Monday, December 31, 2007

Well it's the last day of 2007. Wow, what a roller coaster of a year it's been. I'll tell you this though, my year has ended on a big fat positive rather than a negative so I'm psyched about 2008.
My New Year's Eve plans came together afterall. I know where I'll be and who I'll be hanging with AND I know what I'll be wearing (my outfit is super cute) - so I'm glad. I'll be bringing in the year sexy, sassy, and single - and I see that as a good thing.
2007 enabled me to get all the negative and toxic people out of my life, but it also opened some doors to let some really great new positive people in. I was able to mend some torn relationships with my family this year as well, which was more important than anything.
This year I will be running on fast forward all the way through. Lots and lots to do.

Saturday, December 29, 2007

Well I'm all set for New Years Eve. I still don't have definite plans but I DO have a kick ass outfit and a little cash to buy myself some drinks. That's all you really need. I was hoping to have a date, but anyone I was thinking of asking either is out of town (valid excuse), or already has plans (not a valid excuse as they COULD include me) or are broke (not a valid excuse because it shows total irresponsiblity).
The assholes who already have plans or are broke had better not bother me for the rest of the year - you gotta give to get and I'm not about chumps in '08 at all.

I will be working most of this weekend, but I might venture out either tonight or tomorrow just to socialize, listen to some music and get a few drinks. We'll see. I finally cleaned my car, hopefully in '08 I can get a convertible. :)

Thursday, December 27, 2007

I'm looking forward to New Year's Eve - I don't know exactly what I'll be doing that night or where I'll be going, but I have an idea, and I am sure I'll have a great time. So far I have 3 friends to party with, so that's all that really matters anyways.
I've been checking out the prices of most of the local New Years Eve events and it's fucking out of control. I don't think I can afford to hit a club this year. Hell, I want a nice outfit/dress to wear and if I have to buy that, there's no way I can blow $200 on a party/club entry. People are on crack.
That reminds me, this weekend I'll hit the dreaded mall to try to find one. I want something very sparkly.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Merry Christmas everyone! Check out the video below (even though I've posted it before) in honor of the holiday and what it's all really about.


Monday, December 24, 2007

It's Christmas Eve folks and believe it or not, I'm actually feeling a little "Merry". I managed to get all my shopping and shipping done on time, so I can just relax - well actually I never relax, as usual I'm working.
Though I don't want to because of a few issues and circumstances, I'm going to spend part of X-mas eve and X-mas with my family because I feel in my heart it's the "right thing" to do. It's funny how you never would imagine as a child how much your relationships with various family members can change so much - both for the better and for the worse but I guess that's just a part of life.
In other news my computer network is working BEAUTIFULLY - since I've up an independent video editing system I've been so productive and I think it will really reflect through all the additions to my websites over the next week.
Between my site updates and continued work on a few other projects, I'm going to roll into 2008 blazing, so don't stick aorund if you can't handle the heat :)

Friday, December 21, 2007

I finished all my Christmas shopping today and walked away from the experience with a new outlook on my country. I've come to realize, that electing another President, Vice President, or even continuing with our form of government overall is just yet another mistake in America's current and seemingly endless disfunctional cycle. Instead, IKEA needs to rise to power and take over America's government.
Thank God for IKEA. IKEA saved me this Christmas. IKEA truly is heaven on earth. Bright, clean, orderly, products that are simple and straight forward though designed to be rearrangable and even altered to your own specifications, friendly employees, prices I can afford, a do-it yourself enviroment....(I could go on and on).
Some conspiracy peeps say IKEA is our governament's way to introduce Americans to a more communist type system. Well if that's the case, then just call me the Hitler of furniture and other household items.
You just CAN'T BEAT IKEA. Period. If I ever have a child, I might name it IKEA (or maybe Malm). That is how impressed I cam with that company. Yes, I am a nerd.
I'll tell you what though - Sawgrass Mall can go straight to hell...and then a few levels below that as well. Sawgrass Mall is actually the current state of America. Way too big, way to many people who don't speak english, way to much useless and overpriced poor quality crap and junk and a ton of scam artists. I should have known better than to even ATTEMPT that mall but the Christmas Shopping Fever got the best of me. I'll tell u what though, I couldn't deal with that mall for any longer than an hour. Ye
I'm a green little Grinch this Christmas. I don't want to even deal with the damn holiday this year - I just want this year to be OVER because I'm ready to move on to '08.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Well, only a few days till Christmas and I still haven't done any shopping for my family or friends - just great... and I really can't handle the thought of hitting a shopping center/mall around this time of year - I live with a high level of anxiety so I do my best to avoid situations that may set me off.
Since almost everywhere is going to be busy since we're only a few days away from Chrstimas I'm going to hit probably the ONLY store that I can deal with - IKEA, so that where I will be early afternoon later today. I'm not going to totally stress, I'm just going to buy what I afford this year for close family and friends and let that be it.
I'm not making any ''New Year's" resolutions, I'm just staying on the same track I'm currently on - my main priorities as of current are to move into a nicer place, get a nicer car, open my photography studio (hopefully) , improve my wardrobe and do some traveling.

Monday, December 17, 2007

I haven't posted in a while, but mainly because I have been VERY BUSY - which is great! Along with being busy though, I'm taking more time to relax and really enjoy my life - especially over now since the holidays are coming and most likely I'll be spending it solo.
I'll be uploading my photo set next week so check it out! Also this weekend hopefully I'll get some video work done too.

Monday, December 10, 2007


Sometimes it's not until you've had a great steak from Albertson's cooked on your little George Foreman Grill, a bottle and a half of Hornsby's Amber draft, and a Marlboro Light, while watching an episode of Sex in the City while sitting on your patio that you realize that being single at 28, almost 29 really ain’t to shabby.
I think part of my problem is that sometimes I'm so consumed with finding "the one" that I don't take time to "smell the roses" and realize that my life overall is pretty damn good.
Where else in the world can I enjoy a nice winters evening on the weekend on my patio in relative summer/spring conditions while listening to some mellow
spanish music wafting on the evening breeze from my latin american neighbors apartment one over and one up from mine.
Where else in the world could I "go to work" from my bedroom at home in my lingerie and make an ok living?
Maybe somewhere, but I don't know where.
I love steak. Usually steak and shrimp, especially at a nice restaurant, but the beauty of grocery stores and their abundance of spices, sauces, and other edible supplies is that the average girl can at least attempt to do it herself. I’m thinking about taking some cooking classes for the hell of it to become a better chef. Dating a chef really isn’t a good solution because you can become dependant upon them cooking for you, and if you grow to hate who you’re dating to contemplate whether or not to break up because of the food. I think that mere situation is why many people stay together…
One thing about being single, is that you really learn how to crack yourself up (ya start to make yourself laugh).
I’m not sure I’m really even single since I have pets. My dog is great, totally my buddy and a diversion from taking myself too seriously, but the real roommate around here is my bird. This bird I have is 14 years old. Amazing. My bird has seen a lot. Luckily he can’t talk, if he could I don’t think I’d want to know what he has to say…
Last night I and my friend Amanda had a really cool "im-promptu" evening in downtown Fort Lauderdale. Just 2 friends, checking out the scene, having some drinks, flirting with some guys and then parting ways. Very cool if I say so myself.
I don't know what I'm doing for the Christmas holiday yet. As of current I don't have anything planned. A part of me wants to spend it with my family but I truly don't know if I'm ready to be the "single odd one out" in my age range amongst my family. A part of me wants to try to do a "single girls" holiday somewhere remote and exciting from my norm. Like Las Vegas....
We'll see what happens, maybe I'll just volunteer somewhere.
Monday my new computer which I will use only for video editing arrives.
I’m happy about that.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

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Monday, December 03, 2007

Tonight while doing cam shows, I listened to one of the most interesting broadcasts of Coast to Coast AM that i've heard in a long time - you can check it out here: http://www.coasttocoastam.com/shows/2007/12/01.html

The show covered the topic of "human-robot relationships in the future" in regards to love and sex with robots that look totally human. I wish I'd listened to the show live to where I could have called in because in a sense, as a cam girl - to a lot of a guys I am a bit of a "virtual girlfriend". I think my insight as to the show's topic would have been a bit different than some of the other callers.

On one hand, I think a realistic "sex robot" could be good for people who are incapable of maintaining relationships with real people, but on the other hand, it could cripple a person from TRYING to maintain a real relationship with a person.

At this point in my life, I personally wouldn't mind have a realistic "male" sex/relationship robot. Hell, it would be fun and in a way emotionally fulfilling. Of course it wouldn't be able to take the place of a real person, but for now it would work.

Actually that company "Real Doll" (www.realdoll.com) really pisses me off, because they have a HUGE assortment of dolls for men but only one model for women - what they hell is that about?

I think more women buy sex toys than men, so why wouldn't they have more male models of a real doll than female? I just don't get it.