Friday, October 30, 2009

I suppose that with the coming of Halloween tomorrow, the holidays are officially upon us, and I'm glad being that I LOVE the holidays - the food, the drinks and of course - the parties!

Last night I psyched myself up enough to leave my apartment and hit my first party of the season - it wasn't a "holiday" party - it was an adult industry event celebrating the birthday of Lee Bang (a male talent who also runs an adult talent agency - you can catch a scene I shot with him in "Milf Chocolate #3") which was hosted by his lovely and sexy wife Sophie Dee.

The party was great. I went solo, but saw quite a few friends. Notably D Snoop, Candice Nicole, Magdalene, my awesome new publicist James Bartholet, my favorite adult industry event photographer Rick Garcia and one of my favorite adult industry product entrepreneurs Lou of (check out the skateboard deck he created of me below - if you'd like to buy one, let me know).

I had a few drinks, smoked a few cigs, danced to a few songs, took a few photos, and then found my way home around midnight. Luckily Opera, the club the party was held at, was less than 10 blocks from my apartment so it was only a $5 cab ride there and a $5 cab ride home.

I'll try to find some party pics later next week to post. Saturday I'll be hitting the Heaven and Hell Halloween bash hosted by All Media Play (the studio that produced Not the Cosbys XXX) - I'm excited about it.

I'm working on becoming a bit more social this party season. I don't have many friends (VERY few who actually live here in LA), so getting out to parties and events - especially this time of year when most who are single (such as I) are prone to find themselves a bit "lonely". Since moving here to Hollywood, it's been a struggle - actually moving here from FL has been one of the hardest things I've ever done - financially and emotionally - but it's also been one of my greatest accomplishments.

Something I've learned as of late is: when something isn't working and you've tried your best to fix it, but it just refuses to be fixed - you just gotta let it go - that goes for items, goals, dreams and relationships - of all sorts. I'm becoming much better at letting go of items, certain goals, and certain dreams (though I still have plenty to work with and on), but letting go of people is still very difficult - but I'm learning that to maintain my sanity, self esteem, self worth, drive and overall happiness - I have to and will do it when necessary.

To conclude this blog, I want to send out a lot of hugs and thanks to everyone out there who has sent me words of encouragement in regards to some of my recent blogs and to those who consistently send me positive feedback on my work both in front of and behind the camera. It means a lot.

Have a great Friday!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Well today has started off with a bit of a surprise. Not anything directly relating to me I suppose, but it definitely made me re-evaluate my view of someone I've recently known.

A while ago I shot a scene with a girl who I would bump into here and there socially. She seemed fairly "into" the adult industry lifestyle and I think made a decent amount of money in it. I know she started to run into some trouble a few months ago, but I lost touch with her. Well apparently she's doing a complete 180 and has joined (is getting help from) The Pink Cross - here's the article.

Now I know 3 people from the porn industry who have turned to the Pink Cross. Interesting.

I really don't buy into the fact that anyone needs to turn to a religous based organization that suggests that you completely repent your adult industry actions in order to move on with and/or get a fresh start at life. Maybe some people do need such help - I personally feel that inner strength and a firm decision as to what you want to do is all you really need.

I wonder how much money this organization gives the people that they help. I wonder if they really do help you with getting a generic 9-5 desk job. I question a lot about the motives of this organization - I hate being such a skeptic of an organization who's goal really is to "do good", but considering the personality types of the women who I know have turned to the pink cross - these women I think would repent at the drop of a hat if they knew they would be getting a decent sum of money out of it.

Lately I've been forced to question via my family's words and some other individuals life actions as to whether me having entered the adult industry was that "bright" of an idea, and the possibility of my actions having "ruined" my life and future prospects.

Well, after much questioning, I've come to the conclusion that yes, some doors are closed, but others, that aren't available to most people, have opened. I'm comfortable with where I'm at in life. Yes I could be doing better, but I think I will with time.

That's enough writing for today. I'll be on webcam today, so see you all online!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Well I'll be on webcam again tonight - no bars or clubs for me :)

I've been looking at cars lately because by the end of January I'd like to get a new, yet used car - I'm thinking either a Nissan Altima or a Volkswagen Passat.

We'll see.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Happy Friday everyone. It's been an eventful week. First off, thank you to all who checked in during my free 1 hour webcam show on the network - it was good to say hello to everyone - and a special thanks to James for calling in to the talkshow I was a guest on "Inside the Industry" Wednesday evening - actually if anyone wants to download the archive of the show - just click here.

I've opted to sign with an adult and mainstream PR company called Galaxy Publicity. I feel good about it and through working a bit with the owner (who has tons of great ideas) and his staff, I hope to take "Monica Foster" to the next level. Being that many of my ideas seem to mesh with theirs, I think it will be a good working relationship.

On a personal note, I'm a bit depressed - for quite some time now I thought I had my family's emotional support in achieving my goals - regardless of how unconventional they may be. I just recently learned that I don't, and that they think very badly of me and my life choices. I can deal with this fact, but it hurts more than anything I've ever dealt with. Since moving to CA, I've made a huge effort to attempt to keep lines of communication open between myself and my immidiate family. Well, they have severed the cord, and I will not be making any effort to repair it anymore. I will not be going into detail about the situation today, but I might oneday, because I think other women who may choose my path in life need to know what they may be up against in their personal lives.

Regardless though of what anyone thinks about me, I believe in myself and I strongly feel that before one judges, they need to take a good look in the mirror.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Tomorrow at 8pm, I'll be live on Inside the Industry at 8pm PST - if you'd like to call in and say "hello", just drop me an email via the contact form on and I'll send you the call in phone number!

Friday, October 16, 2009

Most things in life that most people generally hire others to do, I do myself - I built and maintain my own website, shoot my own promotional photos and pictorial photos with an interval timer, shoot many of my own videos for my website, create my own graphics, do my own wardrobe/styling, hair, even hair cuts and weaves, write my own press releases, provide my own tech support when my computers spaz out, schedule my own webcam shows etc.

Between all that and exploring any and every avenue I can find that's available to me in regards to finding work on camera as a model and adult actress, I'm stretching myself a bit too thin, so I've decided to take the step in hiring some help...

I'm currently exploring the different adult industry PR companies, and I think I've found the one which is best suited to my needs, so I'll be meeting with them this Tuesday. Yes, it's spending money I don't have right now, but hopefully in the long run the investment will pay off. Mainly I'm hoping that this company I'm choosing to work with can assist in landing me some magazine work and help guide me to the right industry events to "be seen" at.

On a side note - I feel very accomplished in regards to being organized. I finally after months of staring at a mountain of un-filed papers and receipts of epic proportions, have sorted through and filed them away. I also weeded through my closet and cleared out all the clothes I no longer wear. Everything in my apartment, which is essentially my world is now as it should be. YES!

I'd planned on mainly doing webcam shows today but realized that I needed to shoot some new photos sets being that I'm wearing just my hair nowdays in my cute little pixie cut. Below are some stills from the first set. After I finish this blog I'll be shooting one more set before getting on webcam for the evening.


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

It has recently been brought to my attention that someone (or some people) are trying to create email aliases and profiles on various websites as me (apparently they think stealing another person's brand and identity is OK, but it's not).

To all my readers, fans and friends. Unless an email is from the following email addresses, it is not me:

monica at
monicafoster01 at
monicaf001 at
gettingintoporn at
redtbackshow at

In particular, someone very recently has attempted to open Gmail accounts using the email addresses: and - these email addresses ARE NOT MINE and whoever is writing from them IS NOT ME.

Monday, October 12, 2009

I had a pretty good weekend - had a chance to clean my apartment from top to bottom and will be getting my giant pile of papers I need to file organized later this week. I'm on a mission to become "little miss neat, organized and tidy". I'd like to end this year by being as organized and productive as possible.

I'll be on webcam most of the day today and all throughout the week most likely, so make sure you catch me - links to my shows are on this blog and

This week I'm going to try very hard to get my weekly and webcasts up and running again. I'm not going to make the webcasts "regular weekly shows" as of yet, being that my overall schedule is very irregular right now, but I need to at least do them, being that I've been getting a ton of questions via email that I need to address for both websites.

On a side note: Every once in a while when I do webcam shows, some loser(s) like to try to come into my chat rooms and harass me (and considering their tone, usually they're obviously ex-boyfriends, stalkers or other women who see me as their "competition"). Today someone said the following to me in my chat room:

Be smart and just buy this cross-eyed ghetto trash' archive for $2, she sure isn't worth $5 a minute, her and her piss poor attitude, bc shes old and a loser who is too stupid for school, and her only talent in life is spreading her legs, like her mom's.

(Thank you for your super support staff who immediately suspends the accounts of jerks like this.)

Rude right? I'll admit, my eyes are a little off center (no one is perfect, and truthfully, considering my physique, who really gives a fig?) and yes, part of how I make a living is based on my willingness to "spread my legs", and yes I'm 30 years old - but come on - don't say shit about my mother - she's actually as conservative as you can be.

What's crazy though is that when people say crap like that, I know that I'm not doing so bad in life after all. People don't attack those they're not threatened by. Often times I think to myself "what if I'd never decided to work in the adult industry and just had a regular/mainstream job?". Lately - considering this economy, I've come to realize that the path I've chosen, just may have been the correct one opposed to working in "mainstream world". When I compare my financial situation and stress level to those of my "mainstream" peers as of current, I think I am much better off exactly as I am, where I am and being who I am.

You know how in the army they say "Be all that you can be?" - Well as a technical "porn whore" or just "whore" in general (as mainstream society I'm sure defines me) - I will from this day forth be the best damn nerdy, computer geek girl whore I can be. :)

Tonight should be fun, a new friend invited me to a self improvement seminar. I'm really looking forward to it, because I always enjoy hearing other people's perspectives as to how to make the most and get the most out of life. Whether their view is something you agree, or disagree with - learning how others find success and happiness never hurts.

Friday, October 09, 2009

I am in love with the BlueBirdFilms ( studio - period. If you are not a member of their websites, you should join to watch their content - it's excellent!

Today was the first scene that I've shot in months and Bluebird really made my "comeback" quite pleasant and problem free (because as always, I was nervous and anxious as hell). They are everything a porn studio should be. Professional, fun, considerate, nice, sexy, etc. I want to send a special thanks to Marc, the director - you're a really cool guy, fun to work for and know how to let a scene just flow - and to the C. the makeup artist/wardrobe stylist - you are BEYOND talented...thank you for always making me look beautiful.

I had the opportunity to work with male talent Jon Jon - a really sweet and sexy man who I've worked with once before and who I have a feeling will go quite far in the adult industry arena (as he has already). He's a true pro and really helped to guide the scene. Thanks Jon!

When the scene I shot today is released I will definitely let all you members and blog readers know.

It's good to feel back in the "porn game" - I really missed it.

Well I will keep this blog short today - I am VERY tired, and just chowed down, so I'm gonna take a long bath now and get some much needed shut eye.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

It's been a busy week so far and I deeply apologize to my Club Monica members for missing my 1 hour live Club Monica webcast on CamZ yesterday. I couldn't get home on time. However I have rescheduled the show for today (4pm PST / 7pm EST).

Here's a little clip from Black Bottom Girls 5 an adult DVD I was featured in, shot in 2008. This scene ALMOST makes me want to throw my hair extensions back in :)

Sunday, October 04, 2009

***Again, to anyone looking to book me for an adult video scene/project, please contact Type9models (

I've lived in Los Angeles for about a year and 3 months now. I would have thought I'd have felt more at home by now and that I'd feel as though I "fit in" a bit more, but I don't - Below are a few reasons as to why I think that might be:

  • I don't go clubbing or out unless I can afford to.
  • I don't own many "designer" clothing items
  • I don't have any "designer" purses.
  • I refuse to ever wear acrylic or fake nails again.
  • I'm not going to lie about my age to be more "marketable" - I'm 30 and proud and look younger than most 26 year olds I've encountered here.
  • I'm not big on wearing a hair weave anymore.
  • I refuse to claim that I'm anything other than a black girl to improve my "marketablity".
  • I most likely will not ever get breast implants.
  • Fake eyelashes bother me a lot and unless a makeup artist puts them on me for a video/photo shoot, I will not wear them.
  • I'm willing to do quite a lot for money, but not ANYTHING.
  • I am taller than most men who live here (yep, at only 5'6.5" and I will not wear flats to make someone else feel more secure).
  • I'm not willing to play up to men that I know I'm more intelligent than.
  • I'm not willing to kiss anyone's ass (man or woman) to get a job.
  • I don't have a nice car - mine's fucked up and broken down, but paid for.
  • I believe in honesty and don't lie to get what I want.
  • I don't name drop.
  • I'm not willing to work with anyone unless I know all the details of the business arrangement (and until it's been put in written form) in advance.

    I'm trying to stick it out in Los Angeles for a while, but I'm not sure if I'm gonna make it.

    On a side note, I'm very disappointed in something I've heard through the grape vine about someone I've worked with in the past, especially being that I've spoken highly about their business to new talent looking to get into the adult business.

    Apparently this person has claimed to have been instrumental in the success of - has been active since 2002 ( 7 years before I entered the adult video world) and I built that site INDEPENDENTLY from the GROUND UP.

    Let me make this clear, NO ONE has helped me with ANYTHING having to do with, or any of my other websites I own and run, so to ANYONE out there running their mouth about how they "made me" - you might want to stop (and grow up as well).

    I'll add, that I'm grateful to everyone in the adult industry world who has linked to my website and cast me and/or booked me in their scenes, films, projects, etc. However there is no 24/7 dedicated team currently behind Monica Foster (though that would help). Just me, in my apartment - solo - working every damn day online.

    The dream:
  • Friday, October 02, 2009

    Made it through another Los Angeles week. Not too much exciting to report. A big thanks to everyone to checked in with me during my 1 hour free webcam show (to Club Monica members) on Tuesday. That was a fun show. To those who care, I'm once again the "porn pool" and am available for bookings through my agency

    I had a "go-see" earlier in the week with a company who has some sort of a group sex porn series in the works. I somehow doubt that I was right for that project, BUT I have another appointment later this afternoon with another studio who's owner I really admire, so I'm looking forwards to that.

    Looks like I'm one of's "featured peeps" for October, so check it out here:

    Also a big thank you to all my myspace friends for putting me over the 15,000 friends mark! I'll start adding more myspace goodies and photos this month to my profile:

    Thursday, October 01, 2009

    It's been a good week so far - uneventful...just the way I like it right now. I've mainly been busy with webcam shows and keeping my mind focused on achieving a few financial goals by the end of this year.

    I've been using twitter a bit more as of late than I used to: