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Shelly Lubben "fighting evil" via irrational methods, stating (as usual) that all porn is bad/evil, and at time code 6:50 Shelley mentions "gays turning straight" while she was ministering to people in prison - since when Shelley to gays need to be turned straight? Tell me, should blacks be turned white as well?




Later on in this video, Shelley generalizes all porn women as being "fake" and "unhappy" and not having anything going on for themselves - speak for yourself Lubben - I'm more real than your bible thumping irrational prejudiced fat ass ever was or will be.

Well it's Saturday - and what a week it's been - well in actuality it's been a rather eventful past couple of weeks.

I've managed to get in disagreements with 3 people I considered good friends over the past few weeks. I wish all of the disagreements (each of which was completely independent of one another) could have been avoided but as some people say - life goes on and people change - ironically it wasn't any of the people I've known who have changed - it's simply ME.

I'm most likely going to retract for a bit - most likely for the duration of the Summer. There are many things I need to focus on career wise and personally, and though I wanted to reach out to include others in my career goals, and ideas, I've found that at this point in time I need to work 100% independently. I've always been a very self sufficient and and independent thinker, worker and lifestyler (as many of you, my readers I'm sure are aware of by now) so I accept that this is my nature as of current and I'm just going to go with it.

Often times I become very frustrated with others because I view things a bit differently than many do being that I'm a natural "fixer" and "system builder". When I see how a system can either be implemented or repaired in order to make things easier, more efficient and overall better and others don't or aren't willing to even TRY to see things from my point of view I get very DISAPPOINTED.

I hate being disappointed because I live for excitement. I'm and adventure girl and I'm a bit of an adrenaline junky, so I'm starting to realize that since that's the case, I'm best off (at least at this point in my life) working on my own little goals, celebrating my own little successes, embarking on my own little adventures and primarily dealing with others who live along similar wave lengths.

Yesterday was a nice but enlightening day. I hung out with a girlfriend of mine and we caught up on each other's lives. She and I both have aspirations to create something wonderful within the world of adult entertainment. She is more of a "team spirit" type of girl (she's going into business with her boyfriend and his roommate), where as I'm going at my ventures solo. What's always fabulous about hanging out with her though, is that we encourage each other, give each other honest and positive advice and input, and laugh at the pitfalls we've each encountered along our personal and professional journeys.

I'm rather cerebral and have been VERY cerebral especially over the past year or so which is what has prompted me to actively settle into a regular workout routine. As of current my sport of choice is hiking. Today I went over to Runyon for a VERY long hike - this time along the advanced trails.

I'm not sure whether I was brave or just plain stupid to go at these trails alone, but hey - it's Saturday and the park was full of people so I suppose I wasn't really alone, plus I had my Iphone jacked into Pandora.com so I had fantastic tunes along the way.

If you don't currently have a pandora.com account - GET ONE! Today I was listening to a station I created based on Pink's song "U + ur hand" - I love aggressive "guuuurl" music right now because when I work out I'm expelling a lot of aggressive energy as of current. Sometimes I think it's odd that I'm as aggressive as I am by nature being that I'm a Capricorn - good thing my sign isn't Aries.

I love observing the groups of people and their dogs on my hikes at Runyon. Today I enjoyed going along one of the trails with a wolf pack - Actually the dogs were Husky's I think but it felt like a friendly high energy wolf pack - it was kind of hard to even decipher the "people" from the "dogs" as they nearly shared the same vibrational frequency.

On one of the peaks of Runyon currently there's a prayer box - again, you have to be either brave or stupid to get to it, but it's worth it. The box is set up to where you write your prayer, goal, aspiration, desire, or wish - insert it in the box, and then slide the door over to read one from someone else. It's interesting to read other's thoughts - especially on a peak with such a beautiful and inspiring panoramic view. I'll be many other those shared thoughts will find a way to manifest themselves into our reality through the minds of those who take the time to read them - it takes a really strong mind to convince the body to make it up to that box :)

Though I've said this before on one of my most recent www.MonicaAtHome.com broadcasts, I LOVE my Iphone - it truly is going to be a dividing line between the "haves" and the "have nots" in the near future, but I'll tell you why I like it the most - aside from the Iphone allowing me to be much more productive - it also allows me to be an introvert when in a very social setting. I like that.

Well time to get to work - I'll be live on webcam the entire weekend doing private shows - if you don't catch me online here are a few other cool sites to occupy your mind and maybe get you out of the house (if you have an iphone you can take your work with you).

www.Imjustwalkin.com
www.modernhiker.com

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New blog posted on:

www.GettingOutOfPorn.com

(updating the DNS servers - this blog will be live again in 48 hours)

If you're really curious about my life at this point in time - and if you want to stop intolerance, prejudice and racism this is a MUST read.

Most recent post from www.GettingOutOfPorn.com:

Since taking the leap to work independently in the adult entertainment industry rather than for other studios, though there was a lull in the beginning (my transition period) I now am busier than ever working as a webcam girl from home, working as a talent development consultant for my growing client base, and working on getting my adult and mainstream content studio together (so that I can continue my career in and out of porn from a behind the scenes position).

Aside from being busy professionally, I've gotten back into the swing of things with my workout routine - have been hiking Runyon Canyon every day this week. I still haven't quit smoking completely, but I've MAJORLY tapered down my drinking to only special social occasions and my bi-weekly "girls night dinner parties" :) I feel great about that and very balanced.

The end of this month and next month will be pretty busy - I have a comedy event of which I'm the producer of, that I'll be putting together for July 21st called Laffgasm.com - the website will be launched soon. I'm really looking forward to putting on more events in the future as a part of my "talent development" work being that there are so many talented people that just need a venue to shine at in order to boost their careers.

Also on the 29th of June (this month), I may be having a "public discussion" after the upcoming Aids Healthcare Foundation meeting (click here for details) with a woman named Shelley Lubben who runs an "organization" called The Pink Cross. I used to admire this woman for her supposed attempts to help people, but after doing a bit of research on her, watching her interviews, and having heard about some of the realities of her organization from a few trusted friends, I'm not so certain that even she is clear as to what her true agenda is.

I think as of current that she is very self centered, immature, emotionally stunted, manipulative and on a quest of fame at the expense of hurting others and their livelihoods.

What I don't like about Lubben most of all, is that she blames everyone and everything else in life for circumstances she found herself in within life, except for herself. She seems to see the world as black and white rather than billions of shades of gray and colors.

We all have free will and we all make CHOICES in life. She CHOSE to work as a prostitute and a porn actress. No one held a gun to her head. Her career choice didn't work out for her and she chose to leave the industry completely, however that was her choice - and for her to demonize EVERYONE and EVERYTHING associated with it now is just plain wrong.

This particular blog is about how I realized that working as a full time porn actress for other studios wasn't right for me - however along the way I realized that I like working in the adult entertainment industry in other ways and I probably will continue to do so for quite some time.

Yes, my views and decisions have changed over time, but I'm constantly evolving - that's what healthy people who are trying to become the best versions of themselves do.

Lubben is pathetic is my book as of current and her views and what she preaches and wants to happen in regards to the eradication of the entire adult entertainment industry makes her a very dangerous woman. It is fanatical and extreme individuals like her in this society who promote things like intolerance, prejudice and racism.

Individuals who are quiet or low key due to their positions in society or their careers, but who share people like Lubben's views and who want to morph our society into a land of hate and intolerance are unfortunately who fund people like Lubben which is why Lubben needs to be stopped (I'm actually very curious as to WHO exactly funds Lubben and WHY).

As for Lubben's history, she's gone from one co-dependent situation to another her entire life - from a prostitute who most likely had a pimp, to a marriage, to depending on a religious organization for her livelihood. I doubt she's ever had a real job or even been independent in her life.

This Lubben woman I feel has targeted me because she sees me, my way of life, and my thoughts as a threat to her. Why? Because I tell people for FREE and without asking for donations from others to continue my blogs, websites, and work (I fund my ventures myself) how they can get out of porn if they want to and rebuild their lives without having to "repent" and without adhering to a particular religion.

In the past Lubben ran around chasing Steve Hirch (who probably told her to jump off a cliff - there's a video of this on youtube - I'll find the link and post it later ), and since he and everyone else ignores her, she now is going after a young black woman who's single and self employed trying to do her best in life, who is over a decade younger than she is (who who isn't even an active porn actress right now).

It's amazing to me how certain people IN porn don't like me , because my presence and mild success negates everything they want porn actresses to believe they have to do in order to be successful - while certain people AGAINST anything to do with porn hate me because though I feel changes in the way porn operates need to be made, I still think it's a cool field to work in and I definitely don't think religion needs to be even remotely involved.

If Lubben were to "stop porn" forever she would cripple not only hardcore porn producers financially (not just shady ones, but individuals who are GOOD and PROFESSIONAL people who run their business appropriately), but softcore producers, webcam networks, independent webcam girls (such as myself), most likely strip clubs, cable networks, online adult movie networks, and the list goes ON AND ON AND ON.

Bottom line is she needs to complete HER OWN road to recovery, deal with her OWN past demons and MOVE ON in her life and maybe get a regular job or volunteer position with an organization that has nothing to do with adult entertainment or anything else that causes her to relive her past.

Well that's my update for this blog for today - make sure to check my other blogs and websites to keep up with me :)

I woke up relatively early this morning and full of energy and zip - primarily because I'm simply feeling very good about myself and where I am in life as of late.

The cool thing about working for yourself independently, is that you have the ability to set as small or as large of goals for yourself as you like, whenever you like.

Currently I'm working very hard on finally completing about 3 online projects I started around 6 months ago. One in particular - www.MightyAfrodite.com (a project I dub as the sequel to 'Monica Foster') is just about to launch, and it's launch time is coinciding with transitions I'm going through professionally and personally quite nicely.

Sometimes I wonder what others think of my silly little projects, ambitions and goals - I'm sure many out there think I'm a nut job, but now days I'm fine with that - I'm definitely a different kind of person - artsy and dare I say eccentric, but hey - that's just me and the longer I'm here on this planet, the more it's coming clear to me that the only person's opinion I really need to worry about is my own.

I've started dating someone new - who you may ask? ME! I'm really enjoying the single life, but I've found it really fulfilling to inject romantic and sensual elements into my personal space physically and psychologically. In the past I didn't spoil myself too often (possibly because I had a lower sense of self worth than what I have now), but being in the fresh mindset that I'm in as of current, I'm giving it a try and so far I like it :)

I suppose you could say, I'm beginning to realize that although being with a partner who you love and care about is wonderful (and I do hope to find that again someday), life can feel just as complete when you're solo if you make the effort. I actually am feeling that it may enrich your spiritual worth to date yourself for a while.

I'll say one more thing though...the Hustler store of course helps quite a bit - love ya vibrator technology :)

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Coming through the tunnel...

Though it will still be some time before I leave Los Angeles physically, my mind has already relocated - and it's a great thing.

When I first came here from Florida, I thought I was journeying to my life's final destination. I was chasing things, connections, people and situations that I thought I needed in order to make my life successful and complete. I was chasing what I think most of our society is trained to chase.

I didn't just get glimpses of what I thought I wanted and where I thought I wanted to be - I was able to live within that destination. It was like test driving a car, but more...in fact it was like being able to take out a short term lease out on a car. The car drove smooth for a while, and when it did, it was a very sweet ride - but unfortunately it was a car that cost more money in maintanance and repair than what it was worth.

After one too many costly repairs on the care I leased, I decided to turn the car back in. I figured out I'm better off building my own mode of transportation from scratch. Probably not even a car - I think I'm going to go with attempting to build a teleportation unit...something along the lines of the Star Trek beaming stations.

The first few prototypes might have a few bugs of course, but eventually I'll get the design right. Regardless of whether or not my teleportation unit beams me to the exact destination of where I'm trying to go, at least I'll get there in a fraction of the time that driving would take.

I know the above 2 paragraphs reads strangely, but those who know me will understand.

What's the most interesting to me, is that I've come across people who have been here in Los Angeles far longer than I have, who STILL have their car on lease and are putting almost all of their hard earned spiritual income into the maintanance and repair of it - even though they know the car simply has a flawed design. Maybe they think that if they just get it repaired ONE LAST TIME it'll give them that lifetime of a smooth ride...who knows.

Well I'm glad to have made it through the dark Los Angeles tunnel and back out into the open. The plain I'm on now is nice, sun shiny, a pleasant temprature and wide open. It's a pretty expansive plain with no end in sight, so I suppose it'll be a long journey ahead, but that's OK...I've got a shit load of stamina as many of you out there already know ... and long journeys are what make me the happiest.

The past few weeks have definitely put the porn industry in the spotlight - but unfortunately in a rather negative light.

There have been 2 murders in our country as of recent by porn talents, one on the east coast (by a female) and one on the west coast (by a male).

A link to the story on the Tampa, Florida pornstar murderer Sunny Dae can be found by clicking here.

A link to the national news story on the Los Angeles (West Hills), California pornstar murderer Steven Hill can be found by clicking here.

It's amazing to me how these events have happened virtually back to back. I will share my thoughts on these stories on Monday's broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com which will be live on http://www.blogspot.com/People/MonicaFoster at 10pm EST / 1am PST

Screw personality - Good male genetics smell great! To a woman who's 31, single and without children, a healthy male smells REALLY good - especially when you're intoxicated.

Last night I had the pleasure of hanging out with a good friend of mine, Miss Julie Meadows (check out her blog - it's great). I'm very fortunate to have met her, because honestly, before I had, I'd pretty much lost faith in people who live in Los Angeles. She and her husband are a great example of the fact that it truly is possible to be down to earth and "real" in this city of superficiality.

Anyways, Miss Meadows had me over for some kick ass meatloaf and mashed potatoes. I haven't had meatloaf in a VERY long time. I've actually never had meatloaf that I liked before, but I LOVE Meadow's meatloaf. Why? Well, because the woman has true culinary talent AND she made it with tomato soup/sauce! YUM!!!!!!!!!!

After dinner her husband showed up with a nice piece of man meatloaf. LOL. Just kidding - well, not really. He'd been out with a friend of his who simply was very refreshing (from my perspective) to come across.

Earlier in the evening in fact, Miss Meadows and I had a good conversation in regards to dating, and natural selection - and the movie "Species" was brought up. When I think of that movie, it always makes me laugh - in a bit of a diabolical way... If I'd been the primary character in "Species" tonight, Miss Meadow's husband's friend would have be in trouble.

Even though the piece of man meatloaf I encountered tonight, made me go a bit "Species" in a psychological way, fortunately the wine I had toned me down a bit.

Being 31 is interesting - especially being that I live in Los Angeles - land of the "pretty male". On a biological level, I think my body is DEFINITELY in breeding mode (my sex drive is extremely high at this point - luckily I have a strong mind and sense of self so it's manageable), but psychologically and mentally I'm running in the opposite direction. Don't get me wrong, I'm having the time of my life right now, however I'm very grateful to have a good head on my shoulders and for birth control methods.

Another great thing about Miss Meadows and her husband is that they have a great couch to crash out on when the wine over takes you. Thanks guys!

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Well I decided to rebuild my site www.MonicaAtHome.com on a wordpress blog template this morning.

Yes, the task was very time consuming, but it was well worth the effort. I just finished up, and now the site and my blogtv.com videoblogs are SOOOO much more organized and searchable.

I've also moved the show from 6pm PST to 10pm PST due to the excellent advice from one of my viewers.

In time I will probably edit each Monica @ Home webcast and upload them directly to the hosting account the blog is on. Maybe I'll even insert advertisements for my own projects and anyone interested in buying adspace on the videos.

Well, now that www.MonicaAtHome.com is fixed and much easier to update and maintain I can move on to my next project on my "to do" list :)