I was invited to do an interview this afternoon for The Static Hour on Blogtalkradio.com - it was fun :)

Please view my latest update on how I've noticed Mallcom Inc / Jerry Aharony may be profiting from the Pornwikileaks venture which has terrorized myself, family and countless others.

Though I have much more certainty and clarity as to where I can go with my future from here, I've continued to have a rough time emotionally as of late due to the consistent harassment from those who operate the Pornwikileaks project (my stress and anxiety is off the charts and I still am in fear for my safety and life).

I have to say I'm very disappointed in much of humanity (especially people I considered my friends, aquaintences and peers) being that I've had very little assistance and support through this rather dark period of my life, but I suppose it's a lesson learned. Those who have been there for me - I will always consider true friends and I'm very grateful for their presence.

Today I had a bit of a bright spot - someone, who I've never met in person who attacked me apologized.

Here is the link to the video apology: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fTe7QfKX-HI

I'm really surprised by this turn around, and I'm also very impressed. This guy showed a lot of strength and thoughtfulness. In this situation and at this time of my life I really needed such a peace offering.

On this installment of Monica Foster at Home , I discuss the most recent news in the adult entertainment (porn) industry - specifically Cal-OSHA's decision to implement a condom mandate (condoms are now required for sexual intercourse within porn industry ).

I also discuss the currently known details in regards to Kacey Jordan and her alleged rape and departure from twitter. I go over how her entrance, exit and thought process while working within the adult entertainment industry (porn and escorting) is not an uncommon one and how I feel many young men and women are conditioned by the media (adult and mainstream) into having unrealistic expectations in the "real world" - and how the porn industry (and entertainment in general) readily exploits young individuals who are naive and harbor far too much trust in people who are essentially predators.

I inserted Kacey Jordan's final twitter videos and photos of the bloody bedsheets of her alleged rape (which happened in the Aria Hotel in Las Vegas) into this broadcast (courtesy of her twitvid and twitpic accounts).

Towards the end of the broadcast I discuss how though I'm glad safer sex practices are being implemented into the porn industry, I fear for countless young men and women who will be lured out of the country to work in over-seas porn markets (where condoms are not mandatory and few things are regulated at all in regards to sex workers). I discuss the link between human trafficking and porn and provide tips and warning signs as to how to keep your friends, family and loved ones safe from falling unwittingly into a world that they may not be prepared for.

I also note the currently missing Lauren Spierer and how often women with her appearance and stats who go missing wind up either trafficked out of the country or in the domestic sex industry without anyone noticing.

Yesterday was a good day in Monica Foster Land.

As many of you who keep up with me are aware of - there has been a lot of debate and discussion within the adult entertainment and California legal/political arena as to whether or not condoms should be mandatory in the porn industry. Many of you know my views on the matter and FINALLY yesterday a conclusion (it may not be a permanent conclusion - but at least it is for now) was reached...read about it here:

Cal/OSHA advisors’ last public meeting on the adult film condoms issue

Mike South's take on the Cal-OSHA meeting

Yesterday's events, along with getting the chance to see an old friend of which I hadn't touched base with in a while, provided me with substantial conclusion and closure in regards to the past 3 years.

At this phase I feel very confident in moving forward in life, and I also feel that I'll receive a chance to regain certain opportunities and elements within my life of which I both lost and of which were essentially stolen from me.

At this point I have many enemies due to my choosing retaliation and retribution over "shutting up and walking away" - however I don't care, because throughout this journey I've learned not only that I have more strength than I was aware of, but that I'm a much better fighter than I'd ever imagined.

I've never been one to follow - I've also never been one to compromise. I'm an idealist (and can be a tad extreme in my views), however I'm always genuine and I speak and write from the heart (and of the truth as I know it).

At this phase I have a renewed sense of purpose and energy. I'm putting all of my time and energy into my uncompleted projects - mainly the character development of the many "off shoots" of "Monica Foster" - I hope that those of you who follow me, enjoy what I'll be manifesting between now and the end of the year.

I'll always look back at this stage of my life and remember that if you truly believe that something can happen, it will. I've learned that listening to yourself is the best option, because the Kingdom of God truly is within us all as both a united people and as individuals.

In the beginning of this installment of Monica Foster at Home, Monica shares another religious experience she had this morning in regards to God requesting that she return to the porn industry as a Christian adult actress / pornstar. Though she doesn't completely understand why God has prompted her to do this she doesn't question the path that she feels is set for her.

Later in the broadcast Monica Foster discusses today's press conference on CNN which featured Andrew Breitbart and Anthony Weiner. Monica shares her views as to why she feels the entire "scandal" was a minor issue which was blown out of proportion and questions why Breitbart took the actions against Weiner of which he did.

added note: Lenny Dykstra was arrested and jailed today :) Click here to read about it on the New York Times - karma is a bitch.....

Didn't expect to do a Monica Foster @ Home yesterday - but it was necessary.



Monica Foster gives a special report on some information Michael Whiteacre (producer of The Devil and Shelley Lubben) has recently brought to light on anti-porn Christian activist Shelley Lubben of the Pink Cross.
Monica shares her frustration in regards to the pro porn / anti-porn debate and relates how at this stage she is on neither side due to dealing with as much "Christian" harassment as she has porn industry harassment.
Monica speaks about how neither pro porn or anti-porn groups seem to get the point that they are 2 sides of the same coin which has serious flaws on each side.
At the end of the broadcast Monica Foster does a prayer / meditation session in effort for all the truths to finally come to light in relation to these issues and the people involved.

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It's amazing how adversity and hardship can really ignite your creative juices...

A new friend of mine asked me recently what would be a good way to make some extra money - I thought that was an odd question coming from her (her name is Michelle by the way) considering that she's a woman of such high stature, but she explained to me that times are tough for EVERYONE right now.

I explained to Michelle that my field of expertise is VERY limited - all I really know how to do is webcam, write, create blogs and websites, create graphics, take awesome photographs, edit video and build computers. I suggested that maybe Michelle should start some sort of online broadcast about something along the lines of fashion or being a mom on the go and that I could help her with it, but to my surprise she wanted to try out being a sexy webcam model!

Well - I decided to let Michelle take over my account on Streamate from time to time on
http://monicafoster.cammodels.com

I also set her up with a nice starter blog on


http://MichelleOxxx.blogspot.com

You can also catch her on twitter.com/MichelleOxxx - Who knows what she'll do from there...

***Update*** 

Decided in July not to do an adult parody/character of Michelle Obama - reserving it for something non-adult industry. The real Michelle Obama deserves something better than this.

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So the harassment continues from the losers behind pornwikileaks. This is the email that was sent through the contact form of my building's website to my apartment manager - at least now I have someone local who can vouch for this crap from these psychotic people.
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Hi ****

Here is a copy of the email we received. It came from the 'Contact Us' form from the building website.
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From: MF (note how they inserted my email in the from field)
Subject: Franklin Park Apartments
To: (removed)
Date: Thursday, May 26, 2011, 12:35 PM

Below is the result of your feedback form. It was submitted by
MF (MonicaF001@yahoo.com) on Thursday, May 26, 2011 at 15:35:07

Message: we have reason to believe (twitter comments) that *** in unit 118 is keeping several pets (birds, etc) in the apartment without paying the pet deposit of $250. she has just acquired a white dove and has tweeted several pictures of the animal.

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I hate linking to their stupid site, but here's the thread link on PWL that initiated this: http://www.pornwikileaks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=69231


You've Got to be kidding me - God sends me a dove (Phillip) and I took care of it and then released it. I have one little dog and another bird (a love bird) which my apartment manager has known about since I've lived in this building (since July of 2008). Luckily I live in a building with really good people who know what I've been dealing with since exiting the porn industry and speaking out.

When I think of all the stress, anxiety, pain and anguish that this has caused me and others - I want to scream but God is watching.

When I first recorded this and reviewed it I thought that this broadcast was a bit - well for lack of better terms "out of the realm of understanding" for most - but though it is edited - it's actually not and it's exactly how I feel. Enjoy - and to my enemies - you made a huge mistake tonight.




After you watch this I suggest you get to know someone who affirmed to me that I'm fine being exactly as I am : Shirley MacLaine - here is a recent interview with her on Coast To Coast AM - it is excellent! Click here to listen (you probably have to be a member of the site to listen).

There's something I feel the need to address tonight in written form - especially considering the content of my most recent broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com

The issue tonight I will be addressing is rape. Lately I've been having recurring nightmares about this incident again - so I feel that God is telling me that it's time for me to share this.

New Years Eve (2008 into 2009) I was raped in a bathroom of a loft/condo off Hollywood and Vine by a man by the name of Chase. I pushed this incident into the back of my mind and never blogged about it here (there are actually MANY things I have not blogged about here out of fear, and out of the selfishness of wanting to build a long term career for myself within the porn industry), but I am today.

I was invited out by Scott David of X-play / All Media Play to a party at Ecco Lounge - where I had a really good time. Then afterwards we went to an afterparty at the residence of a guy by the name of Robert Quinn in a beautiful loft/condo building off Hollywood and Vine. I wound up getting drunk - incredibly intoxicated in fact that night and wound up talking to a guy by the name of Chase in the bathroom. He seemed nice, friendly, etc - and I let my guard down being that he was a black guy (I've never had any black / African American males be aggressive with me in life - at least not up until that point).

Chase was talking about his son, and showed me a photo of his son from his wallet - and I told him that I thought he had a cute kid. Then he asked me if I did privates. He specifically used the term "privates" (meaning escorting/prostitution). I told him that I was working as a porn actress currently. Not even 5 seconds later Chase had me on the floor and raped me. I didn't know what to do because I'd never been pinned down like that before. It only took about a minute and I went into a mental shock/black out mode - I didn't know what to think, how to react or even what to do. When he got off of me, I got up, left the bathroom, tried to act normal and told Scott David what happened.

Scott became really angry and attempted to fight Chase - I yelled at Scott to stop (because I just wanted to get out of there asap) and we left the party.

After that night I didn't want to think about the event and I pushed it to the back of my mind. I know now thinking back that I should have gone to the police and to the hospital but I didn't and I'll tell you why. Shame - I knew that in the eyes of the law and in the eyes of anyone (in my view at the time) I would be seen in a negative light - especially being that I had sex for living as a "pornstar". I didn't want the issue to come up in the relationship I was in at the time, and I didn't want it to get around in the "porn industry" that I wasn't easy going. I wanted to just let the whole thing go.

In time I started having nightmares about the incident. I contacted Jeff Mullen / Will Ryder and asked him for Chase's number (I wasn't sure whether his name was Chase or Chance). He gave it to me and I called Chase and screamed at him and told him he'd better not ever do anything along the lines of what he did to me to anyone else ever again - then I hung up the phone. He called me back but I didn't answer the phone. That was a pointless thing to do, but it's all I had the courage to do at the time.

Chase is a piece of shit with a mentality the unfortunately isn't too uncommon for jerks like himself who are on the fringes of the porn industry. I'm not sure exactly how or why Chase was at that party, I don't think he works for any porn studios (at least I'd never seen him on any of the sets I'd worked on before) but he somehow tight with Jeff Mullen and his friend Robert Quinn. Men like Chase figure that simply because a woman does porn, it's OK to be sexual with her anytime anyplace whether she likes it or not. I truly wonder how many other women Chase has done this to who felt like I did at the time - ashamed and afraid.

It's most likely to late to do anything about the incident now, but I would like to track this fucker Chase down and at least file a formal complaint against him of some sort - so I'm going to investigate how to do so. It sickens me that men in the porn industry such as Jeff Mullen and several others maintain friendships with men like Chase who feel that it's OK to violate a woman's body and space.

As my reaffirmed relationship with God and Jesus Christ grows and strengthens, and I as develop more internal strength and courage, and as my mind clears of the poisonous energy I picked up through my interactions with certain individuals within the porn industry - I'm realizing that it's imperative that I share my experiences and tell the truth about the events I witnessed and the situations I was in over the past few years - because it might save other young women and men from suffering the same fate as myself.

Tonight when I tweeted via twitter that I'm actively searching for the contact info of this Chase jerk so I can at least try to file some sort of legal complaint against him - Jeff Mullen immediately sent me text messages stating that I am a "liar" and that he's "disappointed in me" and that "he's one of the good guys" and that I'm being "unChristian".


I decided to post photos of the texts I received tonight because I'm sick of people calling me a liar nowdays when I am being honest, telling the truth and not holding back (which I feel is nearly killing me).

I strongly advise that if you're considering entering porn, or if you currently are a porn talent (or even if you are not in porn) DO NOT work with X-Play / All Media Play because apparently Jeff Mullen not only attempts to portray depictions of children having sex in his movies as I outline in this youtube video here - he also maintains friendships with men who think it's OK to sexually attack women just because they may be sex workers to begin with.

I suppose this is what happens when you just can't live a lie and withhold the truth anymore. Tonight I'm just going to pray to God and Jesus Christ my lord and savior that things in my life will work out however it is that God has planned for me. I have to retain faith. I feel like I'm being attacked from all directions at this phase, but I truly believe that God is standing with me, and I know for a fact that nothing and no one can triumph over God.

I'm documenting all of this because I feel like there needs to be a record incase someone out there decides to attempt to hurt me. I'm not overly afraid, but I am aware.

***Update 1: I found out tonight from someone on twitter ( @xxxVIP ) that "he answers to Black Shrek. He shows up late to parties to scrounge for rufee'd porn girls." - hopefully law enforcement or someone will be able to put a stop to not only Chase - but this trend in the porn / adult entertainment industry.

****Update 2: I found out that Chase uses the last name Styles or Stylez and DEFINITELY answers to "Black Shrek"

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It's not even 12pm here but it's been quite a long day already. I had the opportunity to attend and speak at an LA City Council meeting this morning - quite the anxiety filled experience (I have no problem chit chatting with hundreds of people live online - but offline...that's another story...I'm shy) - but at the same time a much needed experience. I'll detail it all later. For now enjoy last night's broadcast of Monica Foster @ Home.






In the beginning of the broadcast, I share my thoughts on Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross and the lack of balance between pro-porn and anti-porn groups. I address why I was an active participant in Not the Cosbys XXX 1 and 2 though I disagree with the character of "Rudy" played by Nina Devon which I feel depicts the sexualized image of a child.

I go over why watching adult content can lead a person to a false view of the type of partner they feel they should be with and unrealistic expectations of standards of beauty. I also touch on why I feel older men (especially those who work in the porn industry) are as obsessed with young women as they are, which I feel is due to their stunted unhealthy psychological state - a part of the reason as to why the porn industry is consistently active in recruiting women as young as possible (for both adult content AND for the men who work behind the scenes who are addicted to sex).
I give a live prayer session with my live viewers and pray for those affected by the Pornwikileaks issue.

Later in PART 2 of the broadcast I discuss the shady recruitment methods of porn industry "professionals" via social networking sites and possible extortion tactics within the porn and adult entertainment industry that people (espcially youngsters) should be aware of.

This week's broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)

Part 1


Part 2



On this particular broadcast of Monica @ Home I discuss my faith in God being reaffirmed, AIM (the primary STD testing facility for porn talents - www.aim-med.org) shutting down which has left the current active talent in a very dangerous situation without a primary STD testing facility (and verifiable database) along with an aspect of the porn industry that has been bothering me for quite some time: the depiction of children in adult content (which is against the law according to chapter 110 sections B and C of title 18 of the United States code which governs Child Pornography).

The evening of April 29th, 2011 after attending the Free Speech Coalition meeting (which I had a hell of a time making it to) and grabbing some dinner, a new friend decided to come and stay with me for a while. He appeared on my patio wall and wasn't in the mood to fly away, so I brought him in.


Phillip

God speaks to us in interesting ways.

Dove, Pigeon, Power Animal, Symbol of Peace, Love, Maternity, Gentleness, Spirit Messenger

Arrest Of Jesus
Possible proof that a law in regards to Child Pornography has been broken in Not the Cosbys XXX 2
(read the comments)

For some of you out there who keep up with me, it's no secret that I've been experiencing some extreme depression from having to deal with the Pornwikileaks venture that certain "anonymous" individuals have decided to maintain and expand.

The venture has made myself, my family and countless others a target for quite a few angry, disgruntled and potentially dangerous individuals. Tuesday night, I was finally pushed over the edge after receiving a slew of hate filled messages online. I seriously contemplated ending my time here in this world.

I know even contemplating such an action is viewed as foolish and selfish by many, however my mindset at the time was in a place that it's never been before, due to my feeling that there may be no solution to the pain and trouble I've caused for those that I care for. At that moment I felt those I care for may be better off if I wasn't here.

Obviously I'm writing this, so I'm still here and I'm in a better mental place now with the help of a couple close friends who reached out to me after I tweeted my feelings that evening. I'm beyond grateful to these individuals - however I'm not ashamed of having felt as I did, because I'm only a human being and I can't retain strength and optimism indefinitely. I'm tough but I'm a sensitive creative artist at my core and the stalking and bullying has caused me to feel I've lost the one thing I had left - my pride.

The many actions people can take against others in our society that fall within the "loop holes" of the law really frustrate me. It's come to my knowledge that there ARE people who could have spoken up and put a stop to the PornWikileaks venture - but have not. Why? Probably due to fear or due to potential financial gain from the venture succeeding. Practices such as psychological warfare need to be evaluated by our society and there needs to be laws implemented to protect individuals from such tactics dished out by those with the know how to do so. Maybe in time that will happen - but then again maybe it won't.

In my view, anyone who KNOWS who has created and maintains Pornwikileaks but fails to speak up to stop the endangerment of countless people's lives, in my view is just as guilty as those who own/run the site. The truth always comes out and often when traditional justice does not prevail other forms do.

What people don't realize about "porn" and the issues affecting the "porn industry" as of current, is that there is a lot of money at stake, along with many people's freedom being at stake. I've come to realize that I'm viewed as a very dangerous person by many who want to unjustly retain their financial status and freedom due to what I've seen, where I've been and what I know.

I feel the "wiki" (that I suspect a fictitious and/or anonymous adult industry blogger who uses the pen name "Darrah Ford" wrote) was a warning shot to me that basically says "shut up and/or do as we say or we will hurt you and/or your family because we know where you and they live". I think most people would be both frightened and depressed if they had to deal with this classic Mafia style threat. I do not and will not cave to these threats however - what I've said and written over the years has been exactly what I thought or felt at that moment. Yes, my feelings and views have altered as I've evolved and continued to experience life, however I WILL NOT take back anything I've written or said that I currently BELIEVE IN.

Again I feel like I'm in a better, more healthy and stronger place emotionally now - today. It's difficult being that I have no immediate or extended family on this side of the country, don't have a boyfriend or husband or children and have very few close friends to lean on. By nature I don't like to lean on anyone which is probably a positive in many situations but probably a negative in this one. Come to think of it maybe that's why I've been used as an example by those behind PornWikiLeaks - they figured I'd back down due to lack of support.

Regardless I felt the need to share this part of my life with you all. I want many of you reading this out there to know that YES you should stand up for what you feel is right, speak out and try your best to facilitate changes when you can - HOWEVER I want you to know that it's a very hard and dangerous road to take - Malcolm X and Martin Luther King are good examples of this.

I know I still haven't released the first installment of my next book "Getting Into Porn - The Journeys" yet, but I will soon and I hope many of you read it (I will be setting it at a very very very low price) because it may be one of the only true accounts as to what dealing with people who view humans as no more than merchandise and sex toys really are like.

I'm still not anti-porn - but I am anti-porn industry until people with souls and a sense of responsibility toward their fellow man can take the reigns of this "porn industry" again.

Too many individuals in the porn industry as of current are OUT OF CONTROL in my view - especially when it comes to the current promotion of adult niches that in my view are making pedophilia and incest appear "normal". That shit is NOT NORMAL and it's not right that our youth that stumbles upon free tube sites are being indoctrinated into the sick dream worlds of people who could NEVER maintain a healthy relationship or life in mainstream society.

Well that's enough for today - thanks for reading and keeping up with me still after all this time.

No regrets - just amazement as to how an industry that can seem so "free" in actuality is a venue to enslave.

I found this video on youtube recently. Many of you know what I've been dealing with in regards to the PornWikiLeaks website. I'm glad that others outside of the adult entertainment world have come to realize that such a site isn't just dangerous and breaking several laws - it's a hate crime as well.

Those who have had knowledge of who is running this website but have said nothing are just as guilty in this situation as those who created and operate that website as far as I'm concerned.

Another fresh installment of Monica @ Home (04/01/2011)

Well it's been a while since I've last posted...life has taken a different pace as of late, however since I know you took the time to subscribe or check in, here's an update:

Everything is mellow and fantastic and that about sums it up! I made it through a brief nutritional detox program I put myself on and it was totally worth it - both my body and spirit feel much more energized. I'm going to make a solid effort to eat much better than I have in the past.

In other news, my websites are doing well, my book is selling steadily and I'm finally completing some projects I've had on the bench for a while. I'll admit, the woman who created "Monica Foster" has taken quite a few strides into a different direction in life which is why all things "Monica" have begun to taper off a bit. I'll keep you posted as to where my current interests are pointing towards on my weekly broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com (I'll get the most recent archives uploaded in time).

I'm very content with where life has me stationed as of present. It's been quite the journey and it's nice to now just simply sit back, laugh and smile.