Sunday, December 26, 2010

Well for those of you who keep up with the happenings in "Monica Foster Land", you know I've been in the news a bit lately. A part of me feels like "oh shit, should have made a different life choice once again", but another part of me knows that I did the right thing in speaking up, because though I personally am not looking any longer for anything of which I initially felt was owed to me a few days ago, I definitely saved countless women from falling prey to a true predator.

I may wind up with legal issues due to the tactics of which I took to ensure that Dykstra's days of conning escorts are over (or at least more widely known), but I feel that on a universal and spiritual level I quite possibly evened out a karmic embalance for myself and many other women who have taken a path similar to my own.

Since dealing with my current situation, I've found that many people within the adult entertainment circuit will become quite angry if your actions don't fall in line with their agendas. I've been asked to post the bounced check in regards to my current situation online on a certain adult industry forum. Initially I would have if I had a copy in my possession (I have to wait to receive a copy from my bank at this stage - the particular bank I have an account with doesn't provide you with an online scan when you cash it directly with a teller), but after rethinking the situation...absolutely not. I will only be posting my proof on my own venues or via a mainstream news source.

Interestingly since the individuals who moderate that particular forum haven't gotten their way, their true colors have shone through. The mainstream media has labeled me as a "hooker" yes - it's a harsh term but I can deal with it. In contrast however, a few within the porn arena have decided to let their true confederate flag flying nature show (of which I've written about in the past on my blog and have called me a "nigger", "black bitch", etc - oh and of course posting various photos of monkeys and labeling them as "Monica Foster" as well (as I've said in the past, if you're a black considering entering porn - please wait till I open my own ethnic content studio before coming out to LA - too many KKK rejects are running loose in porn valley as of current, and much of the ethnic populace here is too intimidated to speak up about it).

People who I thought had similar views to myself (and simple common sense) have turned on me. It's very telling, and disappointing - especially being that it's been revealed to me who really owns and runs the adult industry's most controversial online discussion forum ( yep the one that gives porn stars real names and addresses if they don't follow the owners' agenda of creating a "new world order" in porn).

If this particular forum continues to attack me (as silly and childish as the attacks are) I will provide the name of who really runs it (and it really is not who most people think it'll be as shocked as I was to find out - though in many ways it makes perfect sense)- But then again I may not have to, the 2 individuals who informed me have much more reason to out the names than I do.


One thing I've learned over the past year, is that in our society, women like me are consistently silenced and labeled as "dumb", "a loudmouth", "too outspoken", a "man-hater", "a slut", etc. I suppose on some level all of those labels fit, but guess what? I'm just the first major wave of such a woman. I will not back down, I'm not afraid of pain, I will not be silenced, I will continue to live independently, I will continue to set my own price/worth, I will continue to enjoy sex with hot men (of my choosing) and I will not ever give up on my dreams, ambitions or goals.

The most shocking part of having worked in porn and the world of adult entertainment was to learn that it's many of the individuals (specifically certain men) who work behind the scenes who are most threatened by women such as myself. I think mainstream America in actuality is much more prepared and ready to embrace the "type of woman" that I am (because the numbers of women like me are rapidly growing) , then the adult industry, which is who has the real problem with women like me.

The false image the porn industry creates (which in reality is nothing more than a controlled "doll"), which they own and portray as being a "free sexual spirit and self possessed" has been outed as a sham at this stage. Really take a good look at the lives of MANY of the "adult star's" images you see splashed all over adult trade mediums and pranced around at conventions...really LOOK - the facade of success, wealth & security these adult actresses display quite often is totally false and is manufactured by their "keepers" behind the scenes . Porn videos are not the true money maker of the "porn industry" - it's the activity that I'm currently being condemned for that's the true cash cow for many in adult entertainment.

It's the uncontrollable independent women of which the porn industry truly fears and encourages America to fear, because without that fear, the adult entertainment industry wouldn't still be trucking along (though it's currently rolling down the road with at least 2 flat tires).

Actually the adult entertainment industry would make far more in the future and have less of a stigma attached to its female talents using the image of a woman who embodies qualities similar to my own, but it would take a population of women behind the scenes for that to happen. Unforunately these beta males currently running the show aren't going to disappear until they are forced too (or just die off). Why, because they're like drug addicts, and their "drug of choice" is the small population of adult industry actors and actresses of which they currently hold under their thumb (I'll explain more in my next blog).

So all in all though my holiday was tainted by me taking an unforeseen side trip down a path I hadn't imagined I'd ever experience, other elements of my holiday worked out well. I visited with my wonderful mother, sister and nephew. In a couple of months I will make an effort to visit with my father too (we connected via phone this holiday and I shared with him lots of photos and video i took with my phone).

I decided to repaint and decorate my nephews room while visiting. It was hard work but worth it (plus drinking wine while painting is always fun). It's amazing that regardless of what life throws at you, when you reconnect with where you originate from - nothing else seams nearly as important as you may have initially thought it was.

So to conclude, I feel the rest of this year and 2011 will be great! I've learned more in the past 2 years than many learn in a lifetime. Ive sesen so much and done so much...and I'm just getting started....

Don't miss the live broadcast of on December 27th at 10pm pst :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Sometimes in life we make mistakes. Other times we're simply too trusting. Regardless none of use deserve to be treated like crap by people who believe their better than others or "entitled" to whatever they want because they are or were wealthy.

I'm standing up for myself and other women who have found themselves in my situation in this video.

Never be afraid to speak up and fight back. You messed with the wrong woman Lenny Dykstra!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Well it appears that the person who screwed me over financially either doesn't have enough respect for others to pay me what he owes me, OR he simply doesn't have the money. Regardless I'm going public with this because I'll be damned if this asshole jerk cons any other women.

I invite you all to read

I've kept me mouth shut about many things on many occasions but I will not in regards to this situation and individual. I know I may be possibly incrimnating myself by coming forward and speaking up about what happened on Deceber 13th, 2010 but I have nothing to lose at this point being that my holiday has been ruined.

Be careful of who you fuck over in life people - sometimes the least likely of people will be the ones who rip your head off. No one is more dangerous than someone who has nothing left to lose and now, I'm in debt and have no holiday. Lenny Dykstra - suffer my wrath.
2011 is just around the corner and I'm very excited! I know that this year will be GREAT because I'm going to make it great.

I haven't written a blog in quite some time, mainly due to my other projects being as time consuming as they are - so here's an update.

*My first book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook (which is available on is doing very well. Simply completing it and managing to put it out there for sale was an accomplishment in itself and a fantastic way to conclude 2010. My next book Getting Into Porn - The Journeys (well, more like the first installment in the series) is nearing completion and I will most likely look into turning it into a screenplay mid 2011.

*My little broadcast is doing well too! I have a few surprises of which I'll be implementing into the show in 2011 so keep watching.

*I'm working on a joint venture with comedians Thomas Ward and Brittany Blaze. I rarely am willing to work with others on much of anything, but these to individuals are so talented, that I feel it would be a huge mistake not to create something wonderful with them.

*This is an odd point to make, but I recently bought some bindis, and will be sporting them this year :)

*I'm in the process of revising my script for the first adult feature/parody I hope to be able to release 7/7/2011. All I need now is the capital to get production rolling.

*On a negative note, someone who I thought initially was trustworthy has attempted to rip me off. I'm pretty upset about this being that it's heavily effected my holiday plans, but I have a feeling that the power of the internet will assist me in getting back what I'm owed. The person only has 24 hours before I name them and they have much more to lose than I.

So that's about it. I feel great and if you check my last broadcast I look great as well :) I'm heading back to Florida for Christmas in a couple of days. It will be nice to see my family, however I will be very glad to get back to California to continue my work, and life.

I've learned quite a bit this year - about myself, about others and about how the world really works. Since learning certain key life elements, I find myself waking up in the morning (or evening - depending upon what sleep schedule I'm on at the time) with a zest for life like I've never had in the past. I actually wish I never had to sleep at times (unless it's with a sexy 21 year old who looks like Justin Timberlake of course) and I'm much more accepting of myself and others who I feel are worth it.

I no longer feel guilt when it comes to telling people who are not worth it to get the fuck out of my life and not to bother me anymore. I had to do yet another "cleaning house" of my social circle recently. I do give people chances, but if they can't (or won't) get it together I will not expend my energy on them any more.

I've come to realize that I'm a "certain type" of woman. As of current I have to define myself as a "Single Swinger" - yea yea, I know that sounds weird, but it's who I am. I wish I'd realized that about myself actually prior to entering the adult entertainment world - but actually when I think about it, maybe the adult entertainment world is what helped me in discovering certain qualities within myself of which I was initially afraid of embracing.

A good friend of mine, Julie Meadows, touches on certain annoying things that anti-porn activist Shelley Lubben preaches - one of those phrases being "You were meant for more than porn". I think that's an interesting statement, because it's all about perspective.

What is "more" than porn? What is "less" than porn?

Another good friend of mine Brittany Blaze brought up an interesting point to me when we were discussing my book on video for her youtube channel. I brought up my thoughts about how I feel you need to enter the porn industry with a financial "cushion" or a bit of money saved in case things don't work out - and she countered with that for many women - entering the porn industry is one of their ONLY options for survival and that is a girl is coming from "the boonies with brown teeth getting fucked in her ass everyday by her dad", that a decent looking guy offering her $1000 to do the same thing is like hitting the lottery for the girl.

I hate to say it, but I agree with Brittany, and if you look closely at a few of the "top" performers in the porn industry - they truly were once the girl the Brittany described (whether they want to admit it or not).

I've come to realize that in life I've been a bit "spoiled". Not in every regard - but due to my background, personal taste, and methodical way of thinking, I've tended to be able to always put myself into situations of which I can walk on the wild side, but have the luxury of experiencing only the mildest aspects of the wild arenas. My life has been difficult in some ways, but really never that bad - I'm quite fortunate.

If I'd known more about acceptably open relationships and lifestyles (but how could I have being that it's more of a west coast thing from what I can observe), I probably never would have done porn. Porn really was just a venue for me to be more of an exibitionist than I already was, fuck a lot (I hadn't fucked much prior to doing porn in all honesty) & lay some ground work to make some money.

I admitted to my Dad in an email recently that I think I require 100 times more attention than most people. I personally don't think anything's wrong with embodying that quality, because we're all different...but one thing I do know now is that due to me needing so much consistent interaction with the opposite sex, at this stage of my life I most likely can't be in a single monogamous relationship (and frankly I DON'T WANT TO BE). I'm reaching my peak psychologically, mentally and sexually as a woman and I feel that I need about 12 boyfriends in order satisfy my needs - in other words a "reverse harem".

12 would be a perfect number of men for me because I could see each 2 to 3 times a month without the relationship with any of them ever growing stale (at least not for about 7 to 8 months). Ideally I'd like to find a group of men of varying ages and ethnicities - however I'd prefer for at least 6 of the men to be around 21 years old and REALLY cute (as I'm approaching 32 years old, I'm starting to understand VERY well why older men date women as young as they can get away with dating - Just call me black Demi Moore).

Yea, it's POSSIBLE there is ONE man out there who has the strength of 12 men (I personally believe it's Theo Theodoridis), but I haven't met him yet.

Well that's about it, I need to get back to work now recruiting for my reverse harem and continuing to progress my other projects. See you on December 27th on for the next live broadcast of

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Check out my latest broadcast of Monica @ Home (

Doesn't my hair look pretty :)

I'm feeling great!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Another new broadcast of Monica @ Home (

On this broadcast I discuss the recent closure of AIM by California (Los Angeles) health officials, Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers), my views on adult and mainstream talent agent's responsibilities to who they represent (their clients) and my new book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook which is available on

Thursday, December 09, 2010

Well, here's my first "mainstream" role in a short film by director, actor and comedian Thomas Ward of

A special Monica Foster @ Home ( - I share thoughts on Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers) latest stance on condoms being mandatory in porn since he's contracted HIV.

Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Another new broadcast of Monica @ Home (

Friday, December 03, 2010

Another Monica @ Home (

Saturday, November 27, 2010

This is probably one of my most entertaining Monica @ Home ( shows to date. Enjoy!!!

Part 1

Part 2

Check out the rest of the broadcast (parts 3 and 4) on my YouTube channel

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Another new broadcast of

On this installment I discuss James Bartholet's Acting Workshop, my new book "Getting Into Porn - The Handbook", and more.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

I'm officially a published author now. My book "Getting Into Porn - The Handbook" is AVAILABLE NOW in Kindle / Ipad format on (click here to purchase)

The book should be available in paperback on Amazon around December 1st - make sure when you purchase the paperback book, you purchase the "final edition" version (I found some editing errors that I missed in the first edition - hey no one's perfect).

I've already begun my next book "Getting Into Porn - The Journeys" so I'll keep you all posted :)

Friday, November 12, 2010

I finally finished my first actual BOOK. Yep, I'm a crazed drunk loon oneday, and a productive author the next.

My book "Getting Into Porn - The Handbook" (currently available for pre-sale as an ebook on ) has been submitted to the publisher and I should receive the proof for review in a few days and I am SOOOOOO excited!

This book will be the first of a 3 part series on my experiences, thoughts and suggestions for the American pornographic industry.

Book 1: Getting Into Porn - The Handbook
Book 2: Getting Into Porn - The Journey
Book 3: Getting Out Of Porn - The Aftermath

Believe it or not, there are things in the books that are NOT on my blogs and websites.

I hope those of you out there will purchase and enjoy the book series, but if not - that's OK by me because I'll be pleased as punch just looking at the books on my coffee table in the future :)

Yep, even when it seems like I'm slackin...I'm still a busy bee....buzzzzzzzzzzz

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that
life is showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know...?
Do you get
What you're hoping for
When you look behind you
There's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know...?

The above lyrics are from the theme to "Mahogany" (sung by Diana Ross).

Everytime I think I know where I'm going in life, and feel I have a grasp as to what's going on, I find my perspective broadened even more. At times it's annoying, but at other times it's entertaining.

Here's one piece of life advice though girls and boys...DO NOT buy Franzia boxed wine UNLESS you are planning on having a huge party and want to save money on alcohol.

Why? Well it's hard to judge how much you are consuming...especially when you're just chilling at home listening to good music...and you just MIGHT find yourself blacking out and then wandering out of your apartment and into the hallway dazed and confused thinking that you're lost or locked out of your apartment even though you're just a few feet away and the door is actually open.

Thank God I live in Hollywood where being "a lush" can be passed off as being "eccentric" and I live in a building where my nice neighbor down the hall had enough sense to try my door and realize that it was open, and that I was simply out of it at that moment.

Friday, November 05, 2010

"There's no such thing as free."

That seemed to be the theme phrase of which consistently popped up at random times throughout my day yesterday - and I can see why. I not only needed to hear that message - I needed to understand it and relate it to all of you - my readers, fans and friends.

Many people who work within the porn arena seem to be consistently bitching and moaning about "free" tube sites making it more difficult for porn studios, producers and companies to make money. Well it's all a crock of shit - because the larger studios and companies are making MUCH more money than they EVER have due to all of the free content circulating - the only thing is that it's only a FEW key studios and companies making the money. They are giving away the product for free in order to squeeze out the competition, indoctrinate the upcoming generation of consumers to only like THEIR product, and to justify paying the talent, production crews and small scale content developers less. IT'S ALL A GREAT BIG SCAM.

How do I know this? Well it's begun to happen in MY primary market of porn - webcamming...and I am VERY upset and I'm not going to go down without sinking my venomous teeth into certain parties first, unless I get a payoff.

About a year or so ago - a little website popped up called - seemed harmless enough so of course I signed up as webcam girl and have logged on to work every now and then. I will not anymore though - want to know why? Because I can't make any money on their network - and neither can anyone else.

The site itself makes plenty and the audience LOVES it because it's "FREE". You can (and are encouraged to) get completely naked ("tastefully" of course) in free chat and then BEG for the viewers to donate "tokens". Now do the majority of viewers donate? No. And why should they? It's "free". A few nice guys here and there do though and most likely the actual website moderators do some donation "simulations" from behind the scenes to make it look like the money is flowing to the performers, but is it really? No. Also keep in mind that keeps a large percentage of each performer's "donations". has fucked it up for other GOOD, fair, professional and hardworking webcam networks such as and - both of which feature free CLOTHED chat, but make the viewers pay in order to see more.

Look, I am all about change and progress but I am very ANTI-SLAVERY and business model is all about turning good webcam girls into essentially STREET BEGGARS and SLAVES.

It has gotten so bad for webcam girls at this stage, that even on the GOOD webcam network sites, the viewers have been so conditioned as to how works that they consistently berate and insult the cam models, because they are not getting to see whatever they want for "FREE".

Being a webcam girl used to give the model the power to name her price. Now, it has changed to where the viewer decides what he feels like "donating" AFTER he's received the product. I refuse to allow someone else to decide what I'm worth. I DECIDE WHAT I AM WORTH.

Seems to me that the porn industry started to notice that webcam girls were making a good living independently and though they have MILLIONS of dollars, it just was not enough so now through , large key porn companies have decided to roadblock me from being able to make just enough money to pay my rent and bills.

On many occasions I will be online doing webcam shows in the free chat section and I consistently have viewers say "hey, let's chat for FREE, but I don't need a live show because while we're chatting I'm watching you get fucked in a porn scene I found you in on a FREE TUBE site".

So I've basically been totally roadblocked as a pornstar AND webcamgirl.

Unless a guy is a true fan, I can't make any money through my doing live webcam shows much anymore. I don't receive any residuals for any of the porn movies I've done. If I ever were to shoot a scene for another porn studio again, I doubt the rate I'd be offered for a scene would be over $700. I will never be a "contract girl" being that I'm almost 32 years old and black - and it's not likely that my investor will come through in the end for me to even start my own production company properly.

I need a regular job at this stage, and I'm not even certain where to begin to look being that I haven't had a non-adult industry related job since about 2002. I definitely am intelligent and embody a certain area of expertise - but it feels hopeless.

Fuck you - Fuck you tube sites which are heavily supported by Brazzers and Jules Jordan (I have a strong inclination that is SOMEHOW being backed by whoever backs Jules Jordan considering that one of his key pornstars will be signing at THEIR BOOTH at Exxxotica in New Jersey this weekend) and FUCK YOU INDIVIDUALS who have attempted to break me (yet failed) and have attempted to tell me WHAT I AM WORTH.


Wednesday, November 03, 2010

As I initially stated on the October 22, 2010 broadcast of my online adult industry show Monica @ Home ( - I "call dibs" on my very first adult parody feature (which is currently in the beginning stages of production) of which I have written, am producing, will be directing, and acting in:

"This Ain't Queen of the Damned"

Please visit the websites:

for updates over the following few months and progress reports on what I feel will wind up being one of my greatest creative works. Thank you all (my fans, friends and readers) for your continued interest and support.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Monica Foster @ Home special report on HIV, STDs, the CCR5 delta 32 gene mutation and the need for condom usage in porn

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Below is a special report I felt the need to do on www.MonicaAtHome in regards to the recent report on October 12, 2010 of a porn actor testing positive for HIV resulting in himself and an unnamed number of other performers being quarantined.

Part 1

Part 2

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Many ask why I decided to stop working as an adult actress back in early 2009 - there are many reasons why (as you can read on my blogs: and ) but a primary reason had to do with realizing that I felt that maintaining my health and living life free of STD's far outweighed any amount of money I could have earned as a "pornstar".

Today while checking the adult industry news website and blogs to collect material for my weekly broadcast I came across the following post on : - HIV POSITIVE AT AIM?

Allegedly a male "crossover" performer (a male adult actor who works in both gay and straight porn)has tested HIV positive via AIM ( and consequently as of current 1 female talent and 3 male talents who have had exposure to him are now quarantined from the adult movie talent pool (reportedly the number of quarantined individuals is growing).

I've stated many times over the past year or so that NOW IS NOT THE TIME to attempt a career as a porn talent. If you want to get in on the adult entertainment world start as a SOLO WEBCAM model FROM THE COMFORT AND SAFETY of your OWN HOME.

Full report plus my thoughts (video blog - Monica @ Home special report) on the "California porn actor who tested HIV positive - several other quarantined" news story - click here.

Here is a link to the confirmation of the rumor on

And another link as reported via the LA Times:

Monday, October 11, 2010

Familiarize with the following:

...whether you are my friend or foe (it really doesn't matter who you are - I love the game...and those who love the game are the best players).

Saturday, October 09, 2010

Another fresh installment of Monica @ Home from 10-01-2010 - more on

Part 1

Part 2

Friday, October 08, 2010

Finally getting some of the Monica @ Home archives on! Enjoy.

10-6-2010 part 1

10-6-2010 part 2

10-6-2010 part 3

09-17-2010 part 1

09-17-2010 part 2

more on !

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

Pay It Forward

There have been many instances in my life of which people I've barely known or who I haven't known at all, have gone out of their way to help me - so now it's time for me to do the same and to ask you, my readers, fans and friends to do the same as well.

Please visit the following blog:

Read and familiarize yourself with the information both posted on and linked to from the blog and then hand write, notarize and mail in the attached petition no later than October 14th.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Sunday, October 03, 2010

Asking for Help, Giving Thanks, Taking & Receiving

I'm in the middle of reading an excellent book right now that was recommended to me by someone who guides many. Actually I've read another good book as well lately, which was recommended to me by my father entitled "Who Moved My Cheese".

The book I'm reading as of current though, has really made me re-evaluate my past mindset and views when it comes to asking for help, giving thanks, taking and receiving.

I've always been a giver (an excessive giver in fact) mainly because it's something that has always been easy for me to do. I've also never had a problem saying "thank you" - even when the thanks wasn't always warranted.

I've had two things of which in the past I've always had trouble doing however:

1) Asking for help.
2) Receiving

Sometimes it simply takes admitting yourself and identifying your troubles and issues in order to get past them - amazing how that is.

By creating and I know I've helped many who are active within the adult entertainment industry in creating a better career for themselves. Through my websites - primarily and it's attached social networking profiles I know that I've set an example as to how work and build a career for yourself within the adult entertainment industry independently.

I've received many emails from quite a few men and women expressing gratitude and I've been touched. However I have noticed, especially as of late, that there are a number of individuals who are using my work as a template/outline/example - yet are not acknowledging (or even saying a simple "thank you") so.

Furthermore a few of these individuals have outright attacked and/or attempted to bash me professionally and personally without just cause. I do not like this.

Interestingly enough certain individuals who have displayed such behavior have found that they've fallen upon troubles when it comes to their projects (in one case a person's entire website seems to have disappeared). Perhaps if they'd given thanks appropriately, rather than being dysfunctional - karma would not have bit them in the ass.

Lesson learned here? Find a balance in life - ask for help when needed, say thank you when appropriate - give and receive in a balanced fashion.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Monica At Home

Another fresh installment of Monica @ Home - I discuss Isis Taylor , Little Lupe Fuentes , the "This Ain't Avatar" Fleshlight , "Who Moved My Cheese" by Spencer Johnson M.D. and much more. Enjoy.

(correction - the Isis Taylor interview is by Cindi Loftus - not Rock Pepe )

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Short blog tonight, but felt the need to update since my last entry:

I'm very pleased to announce that I finally "officially" (I love that word) have a purpose driven life. I thought I did before but I wasn't quite an adult and awake yet. I suppose sometimes it takes a life changing event (which can often be a cleverly wrapped gift) to finally push you through the door into reality.

I was motivated before, but lets say that if my motivation level was on floor 12 of a 100 story building, I've just beamed up to floor 85 (keep in mind I don't know exactly HOW tall the building actually is).

Like today's most influential artists (think Madonna, Cher, Michael Jackson, Prince) , I believe in the need to reinvent yourself from time to time - why? Because if you're not consistently evolving, then you might as well not be walking this earth.

I thought I was taking "Monica Foster" and "Mighty Afrodite" and my other projects in a certain direction - but it looks like I'll be heading in a different direction.

I need to make a few things clear - my views, perspectives, beliefs and ideas are mine and mine alone. I am completely independent as of current in virtually all areas of my life - especially when it comes to my spirituality. I believe in God - but I have my own view and feel of God. I don't identify with any one particular religion and I'd appreciate it if those out there who read my writings and watch my videos NOT attempt to force their views and/or agendas upon me. In other words - DO NOT ATTEMPT TO RECRUIT ME.

I've come to realize (especially after my recent brush with some extreme negativity, evil and darkness) that finding an internal "balance" is important, however I've also come to realize that I'm definitely someone who is here to assist in tipping the scales on an energetic and universal level towards the positive, good & light.

I knew all along that working independently was the way I needed to go - I suppose I simply had to test the waters and see what it was like working with various "teams" (I needed to know) - and it looks like that what I felt in my soul was correct all along.

This is a picture from Helen Folasade Adu 's website - I really love it.

Remember to always treat others with the same regard of which you'd want to be treated.

Monday, September 27, 2010

The woman who created Monica Foster learned more about her past, current and future self over the past few days, than she could have ever imagined.

I'm wide awake, and I'm very angry about some things I didn't notice while I was drowsy.

In life we don't get to pick what we're born into, however we have the ability to choose what we become - and sometimes what we become, is something that we were once before (and in some cases a much more evolved version).

To those who understand what this blog is about - I'm not going anywhere regardless of certain negative individuals efforts. I will be living a VERY long life here on earth and I'm ready to do what I need to do to assist in getting this world where it needs to be.

I made the choice to be in it, and as always, I'm in it to win it.

ps: God has a lot of patience and a great sense of humor.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Just a quick blog to let you all know that I'm not all work - sometimes I do actually get out and about to shake my groove THANG :)

I went to a fantastic VMA afterparty last night which was organized by (I even got to ride in an AWESOME limo to the party with about 20 other hotties).

Here's a "pre-party" photo with the beautiful Eva Ellington.

Thursday, September 09, 2010

As many of you who are my "regular readers" may have noticed, I've slowed down a bit on my regular blogging - and it's due to quite a few reasons - from realizing that there are some vital things in my life I need to attend to in order to put things on the correct track, to simply not wanting to share all of my ideas in regards to a few projects I have in the works.

Los Angeles - it's not really the city of dreams - it's the city of DREAM & IDEA THIEVES. Unfortunately many who reside here couldn't come up with an original idea or concept to save their life. I don't mind in assisting in the natural progression of things to come, but I DO mind others twisting something that may be good, positive, wonderful and progressive into a concept that is self serving to only a few (which is why I find it difficult to find others to work with professionally in this city).

A good friend of mine has helped me in MANY ways on my journey to where ever it is that I ultimately may end up - and his only request has been that I "pay it forward". In today's world - that's an idea that many know of, but few actually live by. My goal in life is to live by that ideal to the best of my ability.

Recently I've noticed in the adult industry news that there's been talk of a new "adult industry"/"porn industry" business model that supposedly has been launched and put into action by Vivid Entertainment (one of the largest and most successful porn studios as of current). Well, yea...exploiting celebrities and their kids, who are down on their luck I suppose COULD be considered a new "business model"...however is this concept to say that nowdays following your dream to reach your personal concept of "heaven" as an artist or entertainer can in the end land you in the pit of "hell" which is what the current state and attitude of the porn industry is?

Some may argue with me and say "Oh, porn didn't work out for you or simply wasn't for you so why are you deeming it as hell?" - hmmm, well porn actually DID work out for me in regards to progressing my long term goals which I didn't even REALIZE were my long term goals at the time, and as for porn not being for me...well it's not for me as a talent true, but that doesn't mean that I won't be around in other capacities...

Look, lets face some facts here: If the CURRENT state of porn wasn't so "hellish" then why is it that so many porn "stars" are scrambling over each other left and right to make it into "mainstream" entertainment? Just take a look at , and to see what I mean - every single time a "porn star" gets even the most MINUTE mainstream gig it's plastered all over the front page of such websites - it's rather comical at this stage.

If the current state of porn wasn't "hellish" then why are so many "pornstars" essentially homeless and "couch surfing"? Seems to me that more "porn professionals" who handle these "pornstars" aren't doing their job in helping these men and women make a living - it amazes me that top adult industry "agents" and "pr companies" are even still seen as "credible" considering the impoverished lifestyles their clients lead.

In actuality there is another "business model" for porn AND mainstream entertainment alike which is glaring everyone right in the fucking face, but few want to really take the time to look at, because the true NEW "adult and mainstream entertainment industry business model" is a model of which any INDIVIDUAL or very small team of people can implement into their adult entertainment industry careers - minus middlemen, minus agents, and minus large (and unnecessary) production companies.

When I first entered the "porn industry" back in March of 2008 and I related to other "porn industry professionals" who I came across what I was doing with my website, webcam shows and other ventures the majority belittled my ideas and concepts - well that was short sighted (and quite telling) on their part because as of current the "webcam girl" phenomenon is growing by leaps and bounds DAILY. Even long time "retired" pornstars are jumping on the bandwagon of which I have been on since 2002.

Being an individual and solo webcam girl is WHERE IT'S AT right now in the world of adult entertainment (the young girls get it and from what I can see - the smart pornstars and exotic dancers are quickly picking up on this trend too) - I knew this back in 2002 and guess what? I know what's going to be hot in 2014 (and it "ain't" parodies OR 3d porn).

In the next few weeks on I'll rewrite the section of the site entitled "the future of porn" because it's dramatically changed even since I entered AND retired from working as an adult actress.

Am I willing to share with you what will be hot next? Yep, but not at this moment - you'll have to keep watching me to find out what the real, stable, lucrative and enjoyable "future of porn" (and entertainment in general for that matter being that my ideas are too broad at this point to restrict them only to porn) really is.

I'll give you a hint as to what the future of porn is NOT however - it's not what's being produced now - why? Because the majority of porn put out now has ZERO substance and ZERO respect for what it's based on which is SEX.

Tube sites are not what's killing porn - pirating is not what's killing porn - lack of ethnic talent or diversity is not what's killing porn. It's the LACK OF UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT SEX IS REALLY ABOUT in it's most CORE ESSENCE that is "killing" (but in my eyes clearing the way for something better) porn.

SEX = PROCREATION which in it's core essence is about LOVE. Unfortunately most of who create the current "porn" product don't know what love is, and if they do, they've chosen to take a path in the opposite direction. Right now the majority of porn produced is attempting to sell the idea that SEX = CONTROL which is an incorrect equation. The future generation of consumers have picked up on this and they don't like it. Who are the future consumers? To find out I'll suggest the book "The Care and Feeding of the Indigo Children".

Truthfully, it's not always the direct fault of some who have gotten into the "adult content development game" as to why they can't see or understand this simple fact - they either entered "porn world" WAY to young OR they entered from a very damaged place in life and they haven't repaired their flawed thought processes.

Porn needs to depict RESPONSIBLE sex. Responsible Sex = Using Protection if you're not going to procreate (I have a potential directing gig for a company coming up and I've made the firm decision that if I CAN NOT depict responsible sex in what I want to produce and direct, I'll have to pass). There doesn't need to be a LAW to make this happen - people just need to use their BRAINS!

Porn also needs to stop with the hate and violence. As of current the porn industry consiously is DIVIDING humanity rather than UNITING humanity. Young people SEE, UNDERSTAND, and "GET" what's going on within the adult content marketplace and they're NOT going to spend their hard earned dollars on crap. You can NOT achieve success long term on any level via division.

The "porn industry" has a TREMENDOUS opportunity to educate young people in regards to what the HUMAN EXPERIENCE really is - I just don't understand why people who have the power as of current to take the reigns and do what's right won't get off their asses and DO IT...I'll tell you this, if certain individuals fail to do what's right, everything they have amassed via doing the WRONG thing will be taken away in the next year or so.

Someone who I used to have at least a shred of respect for, but now I realize is simply a washed up weirdo, who's been essentially replaced even (and by an industry that she panders to consistently no less) by the beautiful Misty Stone, twittered me recently accusing me of thinking I have "all the answers"...

Well I don't have many answers at all, and I don't claim to (I only have about 45 answers really in total - lol), however I do have a certain gift when it comes to identifying where industry trends are going - it's been documented at this stage.

Hell, I've entered and exited the porn industry as a "talent" within the span of under 2 years (and I've changed the industry a bit within that time), whereas this certain individual is STILL trying to maneuver her way through (and unsuccessfully I might add) it using an outdated plan which is doomed to FAIL - and in her case it's been over 5 years (which is FAR to long in my view to be a "talent" without segwaying into being primarily a studio owner/director - at this point she might as well give up and start all over again).

"Pay it forward" - as of current I'll pay it forward via teaching other people about what I've learned and observed - later I'll pay it forward to those who need it via other ways.

So all in all, these are my thoughts for tonight/this morning - this week has panned out to be relatively busy and it's still not over so catch up with me next week or feel free to say hello while I'm live on webcam for private webcam shows or on this Friday's live broadcast of

I'm not sure what I'll discuss on Friday's Monica @ Home show, but two things I WILL touch on is 1) how any porn company who's still distributing their product primarily on DVD is not even worthy of riding the short bus and 2) how fucking AWESOME liquid DnB music is and how such music increases the rate of your thought processes!


Thursday, September 02, 2010

I'm thinking I should re-title "The Official Blog of Monica Foster" to "How I Feel Today" for quite a wide array of reasons.

So lets see, how do I feel today? Well, I feel pretty damn great! I feel grounded and centered, quite happy and confident being that I'm currently only doing in life things that I feel can add positively to my future. Also overall I feel good simply about being me - I've faced and have dealt with a few personal issues I've toted around for years, and my mindset has expanded and developed tremendously.

I have a few projects I'm FINALLY completing independently and a couple new ventures I will be working on with others so I'm entering new phase professionally. I'm very fortunate to currently be surrounded by a small circle of some pretty cool individuals - It's interesting to see how the company that you keep (or don't keep) can really effect where you go in life and what can happen.

This Friday I'll be doing another installment of "" at 10pm PST on

Next Monday at 9pm PST I'll be doing members only "Club Monica" 1 hour long webcam show on my official website:

This weekend I plan on doing quite a few private webcam shows as Mighty Afrodite ( , so make sure you get a show with me through this Saturday

What I've come to realize is so fantastic (and rare within the adult entertainment industry) about having worked as independently as I have in developing "Monica Foster", is that now that I can take my persona as "Monica" (even though the persona is basically just who I really am) anywhere and into any arena of entertainment (or outside of entertainment) that I'd like.

I feel great about not being "locked in" to the adult circuit and I think deciding not to work as a talent ever again for any other adult studios other than my own was the best decision I could have made professionally (and it was probably at the best point in time I could have made that choice to boot).

"Monica Foster" might have been a "pornstar" at one point, but before being a pornstar, she was a glamour model, online personality and webcam girl and now after being a pornstar, she'll continue to do quite a few things.

Well that's about it. I'm anticipating doing quite a bit of travel over the next few months (I'm set to host a couple of events out of town), so look for blogs and videos on that :) I finally have the opportunity to get behind the camera and into the directors seat with a new adult content studio, so I'll post news on that another day. I'll also be implementing quite a few of my personal interests into "Monica Foster" a bit more so check in with me frequently!

See you all online soon!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

08-23-2010 Broadcast (part 1) of Monica @ Home (

Watch the rest of this broadcast and the show's archives on !

Saturday, August 21, 2010

New blogs beginning September 01, 2010

Monday, August 09, 2010

Today I am bopping around my apartment to a Pandora station I created based on the song "Hey Soul Sister" by Train while I clean and getting everything in order for the week. I had a pretty good weekend from Friday to Sunday which brought me a nice and productive state of mind to begin the week within.

Friday I took a walk around Hollywood - though I anticipate my departure from this city shortly, I'm still taking the time to enjoy my surroundings. My move here from Fort Lauderdale, Florida was one of the most difficult undertakings of my life, however I don't want to look back on this time of my life and only associate it with negative feelings and events (because there were many good times too) - so I'm making the effort to create some positive associations as well to balance the scale - hell maybe to tip the scale more towards the light rather than the dark.

On Friday's walk, I spotted an interesting individual - he was definitely bold and darking with his choice of clothing and I thought it was fabulous (not too many men can pull off lime green leggings, with a hot pink hooded tunic and black cowboy boots) - so I pretended to be a stealth paparazzi photographer and followed him for a few blocks from a distance and took some photos of him with my iphone camera.

Saturday I took some time to listen to Eminem's new album - I'm very impressed with 2 of his new songs "Love the way you lie" and "Not Afraid". The first song brought me to a few self actualizations - the latter inspired me to DEFINITELY continue with my current project

Sunday I stopped by the Hollywood and Highland mall to run a few errands. One of my favorite stores there is Express - I stopped in and the store brought back so many fun memories. Back in south florida when I was around 18 I worked at an Express in Pompano Beach mall - those were some good times. Later that afternoon I enjoyed a very relaxing and laid back afternoon filled with Mimosa's at one of my favorite local brunch spots with a good friend of mine who I met a few months after I relocated here. He wasn't feeling well (he'd gone out and partied the night before) but he still made the effort to get out the house and hang out with me. He's one of the few males that I've met in Los Angeles who respects my unusual way of living and is fine with simply being my friend - it's a wonderful blessing to have a friend like him.

So that was my weekend - I anticipate this being a pretty good week. I'll be doing my private webcam shows of course along with Monica @ Home in the evenings today, Wednesday and Friday. At some point this week I need to edit and post on my interview with Angelique DeLeone (of from last Friday.

Wednesday I'm planning on having some people over for dinner - I'll probably cook a lasagna yet again - but maybe I'll make something else special to go along with it - who knows...

Though I'm feeling relatively settled and relaxed as of current, I feel a little odd - not really anxious, but as if I am anticipating or expecting's hard to explain. I'm far from psychic but I'm definitely intuitive so whatever is coming - I hope it's good - I don't have a negative overlay associated with how I'm feeling, so it probably will be good (and hopefully interesting). Regardless generally change and new additions to our experience here on this planet IS good :)

Saturday, August 07, 2010

So, for those of you who watch my online show - you know that I've been doing a lot of coverage as of late on the Montana Fishburne sextape. I felt the need to write a blog tonight as to exactly why I've been all over this particular news item, and why I feel others need to be aware of exactly what is going on with Montana.

I've worked in the adult entertainment industry now in total for around 8 years. I began as an exotic dancer back around 2002, transitioned into webcamming, then into the porn industry about 2 and a half years ago, and now I'm back to primarily being a webcam girl.

I'm currently working on cleaning up my life a bit, furthering my career endeavors and in general - creating a life for myself I can truly be proud of. As of current, I'm only comfortable performing in front of the camera sexually solo. Honestly, unless I enter a committed relationship with someone, who is comfortable with being sexual on camera with me (yes, I'm talking the Sunny Leone route), I doubt I'll ever shoot a boy/girl scene again.

Don't get me wrong, I think the adult entertainment industry is a valid industry and I've enjoyed working within it - however it could be better. There are many good people who are true professionals who work within porn who I've met, and I am fairly positive I will work in the adult entertainment world (most likely in a behind the scenes capacity) for the rest of my life. I have a tremendous passion and interest when it comes to adult entertainment - however I feel some major changes HAVE TO be made in regards to protecting the health and the safety of the performers. I also feel that those entering the industry need to be far more educated and aware as to exactly how the porn industry really works and what to expect once in - along with what to expect from society outside of the porn industry.

For example - young women entering porn need be told to do the following:

1) Research thoroughly all aspects of the sect of the adult entertainment industry you are entering
2) Really think through your choice as to why you want to enter adult entertainment 3) Really consider who's life you may change who is close to you by your making the decision to work within the adult entertainment industry.

Upon my entering the world of adult entertainment, I addressed the first 2 of the above points, however I didn't address the 3rd - which is why the Montana Fishburne news item has affected me so greatly.

By my entering the porn industry - I shamed my family. Yes, they still love me - however our relationship is forever changed. I may never regain their full trust and respect again. That simple fact has killed a part of and has forever changed the woman who created "Monica Foster".

Someone in the chat room tonight during the broadcast of asked me if I have any regrets - the answer is yes. If I had known back in March of 2008 how greatly my choice to enter the porn industry would effect my family, I never would have done it. The price I've paid for many of the exciting, fun and life changing experiences that being "Monica Foster" has granted me, has been the distance that has developed between myself and my family. The financial gain (which wasn't that much in the long run) and life experiences weren't worth AT ALL the change that I've experienced in my relationship with my loved ones.

Some have asked me if exotic dancing and/or webcamming can have the same impact on a person's life as being a "pornstar". Well I suppose it's all perspective - however in my eyes exotic dancing is fairly mild (if you can stay away from drugs and alcohol) - though it's "in person performance" it's not recorded on video for the world to see.

Webcamming is generally (at least in my case) solo - also it's generally something you can do from the comfort and safety of your own home. You can even "block" certain regions from viewing you which can substantially lower the chances of people you know ever finding out you're a performer".

The porn industry (or should I say system) is a bit different though. There are circuits of people within the porn industry and circling around the perimeter of the porn industry who are VERY dangerous and VERY predatory (many people in and around porn are CONSISTENTLY trying to pressure you into illegal escorting the moment you shoot your first adult scene). I suppose you could say the same for the exotic dancer world - but from my experience - it's simply not the same.

I entered the porn circuit at 29 - and from working in the exotic dancing circuit I was already pretty aware, "street smart", and savvy in regards to knowing how to avoid certain types of dangerous situations. However this young woman Monatana is not - she's 19 years old and considering that she's from a fairly sheltered background - and considering that, plus the fact that she is the daughter of someone who has quite a lot of money - she is in literal danger as of current in my view.

The current individuals in the porn industry surrounding Montana should have initially done the right thing the moment they realized who's daughter she was, by telling her to "go home" and/or by contacting the Laurence Fishburne camp to notify him as to what his daughter was getting herself into. However no one had a conscience and did so - they simply saw dollar signs.

In my eyes (though Montana IS of age and is technically an adult), I feel that she is essentially being held hostage via the psychological manipulation of her "management" aka pimp. The people around her have failed to educate her to the true facts of the adult entertainment industry, and she is very naive as to how the business end of the industry truly works - which is evident in this interview with Montana that AVN just published (I hope TO GOD that when she launches her website, everything is AT LEAST in HER NAME so that she owns it).

As of current it has been exposed to THE WORLD via a young woman who was close to Montana Fishburne named "NeNe" (you can watch the video interview here), that the young man Montana is "dating" has encouraged her to work as a prostitute.

I created back in July of 2009 to try to reach young women (girls) like 19 year old Montana Fishburne - however I think I need to possibly do more (and so do other current and ex adult entertainers who feel as I do).

I strongly feel at this point that for the adult entertainment industry to survive and be seen in the future as a valid and legitimate industry, the health and safety of the talent will have to be taken much more into account, the compensation the talent receives will need to be standardized, and lastly the age limit for performers will need to be raised to 21 years old.

I'm nervous at this stage in the Montana Fishburne sextape "scandal" that other young women from middle class backgrounds will think that it's "cool" and "trendy" and "rebellous" to get into porn (much like how Montana thought the emulating Kim Kardashian was a good idea). These young women will not be aware as to how treacherous the porn entertainment industry truly is, which MAY just be what many in the porn industry want - to recruit fresh young naive meat.

In the future, when I launch my adult production label/studio (I feel I literally HAVE TO at this point in order to be at least one "safe island" for those entering the dangerous sea which is the porn industry), I will implement within my own workplace the ideals of which I have for the porn industry as a whole. I suppose I won't be as successful financially as other studios but I feel like the whole reason my life has taken the path of which is has, was so that I could witness some wrongs and at least attempt to take a stand to set an example to others as what is RIGHT.

I wish Montana Fishburne the best (I hope she gathers enough common sense relatively soon to realize that if she IS to continue in the adult world, she needs to develop a solid plan for herself INDEPENDENTLY and that she needs to stop hanging around trash and pimps.) and I hope the her father Laurence Fishburne can reach her, and help her - he needs to.

I suppose I'm very very very fortunate to have the father and mother that I do because though I disappointed them - they helped me when I really needed it recently and they encouraged me to do better for myself - thanks Mom & Dad.

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Another broadcast of Monica At Home on

On this broadcast I primarily discuss a recent rumor pertaining to Bethany Benz (Caviar from "For the Love of Ray J ) and why it's important for African American women to support each other within the adult entertainment industry.

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

The past few weeks I have struggled - not just with external and material matters, but with internal as well - I can honestly define this time period over the past few weeks as some of my "darkest hours".

But guess what - darkness doesn't last forever...

The August sun has begun to rise - and with it - I rise - like a fiery phoenix from the ashes.

I have had more support, words or encouragement and words of wisdom from the most unlikeliest of sources over the past few days and I am BEYOND grateful - and humbled.

I work very hard - I know that some (from a certain school of WEAK, PAST DATED and PROGRAMMED thought) may feel that my projects, dreams and endeavors are by lack of better terms "frivolous" and "pointless" - but apparently to many of you out there (and to ME) - they are making a DIFFERENCE and ARE NOT, and frankly that's all that matters...

I stand together with my Amazon sisters and my brothers of whom respect strong independent and self assured individuals and I say:

"I will not go quietly into the night!

I will not vanish without a fight!

I am going to live on!

I am going to survive!"

And to all you little midget bitch boys hiding behind your broken down women who have something to say to me in regards to - SAY IT TO MY FACE if you dare, because I am not alone, afraid or intimidated by the future I WILL OWN YOU and I will liberate all of whom you have suppressed. Your time has past, party's over - so go back to the sewers from which you came.

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Monday, August 02, 2010

Just a note to say a big "THANK YOU" to you all who sent words of encouragement in response to my most recent blog in regards to my move from Los Angeles.

I definitely haven't lost hope, faith or drive when it comes to my future goals, dreams and endeavors - however I suppose at times you simply have to re-work the road map of the path you've drawn out for yourself in order to reach what you are after.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

This week's Monica @ Home broadcasts have finally been posted to and

Below is Friday night's broadcast of which I focus on the recent Montana Fishburne sex tape scandal and how Brian Pumper should have stayed away from this naive and obviously confused 19 year old woman.

Below is Thursday night's broadcast specifically geared towards teens, young adults and parents in regards to:

1)young people being honest with their parent's and/or loved ones about working in adult entertainment
2)signs that parents may want to look for if they suspect their young adult children are currently working in or considering working in the porn industry.
3)Signs of which your daughter's (and in some cases son's) boyfriend may be a pimp.
4) How if your son or daughter has gone missing in their late teens, it might be beneficial for your to check adult agency websites when searching for them.

On Monday's broadcast I primarily discuss how I feel the minimum age limit to work as a porn talent needs to be raised from 18 years old to 21 years old - I think the most recent events in regards to Laurence Fishburne's daughter Montana - prove my point.