Happy Easter! Today is one of my favorite holidays because I love the meaning behind it. Jesus Christ knew that when he chose to share his controversial ideas and "fight the system" that not only would he be shunned by those who feared change and the future - he would be killed.

Jesus also knew however, that he not only was right, but that he would be resurrected - and he was.

Jesus had faith in God, and he had faith in himself - which is why I relate to Jesus at this point in my life at 33 years old, very very well.

I've come to learn that one of the reasons many people discount, discredit and even hate Jesus Christ is because his situation and experience is proof that God exists along with there being much more to the universe than initially meets the eye.

Jesus essentially dealt with Gangstalkers (please visit http://GangstalkingIsReal.blogspot.com to learn more). Those who participate in Gangstalking often don't have a belief in God or Jesus because they fear not only being wrong, but also failing at their objective.

I am seen as "controversial", "eccentric", "crazy" etc...but in actuality I'm just honest. I say what's on my mind and no longer am out to please anyone or be liked (I wasted too many years not being myself). I don't care to belong to a group of any sort - I enjoy and have found peace within my independent individuality.

My mindset makes certain types of people on this planet realize that they're powerless - not just in regards to me, but in regards to events in general. People who fear my mindset will not make up the majority of our society in the near future. Change isn't just coming - it's occurred.

Don't miss my live broadcast today of www.ChristianPornstar.com on www.blogtv.com/People/MonicaFoster - it will be cool.

Today I've had a relatively good day. As of late I've been feeling happier and much more centered than I ever have in my life - I've been having much more fun as well.

I've battled and triumphed over many demons, both internal and external (as you my readers, fans and friends are aware of) - and I've learned how to reflect in a far more healthier way than I ever would have imagined. I've come to learn that personal reflection is a vital skill one should strive to develop in order to continue on a path of healthy evolution.

While skimming through some adult industry (porn related) news items to update my news blog www.PornNewsToday.com this afternoon - I came across 2 items which prompted me to share a very personal instance of my life with my twitter followers on @MonicaFoster :

I feel good today, so I'm going to share something personal with all of you to clue you into exactly what type of person I am.

Several years ago when I was a bartender and stripper in Florida, I met a man I started dating and wound up living with for a while. This man had a son, who I bonded with and treated as my own. Unfortunately as time went on, I came to realize the man I lived with had a major drinking, drug and gambling problem. He lost his job and I wound up having to cover all the bills.

I'd have ditched this man earlier but I had grown to love his son like my own child. Finally when I couldn't take it anymore and was about to leave I realized I was pregnant.

I made the mistake of telling the guy I was living with. I told him I'd keep the kid, but that I couldn't live with him due to his lack of motivation and addiction. He flipped out and hit me. I hit him back. Cops were called, and though I paid all the bills and rent for the house we shared, I left and stayed with my mother.

I filed a restraining order on the loser I was dating, and before going to court to extend the order weeks later I had an abortion. Yes I KILLED something living. Why? Because it was a part of me I was willing to let go of from the past, and a part of him he was hoping to retain for the future to maintain a link to someone that was BETTER than him.
 

Looking back, I have no regret having KILLED a piece of that man. I'd do it again if I had too. The lesson here is: as a person in this world, you have to realize that the weak will do anything to have a link to the strong. It's a survival thing. However the majority of the weak shouldn't continue to exist to begin with. Weak creatures bring the world down and prevent progress.

If you are strong and identify some weak loser trying to attach themselves to you, KILL the connection. Do no hesitate and do not think about it, just do it.

So to conclude my personal story, after I aborted the loser I was living with's seed, I went to court, faced him and extended the restraining order. Upon exiting the court room the loser I dated said to the judge "Oh, my ex is pregnant with my kid, what about that?".

Before the judge could answer I responded "Nope, not anymore. I killed your kid".

I walked out the courtroom, my Dad picked me up out front, and took me to lunch. It turned out to be a good day.

I suppose when my stalkers say I'm a kid killer, it's true. Now you know the type of person I am, and some of what I'm capable of.

The 2 news items which prompted me to share this experience from my life, can be found on this link (an article about a new pornstar named Casey Cums who desperately needs some psychological therapy and who unfortunately is hurting the efforts of women such as myself who are trying to bring awareness to why change must take place in the Los Angeles porn industry) and on this link (an article about a man named Hunter Moore who is financially benefiting from stalking, harassing, defaming, terrorizing and emotionally hurting women - a weak waste of a human who should not exist).

This CNN piece goes to show that many people in America still are unable to comprehend that African-Americans had to OVERCOME SLAVERY and as of current STILL are not viewed by many as EQUALS to other ethnicities! In other words... WHEN ARE WHITE PEOPLE GOING TO GET IT?

Truthfully I think most white people in America DO get it, but they're just PLAYING DUMB!

Does "white" America REALLY want a race war? I hope not because "white" America will not win...

I'm glad Mary J. Blige spoke up and had that Burger King ad PULLED! It's obvious the Burger King production crew did NOT give her a clear picture as to how that commercial would be edited!

The 2 commentators in the video piece below are a couple of WHITE ASSHOLES - especially the guy on the right.

This is an interesting situation:



I can relate to where this woman is coming from (take a look at my blog www.PornNewsToday.com and you'll understand why). She's a natural truth seeker - very detail oriented - a bit intuitive and can't help but fight for the greater good.

This woman is an "Indigo" which is the future of humanity. She will win her fight because you can't fight the future.

Enjoy my latest Monica Foster interview with Lacy Burke - producer and director of the controversial porn industry "into the mainstream" crossover film Car Date - www.CarDateMovie.com - a www.MonicaAtHome.com exclusive (I will upload this interview to www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome shortly)


Here is the complete edited interview




Below is the raw interview from blogtv.com complete with the live chat feed.

Part 1


Lacy Burke Interview 03- Broadcast your self LIVE

Part 2


Lacy Burke Interview 02- Broadcast your self LIVE

Part 3


Lacy Burke Interview 01- Broadcast your self LIVE

THIS is who should be leading the Sex Workers Rights Movement. The young woman in the videos below known as Rayra and HappyHooker83 speaks her mind on Michael Whiteacre, Sex Workers Rights, Hypocrisy within the current mouthpieces of the Free Speech Coalition and much much more...

This young woman is one of the strongest, intelligent and centered women I've come across in a very long time. Thank you Jesus and God. Thank you.








Still I Rise
by Maya Angelou

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

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There's been some strange news lately in regards to paranormal activity in the "normal" news...

I present you with Niburu. Some people are going to be in SO MUCH TROUBLE because I AM TELLING ON YOU!

Happy 2012 :)

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In part 1 of this broadcast, Monica Foster reviews exactly what Christian Pornstar is all about and relates that Christian Pornstar is designed to be controversial. Monica shares how she find's it interesting that those who are most critical of the show, are those with the most to hide, who probably wouldn't fair too well themselves in the "public eye".

Monica Foster then touches on the week's top porn and adult entertainment industry news stories - Stephanie Adams being mishandled by New York police officers and being accused of being a vampire & Claire Sinclaire being allegedly battered by Marsten Hefner (Hugh Hefner's son) .

Monica concludes with her thoughts on the religious group Jews For Jesus before going into part 2 of the broadcast (which will be the next Monica At Home Christian Pornstar upload) of which the Los Angeles porn industry's new laws which MUST be acknowledged and followed (such as the condom mandates) will be discussed.

Whitney Houston

8/9/1963 - 2/11/2012

Remembering Whitney Houston

Whitney Houston special- Broadcast your self LIVE

Monica Foster discusses the concepts of expectations and the unexpected of 2012 along with the importance of maintaining faith in God and Jesus (Christianity) when working as an adult entertainer.

In porn industry news Monica discusses Amile Waters and an issue she's dealing with post porn. Monica
also congratulates Jada Fire on her retirement from porn. Monica then discusses her thoughts on Abc nightline's report on pornstar James Deen and how she feels his comments serve as a tactic to recruit teenagers (namely teenage girls) into the porn industry and immoral sexual lifestyle of which the porn industry promotes.

Monica Foster questions as to if James Deen is in actuality a bi-sexual in his personal life and if he is indeed a "crossover" performer considering his new found affiliation with Bret Easton Ellis which has launched him into the mainstream entertainment spotlight.

Someone sure enjoys using the Freemasonry symbology...I love you Madonna!

I've ascended to a new level of life this month...and I'm loving it. The song below expresses where I'm residing currently (on both the physical and spiritual planes) quite well. 

Well it's been over 24 hours since the "warning" from Manwin. The sky hasn't fallen, and I've noticed Mike South hasn't removed his blog entry in regards to Manwin doing a deal with or purchasing Reality Kings - so I'm glad I stood my ground in regards to my FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

Though I love a good fight, and have valiantly fought the good fight for quite some time now - I'm officially on break - indefinitely as of today.

I've come to realize that taking care of my spirit, and not allowing myself to be drained by others with certain agendas (be they positive or negative - of "good" or "ill" intent) is vital at this stage of my personal development.

I've worked though much hurt and have faced (and conquered) many demons. I've witnessed amazing change manifest from my efforts and contributions to certain causes and it's been cool to see the truth in the phrase "one person can make a difference".

However, if there's one thing I've always had the gift of knowing - it's the knowledge of when to move on. I have a great sense of timing, which is why I choose not to wear a watch. I haven't had the opportunity to travel as much as I'd like to, attain as much as I'd like to materially or have a child. I want to and will do these things. I plan on living a very long and happy life - and I'll manipulate time ( if needed ) to do so.

So to conclude this entry - I suppose I'll just say that I'm done bringing certain issues to the forefront. I will complete the work I've already begun in regards to compiling and sharing some data of which I've already touched on, but I've delved as deep as I feel like going in regards to sharing my thoughts, views and truths of the world of adult entertainment.

Next subject matter of choice to explore - individuals with newly activated "paranormal" abilities. Considering that I had a dream last night about poisoning a Scorpion which helped me gain understanding as to why I enjoy gazing at the stars of Orion's belt - I have a feeling that this era I'm transitioning into will be quite nice.

A new DEOSports.net broadcast. Enjoy!

Tonight I realized that there's a piece of a the "Monica Foster" story that I've never told - actually it was my interview for the most recent documentary I participated in, which activated the memory...

I was asked in the documentary whether or not I was ever in a relationship while I was actively shooting porn. Those of you who follow my blog know that I was...however upon recapping the situation in the documentary interview - I realized that the relationship wasn't only "one sided" - it was most likely a pre-meditated act (on my "boyfriend's" part and a "plan" to keep me active within the Los Angeles porn circuit.

Hindsight is 20/20 and upon looking back I can see that he was a blend between being a facilitator, enabler and pimp.

The one thing this man told me upon leaving me, was that he wanted to enter a relationship with a woman outside of the porn industry. Currently he is with another pornstar (lol).

I haven't wanted to ever relate this experience or my thoughts on this situation - primarily due to my feeling like a fool for having fallen for the act....

I've felt ashamed.

It's time now though - to put it out there - I wasn't my "boyfriend's" first victim - in fact the girl he worked on prior to myself is one of the top pornstars of today...

My account of this situation will outline EXACTLY how one tactic of the Los Angeles porn industry's recruitment system operates (and this particular system is universal across MANY industries). I hope my pain and heartbreak saves some other women from the same treatment and result of which I've suffered. In addition, I feel the world is deserving of knowing exactly how a pornstar like Jenna Haze comes about and is unwittingly developed - via the channel of the tragedy of the man she loved refusing to marry her - yet who continued to use and manipulate her for years to come all in the name of personal gain.

The truth is out there - but only the brave tell it (which is why the truth is rare to come across).

more to come as I collect my thoughts on this matter...

TRAUMA BONDING IS A BITCH ASS PUNK WHO'S ASS IT'S TIME

TO KICK OFF THE CURB.

for more definition and understanding - look at my entry for this date on www.Alexandralism.org 

It's about 1am Monday morning and I'm blogging a bit to reflect upon last week - as it's been quite an interesting one.

Last week bestowed more closure in regards to many of the life events I've shared with you all over the past few years. Last week also revealed and opened quite a few new gates of which I'm excited to step through.

• Steps to ensure the physical, psychological and spiritual safety and health of other women who may have found themselves (or will find themselves in the future) on a life path similar to mine in dealing with those who run the "Los Angeles porn industry" have come to solid fruition via the vote by the Los Angeles city council in favor of making condoms mandatory for adult content production.
• I received an email (posted in the blog entry prior to this one), which assists to verify that an adult industry attorney (Michael Fattorosi - a man who assisted in the terrorization, harassment and stalking of myself and family members), is indeed lacking ethics and any sense of morality professionally or personally.
• The health, nutrition and wellness company of which I've chosen to begin my new career with trained me as to how to do a wellness evaluation on future clients. My mentor walked me through the process by doing an evaluation on yours truly. The result is that I have the body of a 23 year old. That's wonderful news.
• I was given the opportunity to contribute to a documentary in regards to my thoughts on and experiences in the Los Angeles porn industry. It's been a while since I've stepped in front of a lense of which I don't control - however I had a good impression of the individual who extended the invitation so I placed my faith in God and Jesus Christ that he'll get my message out properly to those who need to hear it.

I took the week off from my webcasts www.MonicaAtHome.com , www.ChristianPornstar.com and www.DEOsports.net - I'll be picking up my schedule again this week. I feel pretty well rested now.

I'm hoping in March to take a few camping trips - the weather should be perfect.  Hopefully someone who's remained in the forefront of my mind although much time has past, will decide to come along. The desert is a strange - yet beautiful place to take refuge, heal and rest.