Breaking bonds and moving on..

Well, it seems (at least today) that my progress in regards to "Re-examining the darkness from the light" has reached the finish line far sooner than I'd anticipated.  Today I felt very clear and free of quite a few issues that have been weighing me down for years.

The other night I had an emotional episode that concluded with a realization in regards to the element of "trauma bonding" that I probably wasn't ready to face in the past.  Read my commentary here to get an idea as to what I'm referring to.

When people talk about "love", they really should be more specific, because there's "healthy love" vs. "dysfunctional love".  Unless you've experienced "healthy love" apart from the "dysfunctional" version, it's hard to know the difference.

My time in the porn industry was the final catalyst for a cycle that I needed to break - a cycle that I'd been trapped within for much of my life.  The porn industry enabled me to learn a lot about relationships, friendships, business, the seedy "underbelly" of society, and life in general.  I stand by my research and commentary in regards to the pornographic industry and would never suggest anyone enter that world.

However, the pornographic industry is not the ONLY "world" out there that can be a catalyst for someone stuck in a dysfunctional way of living and being.

I'm sure many will disagree with me on this, but I think one of the most selfish things a person can do, is to have children.  It's actually quite the narcissistic act.  Being that I feel this way, I think that it's a parent's obligation to be completely selfless in regards to their children once they're born and throughout their life. In other words, parents need to make responsible choices and live their life right the moment they have a baby.  They shouldn't enter dangerous situations or circumstances (or do stupid things in general). Parents are their children's LIFE LINE and from my perspective their life should be 100% about their children. No child makes the DECISION to be born - that's the parent's CHOICE (whether or not certain choices are really meant to be is debatable - I don't think anyone on Earth really knows the answer).

If you can't find it within yourself to be completely selfless when it comes to any children you're considering bringing into this world - DO NOT BREED.

I was thinking today about whether or not people I've had contact with in life would be better off had they never met me...if I'd never been born.   Don't get me wrong - I am NOT in a suicidal state of mind or anything...it's just something I was thinking about - and not just in regards to people that I love or like, but in regards to people I dislike, who are my enemies or who I've never even met as well.

I guess I was contemplating "the ripple effect".

Today in a brief conversation with Jesus Christ, I prayed for everyone I've ever come into contact with to simply to be happy if God see's that it should be that way.  I prayed that certain individuals completely forget that they ever met me.  I also asked Jesus Christ to approach God about removing me from any of life's equations which I wasn't designed to be a part of so that in time, I can slide into place where ever it is that I belong.

A part of the reason that I remain single and don't like to interact with many people personally nowadays is not so much due to my fear of getting hurt, but because I don't want to inadvertently hurt others anymore than I may have in the past.

I was created through what I believe to have been a very selfish energy.  I'm not the only one who has been, but I think acknowledging the reality of "selfish energy" is the first step. Today I broke my bond with a large portion of that energy, and I'm very happy about it.

Free will - God's greatest gift IMO.

Constructing an outlet for my anger regarding my realization that I was with a very bad man

As I stated in my previous blog, I'm allowing myself to re-evaluate in detail a relationship I was in while I was active in the porn industry.  I've received feedback from people who read my blogs about my decision to do this...some of it positive, some of it negative...

Regardless, I feel that in order for me to be able to fully heal and properly love (and respect) myself, I'm making the right decision to do what I'm doing.  So far, it's been painful but I feel I'm making progress.

One of the elements that really makes me angry in regards to the man I'm referring to, is that HE KNEW the realities of the pornographic industry and DID NOT TELL ME (and he had ample opportunity to do so, as I asked him questions about many issues in regards to the porn industry while I was with him).  This particular man had worked in the business for around 20 years - so he knew the truth VERY well, but he apparently was OK in regards to the abuse that occurs regularly in that world, which the public only recently has become aware of.

KNOWING NOW what I know, and KNOWING NOW what he knew - it disgusts me that I was with him.  I wasn't blind, I was naive - and he was predatory.  I'm completely incapable of understanding how any individual with a heart and soul could remain in that environment as long as he has without taking a stand in regards to the mistreatment of human beings.  That's the thing though - I suppose God didn't create me to be capable of understanding such a mindset (thankfully).

As of today I'm very ANGRY that people such as him exist.  I WISH HE DID NOT EXIST.

The man I'm referring to, from my perspective, is extraordinarily dangerous because he is able to keep up the appearance of being a "nice guy" and "harmless", but has no issue with turning a blind eye to the physical and spiritual abuse of human beings.  I'm starting to wonder exactly how involved (personally and directly) he has been in the destruction of other women who have crossed his path over the years.  It makes me literally shudder to think about.

In order to cope with the anger I've been feeling, I decided to construct a sort of distraction and outlet for my emotions.  I built www.MMAoutline.com - visit the site to learn what it's about.  At the end of the week I'm treating myself to my first UFC fight pass and I'm excited about it.

A part of me wishes I could beat the living hell out of the man I'm referring to in this blog, but it's really not my style to do such a thing (I've never been a physically violent person) - so watching MMA matches really helps me...I find it incredibly therapeutic.

Do I fantasize that the man I'm referring to in this blog posting is one of the contenders getting the crap beat out of him as I watch MMA? Absolutely...perhaps MMA is a sort of "porn" for women who are rather upset with certain men.  If you're a woman out there who's walked a path similar to mine - take a look at the world of MMA - you might find it INCREDIBLY appealing :)

Re-examining the darkness from the light

I've made it known on my twitter that over the next few days, I will be re-examining and working through (in part publicly) my thoughts and feelings in regards to a man I knew while I was active in the pornographic industry. I've had several other relationships with men throughout my life that I have been able to properly move forward from, however, this particular man is someone I've never been able to completely get out of my system (and I'm hoping to completely figure out why).

In the past, when I've mentioned this man, certain people (who I label as my stalkers) have bullied me into silence about him.  I'm not allowing that to happen anymore, because there's something about that man and that time of my life that I know in my core needs to be addressed and resolved.

As of tonight, I attribute my lack of ability to clear this man from my thoughts being due to some issues and events surrounding the relationship that were extraordinarily abnormal on a multitude of levels.  As I've stated in my blog several times in the past, one of the most difficult things one must do in life, is to look at THEMSELVES and at their PAST honestly.  I've reached a point in my self imposed healing process to where I feel brave enough to really THINK about and EVALUATE some of the memories in regards to the man I'm referring to.  I'm hoping God will provide me with some answers as well.

I will share a lot about whatever I realize, but I doubt I will share everything.  Research "trauma-bonding" - here's a link to get your started: http://avalancheofthesoul.wordpress.com/2014/02/22/what-abusers-hope-we-never-learn-about-trauma-bonding/

Abuse isn't always physical or "in your face" psychological.  I've come to understand that my "scars" from abuse have manifested in my actions and choices.  I don't believe abusers always realize that they abuse.  Other times people who are on the receiving end of abuse don't realize that they're being abused.  I feel that there are instances to where people have been in unhealthy and/or dysfunctional relationships (or maybe just ways of living) for so long that they have no concept of what "normal" or "healthy" really is - so they become desensitized.  I think it's even possible for people to habitually and KNOWINGLY REJECT a healthy or normal relationship for a dysfunctional one, because the dysfunction FEELS more FAMILIAR than anything else (I believe, in part, what's happened to me).

I hate already being 35 years old and just now identifying some of these issues, but I subscribe to the philosophy of "better late than never".  I'm glad I don't have any children at this time, and I hope I get through this process relatively quickly.  I believe I've reached my final step in closing the book on a phase of my life I began in early 2008.

I know my sharing my thoughts as I do is strange to certain people in my life (or who I may never have met).  I do it because I don't believe that I have been (or will be) the only woman in the world to have dealt with some of the situations, people and events which I have.  I find it comforting to think that my blogs just might give someone else out there a reference point as to where they are on the map of life.

Yes, my blogs are selfless - yet selfish. Funny how that is...isn't it.

I am angry.

In this blog, I will admit that I am VERY ANGRY.  I'm angry because on many levels I've been victimized, but I'm more angry that I haven't fought back as hard as I should have for many years to regain my personal power.  Tonight I went on a "twitter rant" and I believe it was my first solid step in releasing the anger I've been carrying due to many things I've noticed within the world that I've felt the need to restrain myself from sharing.

My views and observations are simply that of what I've experienced in my 35 years on this planet.  I don't expect everyone (or anyone for that matter) to agree with me.  I don't need anyone to.  I don't expect a shred of support. I understand completely how I will be labeled as prejudice, intolerant, unforgiving, hateful, etc... and I'M FINE WITH IT.

I see how in many instances it's better to keep your opinions to yourself - especially if you want to be monetarily "successful" and "fit in" in this world.  I just wasn't created to be that way and I will not apologize for it.

I don't have an issue with taking responsibility for or being punished for anything I've genuinely done that's been wrong and without just cause because I'm not the type of person to do anything wrong without just cause.  It's not in my nature.  HOWEVER I HAVE A MAJOR PROBLEM WITH BEING TOLD THAT I AM WRONG ABOUT ISSUES, EVENTS & INDIVIDUALS THAT I KNOW I AM CORRECT ABOUT.

When I don't understand something, I look for an answer and I ASK for an answer.  I have ALWAYS questioned things that I don't understand which is what's led me to become an independent researcher on a variety of issues.  It's the pursuit of the truth that turns me on more so than anything in this world. I LOVE learning systems and how things work - that's how I was created to be.

Within the United States of America (and maybe the world as a whole), people are being encouraged at an ever increasing rate NOT to question how things work.  I feel that people in general are being told to just sit down, shut up and be accepting of whatever is given to us by whoever is in power.

I'm not OK with that.  I don't feel God designed me and sent Jesus Christ to die for me to tolerate such an attitude.

I don't expect many people to relate to how I think, or be as I am - it's far easier not to. When it comes down to it, I'd rather be cast out from much of society and viewed as "a problem", than to not have shared my perspective or opinion.  

Maybe rather than saying to yourself "oh, she's just a typical ANGRY BLACK WOMAN" - maybe you should question, "How did the stereotype of ANGRY BLACK WOMEN ever come to be?  What and who exactly prompted certain Black women to BECOME so angry?"  

I'd say that this blog which goes back to 2007 will tell you the answer...at least in part.

Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster interviews Olympic silver medalist Josh Mance

Alexandra Mayers interviews Olympic Athlete Josh Mance about TMZ, Skin Diamond, Racism & more!
Alexandra Mayers fka Monica Foster interviews Olympic silver medalist Josh Mance about his recent encounter with media gossip outlet TMZ, pornstar Skin Diamond, a situation involving racism he experienced on his 21st birthday that was heavily covered by mainstream news, his life as an Olympic athlete and his "fetish" for older women.

Sex Trafficking News - www.SexTraffickingNews.com

Please take a look at my newest awareness project:

www.SexTraffickingNews.com

The pornographic industry currently promotes, is directly connected to & is built on organized crime and sextrafficking.  http://www.SexTraffickingNews.com addresses the truths of the matter.

I believe that for ANY elements of the United States pornographic industry to successfully proceed into the future, their ties to organized crime and sex (human) trafficking must be severed completely.

Where Monica Foster ends... Alexandra Mayers begins.

Buckle up and prepare for the real ride.

Make sure you follow @AlexandraMayers on twitter if you don't already.

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Monica Foster at Home 2014 - Thursday 04-17-2014

On this webcast I discuss the truth of what I feel Michael Weinstein of the Aids Healthcare Foundation is really up against, why I feel his safety and life is in danger of an anti-Semitic hate crime and why every pornstar's life is currently in danger of a major corporation who's willing to put profits above the health and safety of human lives.

As of current a gay male model and pornstar by the name of Eric Paul Leue has created a petition on Change.org in effort to force Michael Weinstein to resign. The petition is "officially" backed by the Free Speech Coalition and Xbiz magazine, but I'm also under the impression that Eric Paul Leue is backed by the multi-million dollar pharmaceutical Gilead Sciences - the manufacturers of Truvada (a medication being marketed as "the new condom" though it doesn't protect against STDs other than HIV - further more the clinical definitive findings will not be published about Truvada until 2017).

At this stage, I feel that Gilead Sciences has targeted the Aids Healthcare Foundation and the Free Speech Coalition as a means of not only marketing Truvada, but a way to gain access to female pornstars to use as a "test subject" pool for Truvada clinical studies. As of current though Truvada has been found to be very effective in males, it hasn't been equally effective in clinical trials for females.

As of current Michael Weinstein in my view is the only person standing between female pornstars being used essentially as "lab rats" and Gilead Sciences.

Condom legislation must be adhered to and mandatory condom usage must be present in adult filming.

Monica Foster at Home 2014 - Tuesday 04-15-2014

Monica Foster at Home - LIVE - a daily webcast commentary hosted by Alexandra aka Monica Foster on the topics of News, Gossip & Life pertaining to the Mainstream & Porn / Adult Entertainment Industry.

Today I give my closing statements for the week in regards to Tiffany Fox, organized crime, the Los Angeles porn industry and why a scholarship fund needs to be created for young women who speak out in regards to sex trafficking in the pornographic industry (which has essentially become a modern day slave system due to illegal escort and prostitution rings such as The Luxury Companion).

Monica Foster at Home 2014 - Monday 04-14-2014

Exclusive interview with Tiffany Fox (@RealTiffanyFox) - a young pornstar who has spoken out against sex trafficking in the porn industry (most notably LA Direct Models and The Luxury Companion) -a feature article on Tiffany Fox and this situation can be found on www.PornNewsToday.com by clicking here.

Monica Foster At Home 2014 - Thursday 04-10-2014

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Monica Foster At Home 2014 - Tuesday 04-08-2014

Today's LIVE webcast of Monica At Home will start at 5pm PST via a live streaming YOUTUBE event. Remember you can SKYPE in with questions via my ID MonicaAtHome01

Alexandra aka Monica Foster presents the latest pornographic industry news, first amendment issues, current events, legal sphere topics and drama.

At the start of the webcast I question why Mo Reese (a free speech coalition mouth piece) is irresponsibly telling the porn talent misleading information and propaganda in regards to AB 1576 and their self produced content for their websites and clips4sale stores.

I state the Mo Reese needs to clarify to the talent the AB 1576 will not affect SOLO pornstars who are SOLO in their websites, webcam show and clips4sale content.

 I also question why Dr. Chauntelle Tibbals is attempting to spread the message to mainstream media that the condom legislation (existing and proposed) in regards to the porn industry, isn't to ultimately protect the health and safety of pornstars and sexworkers.

 Dr. Chauntelle has never actually been a porn talent (as far as I know), so how exactly does she know what the pornographic industry system is actually like? Why doesn't she approach other porn studios to take up Wicked Picture's business model? Does she not realize that if most pornstars want to work, they are currently pressured NOT to use condoms (which is why condom legislation must be enforced to criminalize porn producers who don't follow the legislation).

Next I express why I think attorney general Eric Holder's gun control potential legislation is a good idea and I state that the Adult Entertainment Exo [correction - Adultcon] being moved to the same week as the Gun Expo in Las Vegas is a bad idea considering the sex and violence typically don't mix well.

Next I delve into the history and events surrounding Pornwikileaks and I explain about the lies and mistruths the Free Speech Coalition has told the public (even via wikipedia) in regards to the event of which released over 15,000 performers personal information to the public. I question whether or not the information on pornwikileaks really was from AIM (it could have been from a 2257 record keeping database such as the now closed 2257safe.com).

I also explain that the Free Speech Coalition's recent rise to power and influence is directly tied to and dependent upon their alleged involvement in closing Pornwikileaks (which is currently back online).

Last I explain how pornwikileaks may be used as an event or case in the Free Speech Coalitions fight to overturn 2257 record keeping laws - laws of which protect minors and children from being exploited in adult content. Being that the Free Speech Coalition has a history of defending child abuse and pedophilia, the 2257 laws must remain firmly intact.

The LIVE daily webcast of Monica At Home - 5pm PST streaming LIVE through Youtube

Today's LIVE webcast of Monica At Home will start at 5pm PST via a live streaming YOUTUBE event.
Remember you can SKYPE in with questions via my ID MonicaAtHome01

Teleka Patrick case - closing thoughts Sunday April 6, 2014

Independent investigative blogger Alexandra Mayers shares that as of today, mainstream media has reported that a body has been found which may be that of Teleka Patrick.

An autopsy to confirm this development in the Teleka Patrick case has been scheduled for Tuesday (April 8, 2014).

Please send your prayers and positive thoughts to the Patrick family. Further information in regards to the Teleka Patrick case along with links to contact the family can be found on TelekaPatrick.com

Alexandra Mayers explains, that at this point in time, there may be a need to introduce legislation in regards to "web sleuthing" and the registering of missing person's names as domain names by the United States government (the Federal Bureau of Investigations specifically) in effort to collect statistics and tips from the public in regards to cases (and also to control and/or prevent false information about missing person's cases from being unjustly inflated by mainstream news which can easily skew public opinion).

If such a piece of legislation is proposed, it should be called the Teleka Patrick Act.

Monica At Home 2014 on the Rob Black network Friday 04-04-2014

Alexandra aka Monica Foster presents the latest pornographic industry news, first amendment issues, current events, legal sphere topics and drama.

At the start of the webcast I give a health alert to the Los Angeles porn industry talent in regards to a meningitis outbreak which has hit Los Angeles, that has a high probability of affecting the Los Angeles talent pool.

Next I discuss gay pornstar Michael Lucas and his decision to put profits above porn talent health and safety by opting to shoot bareback HIV positive pornographic content.

I discuss whether or not pornstars represented by Mark Spiegler of the SpieglerGirls talent agency are having sex in their personal and/or professional lives with HIV positive talent considering that much of the pornstars Mark Spiegler represents have worked with HIV positive John Stagliano of the porn studio Evil Angel.

Being that Katie Summers currently has a lawsuit against John Stagliano for not disclosing his HIV positive status to her prior to having physical contact with her, I feel it's possible that John Stagliano (and many other porn professionals who may be HIV positive as well) has had sexual contact with the majority (if not all) of the SpieglerGirls considering that they are consistently featured in John Stagliano and Evil Angel porn movies.

At the end of the webcast I question why so many influential porn industry professionals who are immigrants from other countries (namely England, Germany and Canada), feel that they have the right to dictate American legislation and laws.

In the conclusion of the webcast I suggest that the foreign born porn professionals who don't respect or follow the United States laws, simply leave the country and return to their nations of origin rather than opposing the Aids Healthcare Foundation and California Assemblyman Isadore Hall the III who are only trying to help the porn industry and bring it into the future (not hurt it).

Porn professionals, in my view, who oppose the laws (and break the laws) are simply ANTI PORN.

Monica At Home 2014 on the Rob Black network Thursday 04-03-2014

Alexandra aka Monica Foster presents the latest pornographic industry news, first amendment issues, current events, legal sphere topics and drama. In the beginning of the webcast, I address the rumors that I'm an active escort - oh which I'm not. The only adult work I currently do (and have done for the past few years) is that of a solo independent webcam model. Next I discuss a recent article by Jennifer Ketcham, formerly known as Penny Flame which was about the label of "sex-worker". I also discuss Farrah Abraham's upcoming book trilogy about her porn video "Celebrity Sex Tape" which she claims will be better than "50 shades of Grey". After the cartoon break, I discuss Natasha Starr and Natalia Starr, better known as the Starr sisters. I outline a plan which could bring them into the mainstream entertainment industry, and could deliver them out of prostitution and porn. Later in the webcast I discuss AB 1576 (a piece of legislation designed to protect sex-workers in the pornographic industry from STDs - presented by California Assemblyman Isadore Hall and backed by the Aids Healthcare Foundation). At the end of the webcast I relate a few of my experiences from the start of my time in the Los Angeles porn industry.

Monica Foster aka Alexandra the ex pornstar & Suez aka Monica Foster the entertainer

Meet Suez Foster aka the entertainer Monica Foster - interview preview by Alexandra aka Monica Foster

In the event of my death - updated Last Will & Testament

Last Will and Testament as of 02/27/2014

In the event of my untimely death - all of the domain names in my possession along with all of the original content on my websites, blogs & social networking profiles (which are listed on www.MindOfMonica.com - including www.AlexandraMayers.com as well) are to be donated and transferred directly to The British Museum (https://www.britishmuseum.org).

I am currently in the process of setting up an account with enough funds for The British Museum to renew all of my domains for at least 20 (or more) years.

Under no circumstance is anyone attached to the pornographic industry and/or Free Speech Coalition to take control of, seize, purchase or alter my domain names, online intellectual property (photos, graphics, audio, video, etc) writings and/or art.

The past few days...

I posted this on my Facebook tonight:

Over the past few days Pastor John of www.BringingBackGod.com has helped me gain some understanding as to what direction I need to head next in life. I'm still a camgirl for the time being as you can see on www.twitter.com/MonicaFoster - and I'm fine with it for now.

I have a plan, but God has a bigger plan, so I figure my plans will work with God's. Jesus Christ has my back - and in the end, that's all that matters.

Please take the time to listen to this sermon by my current Pastor -  John Collins. I've reposted this sermon on several of my websites. It sums up the past 3 or so years of my life, and what I've been dealing with.
     Thank you Crystal Cox for helping me find my way to where I am now.

Now it's in the hands of law enforcement

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5 years later after being raped.

5 years later after being raped, this morning a porn industry professional finally decided to give me the alleged name of the man who raped me. Yep, FIVE YEARS LATER (actually it's 6 years - took me about a year to realize what happened). Of course, this only happened after I made the conversation below known to the public:

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In other news Crystal Cox has given my website www.PornNewsToday.com an exclusive interview concerning her ninth circuit court of appeals victory which is a win for independent investigative bloggers and journalists nationwide.

The interview with Crystal Cox is the 1000th www.PornNewsToday.com blog post. I'm very grateful to have had the opportunity to post such a historic piece of news as the conclusion to a project which has helped me reach a level of understanding in regards to my time not only in the porn industry, but my encounter with the world of organized crime (the Los Angeles porn industry is NOTHING but organized crime as www.PornStarHookerAlert.com clearly illustrates).

There are still individuals I'd like to know the truth about, and experiences I've had that I'd like closure on - but even if I never receive the answers to the questions I have, I know I've done a good job simply being a human being who has a soul that God refused to allow Jesus Christ to abandon.

Happy New Year! Welcome to 2014

Have a wonderful, productive & blessed New Year :)

I'm ready to date again, so here is what I am looking for.

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More PornWorthWatching and links to my live webcam

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Follow my twitter for my cam schedule

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Porn Worth Watching - episode 02

My latest creation - when parody, politics, porn & cartoons collide.

Enjoy the premier episode of Porn Worth Watching. If you like South Park, the Simpsons, Family Guy, political humor and learning the truth about the Los Angeles porn industry - then you will love this cartoon series by Alexandra Mayers aka Monica Foster.

On this episode, meet Derek and Spiegs - 2 of the most diabolical porn agents and pimps who are constantly concocting new schemes to keep the porn talent under their thumb.

Get to know Tasha and Brook Lynn - to pornstars who work double duty as high paid escorts to political figures such as Bill Clinton. Spy on Alexis and Xander, a young porn couple who encounters more problems than solutions due to their inability to think for themselves.

Live on webcam all weekend

I will be live on webcam for sexy Monica Foster shows all weekend - for links to me and showtimes just visit www.twitter.com/MonicaFoster

I would have and did cross the universe. Took me 4 years, so now I forgive.

Monica At Home is back! Richard Nanula, Anthony Weiner, Nik Richie of TheDirty & the UAWA

Alexandra Mayers aka Monica Foster brings you the latest in regards to the Richard Nanula, Samantha Saint and Trinity St. Clair sex scandal. Alexandra explains how TheDirty.com and Nik Richie is an interesting link between Nanula, legal loophole extortion, organized crime, Anthony Weiner and pornography.

Alexandra introduces the United Adult Workers of America (UAWA) and announces Katie Summers (the pornstar in the middle of a monumental HIV lawsuit against John Stagliano who didn't disclose his STD status to her) upcoming column on PornNewsToday.com

Yesterday I was mentioned by my real name, Alexandra Mayers, along side an acknowledgment of my website www.PornNewsToday.com in the Los Angeles Times: http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/movies/moviesnow/la-fi-ct-nanula-miramax-20130709,0,2492650.story?page=2 which consequently led to me being huge media draw in Sweden for some reason (my traffic on all my websites from Sweden is through the roof).

 I'm glad I stood my ground in regards to keeping those photos that are allegedly of Richard Nanula on www.PornNewsToday.com - this news item has shed a tremendous amount of light upon what my other site www.PornStarHookerAlert.com has always been about.

I wrote a post this morning which outlines a bit more background in regards to the Richard Nanula sex scandal, and how legal controlled opposition is utilized to organize settlements in such situations (which is essentially legal extortion).

For an idea as to what my next project will be about - I invite you to read my commentary on the following post: http://pornnewstoday.com/pnt/?p=5901  

My porn news and commentary blogs hit the mainstream media!

A graphic art piece of me by 'EbonyBunnyKing'

My porn industry news, gossip, investigative and commentary blog www.PornNewsToday.com hit the mainstream media TWICE over the past few weeks due to my coverage of the Richard Nanula sex scandal. 

The first time was June 26, 2013 (via HollywoodReporter.com & Variety.com)

A Richard Nanula sextape starring Samantha Saint – or just an instance of escorting? Emails give clues!

the second time today July 7, 2013 (via the Dailymail in the United Kingdom)

Nanula-Gate continues… Richard Nanula is a SEX ADDICT according to divorce papers

As of today I am VERY GLAD that I decided to take a stand back in May of 2012 as you can see in the video below (the video is from when I launched www.PornstarHookerAlert.com). My fellow independent media moguls Crystal Cox, Gene Ross and Rob Black have helped to validate the work I've done over the years.

I'm available for adult video projects again

Just a note to let you all know that I am available for the following types of adult video projects again:

• Softcore scenes 
• Solo hardcore scenes 

I'm also available for nude photography projects.

In the meantime make sure you follow me on twitter @MonicaFoster for links to my live webcam shows :)

Live on webcam all weekend :)

Hello, I will be live on webcam all weekend for sexy Monica Foster shows - find links directly to me on http://www.twitter.com/MonicaFoster

Measure B, AB332, election & voter manipulation & the truth of Los Angeles porn

I ask all my readers to please take the time to click here and read the first part of a very important political sphere investigation I've launched - which is code named "PornGate". The level of corruption I've uncovered is beyond sickening.

http://pornnewstoday.com/pnt/?p=5264

On the horizon...

Take a look at my newest project: www.AlexMeetsAlex.com

Enjoy the first webcast from a new project called Alex Meets Alex (a collaboration between Alexandra aka Monica Foster and Alex Blodgett). On this installment, the Alex's discuss fashion, style, thrift stores & bargain shopping in Los Angeles, New York and online.

The Alex's also get into a discussion about dating, safe sex, choosing not to date, independence and contentment (when living single).

A fresh edition of Time To Take Notice! Topics covered: Adult Bullying, Organized Stalking and Homophobia

On this webcast of Time To Take Notice - Hosted by Alexandra aka Monica Foster a young man by the name of Alex relates his recent experiences regarding homophobia, organized stalking, being bullied and harassed - namely at Crunch gym and by law enforcement while taking a trip to New York.

(excuse the audio - I'm getting better with time in regards to remote video capture for interviews) 

Full Circles sometimes transform into a Spiral

Circles and figure 8's - two shapes which are one in the same with the exception of the latter being twisted.

For the past couple of years I equated many instances in my life to being that of a horizontal figure eight which represents the concept of infinity ∞.

As of late however, my awareness has shifted towards the number 1.618 - which is the Golden Ratio - we often see 1.618 in nature in the form of spirals (snail shells, plants, galaxies, etc).

The past couple of weeks (most notably yesterday) in my world have been marked by several personal issues and external issues (of which I've felt I needed to lend my energy to) finally reaching a point of closure.

Sometimes closure is brought about by an issue or element in life coming full circle. Other times it requires innate spiritual growth which enables your perception to revisit the experience from an elevated level of perception.

Though I've said it time and time again...I'll say it once more - I don't think I have anything else to write as my "Monica Foster" entertainment persona. This particular blog posting is authored by the creator of "Monica Foster" - Alexandra.

Through my porn industry commentary blog www.PornNewsToday.com - I've followed many news items that have deepened my understanding of what it truly is to be a human being (far more than I ever thought possible). Frankly, it nearly blows my mind when I attempt to even comprehend how we as nearly 7 billion people on this planet manage to build and maintain functional civilizations at all - but I'm grateful that we do (I believe in miracles - just as I believe in Jesus Christ).

Yesterday I witnessed a change manifest in the United States pornographic industry of which I felt was very important (please click here to read about Assembly Bill 332).  Other's who have followed the progress of this coming change have stated that it was "inevitable" - but it wasn't necessarily. Many individuals poured their energy into making that change manifest (just as others poured their energy into trying to prevent the change) and in what I perceive to be a small way - I did as well.  As I write this - it feels very good to know that others in the future who embark on the path I ventured on in March of 2008 will most likely enter a safer environment than I found myself in. Life is precious - so it must be looked after and respected (even when it's given up on itself, or isn't capable of caring for itself).

Beginning a couple of weeks ago, I was granted understanding via 2 individuals and 1 media source in regards to a personal issue I've carried for nearly 3 years.  Though now the explanation seems so SIMPLE - I know I only perceive it that way now due to psychological and spiritual growth. Knowing this makes me both excited and a bit anxious as to what I'll reach understanding of later in life.

At this moment I feel as though I've packed my bags and am walking down the shoulder of an interstellar highway...feeling gusts of wind blast against my body and whip through my hair as various intergalactic crafts whiz by. I turn on my heel, begin walking backwards, extend my arm and stick up my thumb as I face the oncoming traffic.

Hopefully someone kind and interesting will pick me up, because I need a lift to my next destination.  Being that I don't believe anything is random, I have a feeling that whoever does pick me up, knows exactly where I am and has just been waiting for me to give the signal that I'm ready to go. All I know is that wherever I find myself next, it will be a place where I'm constructing, building and manifesting some very unique things I've already mentally drawn the blueprints of.

See you live on webcam - I'm not sure for how much longer (but what does it really matter - time is just something we humans made up).
PS: stop treating Albert Einstein's theories as concrete fact.

Thank you EbonyBunnyKing for making this awesome graphic art from one of my photos 

Once upon a time...

Once upon a time...

There was a girl who was told by everyone around her that she wasn't good enough...

Not good enough at ANYTHING or for ANYONE!

What the girl was told wasn't true...but there was no way for her to know otherwise...

But then when no one was looking...

Something told her the truth...

Time suddenly stopped...

And everything changed...

Once upon a time, the end transformed into the beginning.

Wednesday awareness on the Las Vegas strip

I've decided that since the Los Angeles porn industry criminals (who's livelihoods are based upon organized crime ring run illegal prostitution rings) are trying to set up shop in Las Vegas - I must take a stand! So this Wednesday BY MYSELF I will be passing out the following flyer on the Las Vegas strip.

Even ONE PERSON can make a difference! I WILL NOT BE INTIMIDATED! I AM NOT AFRAID! MAKE UP AS MANY LIES ABOUT ME AS YOU WANT - BECAUSE JESUS CHRIST IS BY MY SIDE!

If you would like to help me pass out my flyers let me know.

Monica Foster presents a clip of Michael Weinstein of the AHF on the Larry Elder show - support AB332 Californians

Read & learn more about this issue here: http://pornnewstoday.com/pnt/?p=4703
Monica Foster of Porn News Today presents a clip of Michael Weinstein of the Aids Healthcare Foundation (AHF) discussing the importance of STD testing and condom usage in California adult filming (pornography) on the Larry Elder show. Assembly Bill 332 (ab332) which is backed by lawmaker Isador Hall III is set to mandate condom usage and regular STD testing in the California pornographic industry just as Measure B did in Los Angeles.

Following the interview between Larry Elder and MIchael Weinstein is a clip from the new Rob Black show (Rob Black is a porn director for Sinister TV who was convicted for obscenity with his wife Lizzy Borden) which illustrates that as of current porn performers and pornstars have little say, choice or awareness of the STD status of their professional peers (which is why condom usage is very important due to the possible transmission of HIV and other sexually transmitted diseases).

Monica Foster at Home - Sanity, John Stagliano, HIV & Assembly Bill 332

On this webcast of Monica At Home (Christian Pornstar edition), Monica Foster questions whether or not anyone who enters the Los Angeles porn industry (whether they are informed or not) is sane, porn director Rob Black of Sinister TV's allegations of John Stagliano (a known HIV positive porn professional) having physical contact with a pornstar who was not aware of his HIV positive status during a porn shoot and the importance of Californian's supporting Assembly Bill 332 (AB332) which will mandate condom usage in adult filming throughout the state of California.

Easter 2013 with Monica Foster of Monica At Home & Christian Pornstar

On this March 31, 2013 Monica At Home - Christian Pornstar edition webcast - Alexandra aka Monica Foster wishes her fans, friends and viewers a Happy Easter.

Monica discusses her thoughts on the television show, The Client List starring Jennifer Love Hewitt, her new webcast Time To Take notice (of which her first interview features Eliot Bernstein, the developer of IviewIt technologies), Larry Flynt of Hustler magazine and how Hustler magazine feeds into organized crime (through illegal prostitution rings and sex trafficking).

Toward the end of the webcast Monica requests that her viewers join her in prayer and meditation in effort to prevent Los Angeles porn industry pornographers from leaving California to avoid changes in the law. Monica feels those who run the Los Angeles porn industry need to face the consequences of their actions and take accountability for their deeds.

At the end of the webcast Monica Foster discusses Paschal Beverly Randolph, Aleister Crowley, Thelema & Satanism within the Los Angeles pornographic industry (and within the Free Speech Coalition), and in the NAME OF JESUS CHRIST RECLAIMS the phrase "DO WHAT THOU WILT".

Interview with Eliot Bernstein - inventor and creator of IviewIt technology

In this premier interview for Time To Take Notice (a new webcast delving into the paranormal, conspiracy and corruption ) your host Alexandra ( aka Monica Foster ) interviews Eliot Bernstein - an inventor, software designer and the creator of IviewIt Technology - a video codec of which has revolutionized how streaming media is delivered over the internet.

Like Nikola Tesla, Eliot claims that his technological designs and inventions were stolen from him. In this interview the topics of invention, patent law, corrupt attorneys, divine intervention, organized crime, and government conspiracy are explored.

No desire to turn back - just a desire to move forward free of influence

Whatever is in the past is in the past - I don't just know and understand that fact... I LOVE that fact.

My past is exponentially moving further and further away from my present...and I have Jesus Christ to thank for it.

I see 3 very clear personal life paths I could take - and this week in particular has been very strange spiritually for me, because I've had signs physically manifest in regards to 2 of the 3 roads I could embark on.

I do not want anyone to pray for me anymore. I don't want to hear anyone's opinion any longer as to what I should do, or who I could be. I'm forever grateful for all the kind thoughts, prayer and advice I've received from others over the years, but now I need to make a decision free of anyone's influence.

I've worked as hard as I have on many of my online adult related projects, because it was therapeutic for ME. I've dealt with a tremendous amount of pain over the years - not just due to working in the Los Angeles porn industry, but due to various events throughout my life. I've wanted to save others, because I've seen elements of myself in others - and I needed to save myself.

I don't know if anyone can ever totally heal - but I believe I'm pretty darn close to being brand-spanking new :)

I'm ready as of today to have the "green light" manifest in regards to the 3rd path/road my life could take. It's the road I think would be the most surprising to those who know (or know of) me, but it's the journey of which I've always had in mind daily (and that I've dreamed of for a very long time) that would make me the most happy.

I'm ready to explore happiness. Solid, pure happiness (and my happiness is no longer dependent upon what anyone on Earth thinks).

Porn Agent School - yep.

What if there was a school that taught you exactly how to be a porn agent? What if it was free? Wouldn't that devalue the profession / career choice? Wouldn't that free information be the perfect way to learn how to AVOID porn agents?

Well it's a good thing that a free Porn Agent school now exists... Class starts April 1st, 2013

www.PornAgentSchool.com

Seems to me that much of what will be taught falls along the lines of human trafficking - which is a crime. Maybe once enough of the public learns the truth, lawmakers will not just listen, but take a bit more action.

Who I am nowadays

A few recent photos for you to see how I'm doing :)

Please sign this petition because children's themes and porn DO NOT MIX!

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Monica Foster at Home - sex trafficking, slavery and the future of pornogragraphy

Ex pornstar Monica Foster discusses porn and adult entertainment industry news in the first half of the webcast: the Vivid Studios and LA Direct Models offices catching on fire over the weekend, the recent dispute between male pornstar Christian XXX and Derek Hay (owner and front man for LA Direct Models), and porn celebrity Lisa Ann's recent comments in regards to Derek Hay.

Monica then shares her thoughts on the importance of raising awareness about sex trafficking and human trafficking within the United States of America and explains to her viewers how much of the Los Angeles porn industry's foundation is based on domestic and international sex trafficking.

Monica concludes the broadcast by taking live questions and comments from her viewers in regards to their thoughts on the porn industry and the issue of slavery. Monica presents the discussion question to her viewers of "If in the year 2028, if slavery in America was re-established and legal, but the slave class of people was white, would you opt to own slaves?"

Monica Foster explains to her viewers, that according to a recent study by Jon Milward based on the data compiled in the IAFD database, over 70% of pornstars are white Americans.

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Happy Valentines Day

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Difficult tasks are the road to inner peace

I haven't shared my thoughts in a while, so I figured that this morning I would - being that I'd like my longtime fans, followers and friends to know that I appreciate you far more than just as my "sexy webcam show" viewers.

Things in my personal life are going rather smoothly nowadays. I don't have anything especially exciting to report and that's not such a bad thing. As usual I'm working on maintaining and updating my websites, developing new web ventures and developing myself.

The past few weeks, though not exciting, have been pretty interesting. A woman I know well used to like to use the phrase "turnabout's fair play"...and as of late I've been fortunate enough to watch that particular phrase manifest in regards to several events I witnessed and was involved in over the past few years.

As of current, I'm simply grateful. I'm the type of individual who always feels that I should be more "accomplished" or "successful", but as of current I'm fairly satisfied with how my life is at the moment. I've regained my optimism, drive and have reached a higher level of inner peace than I've previously known.

I'm looking forward to whatever life has in store for me from this point on, because I feel that I've done a pretty good job with the tasks God has put before me so far.

Monica Foster live on webcam all week!

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Live on webcam this week

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The agenda for February

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Moving on in 2013

Monica Foster live on webcam all weekend

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Alexandra aka Monica Foster live on webcam

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Redesigned and Relaunched my Official Monica Foster website www.monicaF.com

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An AMAZING new beginning - buckle up.

At some point, the wishbone will break, and when it does I'll be holding the larger half. 

Estrellas De Porno - a Spanish adult entertainment blog examines Christian Pornstar

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Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

Live on webcam for sexy Monica Foster shows all weekend !

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Monica Foster is live on webcam this weekend!

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Living my life...

2 artists of which I intensely relate to as of current are T.I. and Rihanna ... here's a taste of things to come...