Saturday, December 27, 2014

A feeling of Peace, Wholeness & Completion

Tonight I took a very long walk, and while I was walking I felt happy.  Not just happy though, but GRATEFUL for the life I've been given.

In the past I've written of feeling at peace, but I haven't ever felt as peaceful, centered, whole and complete as I feel at this particular moment.  Maybe it's my age, or perhaps it could be the time of year... regardless even if I didn't wake up tomorrow, I'd feel very good about how I've lived my life and the person I've become.

As always, I have goals I'd like to accomplish and projects I'm working on and plan to start in the new year (that's just what I do - consistently create), but I'm not in a rush nor do I feel obligated to stay within any time constraints.   As I look back over this year (and my life in general), I have always embarked on journeys or started projects at the right time and have completed them on timee. Realizing that lifts all the stress I've foolishly carried.

This year in particular received a tremendous acknowledgement and gratitude from others for my work.  The "thank yous" felt so good - and that's all I've ever really sought in life.  I'm not driven via the attainment of material wealth - I seek emotional wealth and genuine connection with compatible souls.  This year I finally was shown exactly which people in my life are truly here to be with me throughout my time on Earth (and exactly which people I WANT and DON'T WANT to be in my life).

It's funny, because I feel that I can often see what's in store for others I encounter, but I never can for myself.  Yes, I have the projects I plan to work on, but (and maybe out of pure choice) I can't see what the future holds for Alexandra Mayers.

Whatever happens next, if anything...I hope it's good.  Regardless, I'm only opening doors to options I feel are presented by someone who really likes me for exactly who and what I am.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Bill Cosby is NOT Cliff Huxtable - WAKE UP AMERICA! How Bill Cosby, Porn, & Rape Culture Are Intertwined

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Initially posted on my website www.PornNewsToday.com

Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster commentary: Isn't it ironic that I starred in the porn parody Not The Cosbys XXX as Phylicia Rashad's character "Claire" ?  She still hasn't said a word about the recent Bill Cosby allegations...but that's besides the point... Due to a statement released today by Bill Cosby's daughter Evin (click here to read) claiming "He is the FATHER you thought you knew", I tweeted the following words in response:
"Bill Cosby's daughter's statement is odd. She basically asks the public to view him as the fictional Cliff Huxtable. 
I think that's the main problem. Bill Cosby IS NOT Cliff Huxtable. The show never should have been called The COSBY show. HE IS NOT CLIFF! 
CLIFF HUXTABLE was not friends with Hugh Hefner. CLIFF HUXTABLE did not go to Playboy mansion orgies! Bill Cosby did that! 
The public needs to understand the Bill Cosby situation is NOT about race or Black media. It's about a man's abuse of power in Hollywood."
Bill Cosby and Hugh Hefner over the years... they are very good (if not BEST) friends.Bill Cosby is NOT Cliff Huxtable of The Cosby Show.  The FACT that Bill Cosby is simply an ACTOR who played the fictional character of Cliff Huxtable is VERY IMPORTANT, because as of current the ONLY reason the American public who grew up watching The Cosby Show is having a hard time believing  the allegations against Bill Cosby is due to the overlapping association between who Cosby REALLY is as a person versus the CHARACTER he played on this sitcom which was titled after his REAL name.

In hindsight, doesn't anyone else find it strange that The Cosby Show wasn't titled The Huxtables instead? 'Huxtable' (NOT Cosby) was the name of the family The Cosby Show centered around. There were not any characters on The Cosby Show named Cosby.

As of today, a Los Angeles county's District Attorneys office has made the announcement that it won't pursue child sexual abuse charges initially filed by Judy Huth (who was 15 years old in the year 1974 when the event allegedly occurred).  Keep in mind, just because the District Attorney's office has chosen to cite the statute of limitation as a reason not to pursue these particular criminal allegations, doesn't mean the incident did not occur.

Judy Huth is NOT the only woman who has alleged that Bill Cosby molested her when she was a 15 year old minor. A woman by the name of Renita Chaney Hill, came forward last month with allegations that reflect that of Huth and several other alleged victims of Cosby (see the videos below).



Over the next couple of weeks, I will be releasing a special video blog series in regards to Bill Cosby, Hugh Hefner, Hollywood, Porn & Politics here on PornNewsToday and my associated website www.MonicaAtHome.com - I believe much of the issues the series will cover began 40 years ago in 1974, and it's time for the public to learn the truth of the lies they've been led to believe.

Sorry Bill Cosby, but you ain't getting any Black Media neutrality from this BLACK OWNED BLOG.  The fact that you're even pulling the race card to distract from your despicable behavior makes me want to slap the pigment right off your old, ugly excuse of a face.

article below spotted on FightTheNewDrug.org

If you’ve ever laughed at Bill Cosby’s legendary comedy, like us, you’re probably pretty shocked about what’s going on right now. As of today, a total of 19 women have stepped forward accusing the beloved actor of various forms of sexual assault/rape between 1965 and 2004.

Now, let us be clear, like all people accused of crime in America, Cosby is innocent until proven guilty. But it’s hard to ignore so many individuals telling unsettlingly similar stories of being drugged and assaulted, all by the same man. How could this be happening? As someone that many grew up seeing as the all-american father figure on legendary TV sitcom The Cosby Show, Bill Cosby is a far cry from what we all think of when we picture a creepy, sketchy accused rapist. How could such a “nice guy” that “everyone loves” be accused of something like this?

Well, in a society where nearly 250,000 Americans report being sexually assaulted every year (with 60% of assaults never acknowledged), this is a question we should probably be talking about more often… Obviously, there is no single cause when it comes to sexual assault.

Psychology and human behavior is extremely complex – as are the contributing factors that lead to rape and sexual assault. However, according to the U.S. Center for Disease Control, we have scientifically proven tendencies that show if someone is more likely to force themselves on another person sexually.

These include:
 Coercive sexual fantasies
 Preference for impersonal sex
 Hostility towards women
 Hypermasculinity
 General tolerance of sexual violence within the community
 Societal norms that support sexual violence
 Societal norms that support male superiority and sexual entitlement
 Societal norms that maintain women’s inferiority and sexual submissiveness. 

These are the kinds of attitudes and behaviors that we know, scientifically, lead someone in the direction of sexual assault. But where do they all come from? How does someone develop “coercive sexual fantasies” to begin with? What about a preference for “impersonal sex” or a “more general acceptance of sexual violence?” And what are some of these “societal norms” that the CDC could be referencing?

We’ll give you one guess.

Studies have shown that exposure to pornography creates shockingly similar attitudes to those listed above. And while no one argues that pornography by itself leads to rape – especially since many who are exposed never get sexually aggressive – research has made clear that exposure to pornography creates the very attitudes that show up on lists of risk factors for sexual aggression. Once again, no single cause is the reason for any act of sexual assault – including those accused against Cosby.

However, it is worth noting that we do find it interesting that in light of the accusations, media outlets have begun digging into Bill Cosby’s friendship with Hugh Hefner, the founder of Playboy Magazine. After the two met in the early 1960’s, it’s been reported that since that time, Cosby was a regular at the Hefner’s parties at the Playboy mansion. Currently, three of the women making accusations towards Cosby have connections to Playboy.

We’ll leave that up to you on whether you find that coincidental or not. So, again, what leads the charismatic “nice guy” to be one who forces himself on unwilling women? The simple answer: lots of things. But as philosopher Robin Morgan once said, “pornography is the theory, rape is the practice.” Porn leads to harmful perceptions about rape and promotes its culture in society. This is not something we want to see have an influence in the world.

That’s why we Fight.

Thursday, December 04, 2014

I love Sammy Davis Jr.

Lately Sammy Davis Jr. has become a huge part of my life - if you've never heard this song please take a listen. It's one of my favorites :) I love this man like a long lost older brother that I never knew I had.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

The power of thought - and choosing what to think in effort to manifest change.

Well, it's almost the end of the year but we're not quite there. I anticipate 2015 to be an extremely eventful year that I believe will usher in a wealth of positive change.

Being that I feel 2015 will bring about positive change, I've opted to lay the groundwork in my own life by changing how I think a bit.

Tonight the Ferguson, Missouri officer Darren Wilson was not indicted by a grand jury. Many people are reacting very badly to the situation and my initial reaction was no exception.  As an African-American (Black) woman I've always been EXTREMELY aware of racial, ethnic, cultural and religious differences...

Growing up in the environment which I did (in a predominantly "White" neighborhood) was the first phase of my life that shaped my perspective of what it is to be "Black".  Later in my early teens my point of view was altered by my mother moving my sister and I to the "melting pot" that is South-East Florida.  In my late 20's to early 30's I had a rude awakening as to how segregated "Blacks" and "Whites" truly still are (and the extremely bigoted mindset many Americans still embody) when I entered the adult entertainment industry in Los Angeles, California.

Realizing the hate many Americans still feel towards African-American's (Blacks) didn't effect me well... Tonight I honestly feel "hate" is a sort of "emotional virus"...a virus which I inadvertently caught.

I specifically became very angry and hateful towards those of the Jewish faith due to having been personally targeted and attacked by a small group of Jewish people over the past few years.  I don't feel I was completely taken over by the "hate virus", being that tonight I've come to terms with the fact that I need to make a conscious effort to change for the better, but none the less I did fall victim to it.

I'm a strong believer in the power of manifestation through thought.  I've experienced it's occurrence in my own life, so I feel that it's time for me to step it up a notch by no longer inadvertently manifesting outcomes through the emotion of hate.

I've made the decision tonight to no longer focus on elements I dislike in regards to race, ethnicity, culture or religion.  I acknowledge that the difference do exist, but at least for now I will not focus on the differences.  I will not delete any of my past blogs, websites, posts or creative works I've made on the subject matter up to the present because 1) it's a part of my personal evolution I want to share with the public and 2) neither I or anyone else can erase the past.  I CAN and WILL however make an effort to do better & create far more positive works in the future (as I hope whoever you are that's reading this opt to do as well).

I'm just one mind, but I have a strong mind and I wield a certain degree of influence over others, so I need to be far more responsible with what I think and what I share. I believe we can manifest a far better world through the power of thought - which is why we need to make a deliberate effort to control within ourselves what we think and how we feel (for the greater good of everyone and everything).

Friday, November 07, 2014

I'm feeling good again

Between the Holiday Season approaching, a personal breakthrough & my attainment of a non-adult industry related job I AM FEELING GOOD AGAIN :) 

Make sure you follow me on twitter @MonicaFoster for updates and links to my daily webcam shows. 

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Increase the minimum age to legally perform in pornographic content from 18 to at least 21 (ideally 25)

It's been on my mind for a long time that the age to perform in pornographic content needs to be increased from 18 to at least 21 (preferably 25 considering recent neurological studies). Please click this link to sign a petition I wrote up in regards to the issue on change.org 

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As of current, the minimum age to perform in pornographic content in the United States of America is only 18 years old even though an individual generally can not legally consume alchohol in America until they are a minimum of 21 years old (due to the action contributing to "public health problems" according to the United States Center for Disease Control : http://www.cdc.gov/alcohol/fact-sheets/mlda.htm ).

I am under the belief that the minimum age to perform in pornographic media (adult content) needs to be raised to at least 21 years old as well considering that the act of appearing in pornographic content is often a decision that dramatically alters the course of an individual's life in the following ways:

1) Personally (once an individual performs in an adult movie, the general public's perception more often than not of the individual is viewed negatively)

2) Psychologically (individuals who leave the porn industry often suffer from a form of post traumatic stress disorder)

3) Professionally (future employment prospects are dramatically minimalized after having appeared in pornographic content)

4) Physiologically (the majority of pornographic industry performers contract both curable and incurable sexually transmitted diseases and infections such as Herpes, Chlamydia and HIV - which can easily be spread to the general public which creates a major public health risk)

As of current, I believe the demand for pornographic actors and actresses under the age of 21 is a result of the pornographic industry capitalizing off of the "barely legal" and/or "teen" genera of adult content which is rooted in the crime of pedophilia (child abuse, child pornography and child sextrafficking). In fact, the "political face" of the pornographic industry (the Free Speech Coalition) was found to be affiliated with an internationally known convicted pedophile (who at the time was attached to the Libertarian Party of Nevada) and attorneys who openly defend "pedophiles rights".

As of recent (October 4, 2013), a top pornographer by the name of Axel Braun announced that he would no longer film women under the age of 21 for sexually explicit roles.  A well known adult entertainment industry blogger by the name ofMike South (who has been profiled by CNBC) stated that "in many ways" he agreed with Axel Braun's stance on the issue.

According to recent neurological studies (documented by the University of Rochester medical center and leading psychiatrists such as Jay Geidd), the human brain does not fully mature until approximately the age of 25, so from my perspective an individual is not physiologically capable of making a mature and rational decision as to whether or not to perform in pornographic content at the age of 18.

I believe the only reason this issue hasn't been addressed more adamantly in the past is due to those who control the economics of the pornographic industry routinely putting profits above the health, well being and safety of pornographic industry performers (a routine practice that California Assemblymember Isadore Hall III noted many times throughout his efforts to pass legislation such as AB1576 which would have dramatically protected the health, safety and lives of countless pornographic industry performers).

As both an active performer and an ex pornstar, I have witnessed and spoken with several individuals who entered the pornographic industry under the age of 21 who I do not believe would have made the decision to perform in pornographic content were they presented with the opportunity at a later age.  Please sign this petition and help make a positive change in the lives of thousands of young people who are reliant on the laws of the United States of America to protect them (due to not having anyone in their immediate lives to look after them) and our society as a whole.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

worth it

Just a quick blog this morning to share a thought:

It doesn't matter whether or not your actions are viewed as being "worth the time and effort" to anyone else but YOU.  Don't feel guilty about taking into account YOUR OWN feelings just as much as you do the feelings of others.

Have a great week :)


Monday, September 15, 2014

JEWACRE – EPISODE 01 : a cartoon about the porn industry featuring parody of Britney Spears

Jewacre concocts a plan to trick Britney into sleeping with pornstar Zander in effort to attain a celebrity sextape to release exclusively on  the website The Fake Pornwikileaks.  Throughout his efforts Jewacre has multiple flashbacks about the woman he's been obsessed with for over 20 years...anti-porn activist Sherry Rubin (formerly known as Roxy).

Episode 01 features parody of Britney Spears, David Lucado, Shelley Lubben, Callie Lee, Xander Corvus and many more public figures that you'll have to identify on your own...

Sunday, September 07, 2014

Jewacre - a new series that tells the truth of the adult film industry - from Porn Worth Watching


Welcome to the launch "Jewacre" - a new animated parody series from the mind of Alexandra Mayers (formerly known as Monica Foster).

Jewacre will relate much of the truth of the Los Angeles porn industry in an insightful, educational & comedic way. This series may get a bit vulgar at times, however the character it is built on was inspired by a man who has harassed, terrorized, stalked and bullied Alexandra for over 3 years...if you were to encounter this man, you would quickly realize that there is no amount of vulgarity an animated series can illustrate that compares to his actuality.

If you have followed the blogs of Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster over the years, then you know that much of what she's lived has taken her to the edge of sanity. In effort to continue her healing process, Alexandra has elected to utilize her artistic skills and uniquely dark sense of humor to relate in an easy to understand way exactly how the organized crime elements of the adult film industry nearly destroyed her and several others she's met on her journey into, and then later out of, porn.

Saturday, September 06, 2014

Breaking bonds and moving on..

Well, it seems (at least today) that my progress in regards to "Re-examining the darkness from the light" has reached the finish line far sooner than I'd anticipated.  Today I felt very clear and free of quite a few issues that have been weighing me down for years.

The other night I had an emotional episode that concluded with a realization in regards to the element of "trauma bonding" that I probably wasn't ready to face in the past.  Read my commentary here to get an idea as to what I'm referring to.

When people talk about "love", they really should be more specific, because there's "healthy love" vs. "dysfunctional love".  Unless you've experienced "healthy love" apart from the "dysfunctional" version, it's hard to know the difference.

My time in the porn industry was the final catalyst for a cycle that I needed to break - a cycle that I'd been trapped within for much of my life.  The porn industry enabled me to learn a lot about relationships, friendships, business, the seedy "underbelly" of society, and life in general.  I stand by my research and commentary in regards to the pornographic industry and would never suggest anyone enter that world.

However, the pornographic industry is not the ONLY "world" out there that can be a catalyst for someone stuck in a dysfunctional way of living and being.

I'm sure many will disagree with me on this, but I think one of the most selfish things a person can do, is to have children.  It's actually quite the narcissistic act.  Being that I feel this way, I think that it's a parent's obligation to be completely selfless in regards to their children once they're born and throughout their life. In other words, parents need to make responsible choices and live their life right the moment they have a baby.  They shouldn't enter dangerous situations or circumstances (or do stupid things in general). Parents are their children's LIFE LINE and from my perspective their life should be 100% about their children. No child makes the DECISION to be born - that's the parent's CHOICE (whether or not certain choices are really meant to be is debatable - I don't think anyone on Earth really knows the answer).

If you can't find it within yourself to be completely selfless when it comes to any children you're considering bringing into this world - DO NOT BREED.

I was thinking today about whether or not people I've had contact with in life would be better off had they never met me...if I'd never been born.   Don't get me wrong - I am NOT in a suicidal state of mind or anything...it's just something I was thinking about - and not just in regards to people that I love or like, but in regards to people I dislike, who are my enemies or who I've never even met as well.

I guess I was contemplating "the ripple effect".

Today in a brief conversation with Jesus Christ, I prayed for everyone I've ever come into contact with to simply to be happy if God see's that it should be that way.  I prayed that certain individuals completely forget that they ever met me.  I also asked Jesus Christ to approach God about removing me from any of life's equations which I wasn't designed to be a part of so that in time, I can slide into place where ever it is that I belong.

A part of the reason that I remain single and don't like to interact with many people personally nowadays is not so much due to my fear of getting hurt, but because I don't want to inadvertently hurt others anymore than I may have in the past.

I was created through what I believe to have been a very selfish energy.  I'm not the only one who has been, but I think acknowledging the reality of "selfish energy" is the first step. Today I broke my bond with a large portion of that energy, and I'm very happy about it.

Free will - God's greatest gift IMO.


Wednesday, September 03, 2014

Constructing an outlet for my anger regarding my realization that I was with a very bad man

As I stated in my previous blog, I'm allowing myself to re-evaluate in detail a relationship I was in while I was active in the porn industry.  I've received feedback from people who read my blogs about my decision to do this...some of it positive, some of it negative...

Regardless, I feel that in order for me to be able to fully heal and properly love (and respect) myself, I'm making the right decision to do what I'm doing.  So far, it's been painful but I feel I'm making progress.

One of the elements that really makes me angry in regards to the man I'm referring to, is that HE KNEW the realities of the pornographic industry and DID NOT TELL ME (and he had ample opportunity to do so, as I asked him questions about many issues in regards to the porn industry while I was with him).  This particular man had worked in the business for around 20 years - so he knew the truth VERY well, but he apparently was OK in regards to the abuse that occurs regularly in that world, which the public only recently has become aware of.

KNOWING NOW what I know, and KNOWING NOW what he knew - it disgusts me that I was with him.  I wasn't blind, I was naive - and he was predatory.  I'm completely incapable of understanding how any individual with a heart and soul could remain in that environment as long as he has without taking a stand in regards to the mistreatment of human beings.  That's the thing though - I suppose God didn't create me to be capable of understanding such a mindset (thankfully).

As of today I'm very ANGRY that people such as him exist.  I WISH HE DID NOT EXIST.

The man I'm referring to, from my perspective, is extraordinarily dangerous because he is able to keep up the appearance of being a "nice guy" and "harmless", but has no issue with turning a blind eye to the physical and spiritual abuse of human beings.  I'm starting to wonder exactly how involved (personally and directly) he has been in the destruction of other women who have crossed his path over the years.  It makes me literally shudder to think about.

In order to cope with the anger I've been feeling, I decided to construct a sort of distraction and outlet for my emotions.  I built www.MMAoutline.com - visit the site to learn what it's about.  At the end of the week I'm treating myself to my first UFC fight pass and I'm excited about it.

A part of me wishes I could beat the living hell out of the man I'm referring to in this blog, but it's really not my style to do such a thing (I've never been a physically violent person) - so watching MMA matches really helps me...I find it incredibly therapeutic.

Do I fantasize that the man I'm referring to in this blog posting is one of the contenders getting the crap beat out of him as I watch MMA? Absolutely...perhaps MMA is a sort of "porn" for women who are rather upset with certain men.  If you're a woman out there who's walked a path similar to mine - take a look at the world of MMA - you might find it INCREDIBLY appealing :)

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Re-examining the darkness from the light

I've made it known on my twitter that over the next few days, I will be re-examining and working through (in part publicly) my thoughts and feelings in regards to a man I knew while I was active in the pornographic industry. I've had several other relationships with men throughout my life that I have been able to properly move forward from, however, this particular man is someone I've never been able to completely get out of my system (and I'm hoping to completely figure out why).

In the past, when I've mentioned this man, certain people (who I label as my stalkers) have bullied me into silence about him.  I'm not allowing that to happen anymore, because there's something about that man and that time of my life that I know in my core needs to be addressed and resolved.

As of tonight, I attribute my lack of ability to clear this man from my thoughts being due to some issues and events surrounding the relationship that were extraordinarily abnormal on a multitude of levels.  As I've stated in my blog several times in the past, one of the most difficult things one must do in life, is to look at THEMSELVES and at their PAST honestly.  I've reached a point in my self imposed healing process to where I feel brave enough to really THINK about and EVALUATE some of the memories in regards to the man I'm referring to.  I'm hoping God will provide me with some answers as well.

I will share a lot about whatever I realize, but I doubt I will share everything.  Research "trauma-bonding" - here's a link to get your started: http://avalancheofthesoul.wordpress.com/2014/02/22/what-abusers-hope-we-never-learn-about-trauma-bonding/

Abuse isn't always physical or "in your face" psychological.  I've come to understand that my "scars" from abuse have manifested in my actions and choices.  I don't believe abusers always realize that they abuse.  Other times people who are on the receiving end of abuse don't realize that they're being abused.  I feel that there are instances to where people have been in unhealthy and/or dysfunctional relationships (or maybe just ways of living) for so long that they have no concept of what "normal" or "healthy" really is - so they become desensitized.  I think it's even possible for people to habitually and KNOWINGLY REJECT a healthy or normal relationship for a dysfunctional one, because the dysfunction FEELS more FAMILIAR than anything else (I believe, in part, what's happened to me).

I hate already being 35 years old and just now identifying some of these issues, but I subscribe to the philosophy of "better late than never".  I'm glad I don't have any children at this time, and I hope I get through this process relatively quickly.  I believe I've reached my final step in closing the book on a phase of my life I began in early 2008.

I know my sharing my thoughts as I do is strange to certain people in my life (or who I may never have met).  I do it because I don't believe that I have been (or will be) the only woman in the world to have dealt with some of the situations, people and events which I have.  I find it comforting to think that my blogs just might give someone else out there a reference point as to where they are on the map of life.

Yes, my blogs are selfless - yet selfish. Funny how that is...isn't it.


Saturday, August 16, 2014

I am angry.

In this blog, I will admit that I am VERY ANGRY.  I'm angry because on many levels I've been victimized, but I'm more angry that I haven't fought back as hard as I should have for many years to regain my personal power.  Tonight I went on a "twitter rant" and I believe it was my first solid step in releasing the anger I've been carrying due to many things I've noticed within the world that I've felt the need to restrain myself from sharing.

My views and observations are simply that of what I've experienced in my 35 years on this planet.  I don't expect everyone (or anyone for that matter) to agree with me.  I don't need anyone to.  I don't expect a shred of support. I understand completely how I will be labeled as prejudice, intolerant, unforgiving, hateful, etc... and I'M FINE WITH IT.

I see how in many instances it's better to keep your opinions to yourself - especially if you want to be monetarily "successful" and "fit in" in this world.  I just wasn't created to be that way and I will not apologize for it.

I don't have an issue with taking responsibility for or being punished for anything I've genuinely done that's been wrong and without just cause because I'm not the type of person to do anything wrong without just cause.  It's not in my nature.  HOWEVER I HAVE A MAJOR PROBLEM WITH BEING TOLD THAT I AM WRONG ABOUT ISSUES, EVENTS & INDIVIDUALS THAT I KNOW I AM CORRECT ABOUT.

When I don't understand something, I look for an answer and I ASK for an answer.  I have ALWAYS questioned things that I don't understand which is what's led me to become an independent researcher on a variety of issues.  It's the pursuit of the truth that turns me on more so than anything in this world. I LOVE learning systems and how things work - that's how I was created to be.

Within the United States of America (and maybe the world as a whole), people are being encouraged at an ever increasing rate NOT to question how things work.  I feel that people in general are being told to just sit down, shut up and be accepting of whatever is given to us by whoever is in power.

I'm not OK with that.  I don't feel God designed me and sent Jesus Christ to die for me to tolerate such an attitude.

I don't expect many people to relate to how I think, or be as I am - it's far easier not to. When it comes down to it, I'd rather be cast out from much of society and viewed as "a problem", than to not have shared my perspective or opinion.  

Maybe rather than saying to yourself "oh, she's just a typical ANGRY BLACK WOMAN" - maybe you should question, "How did the stereotype of ANGRY BLACK WOMEN ever come to be?  What and who exactly prompted certain Black women to BECOME so angry?"  

I'd say that this blog which goes back to 2007 will tell you the answer...at least in part.

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster interviews Olympic silver medalist Josh Mance

Alexandra Mayers interviews Olympic Athlete Josh Mance about TMZ, Skin Diamond, Racism & more!
Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster interviews Olympic silver medalist Josh Mance about his recent encounter with media gossip outlet TMZ, pornstar Skin Diamond, a situation involving racism he experienced on his 21st birthday that was heavily covered by mainstream news, his life as an Olympic athlete and his "fetish" for older women.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Sex Trafficking News - www.SexTraffickingNews.com


Please take a look at my newest awareness project:

www.SexTraffickingNews.com

The pornographic industry currently promotes, is directly connected to & is built on organized crime and sextrafficking.  http://www.SexTraffickingNews.com addresses the truths of the matter.
I believe that for ANY elements of the United States pornographic industry to successfully proceed into the future, their ties to organized crime and sex (human) trafficking must be severed completely.

Monday, July 07, 2014

Where Monica Foster ends... Alexandra Mayers begins.

Buckle up and prepare for the real ride.
Make sure you follow @AlexandraMayers on twitter if you don't already.



Friday, April 18, 2014

Monica Foster at Home 2014 - Thursday 04-17-2014



On this webcast I discuss the truth of what I feel Michael Weinstein of the Aids Healthcare Foundation is really up against, why I feel his safety and life is in danger of an anti-Semitic hate crime and why every pornstar's life is currently in danger of a major corporation who's willing to put profits above the health and safety of human lives.

As of current a gay male model and pornstar by the name of Eric Paul Leue has created a petition on Change.org in effort to force Michael Weinstein to resign. The petition is "officially" backed by the Free Speech Coalition and Xbiz magazine, but I'm also under the impression that Eric Paul Leue is backed by the multi-million dollar pharmaceutical Gilead Sciences - the manufacturers of Truvada (a medication being marketed as "the new condom" though it doesn't protect against STDs other than HIV - further more the clinical definitive findings will not be published about Truvada until 2017).

At this stage, I feel that Gilead Sciences has targeted the Aids Healthcare Foundation and the Free Speech Coalition as a means of not only marketing Truvada, but a way to gain access to female pornstars to use as a "test subject" pool for Truvada clinical studies. As of current though Truvada has been found to be very effective in males, it hasn't been equally effective in clinical trials for females.

As of current Michael Weinstein in my view is the only person standing between female pornstars being used essentially as "lab rats" and Gilead Sciences.

Condom legislation must be adhered to and mandatory condom usage must be present in adult filming.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Monica Foster at Home 2014 - Tuesday 04-15-2014

Monica Foster at Home - LIVE - a daily webcast commentary hosted by Alexandra aka Monica Foster on the topics of News, Gossip & Life pertaining to the Mainstream & Porn / Adult Entertainment Industry.

Today I give my closing statements for the week in regards to Tiffany Fox, organized crime, the Los Angeles porn industry and why a scholarship fund needs to be created for young women who speak out in regards to sex trafficking in the pornographic industry (which has essentially become a modern day slave system due to illegal escort and prostitution rings such as The Luxury Companion).

Monday, April 14, 2014

Monica Foster at Home 2014 - Monday 04-14-2014

Exclusive interview with Tiffany Fox (@RealTiffanyFox) - a young pornstar who has spoken out against sex trafficking in the porn industry (most notably LA Direct Models and The Luxury Companion) -a feature article on Tiffany Fox and this situation can be found on www.PornNewsToday.com by clicking here.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Monica Foster At Home 2014 - Thursday 04-10-2014



On today's webcast I focus on the question "Why hasn't the Free Speech Coalition fought for current and ex pornstars to receive residuals from the adult content they are featured in?"

Mainstream Hollywood actors and actresses receive residuals, so why not pornstars considering that the porn industry claims to be "crossing over" into mainstream? Why haven't Freee Speech Coalition mouthpieces such as James Deen, Stoya, Kayden Kross or Ron Jeremy ever brought up the issue?

I question why the Free Speech Coalition is attempting to monopolize performer testing and why people in the Free Speech Coalition such as Diane Duke and Mo Reese appear to have complete disregard for performer health and safety by opposing the condom mandates. Are they in actuality anti-porn activists?

Pornstars are legally defined as employees, so rather than the FSC worrying about STD testing subsidy funds, shouldn't they be enforcing the fact that porn companies (producers) should be covering the cost of porn talent STD / STI testing?

I share a few tweets directly from the Free Speech Coalition twitter account which are clear proof of the online bullying tactics the FSC utilizes towards pornstars who are diagnosed HIV positive and who choose to speak out to save the lives of their peers (such as Cameron Bay aka Cameron Adams who's last adult scene was with Kink.com).

I also share a tweet directly from the FSC twitter of which California Assemblyman Isadore Hall III is referred to as an "ass hat" (which is incredibly disrespectful and unprofessional considering that the Free Speech Coalition proclaims itself to be the "political face" and "lobbying group" of the pornographic industry).

I explain that many pornstars find themselves destitute after a career in the pornographic industry due to not having claim to residuals, and I present the case of Nina Devon (who played Rudy in Not the Cosbys XXX 2) as an example of a pornstar who would not have to live the dangerous life as an escort (it's only legal to work as an escort / prostitute in certain counties of Nevada) if she were entitled to residuals.

I conclude todays webcast by mentioning an email I received in regards to Wicked Pictures as to what may be the real reason why they've been one of the few condom mandatory companies for years, yet have been against condom legislation (I suggest my audience keep in mind that one of the final scenes the now HIV positive TJ cummings shot was for Wicked Pictures).

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Monica Foster At Home 2014 - Tuesday 04-08-2014

Today's LIVE webcast of Monica At Home will start at 5pm PST via a live streaming YOUTUBE event. Remember you can SKYPE in with questions via my ID MonicaAtHome01

Alexandra aka Monica Foster presents the latest pornographic industry news, first amendment issues, current events, legal sphere topics and drama.

At the start of the webcast I question why Mo Reese (a free speech coalition mouth piece) is irresponsibly telling the porn talent misleading information and propaganda in regards to AB 1576 and their self produced content for their websites and clips4sale stores.

I state the Mo Reese needs to clarify to the talent the AB 1576 will not affect SOLO pornstars who are SOLO in their websites, webcam show and clips4sale content.

 I also question why Dr. Chauntelle Tibbals is attempting to spread the message to mainstream media that the condom legislation (existing and proposed) in regards to the porn industry, isn't to ultimately protect the health and safety of pornstars and sexworkers.

 Dr. Chauntelle has never actually been a porn talent (as far as I know), so how exactly does she know what the pornographic industry system is actually like? Why doesn't she approach other porn studios to take up Wicked Picture's business model? Does she not realize that if most pornstars want to work, they are currently pressured NOT to use condoms (which is why condom legislation must be enforced to criminalize porn producers who don't follow the legislation).

Next I express why I think attorney general Eric Holder's gun control potential legislation is a good idea and I state that the Adult Entertainment Exo [correction - Adultcon] being moved to the same week as the Gun Expo in Las Vegas is a bad idea considering the sex and violence typically don't mix well.

Next I delve into the history and events surrounding Pornwikileaks and I explain about the lies and mistruths the Free Speech Coalition has told the public (even via wikipedia) in regards to the event of which released over 15,000 performers personal information to the public. I question whether or not the information on pornwikileaks really was from AIM (it could have been from a 2257 record keeping database such as the now closed 2257safe.com).

I also explain that the Free Speech Coalition's recent rise to power and influence is directly tied to and dependent upon their alleged involvement in closing Pornwikileaks (which is currently back online).

Last I explain how pornwikileaks may be used as an event or case in the Free Speech Coalitions fight to overturn 2257 record keeping laws - laws of which protect minors and children from being exploited in adult content. Being that the Free Speech Coalition has a history of defending child abuse and pedophilia, the 2257 laws must remain firmly intact.

Tuesday, April 08, 2014

The LIVE daily webcast of Monica At Home - 5pm PST streaming LIVE through Youtube

Today's LIVE webcast of Monica At Home will start at 5pm PST via a live streaming YOUTUBE event.
Remember you can SKYPE in with questions via my ID MonicaAtHome01

Monday, April 07, 2014

Teleka Patrick case - closing thoughts Sunday April 6, 2014

Independent investigative blogger Alexandra Mayers shares that as of today, mainstream media has reported that a body has been found which may be that of Teleka Patrick.

An autopsy to confirm this development in the Teleka Patrick case has been scheduled for Tuesday (April 8, 2014).

Please send your prayers and positive thoughts to the Patrick family. Further information in regards to the Teleka Patrick case along with links to contact the family can be found on TelekaPatrick.com

Alexandra Mayers explains, that at this point in time, there may be a need to introduce legislation in regards to "web sleuthing" and the registering of missing person's names as domain names by the United States government (the Federal Bureau of Investigations specifically) in effort to collect statistics and tips from the public in regards to cases (and also to control and/or prevent false information about missing person's cases from being unjustly inflated by mainstream news which can easily skew public opinion).

If such a piece of legislation is proposed, it should be called the Teleka Patrick Act.

Saturday, April 05, 2014

Monica At Home 2014 on the Rob Black network Friday 04-04-2014

Alexandra aka Monica Foster presents the latest pornographic industry news, first amendment issues, current events, legal sphere topics and drama.

At the start of the webcast I give a health alert to the Los Angeles porn industry talent in regards to a meningitis outbreak which has hit Los Angeles, that has a high probability of affecting the Los Angeles talent pool.

Next I discuss gay pornstar Michael Lucas and his decision to put profits above porn talent health and safety by opting to shoot bareback HIV positive pornographic content.

I discuss whether or not pornstars represented by Mark Spiegler of the SpieglerGirls talent agency are having sex in their personal and/or professional lives with HIV positive talent considering that much of the pornstars Mark Spiegler represents have worked with HIV positive John Stagliano of the porn studio Evil Angel.

Being that Katie Summers currently has a lawsuit against John Stagliano for not disclosing his HIV positive status to her prior to having physical contact with her, I feel it's possible that John Stagliano (and many other porn professionals who may be HIV positive as well) has had sexual contact with the majority (if not all) of the SpieglerGirls considering that they are consistently featured in John Stagliano and Evil Angel porn movies.

At the end of the webcast I question why so many influential porn industry professionals who are immigrants from other countries (namely England, Germany and Canada), feel that they have the right to dictate American legislation and laws.

In the conclusion of the webcast I suggest that the foreign born porn professionals who don't respect or follow the United States laws, simply leave the country and return to their nations of origin rather than opposing the Aids Healthcare Foundation and California Assemblyman Isadore Hall the III who are only trying to help the porn industry and bring it into the future (not hurt it).

Porn professionals, in my view, who oppose the laws (and break the laws) are simply ANTI PORN.

Thursday, April 03, 2014

Monica At Home 2014 on the Rob Black network Thursday 04-03-2014


Alexandra aka Monica Foster presents the latest pornographic industry news, first amendment issues, current events, legal sphere topics and drama. In the beginning of the webcast, I address the rumors that I'm an active escort - oh which I'm not. The only adult work I currently do (and have done for the past few years) is that of a solo independent webcam model. Next I discuss a recent article by Jennifer Ketcham, formerly known as Penny Flame which was about the label of "sex-worker". I also discuss Farrah Abraham's upcoming book trilogy about her porn video "Celebrity Sex Tape" which she claims will be better than "50 shades of Grey". After the cartoon break, I discuss Natasha Starr and Natalia Starr, better known as the Starr sisters. I outline a plan which could bring them into the mainstream entertainment industry, and could deliver them out of prostitution and porn. Later in the webcast I discuss AB 1576 (a piece of legislation designed to protect sex-workers in the pornographic industry from STDs - presented by California Assemblyman Isadore Hall and backed by the Aids Healthcare Foundation). At the end of the webcast I relate a few of my experiences from the start of my time in the Los Angeles porn industry.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

attention porn slaves: Webcam modeling is your ticket to freedom

Solo independent webcam modeling IS NOT porn.  "Camming" is an art and embodies soul.  Webcam modeling is a craft that pornography never was (nor will it ever be).

If you're a "pornstar" - you are a slave (take a look at www.JewishDirt.com for details).

Take the first step to freeing yourself.

 http://monicafoster.cammodels.com

Monday, March 24, 2014

Monica Foster aka Alexandra the ex pornstar & Suez aka Monica Foster the entertainer

Meet Suez Foster aka the entertainer Monica Foster - interview preview by Alexandra aka Monica Foster

Saturday, March 08, 2014

Luke Ford interviewed me

I'm regularly contacted by people requesting that I allow them to interview me.  For the most part (due to my trust issues primarily), I turn interview requests down nowadays, however, someone I greatly admire by the name of Luke Ford (an Orthodox Jewish investigative blogger and journalist, who in the past, extensively covered the Los Angeles porn industry) contacted me in regards to a website I recently created called www.JewishDirt.com

Below is an audio recording of my Luke Ford interview - you can learn more about him on www.LukeFord.net



Luke Ford gave me a very valuable gift by interviewing me.  I feel that watching yourself, but more importantly, LISTENING to yourself is an important practice. It can actually be very difficult to do (which is why some people never do it), but I believe that it's very therapeutic.

At this point in my life, though it's hard (and emotionally taxing), I feel obligated to allow many who have followed my progress over the years (whether they like me or not) know how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking.  Luke, let me know that he didn't interview me due to my porn work (though he was probably one of the BEST porn industry bloggers that's come along), but because he felt that I'm "unique".

I can fully understand why some of the world's best artists decline to do many interviews.  Luke Ford, I knew, would have insight in regards to my being - and I was correct in my thoughts (which was why I decided to speak with him the moment he contacted me).

I don't anticipate on doing many more interviews anytime soon - at least not until I've reached what I consider true success.  I have created and built many things, but I'm not what I would consider "successful" yet.  Oftentimes I feel as though I'm a complete mess. I measure my "success" in monetary terms to a degree, but I also measure my success via what I know I'm actually capable of.

I take accountability for much of my life's circumstance...I have a brain, a soul and a spirit of which has led me down many paths of my own choosing.  I've come to realize the harsh reality that many of my decisions have created barriers between myself and what I'd like to achieve (and attain) in life - but I'm accepting of it.

There are other barriers however, between myself and what I'd like to achieve which are there NOT due to any of my choices or actions.  I am well aware that life's "not fair" - but I do believe that through much of my work, I've earned a "paycheck" at this point.

I will continue to pray to Jesus Christ for help in overcoming certain barriers.  I will particularly pray that Jesus ushers some souls into my life that I can trust, and who will see what I'm able to do, help me and simply give me a chance.  I would like to be much more than I currently am - and more so than anything, I want to continue feeling good about myself, reach a higher level of fulfillment and enjoy the true meaning of PEACE.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

In the event of my death - updated Last Will & Testament

Last Will and Testament as of 02/27/2014

In the event of my untimely death - all of the domain names in my possession along with all of the original content on my websites, blogs & social networking profiles (which are listed on www.MindOfMonica.com - including www.AlexandraMayers.com as well) are to be donated and transferred directly to The British Museum (https://www.britishmuseum.org).

I am currently in the process of setting up an account with enough funds for The British Museum to renew all of my domains for at least 20 (or more) years.

Under no circumstance is anyone attached to the pornographic industry and/or Free Speech Coalition to take control of, seize, purchase or alter my domain names, online intellectual property (photos, graphics, audio, video, etc) writings and/or art.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

The past few days...

I posted this on my Facebook tonight:

Over the past few days Pastor John of www.BringingBackGod.com has helped me gain some understanding as to what direction I need to head next in life. I'm still a camgirl for the time being as you can see on www.twitter.com/MonicaFoster - and I'm fine with it for now.

I have a plan, but God has a bigger plan, so I figure my plans will work with God's. Jesus Christ has my back - and in the end, that's all that matters.

Please take the time to listen to this sermon by my current Pastor -  John Collins. I've reposted this sermon on several of my websites. It sums up the past 3 or so years of my life, and what I've been dealing with.

   
 Thank you Crystal Cox for helping me find my way to where I am now.

Friday, January 24, 2014

Now it's in the hands of law enforcement

Though the past 48 hours have been emotionally exhausting, it's a relief to know that many issues in regards to events I experienced in the Los Angeles porn industry (and since my departure) are now actively being handled by the appropriate divisions of law enforcement.

As of current, I can't share many details, but what I will say is that I'm glad I'm naturally the type of person who archives their life, because I have enough evidence from over the past few years to make law enforcement's job much easier than it would be otherwise.

Rape is one of the most horrific crimes a person can be the victim of (click here to learn about what happened to me). However protecting a rapist from the legal system is a horrific crime as well. Several years ago porn director Will Ryder aka Jeff Mullen (along with other individuals in & attached to the pornographic industry) decided to protect the identity of the man who raped me, and attempted to intimidate me into silence. I (and law enforcement) have evidence reflecting his actions.

Regardless of the outcome, I've learned that cases such as mine are important to our legal system to establish a pattern and record for future victims. Generally people are creatures of habit - especially criminals.  It's no coincidence that such a high percentage of "professionals" in and attached to the pornographic industry have criminal records.

I have a history that is 100% clean of criminal activity and consequently I never belonged in the Los Angeles pornographic industry - however it was a time in my life that has taught me many lessons - most importantly: How to be brave.

*****Click here for text message from 2011 by Jeff Mullen aka Will Ryder I received to intimidate me into silence about my being raped.*****

***Update 01/29/2014: I am no longer a supporter, fan, friend or affiliate of Rob Black aka Rob Zicari, and I will no longer be promoting his webcast (nor do I encourage anyone to watch it any longer). As of 01/28/2014 Rob and his team decided to post an article on AdultFYI.com which promoted and praised Jeff Mullen aka Will Ryder (the primary individual who protected the identity of the man who raped me). 

I had informed Rob of the situation via email between myself and Mullen / Ryder, so he was fully aware of how I would feel. Rob made a choice, and though it was hurtful, I'm glad to know the truth of the type of person he is now rather than later.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

5 years later after being raped.

5 years later after being raped, this morning a porn industry professional finally decided to give me the alleged name of the man who raped me. Yep, FIVE YEARS LATER (actually it's 6 years - took me about a year to realize what happened). Of course, this only happened after I made the conversation below known to the public:

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In other news Crystal Cox has given my website www.PornNewsToday.com an exclusive interview concerning her ninth circuit court of appeals victory which is a win for independent investigative bloggers and journalists nationwide.

The interview with Crystal Cox is the 1000th www.PornNewsToday.com blog post. I'm very grateful to have had the opportunity to post such a historic piece of news as the conclusion to a project which has helped me reach a level of understanding in regards to my time not only in the porn industry, but my encounter with the world of organized crime (the Los Angeles porn industry is NOTHING but organized crime as www.PornStarHookerAlert.com clearly illustrates).

There are still individuals I'd like to know the truth about, and experiences I've had that I'd like closure on - but even if I never receive the answers to the questions I have, I know I've done a good job simply being a human being who has a soul that God refused to allow Jesus Christ to abandon.

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Happy New Year! Welcome to 2014

Have a wonderful, productive & blessed New Year :)
2014