Yet another Monica @ Home broadcast.

The past few days have been rather mellow for me personally, however quite a bit of turbulent activity is occurring on a world scale.

Rather than me write about myself today, I'm going to refer all of you to:

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Monica Foster discusses Charlie Sheen , Lenny Dykstra , CBS & gives tips on Entering Porn

Another new broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com - don't miss tonight's live webcast on www.blogtv.com/People/MonicaFoster - LOTS and LOTS to talk about (plus a wine review of course).





Below is a re-upload of February 2nd, 2011 broadcast in regards to my concern of CBS continuing to run "2 and a Half Men featuring Charlie Sheen" - well it looks like CBS has shut down production of the show due to Charlie Sheen's recent public behavior and comments on an Alex Jone's radio show broadcast with none other than dumb ass Lenny Dykstra (yep, that idiot that I had the misfortune of meeting).

THANK YOU CBS for realizing that Sheen is a loser! 2011 is shaping up nicely.

Each time I think I'm getting close to the completion of my second book and am amidst the editing process, my perspective on many of the events of which have transpired within the California adult entertainment industry and the manner of which I want to share my journey changes.

I suppose that with each day we live, and with each new experience and encounter we find ourselves a part of, our perspective is broadened (while other times narrowed) and altered. At times this process can be exciting and enlightening - other times frustrating...especially when we (or at least I) struggle to grasp exactly what we're perceiving and processing.

Maybe that's why writers remain writers throughout their lives - writers are seekers, explorers, recorders and teachers - whether they want to accept the responsibility or not.

So I've been introduced to the raw food diet recently. It's not really a "diet" - it's how all human beings should be eating period - from birth. Initially I was wary and resistant to it (as I am of many things), but a healthier way of living (mainly eating) is something I feel I'm ready for at this moment. The more I've read about the raw food way of living and the benefits of such a lifestyle, I really can't find a reason why anyone wouldn't want to do it.

A new friend of mine introduced me to the "diet" and didn't really try to sell me on it...he didn't have to actually because he's a walking billboard for how it can enhance your life.

My initial thoughts on "raw food"....hmmmm....honestly looking at it - from the way it's prepared, to how it's served, to just the overall "raw" state of the ingredients, it DOES appears as though it was just beamed down from the Star Trek mothership. The taste is a bit alien as well...but why should I really be surprised really - California is like another planet in comparison to the east coast.

I'm not going to go cold-turkey raw...I'm going to do it gradually. I ordered a blender and a few other vitals to get started. The food in general doesn't cost more or less than "regular" food - actually from my perspective as of current I'll basically be eating nothing but fruits, vegetables, beans, lentils, and water. I'm sure there are a few other raw items included on the menu - I was given a book on this "diet" - so we'll see what happens.

Something I've noticed from the bit of raw-food I've had so far, is that it's very very filling considering how little you find yourself actually ingesting. I suppose that's due to it being chock full of nutrients that one generally doesn't get in processed "regular" food. This is a benefit to me because overall I see eating as a big waste of time and would prefer that I was never hungry...yep I'm weird I know but I've always found bodily needs to be annoying.

Of course I'll be documenting my thoughts and progress on how this way of eating and living works out via my blogs and what not.

If you're curious about the raw food diet and how to get started, here's a cool youtube video I found that gives a decent overview. I have a feeling that in time I'll be creating one similar once I'm all raw and ready - lol.

Another new broadcast of Monica At Home!

I read a wonderful book a few months ago entitled "Animal Speak". It was recommended to me by a long distance friend of mine who's very spiritually aware of the interconnectedness of life (on this planet and beyond) and how at times, due to ego and the day to day tasks we as humans create for ourselves, we can forget that it's in nature, that we can find all the answers to all the questions that have ever perplexed us.

I suppose it's because I've lived quite deeply in a world of artificiality and superficiality for such an extended amount of time, that I now find myself seeking a balance in a world which is the opposite of where I've been residing for the past 3 decades.

This year will be very exciting for me, because I've been given the gift to be able to explore a different way of living, that still is interlinked with where I've been.

As of late, I've been allowing myself to ride the tides, and it's been working out well. I've had quite a few interesting options, opportunities and individuals enter my life over the past few weeks - and I've learned a vast amount from each - whether it be for the negative or the positive.

Positive / Negative : I'm beginning to realize that in the end, it's the balance that's important - not either element singularly.

This is a very well put together documentary on Shelley Lubben of The Pink Cross (www.thepinkcross.org) by Michael Whiteacre and Julie Meadows (www.juliemeadows.com).



Take responsibility for your choices in life people and be pro-active in making a change if you need to - don't consistently re-hash the past, because it's just that - THE PAST

Amazing how things in a person's life can change so rapidly while living here in Los Angeles. The fast pace of life here makes things consistently interesting...that's for certain.

It looks like I'll be going at the webisode series I mentioned in my last blog of which I wrote alone, and I actually feel great about it. I'm much more comfortable working independently and I don't take very well to "creative input" that isn't very creative.

I swear, some people couldn't come up with an original idea by themselves if their life depended on it.

The primary individual I was going to collaborate with, along with a mutual friend really aren't the type of individuals I want to spend time around any longer. I'm sure they're both good people in their own way, but as I'm moving forward into a more stable life, I've decided not to continue to spend time with people who are dishonest, who are at consistent risk of falling into negative situations and who are a drain on my energetic resources.

I found an awesome location to shoot the majority of the webisode series however, and for a very low rate as well so I'm quite happy. I have most of the parts cast and I think I should be able to get the entire project produced very inexpensively.

I'm very fortunate to have made it through life to where I am right now. I've had to wade my way through a lot of muck, and have found myself having to sift through the people in my life and separate the genuine from the wastes of space...time and time again....but it's all be worth it. I'm happy.

So I decided to utilize most of my time this weekend to finally fine tune and complete the first few "webisodes" of a series I'm writing for a project I'm collaborating on with a couple of friends.

Writing a true script - especially a comedy with rather dark humor (my sense of humor could probably be equated to that of Larry David and Paul Mooney)- is weird and can actually be a bit uncomfortable. Primarily because (at least in my case) when you write characters, you tend to find yourself slipping into that character's mindset which can leave you feeling a bit unnerved as you allow your own mind to explore how a fictitious character's thought patterns may be.

I'm taking some of these characters I'm writing for this project pretty far when it comes to their dysfunctionality both in their everyday public personas and private personas so I'll probably need to go into seclusion for a while to reset once this production is over.

I'll be surprised if I don't wind up going completely schizophrenic before the end of this venture actually.

I'm actually very excited about shooting this project even though it will be a lot of work and will probably be frustrating for me being that I don't like working with other people very much, because it will be the first video project that I'll get to be primarily "in charge of". I suppose I'm not officially "in charge", but considering that I'm the person on the team who is the most organized and ADD, the role of producer basically falls in my lap by default (hey as long as I can perceive it this way at least, the situation is tolerable for me - luckily the people I'll be working with on this realize this).

After this projects first few installments are shot, I plan on shooting the first scenes of the adult parody that I want to complete by July of this year which will be based on one of my favorite works "Queen of the Damned".

Though I'm moving away from performing as an adult entertainer, I'm definitely someone who was destined to write adult material. It's odd too, because I really don't have sex too often anymore (and that needs to change).

A friend of mine brought over a bottle of Jack Daniels the other night - and I have to say it's been a very helpful tool. I hate to admit it but my best work pours out of me when I drink - I suppose because I allow myself to lower invisible barriers I've built up within my own psyche. I'm finally becoming comfortable enough with who I really am to lower those barrier without a stimulant, but it's still difficult at times.

I've just recently come to realize and have finally begun to accept that I have a certain "psychological twist" when it comes to what I find sexy, so I'm going to have to work that out a bit - I find that the band Muse really helps with that for some odd reason.

Well, back to work - I just wanted to take some time to update this blog. At this stage I really wish I could clone myself - if I could I'd get so much more done so much quicker. Being impatient has always been my fault.

Monica Foster at Home on Kacey Jordan, Charlie Sheen, Melanie Rios and Montana Fishburne

Another new installment of www.MonicaAtHome.com !



Monica Foster discusses her new favorite band Muse, the OhMiBod sex toy her new book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook, the recent interview between Shelley Lubben and Michael Whiteacre and how it touches on a lot of the current politics in porn.
Later in the show Monica touches on the recent accident Kimora Klein was in and how sexy cora passed away.
At the end of the show monica discusses american apparels racey new porn inspired ad campaign and congratulates Tee Reel and Tori black on
their new maintstram project of which Half Moon which will be realeased on DVD.

When you decide to enter porn, you also have to decide how to EXIT porn when (if) you decide to.

I'll go more into detail about this another day, but what I will say is that I'm fortunate to have had a "pre-adult industry" skill set - I can honestly say that it's helped me avoid a lot of depression that I would be experiencing otherwise.

My best advice would be while you're still working in porn - whether it be via being a porn actress, webcam model, stripper, etc - start developing your career (I suggest your own business) in your spare time.

I've found that much of the marketing efforts that I put into developing "Monica Foster" easily translate into the business I'm planning on launching and running. Often times you might even find that your adult industry persona may even ADD to your next business venture or phase of life. For example adult super star "Lupe Fuentes" just launched her own clothing line of which she also models for (click here to check it out).

If you stay positive and maintain a certain level of drive you can accomplish anything in life - no matter what you've done or where you've been. All that really matter at any point is where you are GOING!

Last Friday's www.MonicaAtHome.com broadcast.

My most recent 2 broadcasts of www.MonicaAtHome.com - enjoy :)

Well I'm a solid day into being 32 years old and I feel like a solid "adult"...finally :) I've definitely ridden a full 360 degree upward spiral from 3 years ago.

Through out all the ups and downs (personal and professional), friends made, friends lost, loves found and loves lost I feel I've been given such a wonderful opportunity to really develop as a person (I'm a much better version of who I was prior) and gain a fantastic knowledge as to what's really going on in the world and in our society.

I feel that over the next 8 years I'll be able to create a pretty prosperous, positive and fulfilling life. I don't think it will be easy, but I'm willing to put in the hard work.

I'm afraid this blog will probably begin to become fairly boring now being that Monica Foster will primarily just be my "webcam girl" personality from here on out, but hey - that's who Monica Foster was initially to begin with.

I uploaded 2 new live broadcasts of www.MonicaAtHome.com to http://www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome

Below is the broadcast from last night, and probably one of my best broadcasts as of late - I've added a new live Call-In / Skype-in feature to the show! My skype ID for the show is "MonicaAtHome01"

I've been waking up very early lately - that's one of my resolutions for 2011 - to wake up early everyday. I'm not sure if waking up early really makes a difference in your quality of life or not, however being that most successful people in life seem to do that one thing, I figure that's a good start in my attempt create a successful personal future.

To those who read my blog - you should feel pretty good about your own lives, because I seriously doubt your lives are anywhere close to being as embarrassing as my own. I'll be 32 in 2 days and though I'm not 100% pessimistic or depressed about my own situation - I'm not exactly feeling like sunshine or rainbows about it.

Another 2011 resolution - not to be living in Los Angeles any longer by the summer. I want to move away from here and simply disappear into another phase of existence. Living here has felt like a lifetime in itself - an exciting one yes but not a fulfilling one.

The final 2011 New Years resolution (and birthday resolution) I'll share with you is that I'm staying away from all situations and people who can bring trouble or uncertain outcomes into my life. By nature I'm a typical "sure footed" Capricorn, but due to my propensity to become bored I've tended to seek out ways to walk on the wild side. Well...no more of that - EVER.

The one good thing about all the events that have led up to my present over the past decade is that I've learned that you can't get anything in life without hard work (at least I can't) and that the only person you can really rely on is yourself.

A while ago I wrote a blog on the French phrase "Force de Frappe" - it's a phrase my Dad familiarized me with. Both of my parents have given me such good advice and knowledge of concepts and the world in general through out my life, much of which I truly didn't understand until much later. I had no idea how much the concept of "Force de Frappe" would play into my life...until now.

For those of you who have been keeping up with me, you all know about the Monica Foster / Lenny Dykstra "scandal"...I'm not so certain it is really a scandal - it's just a situation I never should have gotten myself into - however hindsight is indeed always 20/20.

Since deciding to speak out publicly about the situation I've been on a rollercoaster ride that has taken me into some of the deepest pits of hell and back again (I suppose it's a good thing I'm already familiar with the upper levels of hell).

Last night I nearly lost my sanity due to an internet stalker I've attracted who fixates on pornstars (but who I've fought back against) who is a Dykstra "supporter" along with being someone who really hates when women (especially black women) don't keep their mouth shut.

Force De Frappe...yes - that phrase defines Monica Foster because no, I can't win or triumph over an entire group of people, way of thought, way of life or industry alone - but I can bring to light and damage the ideals of such people, industries and screwed up practices somewhat. I may be rendered depleted in the end, but I will always stand up for myself and defend others when I'm able to and when it's necessary. My birth name Alexandra, means "defender of man" and that tells you everything you could ever need to know about the woman behind Monica Foster.

Let this be a lesson as to what one little single woman alone in her one bedroom apartment at her computer can do in regards to fighting back against many with thousands if not millions of dollars.

A big thank you to RadarOnline.com , DealBreaker.com , BusinessInsider.com , BlogTv.com , Youtube.com , Google.com and my friends at Desire Street Productions.com

The above links are to mainstream news articles about my most recent situation. Shove it up your ass Dykstra and those in the adult entertainment industry who attacked my family because you were too afraid of me.

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Welcome to 2011 - enjoy my 2010 Monica Foster @ Home wrap up below!