Saturday, January 28, 2012

Well it's been over 24 hours since the "warning" from Manwin. The sky hasn't fallen, and I've noticed Mike South hasn't removed his blog entry in regards to Manwin doing a deal with or purchasing Reality Kings - so I'm glad I stood my ground in regards to my FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

Though I love a good fight, and have valiantly fought the good fight for quite some time now - I'm officially on break - indefinitely as of today.

I've come to realize that taking care of my spirit, and not allowing myself to be drained by others with certain agendas (be they positive or negative - of "good" or "ill" intent) is vital at this stage of my personal development.

I've worked though much hurt and have faced (and conquered) many demons. I've witnessed amazing change manifest from my efforts and contributions to certain causes and it's been cool to see the truth in the phrase "one person can make a difference".

However, if there's one thing I've always had the gift of knowing - it's the knowledge of when to move on. I have a great sense of timing, which is why I choose not to wear a watch. I haven't had the opportunity to travel as much as I'd like to, attain as much as I'd like to materially or have a child. I want to and will do these things. I plan on living a very long and happy life - and I'll manipulate time ( if needed ) to do so.

So to conclude this entry - I suppose I'll just say that I'm done bringing certain issues to the forefront. I will complete the work I've already begun in regards to compiling and sharing some data of which I've already touched on, but I've delved as deep as I feel like going in regards to sharing my thoughts, views and truths of the world of adult entertainment.

Next subject matter of choice to explore - individuals with newly activated "paranormal" abilities. Considering that I had a dream last night about poisoning a Scorpion which helped me gain understanding as to why I enjoy gazing at the stars of Orion's belt - I have a feeling that this era I'm transitioning into will be quite nice.

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Tonight I realized that there's a piece of a the "Monica Foster" story that I've never told - actually it was my interview for the most recent documentary I participated in, which activated the memory...

I was asked in the documentary whether or not I was ever in a relationship while I was actively shooting porn. Those of you who follow my blog know that I was...however upon recapping the situation in the documentary interview - I realized that the relationship wasn't only "one sided" - it was most likely a pre-meditated act (on my "boyfriend's" part and a "plan" to keep me active within the Los Angeles porn circuit.

Hindsight is 20/20 and upon looking back I can see that he was a blend between being a facilitator, enabler and pimp.

The one thing this man told me upon leaving me, was that he wanted to enter a relationship with a woman outside of the porn industry. Currently he is with another pornstar (lol).

I haven't wanted to ever relate this experience or my thoughts on this situation - primarily due to my feeling like a fool for having fallen for the act....

I've felt ashamed.

It's time now though - to put it out there - I wasn't my "boyfriend's" first victim - in fact the girl he worked on prior to myself is one of the top pornstars of today...

My account of this situation will outline EXACTLY how one tactic of the Los Angeles porn industry's recruitment system operates (and this particular system is universal across MANY industries). I hope my pain and heartbreak saves some other women from the same treatment and result of which I've suffered. In addition, I feel the world is deserving of knowing exactly how a pornstar like Jenna Haze comes about and is unwittingly developed - via the channel of the tragedy of the man she loved refusing to marry her - yet who continued to use and manipulate her for years to come all in the name of personal gain.

The truth is out there - but only the brave tell it (which is why the truth is rare to come across).

more to come as I collect my thoughts on this matter...

TRAUMA BONDING IS A BITCH ASS PUNK WHO'S ASS IT'S TIME
TO KICK OFF THE CURB.

for more definition and understanding - look at my entry for this date on www.Alexandralism.org 






Monday, January 23, 2012

It's about 1am Monday morning and I'm blogging a bit to reflect upon last week - as it's been quite an interesting one.

Last week bestowed more closure in regards to many of the life events I've shared with you all over the past few years. Last week also revealed and opened quite a few new gates of which I'm excited to step through.


  • Steps to ensure the physical, psychological and spiritual safety and health of other women who may have found themselves (or will find themselves in the future) on a life path similar to mine in dealing with those who run the "Los Angeles porn industry" have come to solid fruition via the vote by the Los Angeles city council in favor of making condoms mandatory for adult content production.
  • I received an email (posted in the blog entry prior to this one), which assists to verify that an adult industry attorney (Michael Fattorosi - a man who assisted in the terrorization, harassment and stalking of myself and family members), is indeed lacking ethics and any sense of morality professionally or personally.
  • The health, nutrition and wellness company of which I've chosen to begin my new career with trained me as to how to do a wellness evaluation on future clients. My mentor walked me through the process by doing an evaluation on yours truly. The result is that I have the body of a 23 year old. That's wonderful news.
  • I was given the opportunity to contribute to a documentary in regards to my thoughts on and experiences in the Los Angeles porn industry. It's been a while since I've stepped in front of a lense of which I don't control - however I had a good impression of the individual who extended the invitation so I placed my faith in God and Jesus Christ that he'll get my message out properly to those who need to hear it.

I took the week off from my webcasts www.MonicaAtHome.com , www.ChristianPornstar.com and www.DEOsports.net - I'll be picking up my schedule again this week. I feel pretty well rested now.

I'm hoping in March to take a few camping trips - the weather should be perfect.  Hopefully someone who's remained in the forefront of my mind although much time has past, will decide to come along. The desert is a strange - yet beautiful place to take refuge, heal and rest.

Saturday, January 21, 2012





Monica Foster on January 13th spoke about why condoms need to be required for the Los Angeles
porn industry - reason being the rapid spread of a new SUPER strain of gonorrhea.

As of January 17th the LA city council passed a vote making condoms 100% mandatory for the los angeles porn industry.

January 15 Monica Foster discusses the new trend of mainstream actresses possibly being recruited into porn via the playboy gateway. Monica Foster explains how mainstream under age actresses and musicians such as Taylor Momsen are being influenced by Lindsay Lohan
and others in the porn industry such as Jenna Haze into thinking that the only way they can gain fame is by going into the hard core pornography marketplace.

Monica explains that as long as the porn industry is trying to link up with the music industry - the SOPA act will never be taken seriously or considered by
the United States government. Monica feels that mainstream entertainment - especially the music industry should cut all ties with the pornography industry.

Monica Foster then goes on the discuss how finally people who depict minors in adult material (in her view directors and studio owners such as Will Ryder aka Jeff Mullen) are finally facing legal consequences.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Yesterday was an interesting day...

  • My instincts led me to attaining a new white pony for my little dog Panda.
  • Condoms have officially become mandatory in the Los Angeles porn industry - which is quite the victory for those of the light :) Read about it here. Not to brag...BUT I knew that CHANGE was coming.
  • I took the first step forward in my new career within the fitness, health and wellness field :)

I love 2012 - This year will be the ride of a lifetime - good thing I'm strapped in and ready to roll!

Thursday, January 12, 2012


Enjoy the latest broadcast of Monica Foster at Home Christian Pornstar Edition



Monica Foster discusses sex addiction and how to combat the issue. She also explains why the government is stepping in to take control porn industry at this stage being that porn has become the equivalent of a psychological drugs for much of the American public.

Monica gives an overview as to her new broadcast DEOSports.net and explains how athletics and exercise can assist with overcoming sex addiction.

Monica Foster later discusses how she's concerned about the Los Angeles porn industry, specifically being that as of current appears porn director Will Ryder and pornstar Cassandra Cruz (who is represented by
LA direct models) is targeting highschoolers for adult content.

Monica conveys how there's no longer any annonymity as a pornstar and how the porn industry is essentially ruining the lives of any highschooler who they potentially recruit.

Monica concludes with why the .xxx domain should be utilized by the entire porn industry - specifically the los angeles porn industry - and goes into detail about Manwin's opposition to ICann and .xxx - relating the correlation and parallels between ICann vs. Manwin and God Vs. Lucifer.

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Anti-Porn SUPER activist Mr. Whiteacre sure is a funny guy - even when he's pretending to be a staunch pro-porn and FSC (Free Speech Coalition) supporter, he drops a code line quite often that the anti-porn community understands and hears LOUD and CLEAR... "It's time to take out the trash".

It appears that today in the secret underground ICANN base, Mr. Whiteacre has been a fantastic help to Anti-Porn activist Monica Foster. He's managed to round up quite a few notable porn industry icons and toss them in the dumpster for Monica so that she can easily transport them to the .xxx domain.

Huma Weiner has taken the time to drop in, and President Obama skyped in for a briefing as to EXACTLY where within the .xxx domain each branch of the porn industry should be deported to.

As you can see, while Monica is bringing in the .xxx dialing device to connect to .xxx transport gate, her best friend anti-porn activist Desi Foxx is on her way to join in the fun of completing the mission of taking out the trash to WHERE IT BELONGS - the .XXX domain!



Friday, January 06, 2012

What have I been up to? www.PornInWorthWatching.com - join the movement.


Wednesday, January 04, 2012

It's FINALLY 2012 and life is great. I'm fit, I'm feeling fantastic and I'm looking fabulous. The world is my oyster and I'm bumping into beautiful pearls or wonder regardless of which direction I take.

As many of you have noticed - many additions and changes have been underway on my websites and blogs - and this is just the beginning.

This will be a very physical year for me - I'm getting certified as a personal trainer, I've decided to take up Golf lessons, and I'll be taking several trips to some hiking and camping spots I've been wanting to visit.

I'm fortunate to live in a city now where there's a TON to do, so I'm sure I'll be taking tons of videos and pictures of many of my adventures.  I suppose www.MonicaAtHome.com will have to spawn a new site in regards to me being out and about!

Below is January 1st's broadcast of www.ChristianPornstar.com - enjoy :)



Monday, January 02, 2012

Watch the launch webcast of Dykstra's Escort On Sports (DEOsports.net)! I wonder what Lenny Dykstra thinks of this? I'm sure he's the envy of his celeb scandal peers!