Well for those of you who keep up with the happenings in "Monica Foster Land", you know I've been in the news a bit lately. A part of me feels like "oh shit, should have made a different life choice once again", but another part of me knows that I did the right thing in speaking up, because though I personally am not looking any longer for anything of which I initially felt was owed to me a few days ago, I definitely saved countless women from falling prey to a true predator.
I may wind up with legal issues due to the tactics of which I took to ensure that Dykstra's days of conning escorts are over (or at least more widely known), but I feel that on a universal and spiritual level I quite possibly evened out a karmic embalance for myself and many other women who have taken a path similar to my own.
Since dealing with my current situation, I've found that many people within the adult entertainment circuit will become quite angry if your actions don't fall in line with their agendas. I've been asked to post the bounced check in regards to my current situation online on a certain adult industry forum. Initially I would have if I had a copy in my possession (I have to wait to receive a copy from my bank at this stage - the particular bank I have an account with doesn't provide you with an online scan when you cash it directly with a teller), but after rethinking the situation...absolutely not. I will only be posting my proof on my own venues or via a mainstream news source.
Interestingly since the individuals who moderate that particular forum haven't gotten their way, their true colors have shone through. The mainstream media has labeled me as a "hooker" yes - it's a harsh term but I can deal with it. In contrast however, a few within the porn arena have decided to let their true confederate flag flying nature show (of which I've written about in the past on my blog http://gettingintoporn.blogspot.com) and have called me a "nigger", "black bitch", etc - oh and of course posting various photos of monkeys and labeling them as "Monica Foster" as well (as I've said in the past, if you're a black considering entering porn - please wait till I open my own ethnic content studio before coming out to LA - too many KKK rejects are running loose in porn valley as of current, and much of the ethnic populace here is too intimidated to speak up about it).
People who I thought had similar views to myself (and simple common sense) have turned on me. It's very telling, and disappointing - especially being that it's been revealed to me who really owns and runs the adult industry's most controversial online discussion forum ( yep the one that gives porn stars real names and addresses if they don't follow the owners' agenda of creating a "new world order" in porn).
If this particular forum continues to attack me (as silly and childish as the attacks are) I will provide the name of who really runs it (and it really is not who most people think it is...you'll be as shocked as I was to find out - though in many ways it makes perfect sense)- But then again I may not have to, the 2 individuals who informed me have much more reason to out the names than I do.
LOL.
One thing I've learned over the past year, is that in our society, women like me are consistently silenced and labeled as "dumb", "a loudmouth", "too outspoken", a "man-hater", "a slut", etc. I suppose on some level all of those labels fit, but guess what? I'm just the first major wave of such a woman. I will not back down, I'm not afraid of pain, I will not be silenced, I will continue to live independently, I will continue to set my own price/worth, I will continue to enjoy sex with hot men (of my choosing) and I will not ever give up on my dreams, ambitions or goals.
The most shocking part of having worked in porn and the world of adult entertainment was to learn that it's many of the individuals (specifically certain men) who work behind the scenes who are most threatened by women such as myself. I think mainstream America in actuality is much more prepared and ready to embrace the "type of woman" that I am (because the numbers of women like me are rapidly growing) , then the adult industry, which is who has the real problem with women like me.
The false image the porn industry creates (which in reality is nothing more than a controlled "doll"), which they own and portray as being a "free sexual spirit and self possessed" has been outed as a sham at this stage. Really take a good look at the lives of MANY of the "adult star's" images you see splashed all over adult trade mediums and pranced around at conventions...really LOOK - the facade of success, wealth & security these adult actresses display quite often is totally false and is manufactured by their "keepers" behind the scenes . Porn videos are not the true money maker of the "porn industry" - it's the activity that I'm currently being condemned for that's the true cash cow for many in adult entertainment.
It's the uncontrollable independent women of which the porn industry truly fears and encourages America to fear, because without that fear, the adult entertainment industry wouldn't still be trucking along (though it's currently rolling down the road with at least 2 flat tires).
Actually the adult entertainment industry would make far more in the future and have less of a stigma attached to its female talents using the image of a woman who embodies qualities similar to my own, but it would take a population of women behind the scenes for that to happen. Unforunately these beta males currently running the show aren't going to disappear until they are forced too (or just die off). Why, because they're like drug addicts, and their "drug of choice" is the small population of adult industry actors and actresses of which they currently hold under their thumb (I'll explain more in my next blog).
So all in all though my holiday was tainted by me taking an unforeseen side trip down a path I hadn't imagined I'd ever experience, other elements of my holiday worked out well. I visited with my wonderful mother, sister and nephew. In a couple of months I will make an effort to visit with my father too (we connected via phone this holiday and I shared with him lots of photos and video i took with my phone).
I decided to repaint and decorate my nephews room while visiting. It was hard work but worth it (plus drinking wine while painting is always fun). It's amazing that regardless of what life throws at you, when you reconnect with where you originate from - nothing else seams nearly as important as you may have initially thought it was.
So to conclude, I feel the rest of this year and 2011 will be great! I've learned more in the past 2 years than many learn in a lifetime. Ive sesen so much and done so much...and I'm just getting started....
Don't miss the live broadcast of www.monicaathome.com on December 27th at 10pm pst :)
Official Blog the Artist, Musician, Author, Investigative Blogger, accidental Adult Industry Expert & unconventional Christian (who is sometimes known as former pornstar) Monica Foster. Official website: www.MonicaFoster.net
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sometimes in life we make mistakes. Other times we're simply too trusting. Regardless none of use deserve to be treated like crap by people who believe their better than others or "entitled" to whatever they want because they are or were wealthy.
I'm standing up for myself and other women who have found themselves in my situation in this video.
Never be afraid to speak up and fight back. You messed with the wrong woman Lenny Dykstra!
I'm standing up for myself and other women who have found themselves in my situation in this video.
Never be afraid to speak up and fight back. You messed with the wrong woman Lenny Dykstra!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Well it appears that the person who screwed me over financially either doesn't have enough respect for others to pay me what he owes me, OR he simply doesn't have the money. Regardless I'm going public with this because I'll be damned if this asshole jerk cons any other women.
I invite you all to read http://lenny-dykstra.blogspot.com/
I've kept me mouth shut about many things on many occasions but I will not in regards to this situation and individual. I know I may be possibly incrimnating myself by coming forward and speaking up about what happened on Deceber 13th, 2010 but I have nothing to lose at this point being that my holiday has been ruined.
Be careful of who you fuck over in life people - sometimes the least likely of people will be the ones who rip your head off. No one is more dangerous than someone who has nothing left to lose and now, I'm in debt and have no holiday. Lenny Dykstra - suffer my wrath.
I invite you all to read http://lenny-dykstra.blogspot.com/
I've kept me mouth shut about many things on many occasions but I will not in regards to this situation and individual. I know I may be possibly incrimnating myself by coming forward and speaking up about what happened on Deceber 13th, 2010 but I have nothing to lose at this point being that my holiday has been ruined.
Be careful of who you fuck over in life people - sometimes the least likely of people will be the ones who rip your head off. No one is more dangerous than someone who has nothing left to lose and now, I'm in debt and have no holiday. Lenny Dykstra - suffer my wrath.
2011 is just around the corner and I'm very excited! I know that this year will be GREAT because I'm going to make it great.
I haven't written a blog in quite some time, mainly due to my other projects being as time consuming as they are - so here's an update.
*My first book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook (which is available on Amazon.com) is doing very well. Simply completing it and managing to put it out there for sale was an accomplishment in itself and a fantastic way to conclude 2010. My next book Getting Into Porn - The Journeys (well, more like the first installment in the series) is nearing completion and I will most likely look into turning it into a screenplay mid 2011.
*My little broadcast www.MonicaAtHome.com is doing well too! I have a few surprises of which I'll be implementing into the show in 2011 so keep watching.
*I'm working on a joint venture with comedians Thomas Ward and Brittany Blaze. I rarely am willing to work with others on much of anything, but these to individuals are so talented, that I feel it would be a huge mistake not to create something wonderful with them.
*This is an odd point to make, but I recently bought some bindis, and will be sporting them this year :)
*I'm in the process of revising my script for the first adult feature/parody I hope to be able to release 7/7/2011. All I need now is the capital to get production rolling.
*On a negative note, someone who I thought initially was trustworthy has attempted to rip me off. I'm pretty upset about this being that it's heavily effected my holiday plans, but I have a feeling that the power of the internet will assist me in getting back what I'm owed. The person only has 24 hours before I name them and they have much more to lose than I.
So that's about it. I feel great and if you check my last www.MonicaAtHome.com broadcast I look great as well :) I'm heading back to Florida for Christmas in a couple of days. It will be nice to see my family, however I will be very glad to get back to California to continue my work, and life.
I've learned quite a bit this year - about myself, about others and about how the world really works. Since learning certain key life elements, I find myself waking up in the morning (or evening - depending upon what sleep schedule I'm on at the time) with a zest for life like I've never had in the past. I actually wish I never had to sleep at times (unless it's with a sexy 21 year old who looks like Justin Timberlake of course) and I'm much more accepting of myself and others who I feel are worth it.
I no longer feel guilt when it comes to telling people who are not worth it to get the fuck out of my life and not to bother me anymore. I had to do yet another "cleaning house" of my social circle recently. I do give people chances, but if they can't (or won't) get it together I will not expend my energy on them any more.
I've come to realize that I'm a "certain type" of woman. As of current I have to define myself as a "Single Swinger" - yea yea, I know that sounds weird, but it's who I am. I wish I'd realized that about myself actually prior to entering the adult entertainment world - but actually when I think about it, maybe the adult entertainment world is what helped me in discovering certain qualities within myself of which I was initially afraid of embracing.
A good friend of mine, Julie Meadows, touches on certain annoying things that anti-porn activist Shelley Lubben preaches - one of those phrases being "You were meant for more than porn". I think that's an interesting statement, because it's all about perspective.
What is "more" than porn? What is "less" than porn?
Another good friend of mine Brittany Blaze brought up an interesting point to me when we were discussing my book on video for her youtube channel. I brought up my thoughts about how I feel you need to enter the porn industry with a financial "cushion" or a bit of money saved in case things don't work out - and she countered with that for many women - entering the porn industry is one of their ONLY options for survival and that is a girl is coming from "the boonies with brown teeth getting fucked in her ass everyday by her dad", that a decent looking guy offering her $1000 to do the same thing is like hitting the lottery for the girl.
I hate to say it, but I agree with Brittany, and if you look closely at a few of the "top" performers in the porn industry - they truly were once the girl the Brittany described (whether they want to admit it or not).
I've come to realize that in life I've been a bit "spoiled". Not in every regard - but due to my background, personal taste, and methodical way of thinking, I've tended to be able to always put myself into situations of which I can walk on the wild side, but have the luxury of experiencing only the mildest aspects of the wild arenas. My life has been difficult in some ways, but really never that bad - I'm quite fortunate.
If I'd known more about acceptably open relationships and lifestyles (but how could I have being that it's more of a west coast thing from what I can observe), I probably never would have done porn. Porn really was just a venue for me to be more of an exibitionist than I already was, fuck a lot (I hadn't fucked much prior to doing porn in all honesty) & lay some ground work to make some money.
I admitted to my Dad in an email recently that I think I require 100 times more attention than most people. I personally don't think anything's wrong with embodying that quality, because we're all different...but one thing I do know now is that due to me needing so much consistent interaction with the opposite sex, at this stage of my life I most likely can't be in a single monogamous relationship (and frankly I DON'T WANT TO BE). I'm reaching my peak psychologically, mentally and sexually as a woman and I feel that I need about 12 boyfriends in order satisfy my needs - in other words a "reverse harem".
12 would be a perfect number of men for me because I could see each 2 to 3 times a month without the relationship with any of them ever growing stale (at least not for about 7 to 8 months). Ideally I'd like to find a group of men of varying ages and ethnicities - however I'd prefer for at least 6 of the men to be around 21 years old and REALLY cute (as I'm approaching 32 years old, I'm starting to understand VERY well why older men date women as young as they can get away with dating - Just call me black Demi Moore).
Yea, it's POSSIBLE there is ONE man out there who has the strength of 12 men (I personally believe it's Theo Theodoridis), but I haven't met him yet.
Well that's about it, I need to get back to work now recruiting for my reverse harem and continuing to progress my other projects. See you on December 27th on www.BlogTV.com/People/MonicaFoster for the next live broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com
I haven't written a blog in quite some time, mainly due to my other projects being as time consuming as they are - so here's an update.
*My first book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook (which is available on Amazon.com) is doing very well. Simply completing it and managing to put it out there for sale was an accomplishment in itself and a fantastic way to conclude 2010. My next book Getting Into Porn - The Journeys (well, more like the first installment in the series) is nearing completion and I will most likely look into turning it into a screenplay mid 2011.
*My little broadcast www.MonicaAtHome.com is doing well too! I have a few surprises of which I'll be implementing into the show in 2011 so keep watching.
*I'm working on a joint venture with comedians Thomas Ward and Brittany Blaze. I rarely am willing to work with others on much of anything, but these to individuals are so talented, that I feel it would be a huge mistake not to create something wonderful with them.
*This is an odd point to make, but I recently bought some bindis, and will be sporting them this year :)
*I'm in the process of revising my script for the first adult feature/parody I hope to be able to release 7/7/2011. All I need now is the capital to get production rolling.
*On a negative note, someone who I thought initially was trustworthy has attempted to rip me off. I'm pretty upset about this being that it's heavily effected my holiday plans, but I have a feeling that the power of the internet will assist me in getting back what I'm owed. The person only has 24 hours before I name them and they have much more to lose than I.
So that's about it. I feel great and if you check my last www.MonicaAtHome.com broadcast I look great as well :) I'm heading back to Florida for Christmas in a couple of days. It will be nice to see my family, however I will be very glad to get back to California to continue my work, and life.
I've learned quite a bit this year - about myself, about others and about how the world really works. Since learning certain key life elements, I find myself waking up in the morning (or evening - depending upon what sleep schedule I'm on at the time) with a zest for life like I've never had in the past. I actually wish I never had to sleep at times (unless it's with a sexy 21 year old who looks like Justin Timberlake of course) and I'm much more accepting of myself and others who I feel are worth it.
I no longer feel guilt when it comes to telling people who are not worth it to get the fuck out of my life and not to bother me anymore. I had to do yet another "cleaning house" of my social circle recently. I do give people chances, but if they can't (or won't) get it together I will not expend my energy on them any more.
I've come to realize that I'm a "certain type" of woman. As of current I have to define myself as a "Single Swinger" - yea yea, I know that sounds weird, but it's who I am. I wish I'd realized that about myself actually prior to entering the adult entertainment world - but actually when I think about it, maybe the adult entertainment world is what helped me in discovering certain qualities within myself of which I was initially afraid of embracing.
A good friend of mine, Julie Meadows, touches on certain annoying things that anti-porn activist Shelley Lubben preaches - one of those phrases being "You were meant for more than porn". I think that's an interesting statement, because it's all about perspective.
What is "more" than porn? What is "less" than porn?
Another good friend of mine Brittany Blaze brought up an interesting point to me when we were discussing my book on video for her youtube channel. I brought up my thoughts about how I feel you need to enter the porn industry with a financial "cushion" or a bit of money saved in case things don't work out - and she countered with that for many women - entering the porn industry is one of their ONLY options for survival and that is a girl is coming from "the boonies with brown teeth getting fucked in her ass everyday by her dad", that a decent looking guy offering her $1000 to do the same thing is like hitting the lottery for the girl.
I hate to say it, but I agree with Brittany, and if you look closely at a few of the "top" performers in the porn industry - they truly were once the girl the Brittany described (whether they want to admit it or not).
I've come to realize that in life I've been a bit "spoiled". Not in every regard - but due to my background, personal taste, and methodical way of thinking, I've tended to be able to always put myself into situations of which I can walk on the wild side, but have the luxury of experiencing only the mildest aspects of the wild arenas. My life has been difficult in some ways, but really never that bad - I'm quite fortunate.
If I'd known more about acceptably open relationships and lifestyles (but how could I have being that it's more of a west coast thing from what I can observe), I probably never would have done porn. Porn really was just a venue for me to be more of an exibitionist than I already was, fuck a lot (I hadn't fucked much prior to doing porn in all honesty) & lay some ground work to make some money.
I admitted to my Dad in an email recently that I think I require 100 times more attention than most people. I personally don't think anything's wrong with embodying that quality, because we're all different...but one thing I do know now is that due to me needing so much consistent interaction with the opposite sex, at this stage of my life I most likely can't be in a single monogamous relationship (and frankly I DON'T WANT TO BE). I'm reaching my peak psychologically, mentally and sexually as a woman and I feel that I need about 12 boyfriends in order satisfy my needs - in other words a "reverse harem".
12 would be a perfect number of men for me because I could see each 2 to 3 times a month without the relationship with any of them ever growing stale (at least not for about 7 to 8 months). Ideally I'd like to find a group of men of varying ages and ethnicities - however I'd prefer for at least 6 of the men to be around 21 years old and REALLY cute (as I'm approaching 32 years old, I'm starting to understand VERY well why older men date women as young as they can get away with dating - Just call me black Demi Moore).
Yea, it's POSSIBLE there is ONE man out there who has the strength of 12 men (I personally believe it's Theo Theodoridis), but I haven't met him yet.
Well that's about it, I need to get back to work now recruiting for my reverse harem and continuing to progress my other projects. See you on December 27th on www.BlogTV.com/People/MonicaFoster for the next live broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Another new broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)
On this broadcast I discuss the recent closure of AIM by California (Los Angeles) health officials, Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers), my views on adult and mainstream talent agent's responsibilities to who they represent (their clients) and my new book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook which is available on Amazon.com
On this broadcast I discuss the recent closure of AIM by California (Los Angeles) health officials, Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers), my views on adult and mainstream talent agent's responsibilities to who they represent (their clients) and my new book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook which is available on Amazon.com
Thursday, December 09, 2010
Well, here's my first "mainstream" role in a short film by director, actor and comedian Thomas Ward of www.Twardcomedy.com
A special Monica Foster @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com) - I share thoughts on Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers) latest stance on condoms being mandatory in porn since he's contracted HIV.
Wednesday, December 08, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Part 1
Part 2
Check out the rest of the broadcast (parts 3 and 4) on my YouTube channel www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Thursday, November 18, 2010
I'm officially a published author now. My book "Getting Into Porn - The Handbook" is AVAILABLE NOW in Kindle / Ipad format on Amazon.com (click here to purchase)
The book should be available in paperback on Amazon around December 1st - make sure when you purchase the paperback book, you purchase the "final edition" version (I found some editing errors that I missed in the first edition - hey no one's perfect).
I've already begun my next book "Getting Into Porn - The Journeys" so I'll keep you all posted :)
Friday, November 12, 2010
I finally finished my first actual BOOK. Yep, I'm a crazed drunk loon oneday, and a productive author the next.
My book "Getting Into Porn - The Handbook" (currently available for pre-sale as an ebook on www.GettingIntoPorn.com ) has been submitted to the publisher and I should receive the proof for review in a few days and I am SOOOOOO excited!
This book will be the first of a 3 part series on my experiences, thoughts and suggestions for the American pornographic industry.
Book 1: Getting Into Porn - The Handbook
Book 2: Getting Into Porn - The Journey
Book 3: Getting Out Of Porn - The Aftermath
Believe it or not, there are things in the books that are NOT on my blogs and websites.
I hope those of you out there will purchase and enjoy the book series, but if not - that's OK by me because I'll be pleased as punch just looking at the books on my coffee table in the future :)
Yep, even when it seems like I'm slackin...I'm still a busy bee....buzzzzzzzzzzz
My book "Getting Into Porn - The Handbook" (currently available for pre-sale as an ebook on www.GettingIntoPorn.com ) has been submitted to the publisher and I should receive the proof for review in a few days and I am SOOOOOO excited!
This book will be the first of a 3 part series on my experiences, thoughts and suggestions for the American pornographic industry.
Book 1: Getting Into Porn - The Handbook
Book 2: Getting Into Porn - The Journey
Book 3: Getting Out Of Porn - The Aftermath
Believe it or not, there are things in the books that are NOT on my blogs and websites.
I hope those of you out there will purchase and enjoy the book series, but if not - that's OK by me because I'll be pleased as punch just looking at the books on my coffee table in the future :)
Yep, even when it seems like I'm slackin...I'm still a busy bee....buzzzzzzzzzzz
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Do you know where you're going to?
Do you like the things that
life is showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know...?
Do you get
What you're hoping for
When you look behind you
There's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know...?
The above lyrics are from the theme to "Mahogany" (sung by Diana Ross).
Everytime I think I know where I'm going in life, and feel I have a grasp as to what's going on, I find my perspective broadened even more. At times it's annoying, but at other times it's entertaining.
Here's one piece of life advice though girls and boys...DO NOT buy Franzia boxed wine UNLESS you are planning on having a huge party and want to save money on alcohol.
Why? Well it's hard to judge how much you are consuming...especially when you're just chilling at home listening to good music...and you just MIGHT find yourself blacking out and then wandering out of your apartment and into the hallway dazed and confused thinking that you're lost or locked out of your apartment even though you're just a few feet away and the door is actually open.
Thank God I live in Hollywood where being "a lush" can be passed off as being "eccentric" and I live in a building where my nice neighbor down the hall had enough sense to try my door and realize that it was open, and that I was simply out of it at that moment.
Do you like the things that
life is showing you
Where are you going to?
Do you know...?
Do you get
What you're hoping for
When you look behind you
There's no open door
What are you hoping for?
Do you know...?
The above lyrics are from the theme to "Mahogany" (sung by Diana Ross).
Everytime I think I know where I'm going in life, and feel I have a grasp as to what's going on, I find my perspective broadened even more. At times it's annoying, but at other times it's entertaining.
Here's one piece of life advice though girls and boys...DO NOT buy Franzia boxed wine UNLESS you are planning on having a huge party and want to save money on alcohol.
Why? Well it's hard to judge how much you are consuming...especially when you're just chilling at home listening to good music...and you just MIGHT find yourself blacking out and then wandering out of your apartment and into the hallway dazed and confused thinking that you're lost or locked out of your apartment even though you're just a few feet away and the door is actually open.
Thank God I live in Hollywood where being "a lush" can be passed off as being "eccentric" and I live in a building where my nice neighbor down the hall had enough sense to try my door and realize that it was open, and that I was simply out of it at that moment.
Friday, November 05, 2010
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
As I initially stated on the October 22, 2010 broadcast of my online adult industry show Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com) - I "call dibs" on my very first adult parody feature (which is currently in the beginning stages of production) of which I have written, am producing, will be directing, and acting in:
"This Ain't Queen of the Damned"
Please visit the websites:
www.ThisAintQueenOftheDamned.com
www.AintQueenOfTheDamned.com
http://aintqueenofthedamned.blogspot.com
for updates over the following few months and progress reports on what I feel will wind up being one of my greatest creative works. Thank you all (my fans, friends and readers) for your continued interest and support.
"This Ain't Queen of the Damned"
Please visit the websites:
www.ThisAintQueenOftheDamned.com
www.AintQueenOfTheDamned.com
http://aintqueenofthedamned.blogspot.com
for updates over the following few months and progress reports on what I feel will wind up being one of my greatest creative works. Thank you all (my fans, friends and readers) for your continued interest and support.
Tuesday, November 02, 2010
November 1st live broadcast archive of www.MonicaAtHome.com
Also a new post on www.GettingOutOfPorn.com - Shelley Lubben has got to get some help.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Familiarize with the following:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Force_de_Frappe
...whether you are my friend or foe (it really doesn't matter who you are - I love the game...and those who love the game are the best players).
Saturday, October 09, 2010
Part 1
Part 2
Friday, October 08, 2010
10-6-2010 part 1
10-6-2010 part 2
10-6-2010 part 3
09-17-2010 part 1
09-17-2010 part 2
more on www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome !
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
There have been many instances in my life of which people I've barely known or who I haven't known at all, have gone out of their way to help me - so now it's time for me to do the same and to ask you, my readers, fans and friends to do the same as well.
Please visit the following blog:
http://SupportTheo.blogspot.com
Read and familiarize yourself with the information both posted on and linked to from the blog and then hand write, notarize and mail in the attached petition no later than October 14th.
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Another fresh installment of Monica Foster @ Home
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
tonight I discuss Epassporte.com shutting down, the upcoming X-Play Halloween party on October 30th, This Ain't Avatar XXX, the possible upcoming release of an actual Tiger Wood's Sex tape on October 20th, the upcoming Google TV, Asia Carrera's final blog post (at least for a while), and male supermodel Teo Teodoridis and how he needs our support.
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Monica At Home
Another fresh installment of Monica @ Home - I discuss Isis Taylor , Little Lupe Fuentes , the "This Ain't Avatar" Fleshlight , "Who Moved My Cheese" by Spencer Johnson M.D. and much more. Enjoy.
(correction - the Isis Taylor interview is by Cindi Loftus - not Rock Pepe )
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Short blog tonight, but felt the need to update since my last entry:
I'm very pleased to announce that I finally "officially" (I love that word) have a purpose driven life. I thought I did before but I wasn't quite an adult and awake yet. I suppose sometimes it takes a life changing event (which can often be a cleverly wrapped gift) to finally push you through the door into reality.
I was motivated before, but lets say that if my motivation level was on floor 12 of a 100 story building, I've just beamed up to floor 85 (keep in mind I don't know exactly HOW tall the building actually is).
Like today's most influential artists (think Madonna, Cher, Michael Jackson, Prince) , I believe in the need to reinvent yourself from time to time - why? Because if you're not consistently evolving, then you might as well not be walking this earth.
I thought I was taking "Monica Foster" and "Mighty Afrodite" and my other projects in a certain direction - but it looks like I'll be heading in a different direction.
I need to make a few things clear - my views, perspectives, beliefs and ideas are mine and mine alone. I am completely independent as of current in virtually all areas of my life - especially when it comes to my spirituality. I believe in God - but I have my own view and feel of God. I don't identify with any one particular religion and I'd appreciate it if those out there who read my writings and watch my videos NOT attempt to force their views and/or agendas upon me. In other words - DO NOT ATTEMPT TO RECRUIT ME.
I've come to realize (especially after my recent brush with some extreme negativity, evil and darkness) that finding an internal "balance" is important, however I've also come to realize that I'm definitely someone who is here to assist in tipping the scales on an energetic and universal level towards the positive, good & light.
I knew all along that working independently was the way I needed to go - I suppose I simply had to test the waters and see what it was like working with various "teams" (I needed to know) - and it looks like that what I felt in my soul was correct all along.
This is a picture from Helen Folasade Adu 's website - I really love it.
Remember to always treat others with the same regard of which you'd want to be treated.
I'm very pleased to announce that I finally "officially" (I love that word) have a purpose driven life. I thought I did before but I wasn't quite an adult and awake yet. I suppose sometimes it takes a life changing event (which can often be a cleverly wrapped gift) to finally push you through the door into reality.
I was motivated before, but lets say that if my motivation level was on floor 12 of a 100 story building, I've just beamed up to floor 85 (keep in mind I don't know exactly HOW tall the building actually is).
Like today's most influential artists (think Madonna, Cher, Michael Jackson, Prince) , I believe in the need to reinvent yourself from time to time - why? Because if you're not consistently evolving, then you might as well not be walking this earth.
I thought I was taking "Monica Foster" and "Mighty Afrodite" and my other projects in a certain direction - but it looks like I'll be heading in a different direction.
I need to make a few things clear - my views, perspectives, beliefs and ideas are mine and mine alone. I am completely independent as of current in virtually all areas of my life - especially when it comes to my spirituality. I believe in God - but I have my own view and feel of God. I don't identify with any one particular religion and I'd appreciate it if those out there who read my writings and watch my videos NOT attempt to force their views and/or agendas upon me. In other words - DO NOT ATTEMPT TO RECRUIT ME.
I've come to realize (especially after my recent brush with some extreme negativity, evil and darkness) that finding an internal "balance" is important, however I've also come to realize that I'm definitely someone who is here to assist in tipping the scales on an energetic and universal level towards the positive, good & light.
I knew all along that working independently was the way I needed to go - I suppose I simply had to test the waters and see what it was like working with various "teams" (I needed to know) - and it looks like that what I felt in my soul was correct all along.
This is a picture from Helen Folasade Adu 's website - I really love it.
Remember to always treat others with the same regard of which you'd want to be treated.
Monday, September 27, 2010
The woman who created Monica Foster learned more about her past, current and future self over the past few days, than she could have ever imagined.
I'm wide awake, and I'm very angry about some things I didn't notice while I was drowsy.
In life we don't get to pick what we're born into, however we have the ability to choose what we become - and sometimes what we become, is something that we were once before (and in some cases a much more evolved version).
To those who understand what this blog is about - I'm not going anywhere regardless of certain negative individuals efforts. I will be living a VERY long life here on earth and I'm ready to do what I need to do to assist in getting this world where it needs to be.
I made the choice to be in it, and as always, I'm in it to win it.
ps: God has a lot of patience and a great sense of humor.
I'm wide awake, and I'm very angry about some things I didn't notice while I was drowsy.
In life we don't get to pick what we're born into, however we have the ability to choose what we become - and sometimes what we become, is something that we were once before (and in some cases a much more evolved version).
To those who understand what this blog is about - I'm not going anywhere regardless of certain negative individuals efforts. I will be living a VERY long life here on earth and I'm ready to do what I need to do to assist in getting this world where it needs to be.
I made the choice to be in it, and as always, I'm in it to win it.
ps: God has a lot of patience and a great sense of humor.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Just a quick blog to let you all know that I'm not all work - sometimes I do actually get out and about to shake my groove THANG :)
I went to a fantastic VMA afterparty last night which was organized by www.KingRyanEvents.com (I even got to ride in an AWESOME limo to the party with about 20 other hotties).
Here's a "pre-party" photo with the beautiful Eva Ellington.
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I went to a fantastic VMA afterparty last night which was organized by www.KingRyanEvents.com (I even got to ride in an AWESOME limo to the party with about 20 other hotties).
Here's a "pre-party" photo with the beautiful Eva Ellington.
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Thursday, September 09, 2010
Thursday, September 02, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
08-23-2010 Broadcast (part 1) of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)
Watch the rest of this broadcast and the show's archives on www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome !
Watch the rest of this broadcast and the show's archives on www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome !
Monday, August 09, 2010
Today I am bopping around my apartment to a Pandora station I created based on the song "Hey Soul Sister" by Train while I clean and getting everything in order for the week. I had a pretty good weekend from Friday to Sunday which brought me a nice and productive state of mind to begin the week within.
Friday I took a walk around Hollywood - though I anticipate my departure from this city shortly, I'm still taking the time to enjoy my surroundings. My move here from Fort Lauderdale, Florida was one of the most difficult undertakings of my life, however I don't want to look back on this time of my life and only associate it with negative feelings and events (because there were many good times too) - so I'm making the effort to create some positive associations as well to balance the scale - hell maybe to tip the scale more towards the light rather than the dark.
On Friday's walk, I spotted an interesting individual - he was definitely bold and darking with his choice of clothing and I thought it was fabulous (not too many men can pull off lime green leggings, with a hot pink hooded tunic and black cowboy boots) - so I pretended to be a stealth paparazzi photographer and followed him for a few blocks from a distance and took some photos of him with my iphone camera.
Saturday I took some time to listen to Eminem's new album - I'm very impressed with 2 of his new songs "Love the way you lie" and "Not Afraid". The first song brought me to a few self actualizations - the latter inspired me to DEFINITELY continue with my current project www.MonicaAtHome.com
Sunday I stopped by the Hollywood and Highland mall to run a few errands. One of my favorite stores there is Express - I stopped in and the store brought back so many fun memories. Back in south florida when I was around 18 I worked at an Express in Pompano Beach mall - those were some good times. Later that afternoon I enjoyed a very relaxing and laid back afternoon filled with Mimosa's at one of my favorite local brunch spots with a good friend of mine who I met a few months after I relocated here. He wasn't feeling well (he'd gone out and partied the night before) but he still made the effort to get out the house and hang out with me. He's one of the few males that I've met in Los Angeles who respects my unusual way of living and is fine with simply being my friend - it's a wonderful blessing to have a friend like him.
So that was my weekend - I anticipate this being a pretty good week. I'll be doing my private webcam shows of course along with Monica @ Home in the evenings today, Wednesday and Friday. At some point this week I need to edit and post on www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome my interview with Angelique DeLeone (of CreoleFetishGoddess.com) from last Friday.
Wednesday I'm planning on having some people over for dinner - I'll probably cook a lasagna yet again - but maybe I'll make something else special to go along with it - who knows...
Though I'm feeling relatively settled and relaxed as of current, I feel a little odd - not really anxious, but as if I am anticipating or expecting something...it's hard to explain. I'm far from psychic but I'm definitely intuitive so whatever is coming - I hope it's good - I don't have a negative overlay associated with how I'm feeling, so it probably will be good (and hopefully interesting). Regardless generally change and new additions to our experience here on this planet IS good :)
Friday I took a walk around Hollywood - though I anticipate my departure from this city shortly, I'm still taking the time to enjoy my surroundings. My move here from Fort Lauderdale, Florida was one of the most difficult undertakings of my life, however I don't want to look back on this time of my life and only associate it with negative feelings and events (because there were many good times too) - so I'm making the effort to create some positive associations as well to balance the scale - hell maybe to tip the scale more towards the light rather than the dark.
On Friday's walk, I spotted an interesting individual - he was definitely bold and darking with his choice of clothing and I thought it was fabulous (not too many men can pull off lime green leggings, with a hot pink hooded tunic and black cowboy boots) - so I pretended to be a stealth paparazzi photographer and followed him for a few blocks from a distance and took some photos of him with my iphone camera.
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Saturday I took some time to listen to Eminem's new album - I'm very impressed with 2 of his new songs "Love the way you lie" and "Not Afraid". The first song brought me to a few self actualizations - the latter inspired me to DEFINITELY continue with my current project www.MonicaAtHome.com
Sunday I stopped by the Hollywood and Highland mall to run a few errands. One of my favorite stores there is Express - I stopped in and the store brought back so many fun memories. Back in south florida when I was around 18 I worked at an Express in Pompano Beach mall - those were some good times. Later that afternoon I enjoyed a very relaxing and laid back afternoon filled with Mimosa's at one of my favorite local brunch spots with a good friend of mine who I met a few months after I relocated here. He wasn't feeling well (he'd gone out and partied the night before) but he still made the effort to get out the house and hang out with me. He's one of the few males that I've met in Los Angeles who respects my unusual way of living and is fine with simply being my friend - it's a wonderful blessing to have a friend like him.
So that was my weekend - I anticipate this being a pretty good week. I'll be doing my private webcam shows of course along with Monica @ Home in the evenings today, Wednesday and Friday. At some point this week I need to edit and post on www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome my interview with Angelique DeLeone (of CreoleFetishGoddess.com) from last Friday.
Wednesday I'm planning on having some people over for dinner - I'll probably cook a lasagna yet again - but maybe I'll make something else special to go along with it - who knows...
Though I'm feeling relatively settled and relaxed as of current, I feel a little odd - not really anxious, but as if I am anticipating or expecting something...it's hard to explain. I'm far from psychic but I'm definitely intuitive so whatever is coming - I hope it's good - I don't have a negative overlay associated with how I'm feeling, so it probably will be good (and hopefully interesting). Regardless generally change and new additions to our experience here on this planet IS good :)
Saturday, August 07, 2010
So, for those of you who watch my online show www.MonicaAtHome.com - you know that I've been doing a lot of coverage as of late on the Montana Fishburne sextape. I felt the need to write a blog tonight as to exactly why I've been all over this particular news item, and why I feel others need to be aware of exactly what is going on with Montana.
I've worked in the adult entertainment industry now in total for around 8 years. I began as an exotic dancer back around 2002, transitioned into webcamming, then into the porn industry about 2 and a half years ago, and now I'm back to primarily being a webcam girl.
I'm currently working on cleaning up my life a bit, furthering my career endeavors and in general - creating a life for myself I can truly be proud of. As of current, I'm only comfortable performing in front of the camera sexually solo. Honestly, unless I enter a committed relationship with someone, who is comfortable with being sexual on camera with me (yes, I'm talking the Sunny Leone route), I doubt I'll ever shoot a boy/girl scene again.
Don't get me wrong, I think the adult entertainment industry is a valid industry and I've enjoyed working within it - however it could be better. There are many good people who are true professionals who work within porn who I've met, and I am fairly positive I will work in the adult entertainment world (most likely in a behind the scenes capacity) for the rest of my life. I have a tremendous passion and interest when it comes to adult entertainment - however I feel some major changes HAVE TO be made in regards to protecting the health and the safety of the performers. I also feel that those entering the industry need to be far more educated and aware as to exactly how the porn industry really works and what to expect once in - along with what to expect from society outside of the porn industry.
For example - young women entering porn need be told to do the following:
1) Research thoroughly all aspects of the sect of the adult entertainment industry you are entering
2) Really think through your choice as to why you want to enter adult entertainment 3) Really consider who's life you may change who is close to you by your making the decision to work within the adult entertainment industry.
Upon my entering the world of adult entertainment, I addressed the first 2 of the above points, however I didn't address the 3rd - which is why the Montana Fishburne news item has affected me so greatly.
By my entering the porn industry - I shamed my family. Yes, they still love me - however our relationship is forever changed. I may never regain their full trust and respect again. That simple fact has killed a part of and has forever changed the woman who created "Monica Foster".
Someone in the chat room tonight during the broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com asked me if I have any regrets - the answer is yes. If I had known back in March of 2008 how greatly my choice to enter the porn industry would effect my family, I never would have done it. The price I've paid for many of the exciting, fun and life changing experiences that being "Monica Foster" has granted me, has been the distance that has developed between myself and my family. The financial gain (which wasn't that much in the long run) and life experiences weren't worth AT ALL the change that I've experienced in my relationship with my loved ones.
Some have asked me if exotic dancing and/or webcamming can have the same impact on a person's life as being a "pornstar". Well I suppose it's all perspective - however in my eyes exotic dancing is fairly mild (if you can stay away from drugs and alcohol) - though it's "in person performance" it's not recorded on video for the world to see.
Webcamming is generally (at least in my case) solo - also it's generally something you can do from the comfort and safety of your own home. You can even "block" certain regions from viewing you which can substantially lower the chances of people you know ever finding out you're a performer".
The porn industry (or should I say system) is a bit different though. There are circuits of people within the porn industry and circling around the perimeter of the porn industry who are VERY dangerous and VERY predatory (many people in and around porn are CONSISTENTLY trying to pressure you into illegal escorting the moment you shoot your first adult scene). I suppose you could say the same for the exotic dancer world - but from my experience - it's simply not the same.
I entered the porn circuit at 29 - and from working in the exotic dancing circuit I was already pretty aware, "street smart", and savvy in regards to knowing how to avoid certain types of dangerous situations. However this young woman Monatana is not - she's 19 years old and considering that she's from a fairly sheltered background - and considering that, plus the fact that she is the daughter of someone who has quite a lot of money - she is in literal danger as of current in my view.
The current individuals in the porn industry surrounding Montana should have initially done the right thing the moment they realized who's daughter she was, by telling her to "go home" and/or by contacting the Laurence Fishburne camp to notify him as to what his daughter was getting herself into. However no one had a conscience and did so - they simply saw dollar signs.
In my eyes (though Montana IS of age and is technically an adult), I feel that she is essentially being held hostage via the psychological manipulation of her "management" aka pimp. The people around her have failed to educate her to the true facts of the adult entertainment industry, and she is very naive as to how the business end of the industry truly works - which is evident in this interview with Montana that AVN just published (I hope TO GOD that when she launches her website, everything is AT LEAST in HER NAME so that she owns it).
As of current it has been exposed to THE WORLD via a young woman who was close to Montana Fishburne named "NeNe" (you can watch the video interview here), that the young man Montana is "dating" has encouraged her to work as a prostitute.
I created www.GettingIntoPorn.com back in July of 2009 to try to reach young women (girls) like 19 year old Montana Fishburne - however I think I need to possibly do more (and so do other current and ex adult entertainers who feel as I do).
I strongly feel at this point that for the adult entertainment industry to survive and be seen in the future as a valid and legitimate industry, the health and safety of the talent will have to be taken much more into account, the compensation the talent receives will need to be standardized, and lastly the age limit for performers will need to be raised to 21 years old.
I'm nervous at this stage in the Montana Fishburne sextape "scandal" that other young women from middle class backgrounds will think that it's "cool" and "trendy" and "rebellous" to get into porn (much like how Montana thought the emulating Kim Kardashian was a good idea). These young women will not be aware as to how treacherous the porn entertainment industry truly is, which MAY just be what many in the porn industry want - to recruit fresh young naive meat.
In the future, when I launch my adult production label/studio (I feel I literally HAVE TO at this point in order to be at least one "safe island" for those entering the dangerous sea which is the porn industry), I will implement within my own workplace the ideals of which I have for the porn industry as a whole. I suppose I won't be as successful financially as other studios but I feel like the whole reason my life has taken the path of which is has, was so that I could witness some wrongs and at least attempt to take a stand to set an example to others as what is RIGHT.
I wish Montana Fishburne the best (I hope she gathers enough common sense relatively soon to realize that if she IS to continue in the adult world, she needs to develop a solid plan for herself INDEPENDENTLY and that she needs to stop hanging around trash and pimps.) and I hope the her father Laurence Fishburne can reach her, and help her - he needs to.
I suppose I'm very very very fortunate to have the father and mother that I do because though I disappointed them - they helped me when I really needed it recently and they encouraged me to do better for myself - thanks Mom & Dad.
I've worked in the adult entertainment industry now in total for around 8 years. I began as an exotic dancer back around 2002, transitioned into webcamming, then into the porn industry about 2 and a half years ago, and now I'm back to primarily being a webcam girl.
I'm currently working on cleaning up my life a bit, furthering my career endeavors and in general - creating a life for myself I can truly be proud of. As of current, I'm only comfortable performing in front of the camera sexually solo. Honestly, unless I enter a committed relationship with someone, who is comfortable with being sexual on camera with me (yes, I'm talking the Sunny Leone route), I doubt I'll ever shoot a boy/girl scene again.
Don't get me wrong, I think the adult entertainment industry is a valid industry and I've enjoyed working within it - however it could be better. There are many good people who are true professionals who work within porn who I've met, and I am fairly positive I will work in the adult entertainment world (most likely in a behind the scenes capacity) for the rest of my life. I have a tremendous passion and interest when it comes to adult entertainment - however I feel some major changes HAVE TO be made in regards to protecting the health and the safety of the performers. I also feel that those entering the industry need to be far more educated and aware as to exactly how the porn industry really works and what to expect once in - along with what to expect from society outside of the porn industry.
For example - young women entering porn need be told to do the following:
1) Research thoroughly all aspects of the sect of the adult entertainment industry you are entering
2) Really think through your choice as to why you want to enter adult entertainment 3) Really consider who's life you may change who is close to you by your making the decision to work within the adult entertainment industry.
Upon my entering the world of adult entertainment, I addressed the first 2 of the above points, however I didn't address the 3rd - which is why the Montana Fishburne news item has affected me so greatly.
By my entering the porn industry - I shamed my family. Yes, they still love me - however our relationship is forever changed. I may never regain their full trust and respect again. That simple fact has killed a part of and has forever changed the woman who created "Monica Foster".
Someone in the chat room tonight during the broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com asked me if I have any regrets - the answer is yes. If I had known back in March of 2008 how greatly my choice to enter the porn industry would effect my family, I never would have done it. The price I've paid for many of the exciting, fun and life changing experiences that being "Monica Foster" has granted me, has been the distance that has developed between myself and my family. The financial gain (which wasn't that much in the long run) and life experiences weren't worth AT ALL the change that I've experienced in my relationship with my loved ones.
Some have asked me if exotic dancing and/or webcamming can have the same impact on a person's life as being a "pornstar". Well I suppose it's all perspective - however in my eyes exotic dancing is fairly mild (if you can stay away from drugs and alcohol) - though it's "in person performance" it's not recorded on video for the world to see.
Webcamming is generally (at least in my case) solo - also it's generally something you can do from the comfort and safety of your own home. You can even "block" certain regions from viewing you which can substantially lower the chances of people you know ever finding out you're a performer".
The porn industry (or should I say system) is a bit different though. There are circuits of people within the porn industry and circling around the perimeter of the porn industry who are VERY dangerous and VERY predatory (many people in and around porn are CONSISTENTLY trying to pressure you into illegal escorting the moment you shoot your first adult scene). I suppose you could say the same for the exotic dancer world - but from my experience - it's simply not the same.
I entered the porn circuit at 29 - and from working in the exotic dancing circuit I was already pretty aware, "street smart", and savvy in regards to knowing how to avoid certain types of dangerous situations. However this young woman Monatana is not - she's 19 years old and considering that she's from a fairly sheltered background - and considering that, plus the fact that she is the daughter of someone who has quite a lot of money - she is in literal danger as of current in my view.
The current individuals in the porn industry surrounding Montana should have initially done the right thing the moment they realized who's daughter she was, by telling her to "go home" and/or by contacting the Laurence Fishburne camp to notify him as to what his daughter was getting herself into. However no one had a conscience and did so - they simply saw dollar signs.
In my eyes (though Montana IS of age and is technically an adult), I feel that she is essentially being held hostage via the psychological manipulation of her "management" aka pimp. The people around her have failed to educate her to the true facts of the adult entertainment industry, and she is very naive as to how the business end of the industry truly works - which is evident in this interview with Montana that AVN just published (I hope TO GOD that when she launches her website, everything is AT LEAST in HER NAME so that she owns it).
As of current it has been exposed to THE WORLD via a young woman who was close to Montana Fishburne named "NeNe" (you can watch the video interview here), that the young man Montana is "dating" has encouraged her to work as a prostitute.
I created www.GettingIntoPorn.com back in July of 2009 to try to reach young women (girls) like 19 year old Montana Fishburne - however I think I need to possibly do more (and so do other current and ex adult entertainers who feel as I do).
I strongly feel at this point that for the adult entertainment industry to survive and be seen in the future as a valid and legitimate industry, the health and safety of the talent will have to be taken much more into account, the compensation the talent receives will need to be standardized, and lastly the age limit for performers will need to be raised to 21 years old.
I'm nervous at this stage in the Montana Fishburne sextape "scandal" that other young women from middle class backgrounds will think that it's "cool" and "trendy" and "rebellous" to get into porn (much like how Montana thought the emulating Kim Kardashian was a good idea). These young women will not be aware as to how treacherous the porn entertainment industry truly is, which MAY just be what many in the porn industry want - to recruit fresh young naive meat.
In the future, when I launch my adult production label/studio (I feel I literally HAVE TO at this point in order to be at least one "safe island" for those entering the dangerous sea which is the porn industry), I will implement within my own workplace the ideals of which I have for the porn industry as a whole. I suppose I won't be as successful financially as other studios but I feel like the whole reason my life has taken the path of which is has, was so that I could witness some wrongs and at least attempt to take a stand to set an example to others as what is RIGHT.
I wish Montana Fishburne the best (I hope she gathers enough common sense relatively soon to realize that if she IS to continue in the adult world, she needs to develop a solid plan for herself INDEPENDENTLY and that she needs to stop hanging around trash and pimps.) and I hope the her father Laurence Fishburne can reach her, and help her - he needs to.
I suppose I'm very very very fortunate to have the father and mother that I do because though I disappointed them - they helped me when I really needed it recently and they encouraged me to do better for myself - thanks Mom & Dad.
Thursday, August 05, 2010
Another broadcast of Monica At Home on www.MonicaAtHome.com
On this broadcast I primarily discuss a recent rumor pertaining to Bethany Benz (Caviar from "For the Love of Ray J ) and why it's important for African American women to support each other within the adult entertainment industry.
Wednesday, August 04, 2010
The past few weeks I have struggled - not just with external and material matters, but with internal as well - I can honestly define this time period over the past few weeks as some of my "darkest hours".
But guess what - darkness doesn't last forever...
The August sun has begun to rise - and with it - I rise - like a fiery phoenix from the ashes.
I have had more support, words or encouragement and words of wisdom from the most unlikeliest of sources over the past few days and I am BEYOND grateful - and humbled.
I work very hard - I know that some (from a certain school of WEAK, PAST DATED and PROGRAMMED thought) may feel that my projects, dreams and endeavors are by lack of better terms "frivolous" and "pointless" - but apparently to many of you out there (and to ME) - they are making a DIFFERENCE and ARE NOT, and frankly that's all that matters...
I stand together with my Amazon sisters and my brothers of whom respect strong independent and self assured individuals and I say:
"I will not go quietly into the night!
I will not vanish without a fight!
I am going to live on!
I am going to survive!"
And to all you little midget bitch boys hiding behind your broken down women who have something to say to me in regards to www.MonicaAtHome.com - SAY IT TO MY FACE if you dare, because I am not alone, afraid or intimidated by you...in the future I WILL OWN YOU and I will liberate all of whom you have suppressed. Your time has past, party's over - so go back to the sewers from which you came.
But guess what - darkness doesn't last forever...
The August sun has begun to rise - and with it - I rise - like a fiery phoenix from the ashes.
I have had more support, words or encouragement and words of wisdom from the most unlikeliest of sources over the past few days and I am BEYOND grateful - and humbled.
I work very hard - I know that some (from a certain school of WEAK, PAST DATED and PROGRAMMED thought) may feel that my projects, dreams and endeavors are by lack of better terms "frivolous" and "pointless" - but apparently to many of you out there (and to ME) - they are making a DIFFERENCE and ARE NOT, and frankly that's all that matters...
I stand together with my Amazon sisters and my brothers of whom respect strong independent and self assured individuals and I say:
"I will not go quietly into the night!
I will not vanish without a fight!
I am going to live on!
I am going to survive!"
And to all you little midget bitch boys hiding behind your broken down women who have something to say to me in regards to www.MonicaAtHome.com - SAY IT TO MY FACE if you dare, because I am not alone, afraid or intimidated by you...in the future I WILL OWN YOU and I will liberate all of whom you have suppressed. Your time has past, party's over - so go back to the sewers from which you came.
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
Monday, August 02, 2010
Just a note to say a big "THANK YOU" to you all who sent words of encouragement in response to my most recent blog in regards to my move from Los Angeles.
I definitely haven't lost hope, faith or drive when it comes to my future goals, dreams and endeavors - however I suppose at times you simply have to re-work the road map of the path you've drawn out for yourself in order to reach what you are after.
I definitely haven't lost hope, faith or drive when it comes to my future goals, dreams and endeavors - however I suppose at times you simply have to re-work the road map of the path you've drawn out for yourself in order to reach what you are after.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
This week's Monica @ Home broadcasts have finally been posted to www.MonicaAtHome.com and www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome.
Below is Friday night's broadcast of which I focus on the recent Montana Fishburne sex tape scandal and how Brian Pumper should have stayed away from this naive and obviously confused 19 year old woman.
Below is Thursday night's broadcast specifically geared towards teens, young adults and parents in regards to:
1)young people being honest with their parent's and/or loved ones about working in adult entertainment
2)signs that parents may want to look for if they suspect their young adult children are currently working in or considering working in the porn industry.
3)Signs of which your daughter's (and in some cases son's) boyfriend may be a pimp.
4) How if your son or daughter has gone missing in their late teens, it might be beneficial for your to check adult agency websites when searching for them.
On Monday's broadcast I primarily discuss how I feel the minimum age limit to work as a porn talent needs to be raised from 18 years old to 21 years old - I think the most recent events in regards to Laurence Fishburne's daughter Montana - prove my point.
Below is Friday night's broadcast of which I focus on the recent Montana Fishburne sex tape scandal and how Brian Pumper should have stayed away from this naive and obviously confused 19 year old woman.
Below is Thursday night's broadcast specifically geared towards teens, young adults and parents in regards to:
1)young people being honest with their parent's and/or loved ones about working in adult entertainment
2)signs that parents may want to look for if they suspect their young adult children are currently working in or considering working in the porn industry.
3)Signs of which your daughter's (and in some cases son's) boyfriend may be a pimp.
4) How if your son or daughter has gone missing in their late teens, it might be beneficial for your to check adult agency websites when searching for them.
On Monday's broadcast I primarily discuss how I feel the minimum age limit to work as a porn talent needs to be raised from 18 years old to 21 years old - I think the most recent events in regards to Laurence Fishburne's daughter Montana - prove my point.
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