Thursday, November 26, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! To those of you out there who are having dinner with family and/or friends, I hope you have a great, relaxing and drama free holiday. To those of you out there who are solo such as myself, don't get depressed - just realize that you're part of earth's family and that even though you may not be sitting at a crowded table with a big turkey in the center you're not alone.

I'll admit, I'm a little bit depressed and disappointed so far this holiday season, BUT I'm trying not to be. I received 1 Thanksgiving dinner invite. I suppose I should be grateful, and I am - but I'm a bit puzzled truthfully considering that there are people who I THOUGHT I was close to in my immediate life, who know damn well that I'm essentially 100% on my own right now, who could have asked if I wanted to join them - yet they did not (the Holiday isn't over yet - it's only 1am so those individuals still have 23 hours to redeem themselves). I'm taking this situation as a blessing in disguise as to who is really there for me and cares appropiately - opposed to who is not.

In other news, it looks as though the AVN award nominations for 2010 are out. I'm very happy, because my 1 and only feature movie that I was in, "Not the Cosby's XXX" was nominated in 4 categories! Best Art Direction (congratulations Scott David!), Best Soundtrack (congratulations Jeff/Will Ryder), Best Non-Sex Performance (congratulations Thomas Ward), and Best Supporting Actress (congratulations Misty Stone - in fact received 4 nominations in total in various categories - she'd better win at least 1))!

Some of the people/studios/movies who were nominated from my perspective should not have been - but then again I don't know what all factors in behind the scenes in who is nominated opposed to who is not, so who am I to judge. Amazing how "politics" factor into every facet of our society - even the porn industry.

Though my mood is a little low right now, I'm trying to combat that, and I will be actively on webcam quite a bit starting from tonight to the end of the weekend.