Thursday, February 28, 2008

Complete "work mode" - that is the mode I've finally settled in for the remainder of this year, and probably next year too.
There are so many goals I have, and so many things I want - and I've recently come to realize, that as of current, I may have to put a few of my current endeavors and dreams on hold in order to get closer to my long term ambitions a bit faster.
A lesson I'm glad to have learned last year, and actually a little into this year, was the lesson of not giving up my resources, emotion and/or time to people who don't give back and who don't deserve me being in their life.
The hardest thing for me to have dealt with throughout my life has been the consistant influx of users and takers - from family, to mates, to friends. I have a very giving soul and a lot of energy, so I've come to realize that's why I attract people like this (after all opposites DO attract). People like this have done nothing but hurt and hinder my life, development and soul so I'm actively putting a stop to it all right now.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

What a morning. I'd planned on shooting a couple long over-due promo videos for my project participation on , but unfortunately due to my little dog suddenly getting infested with fleas (it's that time of year) I had to take about 4 hours out to de-flea her and my apartment. Ugh.
I'm glad it's just about the end of the month. This year is going by so quickly already.
I really hope I can get to where I want to with my photography and design biz to where I can really "retire" Monica Foster / MiZtress Monica for good as planned. I'm glad I created the concept when I did, but I'm starting to reach a point where though I'm grateful for the positive attention and income that Monica's attractd, I'm also beginning to attract some really negative and hateful attention as well.
Fortunately throughout my life I've kept my social circles fairly limited, so it's pretty easy to narrow down the few individuals I've known who'd actually take the time and effort to continually create new screen names/aliases to send me threatening emails through the few networks I'm on. I'm glad these networks are co-operating with me in tracking down the sender's IP addresses/info to where if needed I can forward them to law enforcement.
It's amazing how even when you try to keep to yourself, not bother anyone and just do your own thing there are those out there with nothing better to do than try to annoy you.
Anyways tonight will be another installment of Real Exotic Dancers Talk back on - I'll try to put together an interesting show.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Well, I'd planned on having a quiet "work only" weekend, but I wound up having just the opposite, actually I had a really great weekend :)
Friday night I had a "girls night out" with a some friends I hadn't hung out with in quite a while - I'll post a mini video clip of the night out later on.
Saturday I had one of the best "dates" I've had in a VERY long time.
And today, I just rested, but am going to do some website and webcam work the remainder of the night.
Overall I think the themes of the weekend was "out with the old and in with the new".

Friday, February 22, 2008

Obama - I've been for Obama since about '05 when I first heard about him online. I actually used to have one of his banners on my website. Well I've been contemplating actively campaigning for him for a while now, both because I was unsure of my political views and I was unsure as to whether someone like me openly saying they were supporting him would be postive or negative towards his campaign - well hell, I'm no one special and I don't think any postive support is harmfull to anyone so from this day forth I've outwardly PRO OBAMA!
Yes, I will plaster my support for him all over my websites. Every cam show I will encourage my viewers to vote for him. I will start participating in local Obama events etc. Why? Cause this dude needs to win. He and his family and his team all truly do stand for change and change is EXACTLY what we need right now.
The country CAN NOT stay on it's current path cause IT IS NOT WORKING!
Pass along the video below peeps.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

I haven't posted ver the past few days - mostly because I've been sick but today I'm finally feeling a little better so I figured I'd better write at least a little "diddy".
This weekend I will finally be producing another photo pictorial (or 2 ) for - I also need to do some more promospots fo
Not to much exciting is happening in my personal life - mainly just telling myself yet again that you can't change people and you can seldomly make people do what you want them to do if they're unwilling to do so.
Actually realizing those 2 points takes a lot of weight off my shoulders.
Here's something funny:

Saturday, February 16, 2008

There's nothing like a REALLY good product/invention. Certain brain farts from the geniuses of the planet truly do make the world go-round and allow progress to continue.
I found an AWSOME new webcam program today that allows for overlays and special effects over your live stream via a multitude of applications. Took me a while to find a program like this that works seamlessly with my system/network and that's customizable (hell I didn't even think one existed). This program will make such a difference in my cam shows - I'm excited!
Over the past few months I've found a ton of useful software online. I remember back to the days when they only decent software portal was c-net (which is now - god has the internet changed. I love it.
Change - it's amazing how not only the world external of us changes, but how our inner perspectives of things do as well.
Later today I'll be redesigning the Real Exotic Dancers Talk Back website - check out the new intro for the show and last week's show highlights :)

Friday, February 15, 2008

1pm and I've gotten a TON done today! Alright! I think I need a nap - check out this clip from yesterday - it's me interviewing Fibi Love of - this edit is for my show "Real Exotic Dancers Talk Back" ( - I'll post "The X-profiles" ( edit later once Kamary has it done.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Ok, the new hair style venture did not work out, back to my regular look - maybe I'll try something new again next month. I've noticed for a while in some of my photos I look "cross eyed", but I never really thought about it. Then yesterday while watching some of my recent video clips I noticed it again, my eyes (pupils) are definitely off center. Oh well, nothing I can do about it now - I'll just chalk it up as a "cute imperfection".
Today I have that interview for the show I'm working on "The X Profiles" and for my show "Red T-Back". Should be fun.
I can't wait until tonight - I actually have a Valentines Day plan for once - it's cool to think about :)
For those of u who want some eye and ear candy - check out the clip below - even has a custom theme song by Kamary Phillips

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Well I'm taking a break from redoing my hair to write this blog. I'll post a pic of my new hair "look" later tonight.
It's Feb. 13th, the day before Valentines day, and I'm feeling pretty good. I actually didn't realize that tomorrow is Valentines day until early this afternoon. I wonder if I'll get anything from romantic interest(s) in my life? If not it's cool, because the main guy in my life, my Dad, already sent me something :)
My co-host from wrote a pretty cute song for me (and as a promo for the show we're doing) - check it out here.
Tomorrow I have an interview with an upcomming talent for both The X profiles and RED T-Back so that should be fun.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

"Out with the old to make room for the new." I'm applying this saying to both my personal life and my closet - yes - tonight I started cleaning my closet. Tossing out a ton of clothes that I used to love (most of which are covered with sparkles and crap), but are not the "current me" anymore.
I want to "class it up" a bit in regards to my look. No, I don't want to be a boring conservative girl, but I do want to tone it down a little bit in regards to the sparkly glittery stuff and start ushering in some real designer digs :)
I think if I let go of some of the things I no longer use/wear I'll be more motivated to work harder to get some new things that I want.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

It's the beginning of the week but already I'm getting a lot done - managed to get both of my broadcasts (Sunday and Monday night) smoothly under my belt - just need to upload the archives to Club Monica at some point today.
Later this evening is another awsome broadcast of Red T-Back (Real Exotic Dancers Talk Back - _ I already have a couple awsome topics to talk about - now if only I can manage to get some callers.....
I'm stil INCREDIBLY excited about co-hosting the upcomming show "The X-Profiles" - check out this edit below:

The above clip has to be one of the coolest projects I've ever been a part of - I'm a lucky duck. This clip is going straight to my Myspace!
Writing down your dreams and goals is very important. I feel as if many of the dreams and ideals I've had for myself are materialising - mainly because I wrote them down and re-read them to myself consistantly over a period of time. If you believe it you really can achieve it - at least according to my journals.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

Sometimes you have to take a step back and really be grateful for what you have. Living in South-East Florida that can be very very hard. It's even harder when some of your friends and a person you date live in an incredible highrise right on the ocean and drive great cars and you don't (in the building even the valet people are snooty) It's even HARDER when you try to make money via regular channels and regardless of what you do, can't seem to get ahead.
This is why so many bitches in south east florida have sugardaddies. I've tried, but I just don't have the mentality to constantly have to pander to someone. Yea, I'd love to have Coach and Gucci and Bebe and all those name brand digs like other women I see, but somehow I don't think it's really worth it unless I can buy it myself.
I've gotta stop and talk about this "Beach Club" building in Hallandale a bit. I have a love hate relationship with it. I love it because it's a dream to live there but I hate it because i don't know if I'll ever be able to afford it. When I go there I feel inadequate. You can't self park - you have to valet, and I feel like the valet people and other people look down on me because I don't have a nice car. Also a lot of people there seem to have a serious stick up their ass if they know you don't live there. I think people who live there maybe should only associate amoungst themselves.
Truthfully I think I should just be able to date someone who has a little more than me who enjoys taking me out and paying for my half, but that's even hard to find, guys where i live have real attitudes which is why I think I will stop dating all together. Even if a guy does front the $ when he takes you out here a lot of times he's kinda condescending.
It's true about the middle class dwindling away. People soon are either just going to be rich or poor. I'd like to just be ok.
When I feel like this though to get myself back on track, I just watch this video:

I think I just need to move out of South East Florida - I can't keep up and I'm sick of feeling bad about it.
In other news, here's intro for the new online show The X-profiles that I'm doing - still very excited about it. Goes to show that even if something you're doing isn't immidiately making you money it still can be worth it.