Thursday, September 24, 2009

So... we're approaching the end of September, and I'm feeling pretty good and as though I've hit my stride. I have a feeling this will be a good fall and winter. Generally, I reach my energetic peak around this time of the year - maybe it's because I was a winter baby.

I went into a bit of seclusion for a few months earlier this year (well I suppose for more than a few months), but I suppose I had to in order to recenter and reassess my goals and what I really want out of life. It took some time, but I have a lot more clarity about my surroundings and myself than before.

Come October, along with my personal projects, I'll be putting myself out there again to work with the adult studios again (if they'll have me). I'm looking forward to see what projects, if any are tossed my way. I have a substantially different look and will have a different performance style than I did when I began shooting in 2008, so it will be interesting to see what I'm deemed as "right" for - especially in this stage of the adult world's transition and restructuring.

I decided in fact, to write a blog on today in fact about "taking time off after you start performing".

One thing I've realized is that though someone may have been your friend in the past, they might not always be your friend later on as you grow and develop - especially if they've chosen to not grow or develop themselves.

In the past, I always thought that once a friend - always a friend - now I don't feel that way at all.

Monica 2008

Monica 2009