Foster website

Just a note to let you all know that I've redesigned and relaunched my Official website just in time for the New Year!

See you all LIVE on webcam from here on out!

Thursday, December 27, 2012

An AMAZING new beginning - buckle up.

At some point, the wishbone will break, and when it does I'll be holding the larger half. 

Estrellas De Porno - a Spanish adult entertainment blog examines Christian Pornstar

The Spanish adult entertainment blog decided to cover my Christian awareness website 

You will have to translate the blog posting from Spanish to English (and if you use Google Chrome like I do, you will automatically be given the option). I really enjoyed the write up which is by porn blogger Rock Pepe, and to make it even better, he posted it on Christmas :)

Click here to visit Rock's site and to read the posting:

I will be back live on webcam daily now that the Christmas holiday is over - you can find links directly to me on

Monday, December 24, 2012

Friday, December 14, 2012

Live on webcam for sexy Monica Foster shows all weekend !

I hope you all had a mind expanding 12-12-12 this past Wednesday :)

Links to my live cam can be found on:

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

Living my life...

2 artists of which I intensely relate to as of current are T.I. and Rihanna ...
here's a taste of things to come...

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Monica At Home has a new look

My website has a new look - check it out!

I will be live on webcam the rest of the week! Find links to me on

Remember my latest coffee table book "Perfect For Porn" is available on - it makes a perfect gift for the Holidays! Pick up a few copies for your friends!

Also don't forget to visit daily for my quirky adult related news commentaries :)

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Wednesday, November 07, 2012


The future of which I'd hoped for has manifested. Measure B (a ballot measure of which mandates condom usage in adult filming in California) has passed and Barack Obama has been elected President of the United States for a second term.

I couldn't be happier (well, actually if I could manage to find a great boyfriend again I'd be happier, but I understand that God doesn't usually give us everything at once).

My news sites and will be back online and functional later this evening - they are currently undergoing a system migration due to their growing popularity and the high amount of traffic the sites attract.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Monica Foster Christian Pornstar edition : Measure B, Hookers For Jesus, Joyce Meyer and more

On this webcast of Monica Foster at Home, Christian Pornstar edition, Monica discusses Annie of Hookers For Jesus and her fantastic book recommendation "Battlefield of the Mind" by Joyce Meyer along with the importance of Californians voting YES on Measure B.

Later in the broadcast Monica announces her latest book, a coffee table book which tells the truth of the Los Angeles pornographic and adult entertainment industry "Perfect for Porn" volume 1 - which is now available on (the only book of it's kind) and then concludes by sharing how thankful and peace she feels to be away from the Los Angeles porn industry and their influence.

Monday, October 22, 2012

My new coffee table book "Perfect For Porn" is available on

I'm excited to announce that my new coffee table book "Perfect For Porn" (volume 1) is available for sale as of today on Amazon (click here to purchase: ).

This book will not only make the perfect Christmas gift to someone who enjoys humor based on the harsh realities of life, but it also is the perfect tool to deter ANYONE from embarking on a career path within or attached to the Los Angeles porn industry.

The back and front covers of Perfect For Porn - the coffee table book
I've decided to only sell this as a paperback book. This is a book that's meant to actually sit on your coffee table, not inside your Ipad or Kindle.

Monica Foster - Christian Pornstar : October 21, 2012

On this webcast of Monica Foster at Home : Christian Pornstar edition - Monica discusses dating after a career in the adult entertainment industry, the importance of voting YES on the November 2012 Measure B ballot, Aurora Snow taking a stand on behalf of herself and her pornstar peers who will be voting YES on measure B and Monica concludes with the announcement of her upcoming coffee table book "Perfect for Porn" and the re-launch of

Friday, October 12, 2012

Why I've continued to fight against the LA porn industry

Many people wonder why I've continued to fight against and bring awareness to the LA porn industry - the answer is simple - BULLIES.

The blog I've maintained: chronicles exactly how the LA porn industry bullies people who speak out and/or leave - and who specifically is doing it.

The goal of these bullies? To drive you into 1 of 3 things: silence, self-destruction and/or suicide.

I've chosen to do none of the 3, so the bullies I've dealt with since 2010 have quite a lot to think about.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

I'm enjoying life.

I figured this week would be interesting, but I honestly didn't anticipate it to be as enjoyable as it's been so far...

I suppose being that I've eliminated all "points of entry", someone (somewhere out there) is stuck in a very uncomfortable position.

To that someone: YOU DO HAVE OPTIONS to get out of your predicament. Unfortunately  every option is along the lines of having to saw off one (if not more) of your own limbs.

Too sad...

In the meantime the song below illustrates perfectly my state of mind :)

Monday, October 08, 2012

October has always been a turning point - which leads to freedom

For some reason, October has always been a turning point (or maybe more like a "realization" point) in my life, and this year is no different than the previous ones...

When I lived in Los Angeles - something around this time of year (one particular year) very strange occurred. I didn't understand the significance of it at the time, but now I do.

I've harbored a lot of anger towards one particular person from my "Los Angeles past" for a while... primarily because I loved that particular person very much.  He let me go... and now I know why and I'm very grateful that he did - so I forgive him and have let him go. I do hope oneday however, that he frees himself.

If you cut to the about the 15 minute mark of this video you will understand what I'm referring to.

Saturday, October 06, 2012

It's almost Time to Take Notice

"Our heirs, whatever or whoever they may be, will explore space and time to degrees we cannot currently fathom. They will create new melodies in the music of time. There are infinite harmonies to be explored." - Clifford Pickover

coming sooner than you think...

Have a great weekend everyone - catch me on webcam all weekend!

Visit to connect.

Monday, October 01, 2012

Monica Foster - Christian Pornstar broadcast - PornstarHookerAlert is closed due to the attack on Barack Obama's mother

On this webcast of Christian Pornstar, Monica Foster shares that she has closed (a site which is now up for sale), due to her anger towards whatever individual or group has attempted to label Barack Obama's mother as a pornstar.

Monica Foster also shares her thoughts on not allowing others to steal your time, on walking your own path in life, and on taking responsibility for your own choices as you mature. Monica feels that at times in life though we as humans may be heavily influenced by others, as we grow and evolve we should acknowledge and account for our mistakes and we consistently make efforts to improve.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Closing tomorrow at 5pm

Tomorrow at 5pm I am closing permanently - if you'd like details as to why you can click here:

As far as what has prompted my decision (and what has pushed me over my limit) - click here:

To whatever individual or group is behind that attack on Barack Obama and his family...I've seen many people do incredibly stupid things throughout my life - but this particular move is BY FAR the STUPIDEST and most DESPICABLE that I've EVER witnessed (and I truly pray that an excruciatingly PAINFUL return befalls whoever is involved).

As of today there are several individuals and groups that I will never communicate with or acknowledge ever again. What was done to me personally and my family was unacceptable (and I believe it was a test for what has just occurred in regards to Obama and his mother) - however now a barrier has been breached of which there's no return from - this is quite possibly the biggest and most pathetic "fuck up" in American history.

My eyes have been opened.

Update 10/09/2012: I have decided that until is sold - the database will remain publicly accessible. Enjoy :)

Live on webcam this weekend

I will be live on webcam this weekend for private shows! Find me on or visit for additional private webcam show options!

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Christian Pornstar - Monica Foster on the dangers of porn & Satanism in Porn Valley

In this Christian Pornstar webcast Monica Foster discusses the dangers and realities of the Los Angeles porn industry, the hypocrisy of Jessica Drake of Wicked Pictures and the Satanic presence within the Los Angeles porn industry (and the proof considering softcore porn director Alan Robert's recent anti-islamic film which prompted riots in Libya and Egypt which have resulted in deaths).
Monica concludes the broadcast with thoughts on Paschal Beverly Randolph (a Christian Rosicrucian pioneer who was an adviser to Abraham Lincoln) and the cult leader who stole his work (of which many porn professionals follow) Aleister Crowley

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Psalm 35 - Of David

I read this Psalm this morning - it was exactly what I needed to read.

Psalm 35

Of David.

Contend, Lord, with those who contend with me;
    fight against those who fight against me.
Take up shield and armor;
    arise and come to my aid.
Brandish spear and javelin[a]
    against those who pursue me.
Say to me,
    “I am your salvation.
May those who seek my life
    be disgraced and put to shame;
may those who plot my ruin
    be turned back in dismay.
May they be like chaff before the wind,
    with the angel of the Lord driving them away;
may their path be dark and slippery,
    with the angel of the Lord pursuing them.
Since they hid their net for me without cause
    and without cause dug a pit for me,
may ruin overtake them by surprise—
    may the net they hid entangle them,
    may they fall into the pit, to their ruin.
Then my soul will rejoice in the Lord
    and delight in his salvation.
10 My whole being will exclaim,
    “Who is like you, Lord?
You rescue the poor from those too strong for them,
    the poor and needy from those who rob them.”
11 Ruthless witnesses come forward;
    they question me on things I know nothing about.
12 They repay me evil for good
    and leave me like one bereaved.
13 Yet when they were ill, I put on sackcloth
    and humbled myself with fasting.
When my prayers returned to me unanswered,
14     I went about mourning
    as though for my friend or brother.
I bowed my head in grief
    as though weeping for my mother.
15 But when I stumbled, they gathered in glee;
    assailants gathered against me without my knowledge.
    They slandered me without ceasing.
16 Like the ungodly they maliciously mocked;[b]
    they gnashed their teeth at me.
17 How long, Lord, will you look on?
    Rescue me from their ravages,
    my precious life from these lions.
18 I will give you thanks in the great assembly;
    among the throngs I will praise you.
19 Do not let those gloat over me
    who are my enemies without cause;
do not let those who hate me without reason
    maliciously wink the eye.
20 They do not speak peaceably,
    but devise false accusations
    against those who live quietly in the land.
21 They sneer at me and say, “Aha! Aha!
    With our own eyes we have seen it.”
22 Lord, you have seen this; do not be silent.
    Do not be far from me, Lord.
23 Awake, and rise to my defense!
    Contend for me, my God and Lord.
24 Vindicate me in your righteousness, Lord my God;
    do not let them gloat over me.
25 Do not let them think, “Aha, just what we wanted!”
    or say, “We have swallowed him up.”
26 May all who gloat over my distress
    be put to shame and confusion;
may all who exalt themselves over me
    be clothed with shame and disgrace.
27 May those who delight in my vindication
    shout for joy and gladness;
may they always say, “The Lord be exalted,
    who delights in the well-being of his servant.”
28 My tongue will proclaim your righteousness,
    your praises all day long.

And this is exactly what I needed to hear:

Friday, September 07, 2012

The truth of what many LA porn industry people attempt to practice

This will be a bit hard for some of you to handle, but just as you should know the truth of the good, you need to know the truth of what the good has to go to battle against. Thanks Makalesi for breaking it down.

Fortunately being that the Los Angeles porn industry magick practitioners & satanists are idiots and follow Crowley rather than the source of which Crowley's entire "religion" is based on (PB Randolph) - there's not much to worry about. No one who follows Crowley EVER succeeds because he corrupted the source and has it all wrong (here's a clue as to can't artificially create LOVE).

I will discuss this subject matter in detail on this Sunday's webcast of  at 3pm PST on

Thursday, September 06, 2012

Monica Foster of Christian Pornstar - Syphilis, Mr. Marcus, Paul Ryan, Deneeta Pope & Racism

Monica Foster hosts another Christian Pornstar webcast of which she discusses with her live audience the current status of the Los Angeles porn industry Syphilis outbreak, Mr Marcus (who is at the center of the Syphilis issue), porn professionals taking responsibility for their actions, racism in the los angeles porn industry, racism in politics ( Paul Ryan unjustifiably opening a door of severe public scrutiny to private citizen Deneeta Pope who happens to be Black / African-American) and lastly discusses Diane Duke - president of the Free Speech Coalition who was just elected as FSC CEO for another 3 years.

Monica Foster concludes with her findings as to Morality In Media's essential theft of Desi Foxx's sex trafficking research (they have failed to give her credit for her hard work) and a prayer for those in and/or leaving the Los Angeles porn industry.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Comedy from Despair

I've done all I've been able to in regards to trying to find and share the truth in regards to Pornwikileaks, find restitution and justice for my family and find answers as to why those of which I KNOW were actively behind the venture have walked away without facing ANY legal consequences and are still freely able to make my life hell (while receiving support and positive validation for doing so).

No one believes me - that's what hurts the most. No one caring is what hurts just a bit more.

I hope some of you who've thrived on laughing at me, while at times I've barely been able to breathe over the past couple of years, have a certain reaction to this:

There may be more to come - or they may not...depends on how I feel.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Comedian Lahna Turner of The Perfect 10 podcast - Porn News Today Exclusive Interview

Click here for a link to my article on Lahna Turner and her podcast on

Comedian Lahna Turner of The Perfect 10 Podcast (which also features her husband - comedian Ralphie May) chats with Monica Foster of about her new webcast which features a segment called "Cooking With Pornstars" and her new mockumentary project which has the theme of "porn for married people with kids".

Sunday, August 26, 2012

ALL of my websites are for sale

All of my websites (including the attached social networking accounts) are for sale - either individually or bundled together. Just make a fair offer via email: monicaf001 at yahoo dot com

A listing of all my websites can be found on

As a side note, I plan to "drop off the map" entirely as of 01/01/2013.

I realized today that the last few years of my life have been a complete waste. I've come to realize that the only way I'll ever have a chance at building a real life for myself and finding someone to start a family of my own with is by completely disconnecting from any and everything I've created over the past decade.

If you are a friend or acquaintance of mine, as of today you will no longer be hearing from me. Unfortunately any and everyone I currently know reminds me of my past and I've decided that I don't want to feel the pain attached to the memories any more.

All that really matters in life is finding someone who loves you and who you can love equally in return. I need to find what I feel really matters in order to finally be HAPPY. Many from my past have had the intention of BLOCKING and/or HINDERING me from finding HAPPINESS. Why that is, I'm not certain, but I'm not allowing it to happen anymore.

I have been lied to, manipulated, degraded, abused, and used for the majority of my life and I HAVE HAD ENOUGH. It all stops NOW.

To conclude, I will leave certain readers of this blog with this warning... If I do not find the happiness I seek within a reasonable amount of time, I guarantee I will hunt down each and every individual who has ever even in the SLIGHTEST way fucked me over and I will make your life and the life of your family 100 times more miserable than you've ever made mine. I will fuck over your life to such a degree that you will end it by your own hand. I suggest to all my enemies (whether I know of you or not) to pray that I find happiness - because your future greatly depends on mine.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Christian Pornstar - Syphilis in the Porn Industry, a prayer for Shy Love & websites for sale

On this Monica Foster at Home ( Christian Pornstar edition) webcast, Monica gives an update on the current Syphilis (a curable but potentially deadly sexually transmitted disease STD) outbreak which has forced the Los Angeles porn industry to essentially shut down. Monica Foster also shares her concern for a porn agent named Shy Love, who has made mistakes in the past, but has done the right thing in regards to notifying the public and press about a pornstar of which she recently represented who may be the source of the current Los Angeles porn industry Syphilis outbreak (which has had national news coverage and has affected the porn industry as a whole).

Monica encourages her viewers to say a short prayer for Shy Love being that her choice to speak out and take action in effort to protect the health of Los Angeles porn industry performers has brought criticism, bullying, negativity, hate, stress and death threats upon her from her industry peers.

Monica feels that Shy Love needs support and encouragement from the public to change for the better and continue to do the right thing so that Jesus Christ assist in delivering her from the dangers of the Los Angeles porn industry - especially considering that she's a mother and currently pregnant.

Monica also shares that her websites and are for sale to anyone with good intention looking to establish themselves within the world of adult entertainment.

Tuesday, August 07, 2012

Monica Foster at Home - closing statements on life, Christian Pornstar & the porn industry & more

Monica specifically discusses Gabby Douglas, Paris Jackson, TJ Jackson, Kim Kardashian, and her interview with Nick Manning - a male pornstar who she feels misrepresented himself spiritually and who may be associated with individuals (possibly people associated with Scientology / Scientologists) who attempted to utilize and exploit the Christian Pornstar awareness movement to further their professional presence.

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Monica Foster At Home - Christian Pornstar edition - a prayer for Tanner Mayes and the truth about Los Angeles porn

Monica Foster At Home - Christian Pornstar edition - a prayer for Tanner Mayes and the truth about Los Angeles porn

Webcam model, author, artist and online media mogul Monica Foster says a special prayer for pornstar Tanner Mayes who appears to have hit a rough time of her life. Monica explains her latest project Pornstar Hooker Alert and shares about how the foundation of the Los Angeles porn industry is illegal prostitution and escorting. Monica also introduces her latest project Perfect For Porn.

Sunday, July 22, 2012

Check out my newest website:

I just launched another new website called Perfect For Porn - take the quiz on the site to find out if you're right for a career in the porn industry!

Wednesday, July 04, 2012

Monica Foster interviews Nick Manning - and he's a Christian Pornstar !!!

***Update: Sources close to Nick Manning have disclosed that he mis-represented himself to Monica Foster and most likely in effort to gain publicity - it seems he in actuality is following Scientology as of current. Please view the most recent Monica At Home broadcast for further detail. Porn News Today & Christian Pornstar no longer endorse or have any affiliation with Nick Manning or his associates.
[I thought] I found a Christian Pornstar - and it's superstar Nick Manning !!!!! Read the article on which goes with this interview by clicking here.

Sunday, July 01, 2012

A new webcast from Monica Foster & Desi Foxx - Porn In the Valley

Please enjoy the premier webcast of Porn In The Valley featuring Monica Foster and Desi Foxx - are you ready for the truth about the Los Angeles porn industry? Probably not but here it is...(excuse the technical difficulties with Skype)

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Check out the preview for the new Monica Foster & Desi Foxx joint webcast: Porn In The Valley

Enjoy the preview I put together for the joint webcast featuring myself and Desi Foxx ... Porn In The Valley !

Friday, June 22, 2012

Monica Foster on Christian Pornstar - racism, sell outs within ethnic groups and dichotomy.

Monica Foster begins this Christian Pornstar segment with a prayer, explains her newest venture to assist law enforcement and sex trafficking organizations ( PornStar Hooker Alert), addresses the issue of racism within the Los Angeles porn industry, explains that it's often "sell outs" of particular ethnic groups that perpetuate racism in any industry and lastly discusses the concept of dichotomy within humans and how she feels everyone innately embodies both the light and the dark (it's our free will which determines which side we align ourselves with).

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Destroying the root of what tried to silence me.

This weekend some solid proof has surfaced that porn IS the gateway to illegal escorting. I will be posting this proof and research in the form of an article on both and my upcoming site which is set to launch next weekend

A woman was recently arrested who appears to have essentially entered the Los Angeles porn industry to increase her rate and status as a prostitute. This woman's arrest enabled me to research and compile data which links the agencies of which she was associated with as an prostitute, to the agency of which she's associated with as a pornstar. While researching this situation, I also realized and will bring to light some details in regards a popular pornstar who died not too long ago named Hunter Bryce (allegedly via a drug overdose).

In my view the research of this issue, which I will post tomorrow, proves further that the Los Angeles porn industry is beyond dangerous and must be swept clean of every single illegal escort and prostitution ring operator along with their associates (which is the goal of my new website  These criminals must all be convicted, brought to justice and jailed (or deported).

The Los Angeles porn industry's STD testing system is pointless and it's time for the general public to know THE TRUTH AS TO WHY. It's also time to prove beyond a shadow of a doubt that condoms (barrier protection) MUST BE MANDATORY in ALL PORN shot within the UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. Pornstars who work double time as prostitutes, regularly have unprotected sex with UNTESTED "Johns"  - while shooting (as soon as the next day in some cases) with their TESTED peers in the porn pool - which can (and does) result in the transmission of STD's from their escort clientele to the Los Angeles porn industry talent (who consistently and unjustifiably perpetuate the lie of being the "safest group of people to have sex within").

Some people within the Los Angeles porn industry are calling me a hypocrite and a "scumbag" by launching  To those people who think that, I suggest you read the mission statement of the website along with the letter I wrote to the public introducing the site on the attached blog

Now if after you read the mission of , the blog and watch the embedded video blog, you still find yourself labeling me as a "scumbag" - I simply have the following to say to you:

If you go against me, not only will you be openly identifying yourself as a criminal and one who supports and endorses criminal'll be labeled as a TERRORIST who resides on AMERICAN SOIL which is completely UNACCEPTABLE to the general populace of our country.

I've had nearly everything taken from me since I chose to leave and speak out about my time as a performer in the Los Angeles porn industry. I am alone, with very little material wise and have no hope or prospects in regards to a romantic relationship or in having children.  I'm an outcast and will always be to a degree since being identified to the mainstream public as a sex worker. I couldn't be a prostitute if I even wanted to  (Los Angeles porn criminals made certain of that), so I figure since I have nothing to lose, no prospects, no ties, no major responsibilities and can't reap the benefits financially of my porn (which unbeknownst to me was merely an advertisement for the escort life I didn't know I was being corralled into) I'm left with nothing to do but DESTROY the issue of my torment...AND I WILL.

Being that I will be doing NOTHING wrong and will not be breaking ANY LAWS by launching (which will assist law enforcement in identifying EVERY SINGLE illegal escort and prostitution ring attached to the Los Angeles porn industry) the only way to stop me is to:

1) Give me back EVERYTHING that was taken from me - multiplied by 100.


2) Kill me.

Regardless of the option chosen (or not chosen), I win.

End of discussion.

Friday, June 01, 2012

Pornstar Hooker Alert - coming soon...

This is a resource website I'm working on which will be live and operational soon.
I believe it will make a positive change not just in America, but throughout the world.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Monica Foster at Home : LA porn industry selling synthetic drug type substances as herbal incense and bath salts to teens

Click here to read my article about this issue on

On this Monica Foster at Home ( Christian Pornstar edition broadcast ) Monica Foster discusses how Los Angeles porn industry professionals are moving into the SYNTHETIC drug industry by legally selling the substances which emulate marijuana, cocaine, ecstacy, cystal meth, etc as "herbal incense" and "bath salts".
Monica Foster shares a recent news story out of Miami which recently made national news about a man who reportedly may have been high on bath salts who attacked a victim and then proceeded to eat their face (cannibalism).

Monica explains to her viewers how porn directors such as Will Ryder akak Jeff Mullen are actively marketing "legal highs" as herbal incenses and bath salts to people as younger (or younger) than 18 years old online through pornography cross promotion.

Monica warns that these are highly addictive substances (just as pornography is highly addictive psychologically) and concludes by questioning how wide spread the use of theses substances are in the Los Angeles porn industry.

Did pornstars Steve Driver and Sledge Hammer use herbal incense and bath salts to achieve a legal high that wouldn't be detectable on a drug test, but that may have caused their strange, violent and erratic behavior before their deaths?

Charlie Sheen and Bree Olson appear to be actively assisting Will Ryder of All Media Play / Sitcums with his promotion of these potentially dangerous substances. Are their "testimonials" real?

Monday, May 21, 2012

Monday, May 14, 2012

Not much going on and I'm glad

Just a quick note to let you all know that not much is going on in my world as of current (and I'm quite glad). I'll probably do a broadcast later this week, to catch many of you up...other than that I'll be live on webcam for private shows (links to me on have a great week!

Saturday, April 28, 2012

www.PornNewsToday has a fresh look!

PornNewsToday (PNT) has a new home and look! 

This week, I'm in the process of transferring Porn News Today from here on Blogger to it's new home:

I should have everything functional and integrated with , and several other websites by the end of the week! 

Make sure you update your bookmarks to to keep up with the latest and greatest adult industry news posts and commentaries by yours truly - Monica Foster :)

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

This is my 2012 summertime theme song...
"So Excited" by Janet Jackson


Far better photos coming soon - I've been working out so I'm much tighter & toned now :)

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

That's right, if you're curious about who I am, meet me and view me live on webcam for a bit (or perhaps for an extended intimate encounter).

I'll be live all week on

(or you can find links to alternate webcam venues I'm on via my official website

Monday, April 16, 2012

An Oasis For Peaches
Yesterday was difficult - as goodbyes often are.

Today I concluded my time here on Earth with Peaches by laying his body to rest in the most beautiful and most appropriate place I could find.

Though I live in the scorching desert, I'm very fortunate to live within close proximity to a wetlands park and nature preserve of which many birds and other wildlife frequent.

Yesterday, while talking to my Mother, she suggested I bury Peaches next to a tree with "strong roots". She felt Peaches spirit would enjoy a nice view and some branches to perch on. Peaches used to view my Mother as a mobile "tree" and would take flight to chase her on occasion through the house in an attempt to utilize her head as a perch :)

Upon arriving at the wetlands, It took me a while to find the right tree...I had to hike pretty deep into the preserve. However once I saw a few birds aerial dancing and singing their songs, I knew I was getting close to the right place.

I could have sworn I saw the leaves of the tree I selected sparkle after I finished patting the ground back into place.

Almost immediately after returning Peaches' body to the earth, my Father called my cellphone to see how I was doing (our family has the best sense of timing). I let him know I'd just finished my journey with Peaches.

My Father had a chance to get to know Peaches right before I relocated to Los Angeles back in 2008. We reminisced and laughed a bit. After ending the conversation with my Father, I sat on a boulder next to a little creek, which was along side the tree I selected for Peaches and prayed.

My home is strangely quiet without Peaches here - but a part of his essence will always be with me and all who loved him.
Today Peaches, my beloved African peach-faced lovebird passed away.

Peaches was my constant companion since we found each other in Florida. He knew more about me than anyone on this planet & he never told my secrets. I don't know how I'll go on each day not hearing his vocalized sunshine. I'm happy to know he's in heaven with Jesus & God.

I have few in my life and I'm very sad one of the best few left today.

Rest In Peace
1992 - April 15, 2012

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Happy Easter! Today is one of my favorite holidays because I love the meaning behind it. Jesus Christ knew that when he chose to share his controversial ideas and "fight the system" that not only would he be shunned by those who feared change and the future - he would be killed.

Jesus also knew however, that he not only was right, but that he would be resurrected - and he was.

Jesus had faith in God, and he had faith in himself - which is why I relate to Jesus at this point in my life at 33 years old, very very well.

I've come to learn that one of the reasons many people discount, discredit and even hate Jesus Christ is because his situation and experience is proof that God exists along with there being much more to the universe than initially meets the eye.

Jesus essentially dealt with Gangstalkers (please visit to learn more). Those who participate in Gangstalking often don't have a belief in God or Jesus because they fear not only being wrong, but also failing at their objective.

I am seen as "controversial", "eccentric", "crazy" etc...but in actuality I'm just honest. I say what's on my mind and no longer am out to please anyone or be liked (I wasted too many years not being myself). I don't care to belong to a group of any sort - I enjoy and have found peace within my independent individuality.

My mindset makes certain types of people on this planet realize that they're powerless - not just in regards to me, but in regards to events in general. People who fear my mindset will not make up the majority of our society in the near future. Change isn't just coming - it's occurred.

Don't miss my live broadcast today of on - it will be cool.

Thursday, April 05, 2012

Today I've had a relatively good day. As of late I've been feeling happier and much more centered than I ever have in my life - I've been having much more fun as well.

I've battled and triumphed over many demons, both internal and external (as you my readers, fans and friends are aware of) - and I've learned how to reflect in a far more healthier way than I ever would have imagined. I've come to learn that personal reflection is a vital skill one should strive to develop in order to continue on a path of healthy evolution.

While skimming through some adult industry (porn related) news items to update my news blog this afternoon - I came across 2 items which prompted me to share a very personal instance of my life with my twitter followers on @MonicaFoster :

I feel good today, so I'm going to share something personal with all of you to clue you into exactly what type of person I am.

Several years ago when I was a bartender and stripper in Florida, I met a man I started dating and wound up living with for a while. This man had a son, who I bonded with and treated as my own. Unfortunately as time went on, I came to realize the man I lived with had a major drinking, drug and gambling problem. He lost his job and I wound up having to cover all the bills.

I'd have ditched this man earlier but I had grown to love his son like my own child. Finally when I couldn't take it anymore and was about to leave I realized I was pregnant.

I made the mistake of telling the guy I was living with. I told him I'd keep the kid, but that I couldn't live with him due to his lack of motivation and addiction. He flipped out and hit me. I hit him back. Cops were called, and though I paid all the bills and rent for the house we shared, I left and stayed with my mother.

I filed a restraining order on the loser I was dating, and before going to court to extend the order weeks later I had an abortion. Yes I KILLED something living. Why? Because it was a part of me I was willing to let go of from the past, and a part of him he was hoping to retain for the future to maintain a link to someone that was BETTER than him.
Looking back, I have no regret having KILLED a piece of that man. I'd do it again if I had too. The lesson here is: as a person in this world, you have to realize that the weak will do anything to have a link to the strong. It's a survival thing. However the majority of the weak shouldn't continue to exist to begin with. Weak creatures bring the world down and prevent progress.

If you are strong and identify some weak loser trying to attach themselves to you, KILL the connection. Do no hesitate and do not think about it, just do it.

So to conclude my personal story, after I aborted the loser I was living with's seed, I went to court, faced him and extended the restraining order. Upon exiting the court room the loser I dated said to the judge "Oh, my ex is pregnant with my kid, what about that?".

Before the judge could answer I responded "Nope, not anymore. I killed your kid".

I walked out the courtroom, my Dad picked me up out front, and took me to lunch. It turned out to be a good day.

I suppose when my stalkers say I'm a kid killer, it's true. Now you know the type of person I am, and some of what I'm capable of.

The 2 news items which prompted me to share this experience from my life, can be found on this link (an article about a new pornstar named Casey Cums who desperately needs some psychological therapy and who unfortunately is hurting the efforts of women such as myself who are trying to bring awareness to why change must take place in the Los Angeles porn industry) and on this link (an article about a man named Hunter Moore who is financially benefiting from stalking, harassing, defaming, terrorizing and emotionally hurting women - a weak waste of a human who should not exist).