"You're a pornstar, you must be rich."

LOL! That's been said a couple of times recently during my past few live weekly one hour shows in Club Monica lately. I think the perception that people have of my financial status is both funny and flattering. I'm FAR from "rich". I'm not even well off, or OK. I'm broke, but I'm working to turn that around.

It's good to know that I at least appear to be successful. Maybe my appearance is an indicator of where I will be one day. What I don't think many people (out side of Los Angeles that is ) realize, is that real entertainers, whether you're adult or mainstream are masters of the art of illusion. It's all smoke and mirrors baby. Just because I make you believe something, doesn't mean that it's real.

Most women who work in porn are not rich, or even well off. Most live in group homes (model houses) with their "managers", or small apartments, or with a shit load of roommates. Most live paycheck to paycheck. Some have sugardaddies or do a lot of "private" shoots to live a more lavish lifestyle. Part of the reason I created GettingIntoPorn.com was to show people that just because you work in the adult industry, your life may not turn out to be the equivalent of what the E! channel shows you of Jenna Jameson's life.

Come to think of it maybe I am doing ok. I live alone in a 1 bedroom and I don't rely on or have anyone to pay my bills.

Speaking of "sugardaddies" or rich boyfriends - recently in a forum that I enjoy participating (and battling) in, a fellow poster mentioned a recent post of mine relating to how I once wondered how women in Los Angeles do meet these illusive rich and generous men, because I sure as hell haven't (at least not any that I'd consider dating). In fact the men I've met who have CLAIMED to be rich, in reality were much more cheap than the "regular" guys (maybe that's how they became what they want to consider "rich" to begin with - heh). The poster said that now, being that my mindset is DEFINITELY not about living off of some guy, that I might have a case of the "Fox and the Grapes".

Well, maybe I do. Maybe there's no way in the world any man of means would EVER be interested in me. Being that I can't even manage to date a regular guy successfully I'm not surprised. I probably am the LAST type of woman that any man with means would want to date because I'm not a perfect 10, I have a quirky attitude, I don't pander or kiss ass, I'm very head strong and I'm not a "be seen and not heard" type of girl. I'm definitely not of a "slave girl"/submissive mentality, and I'm far from being a girl who "does as she's told".

Furthermore, if a rich man stepped up to me and offered to foot the bill, I'd ask him to funnel his generosity into helping me build my studio and brand, rather than requesting designer clothes or bags. Most rich guys don't want a girl who has sense like that (that is unless they can own a piece of the girl's business, which is something else I'm not willing to do), because they'd know that if I became successful in my own right, and they fucked up the relationship, I'd leave them and be just fine. Rich guys for the most part want women who will be dependent on them forever (slaves).

No, I've never dated a millionaire, but from what I can see from afar, I wouldn't want to unless he was exceptionally different from the normal "rich man" stock. In time I'll make my own money and retain my freedom.

In other news I wanted to go to AVN's this year, but I don't foresee myself being able to afford the trip. Most women I know who are going, are "accompanying" someone. Fuck that. Yes, I'm disappointed, but I'll live. I'm grateful for what I do have as of current, and the fact that I'm strong enough to continue pushing forward even though there are many obstacles that I still need to work my way around, over and through.

I can't wait for 2010 to get here. This year needs to wrap up, at least for me.

I've been taking a lot more self portraits lately with my interval timer, and this morning I decided to attempt a sexy holiday inspired set.

I'm not sure what this holiday season holds for me, probably just a lot of webcam and website work along with a bit of alcohol. Anyways enjoy :)

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Tonight when I stopped by CVS to pick up a bottle of Arbor Mist I had an interesting conversation with one of the checkout girls who I see and speak with on many occasions when I stop in that particular store.

She was on a "new love" high tonight - very sweet. She was really excited because she finally met someone out here in Hollywood who treats her "like a princess". She went on to tell me how all of her friends thought her new man looked just like "Lestat" from "Queen of the Damned". This made me cringe - not because I don't like that particular movie or the concept of vampires. Just because it brought forth a flood of memories...I've had my share of Lestats, Wolverines, etc.

I asked her if the guy was aware of how similar he looked to this particular character, and the more she spoke, the more it became apparent that he put some effort into cultivating this particular look. Then I asked his age, and what I anticipated to hear, she verbalized. The dude was about 15 years older than she was (this girl is in her early 20's).

In that instance I wished I had a flip top head and could scoop out my knowledge and experience of my past dealing with such individuals and serve it to her on a silver platter - but of course I couldn't so I just smiled and said "well I'm glad you're happy and I hope it continues".

And it just might continue...you never know.

There are a lot of vampires and immortal (or at least very slow aging) superhero types like the Xmen out here in Los Angeles. I think they're drawn to this city because of the consistent influx of young women who travel out here (primarily to Hollywood) everyday with the hopes of becoming actresses or models or dancers or artists.

Vampires and other people who have decided not to, or who can't, age need to always be able to start a new relationship every few years with someone who's still in the age range that they're frozen in. It's kind of sad I suppose, because after a few years when the girl/women starts to age - not just physically but emotionally, she realizes that she can't be with someone who's not changing or growing along with her - or anyone else for that matter.

The vampire or other type of immortal of course realizes this too, and usually grows uncomfortable with being seen by others as the "oddity" in the relationship around the time the girl starts to realize that the guy she's with isn't quite "normal", and usually doesn't stop the girl from leaving. Hell, he might even kick her to the curb before she (and/or others) catches on to what she's really been dating.

In Los Angeles vampires and other immortals (probably because they're in such huge numbers) seem like normal everyday people (after all Los Angeles IS the entertainment mecca of the USA and the freakshow atmosphere is the norm) - but if you take one and transplant him or her to say, the midwest for example, they stick out like a sore thumb and do not appear normal at all, neither in appearance or in how they behave. They're just straight up weirdos and typically the towns people in those area will not let them near their young adult children (which again is why vampires and other immortals stick to Los Angeles or other major metro areas when attempting to mate with mortals - these are areas where young adults are typically detached from their families who'd otherwise drive a stake through the hearts of these unnatural beings).

Though I'm not an example of someone who's good at finding and maintaining healthy romantic relationships - if anything I'm one of the the worst examples - I still believe that one of the keys is to find someone you can grow and develop at a parallel pace with.

Even though vampires (and others similar to them) might have lived a long time, it doesn't mean that their emotions have matured. Hell, look at that last movie "Twilight New Moon" - is it just me or is that movie promoting the idea of being a near pedophile as being ok? Yea, Jack's character looks young, but if in reality he's over 80 years old. What's he doing going after a highschool girl? And why is this movie being targeted towards highschool girls? Is someone trying to encourage more Hugh Hefner / Girls Next Door relationships to the masses or what? (I'm only kinda kidding here).

Anyways to conclude this blog, no I don't think vampires (in a literal sense) are real, but I do think that Los Angeles (Hollywood specifically) attracts people who aren't comfortable with developing into well rounded psychologically healthy adults (and who are often out right not willing to) .

I see people everyday living here in Hollywood, men and women, on an impossible quest to remain "young". From how they dress, to how the present themselves, to their activities, to how they mutilate their bodies with plastic surgery, botox, steroids, etc.

I've made a firm decision not become one of these people. Makeup and hair extensions I can do, but anything else - nah. I feel it's OK to age and it's not the end of the world. If your breasts and ass start to droop - oh well - it's a badge of courage and a sign that you've managed to SURVIVE this world for as long as you have. If you get a wrinkle - whatever - you're changing as you should. If your hair falls out, so be it.

If we were all meant to stay the same and not age, we would. We'd also probably not live in as great of a world as we do, because many of the things we know, we'd have never learned and many of the inventions that we take for granted wouldn't have been produced - because I have a feeling that if we didn't age physically we wouldn't age mentally either.

With age, comes life insight and a chance for you to produce and/or teach a new generation. I hope I get to take part in that at some point, so I hope I'm lucky enough to one day meet someone who's OK with not trying to be 20 something forever and someone who's ok with me being an adult 30, almost 31.

I've decided not to deal with these Los Angeles vampires and have the life sucked out of me or be turned into the walking dead (by their surgery or "youth serums). I just want to live my life naturally, and age with someone normally and in a healthy way.

Vampires / immortals are stuck in a cycle of having to start over again from the beginning with a new person for eternity. That's not just sad, it's pointless and not a real way of living. It's just faking life rather than participating in a real one.

2010 is going to be about me cleaning up my life. I think the universe is actually assisting me in doing so quite a bit by brushing away the garbage whether I am ready to let it go or not.

I have no regrets when it comes to my past, but yea, there are some things I'm not overly proud of. It's time to move forward and I've come to realize that if I want to keep dirty disfunctional vampire types from entering my life in the future, I need to create a future that doesn't attract them or allow them in.

I know this blog is a bit weird today, and you might wonder what exactly it's about - well it's simply my thoughts as to what I'm working through at this point in my life and about a relationship that wasn't right for me and wasn't what I thought it was. It's been one hell of a week.

Out here in Los Angeles, and well, I suppose any where in the world (and not just at this time, but any time in history), people (especially women), are often traded in for newer and more "exciting" individuals pretty quickly. It's hurtful because it makes you feel as easily traded and disposable as a car.



Speaking of cars, my favorite car is the DeLorean. Why? Because I'm a lot like a DeLorean. At one time is was the "hot new thing", but now it's an older car. Not quite a "classic", but it's far from being a hot late model Miata or Porche.

DeLoreans are unusual cars and they're pretty rare (you just don't see them everywhere, and are currently out of production unless you want an updated model which began being produced in 2008) but are still very exciting to look at & very easily recognizable. They've been showcased in one of the most well known movie trilogies of all time - "Back to the Future". It's hard to damage the DeLorean's exterior - they have a stainless steel shell, but it makes them challenging to repair and restore.

Yep, a DeLorean is a rare, cool bitch of a car that will always be remembered. It's not for everyone, some people outright HATE them and think they're horrible, but for the people who are into DeLoreans, they're worth plating in 24K gold.



Even though I'm relating myself to a car, keep in mind, I'm not looking to a be a part of anyone's damn "collection". Collections are for objects, not people.

Not much to blog about today, but rather than staying bunked up in my apartment depressed, I got out to a nice dinner with a new girlfriend lil miss Cherry Ferretti - a cool girl who's an adult industry talent who I met through my publicist.

We went to the Cheesecake factory - had a drink and a few appetizers. It was nice to get out and about with someone in a similar station in life who has a brain to go along with her beauty - thanks for being there Cherry!

Now I'm going to get to work on my website and do some shows on my webcam.

It'll take some time for me to "bounce back" from the recent events, but I will. The sun comes up, and the sun goes down regardless and life goes on.

A few friends of mine told me that my last post was a bit too personal and empowered the guy in actuality by my presenting myself as a "crazy porn chick". Well I don't know about being a true "porn chick" (though I suppose officially I am one), but yea, I am a little crazy (mainly very emotional) - many of the most artistic people are - and I think it's my "crazy gene" that's allowed me to take "crazy" and creative risks in life to get me where I want to be and where I want to go against many odds which would have caused others to have thrown in the towel quite some time ago.

I've decided to take my friend's advice however and delete yesterday's blog. The guy isn't worth my mentioning, thinking about or expelling anymore energy or time on. If I'd taken my friend's advice when it was given, and gone with my own intuition, I wouldn't have found myself in the painful and betraying situation to begin with - so...lesson learned. No more loser douchebags.

One thing I've tried to do over the years (and that I feel obligated to do at this point being that I know my readers, fans and friends appreciate it) is allow others to come along on my life journey with me. Through the ups and downs, triumphs and pain.

I don't talk about EVERYTHING in my blogs, but I do talk about a lot because I also want other young women who dare to take the unbeaten path - regardless of what industry it is - to know that the "successful end result" didn't just magically happen. Women like Diana Ross and Halle Berry didn't just wake up "superstars". It takes sacrifice, hard work and disappointment - both in your professional and personal life which out here in Los Angeles is extremely intertwined. Following and attaining your dreams really can almost kill you - physically, psychologically, emotionally and mentally.

Sometimes those you trust and those you think are in your corner in actuality may secretly want to destroy you - and they just might. Sometimes out of fear, other times out of jealousy and sometimes just because they're losers and hate the idea of someone else working towards being a winner. However that's where being strong and having true faith in God, the universe and yourself play in. If you can retain that faith then you will make it - maybe not how you thought you would or even in the capacity of which you initially wanted to "make it", but you'll wind up somewhere positive , bright and beautiful.

Below are a couple cool photos from Angelina Valentine's Website Launch Party

Goals - I have a nearly infinite list of things that I want to achieve in life. Some of the goals are short terms, others long term, and still others - I might need to wait till my next life time before I can get to them.

I make lists - LOTS of lists (I'm very methodical in my thought processes) and they're all over my the place in my world and on many different mediums - some are on my computer, others on paper, others written on the palm of my hand in pen (those are spur of the moment ideas and thoughts), some on my dry erase board, etc.

My system of lists and goals works well though - how do I know? Well I've achieved quite a bit in life considering where I come from, and all those achievements came to fruition via my lists leading to the materialization of my goals.

I've never cared too much about money and it's never been in the forefront of my mind - hell, often times it hasn't even occupied ANY portion of my mind. I've always been able to make enough for what I need, when I need it, and I'm very very very grateful for that. I suppose the reason for my never having to need for much, is because by nature I'm not someone who takes more than they need - even when it's been offered. Some people think I'm crazy for being this way, but I consider it being simply...sensible.

My current immediate goals however - 3 in particular of which I have for 2010 will require a bit more financial means than I currently have, so my mind, body and soul is in high gear to materialize those means, and so far things are working out well.

For those of you who regularly read my blog, you probably know what these goals are, but if you don't, I suppose you'll have to go back to prior posts to figure it out. I'll write vaguely about 1 that's on my mind right now though - by the end of 2010 I plan to release my very first XXX compilation DVD and submit it in time for 2011's AVNs.

Initially wanted to produce and release one of the features I've written first, but I've decided against that - baby steps (yes - that's from my favorite movie - "Contact" - which is so worth watching if you haven't seen it).

The theme and idea, which is something that has not been done (at least not that I'm aware of), came to me tonight while I was having a cigarette on my patio. It's such a good concept that I will not be discussing it on any of my websites, on any of my cam shows, or to anyone at all. Hell, I don't think I'll even talk aloud to myself about it. No, I'm not being cocky about this idea, it's just one of those ideas that you know is something that someone who might not even normally think of being an "idea stealer" just might steal.

Anyways this compilation concept will most likely become a series, but I will be the "star" of the first one - mainly because it's essentially an experiment and I'd rather use myself as a guinea pig than anyone else.

OK, well back to work now - and by the way - thank you very much to EVERYONE who showed their support towards me over the past couple of days - it's cool to know that those of you who read my blogs, myspace, twitter, etc... can really tell my moods and specifically when something's wrong. It's good to know that some of you out there realize that I am a real person, who's living a real life (even though it's unusual) and it's even better to know that some of you actually care.

Oh, by the way, I redesigned some elements of my Myspace page: http://www.Myspace.com/monicafoster01 while I was doing cam show this morning and editing photos so check it out or add me to your friends if you haven't already.

Yesterday my publicist James of Galaxy Publicity totally hooked up myself and many of his other clients to do a promotional and interview spot for the G4 network - that's right G4 the cable channel! The spot will air around late January, and it features myself, Angelina Valentine, Hunter Bryce, Thomas Ward, Cherry Feretti and Lauri Vargas hanging out at a backyard pool party discussing our takes on working in the porn world.

The host and crew were all really cool people, the atmosphere was relaxed and fun, and the icing on the cake of the day was that I had an opportunity to meet the beautiful & legendary Jeanne Pepper - the first black woman to break the color barrier in mainstream/high end adult films along with John Dragon - a photographer and adult content developer who produces beautiful content of past and present adult stars.

I didn't get much sleep the night prior due to the current personal life drama, so when I got home, I crashed and actually got in a solid 8 hours. It was nice and I feel refreshed.

Yesterday morning in my state of anger and confusion (personal drama), I felt the need to do something creative to channel all that psychotic energy into something productive - so I took a new simple photo set. A few of the raw images are on my myspace page http://www.myspace.com/monicafoster01, but I'll be posting the edited photos on my website and a few here later on.

"I see your true colors - shining through....." - I always liked that song, but tonight I experienced the literal meaning of that particular phrase.

People who work in the adult entertainment industry generally come from just about every walk of life - ex-attorneys, ex-athletes, ex-computer techs, ex-musicians, people who've never had a job before, college students....I've even met an ex-cowboy (yep a real life cattle rancher) who's life somehow led him into the world of adult entertainment.

Sometimes these people realize that this business isn't for them, and they leave, other times they stay in, but pursue other interests as well (such as myself), and then there are others who find that the adult business is their "calling" and they're in 'till they day they die in at least some capacity.

Generally I've found those, that are in till the end, are amazing people - not always - but quite often they are. They're people who have risen above acknowledging others who judge them, and who refrain from judging others in turn.

They're people who are OK with "taking a walk on the wild side", and who realize that though porn encompasses a lot of "party time", in order to survive, they have to find a balance and develop a level of professionalism within the party/circus atmosphere in order to make a living and survive financially.

Most of all, "porn lifers" tend to have respect for ALL aspects of the business, because typically these are the people who got into porn from the ground up. It's cool how this "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" trend which usually is the backstory of MANY successful people in industries all across the board (from software company owners, to clothing label owners, to oil company owners) translates into porn as well - but I suppose it's because porn IS a business and if you're going to be a successful business owner you need to have worked nearly EVERY position of that business in order to have a complete mental picture and understanding of what you're truly heading/leading.

One thing that you shouldn't do when working in a business or leading a business, is feel that somehow and in some way you're above or "better" than any other position which is vital for that business to continue. In other words don't be a snot nosed hypocrite who's making money off someone else's labor that you wouldn't do yourself.

I wrote a blog a few days ago about how some men in porn have a deep hatred of women (and how it's often reflected in the content that produce), but here's another element/angle that I've recently become much more aware and attuned to.

Today I learned that someone I know who works behind the scenes in the adult world and who's livelihood is primarily dependent upon the continuation of male and females to perform in the adult business, would never themselves be an adult industry talent because they think it's wrong to pay or be paid to have sex.

I was blown away.

I've witnessed a lot of hypocrisy in my life, I've even found myself being a hypocrite at times - but upon realizing it, have corrected my thought pattern OR stopped participating in whatever activity it was that deemed me a hypocrite (usually within a very short period of time). However this individual has worked in the adult industry for over a decade and feels this way. Not only was I amazed, I quickly found myself pitying this person.

Now I know I have stated in the past that I won't work as an prostitute, but I don't think escorting is wrong. If I did live where prostitution was LEGAL, I just might do it (if I wasn't in a healthy, committed, happy, healthy, monogamous relationship that is - which still is a life goal), who knows.

I now really wonder how many people in the porn business and adult industry as a whole are willing to profit off the talent, but are not willing to do the "dirty work" themselves and who actually think BADLY of the talent. In the past I thought it was a few people, but now I think it may be a higher percentage. It's kinda like "rich kid syndrome" (for example: someone who's dad started out in a company as a janitor and in time after nearly killing themselves rose to own the company and then who has a kid who's never worked a day in their life and then inherits the company, but who has no respect for the company's current janitors which is essentially where he or she's current position stems from).

Could THIS mentality be what has initiated this transitional period of the porn industry? Quite possibly, because I do believe that any flip or change in anything is rooted in karma.

Moral of the blog? Don't expect for your tree to stay healthy and consistently give you fruit, if you don't acknowledge the importance of and take care of it's roots.

Currently in porn, the roots (the talent) are gaining more and more power without needing many of the individuals who were initially a vital part of the "behind the scenes" production process due to the awesome power of computers and the Internet.

Everyone from video editors, distributors, to cameramen, to directors, to lighting people to studio owners are being cut out of the picture due to a talent being able to reach their fans directly minus the middle man through their websites.

Yes, there will always be a few of the behind the scenes people still in the game, but not in the capacity (or in the numbers) as they were in the past. Certain people who work behind the scenes in porn need to realize this if they want to continue in the adult business in a profitable capacity (and maintain their lifestyle), and may want to rethink exactly what they would and wouldn't do...and get off their high horse.

If you're not willing to be the janitor and sweep the floors of your business, then you have no place in heading or leading that business.

I suppose all I'm saying here is how can you lead and army, if you've never been a soldier?

It's already Thursday and around 5:20am (I'm writing this on a break from my live webcam shows). I'm very pleased to announce that my profile is finally active in the "Celebrity Pornstars" category of ImLive.com - make sure to check me out as there will be lots of fresh exclusive videos, archived shows and photos from me to you on their network:



I think later this evening or tomorrow I'm going to shoot some new Monica Foster promo photos and some more material for the upcoming MightyAfrodite.com I'll be launching very very very very very soon. In fact Mighty Afrodite subbed in for Monica Foster today during the weekly members show for Club Monica on MonicaF.com through the CamZ.com network - thank you to all of you out there who gave her a warm welcome back :)



Lately the issue on my mind has to do with whether I should put some money I've been saving into my car trade in (the next car I buy to replace my current nearly broken down ride - a 99 Ford Explorer - I will be paying cash for ) OR the massage therapy certification classes I need to take.

I'm leaning more towards the classes. I think my car will survive for another few months, and if there's one thing I've learned in life, it's that attaining a skill and/or education is more valuable than anything material , as it'll only help you in the long run.

I guess after writing this blog, I have found my answer - I'll get the certification first as it's my ticket to entering the next chapter of my life in a healthy, happy, secure and productive way.

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A big "thank you" to everyone who sent me well wishes via email, myspace and/or twitter over the Thanksgiving Holiday. Yes, I was a little blue, but after a really nice, and relaxing weekend I feel much better.

I'm very excited about starting my massage therapist classes soon so that I can officially "certified". I probably won't begin till around late January or February, but it's a new chapter of my life, I'm definitely looking forward to opening.

I'll be on webcam today as usual - but I managed to get out and about this morning to one of my favorite discount haunts: Ross ! I picked up a nice BEBE tracksuit and a couple sweaters. Being that I've only lived here in Los Angeles through 1 winter season so far, I've come to realize that I really don't have too many winter clothes, so when I can, I buy a piece here and there to add to my winter wardrobe - mainly so that my small circle of friends and other's close to me don't have to consistently see me in the same beige sweater and black pants (or blue jeans) everytime we hang out :)

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! To those of you out there who are having dinner with family and/or friends, I hope you have a great, relaxing and drama free holiday. To those of you out there who are solo such as myself, don't get depressed - just realize that you're part of earth's family and that even though you may not be sitting at a crowded table with a big turkey in the center you're not alone.

I'll admit, I'm a little bit depressed and disappointed so far this holiday season, BUT I'm trying not to be. I received 1 Thanksgiving dinner invite. I suppose I should be grateful, and I am - but I'm a bit puzzled truthfully considering that there are people who I THOUGHT I was close to in my immediate life, who know damn well that I'm essentially 100% on my own right now, who could have asked if I wanted to join them - yet they did not (the Holiday isn't over yet - it's only 1am so those individuals still have 23 hours to redeem themselves). I'm taking this situation as a blessing in disguise as to who is really there for me and cares appropiately - opposed to who is not.

In other news, it looks as though the AVN award nominations for 2010 are out. I'm very happy, because my 1 and only feature movie that I was in, "Not the Cosby's XXX" was nominated in 4 categories! Best Art Direction (congratulations Scott David!), Best Soundtrack (congratulations Jeff/Will Ryder), Best Non-Sex Performance (congratulations Thomas Ward), and Best Supporting Actress (congratulations Misty Stone - in fact received 4 nominations in total in various categories - she'd better win at least 1))!

Some of the people/studios/movies who were nominated from my perspective should not have been - but then again I don't know what all factors in behind the scenes in who is nominated opposed to who is not, so who am I to judge. Amazing how "politics" factor into every facet of our society - even the porn industry.

Though my mood is a little low right now, I'm trying to combat that, and I will be actively on webcam quite a bit starting from tonight to the end of the weekend.

I know that my blog, websites and myspace primarily have to do with my life as an adult entertainer/content developer, however being that I'm planning on my "post porn" career to be within the health and wellness field (I hope to own a spa/bed and breakfast in the future), I figured I'd start making the transition here on myspace accordingly.

I have been actively studying healing arts techniques and finally have put my healing arts home studio together, so starting today I will be taking appointments with people who are interested in relaxing and rejuvenating bodywork sessions.

Please send me a message here through myspace or email monicaf001 at yahoo.com if you are in the Los Angeles area and interested in setting up an appointment.

Since I'm just starting, my hourly rate is VERY reasonable. Most likely my schedule will fill up quickly so let me know ASAP if you're interested.

PS: These are NOT F/S or G/F/E or P/S/E sessions, so if that's what you're after - try eros or something of the like.

So as of tonight, I have a love/hate relationship with youtube.com - The Stan's of Hollywood video of myself talking to a porn fan and interviewing Nyomi Banxxx about her newest release was removed and supposedly is in violation of youtube.com's terms of service (keep in mind, there was not any nudity or raunchiness in the video), yet a video such as this one (click the link below) is ok?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BFFeSQ30Jl0

I will simply have to host my adult industry interview videos on my own server from now on and will rarely use youtube in the future. However I will be re-editing the Stan's of Hollywood video to where there's NO WAY it can be rejected. I'd love to know who flagged and/or rejected the video - stupid ass haters...

Update: Hosting the video via my server for now. Reposted it the preceding post - thank goodness I have some tech know-how.

Yesterday I hung out at Stan's of Hollywood (adult megatore) for most of the day for first adult DVD signing. I had a GREAT time and really enjoyed getting to know Ms. Nyomi Banxxx and Mr. Alexander Devoe. Rather than me blogging on and on, I'll just post the video from the event below.



A higher resolution extended version which will include my interview with Alexander Devoe will be posted on my newest website www.EliteEbonyPorn.com Friday of this coming week.

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I'm glad it's Saturday - this was one busy (and a bit hectic) week, and I'm going to take the first half of today to really rest up, as next week will be just as busy.

This coming Tuesday (November 17th), at 5pm PST/8pm PST I'll be on Playboy Radio's Night Calls. If you're a fan or a friend, please call in to say "Hi" @ 1-877-205-9796 - I'd love to talk to you.

Then this Saturday I'll be at Stans Of Hollywood to sign your favorite Monica Foster DVDs. The store signing will be from 1:00 to 6:00 pm, you can come and have your photo taken with me, and purchase pictures, DVDs, and promotional material from the myself and the other adult stars (including Alexander Devoe and Misty Stone) who will be there.

Stan's of Hollywood Adult Superstore is located at the corner of Western and Santa Monica at:

1117 North Western Avenue
Hollywood, CA 90029
Phone: 323-467-1640

Last night was a another great night by the way. I made it out with my publicist to a club called Cabana Club out here in Hollywood in support of adult director Lee G. - who has recently suffered from a stroke (click here for details and email leegfoundation@yahoo.com if you'd like to make a donation).

I had a really good time at the venue, and as I was partying with some industry peeps (Angelina Aspen, Mr. Marcus, Will Ryder, Gianna Taylor, Alexander Devoe & Will Ryder were all in attendance) , I really came to realize that this is one of the best times of my life and I'm very fortunate to be living my dreams, as not many people get the opportunity or have the courage to do so.

I also have come to realize that being single, really works for me right now and I'm truly enjoying myself and have settled in to having a relationship with myself. I am no longer open to dating or giving the time of day to any more deceitful, toxic, manipulative, game playing or negative men. I'm no longer "Miss Naive Pushover" and I feel great about that.

Anyways, in time, I'm sure I'll find myself in a solid, committed, happy and healthy romantic relationship. However unless the guy "puts a ring on it" - I can't take him too seriously.

Well I'm going to take a short nap now but will be on webcam all night tonight and the rest of the weekend. C-ya!

I spent the first quarter of my day today recovering from getting my drink on at the AIM fundraiser last night. I had a great time and saw quite a few people that I haven't seen in a while, which is always nice.

My night started off a bit rocky unfortunately. The club, Les Deux (this is the venue the kids on "The Hills" often hung out at) is within walking distance of where I live, but considering that I didn't want to arrive all sweaty (and the fact that I was wearing 3.5" heels) I decided to take a taxi. I called about 2 hours in advance to schedule to taxi pick up from my place for 9:15pm. Well get this, when the taxi arrives and I get in and give the driver the address of the club, he says "Oh my god, I can't believe you couldn't walk there, what a waste - I've been waiting 25 minutes to pick you up".

Initially I thought maybe he'd picked up the wrong person, so I asked him if it was my name on his pick up sheet. When he said it was, I asked him what time his dispatcher gave him, and he said 9:15pm - so I asked him what the problem was. That it was a short ride and a small fare - I even offered him an extra tip for his "trouble" (trying to be nice). Instead this psycho CONTINUED to bitch the entire ride (which fortunately was only about 5 mins) and yell at me about how I shouldn't call in advance for a cab for such a short distance. I have a lot of patience and tolerance, but I won't put up with someone being unjustifiably rude to me.

After about 2 mins of this guy not quitting I told him that he obviously has a problem and that he should be ashamed of himself for talking to his taxi patrons as he was talking to me. When I got out the taxi he sped off and nearly ran over my foot.

I was pretty upset and this incident probably would have set the tone for my night, but just as I was about to walk up to the club my friend, talented mainstream comedian and co-star from "Not the Cosbys XXX , Thomas Ward rolled up. THANK GOD - perfect timing. Now I had someone to vent to about the taxi driver from hell AND enter the club and walk the red carpet with (yes, porn parties often have a red carpet for those of you who don't know) :)

Thomas and I spotted James Bartholet of Galaxy Publicity a few mins before the porn paparazzi snapped some photos of us. He was conducting interviews on the red carpet that evening which was cool as he's probably one of the most entertaining personalities in the adult industry.

I'm glad I got to the club relatively early because I like to be able to check out the venue before it gets too crowded, stake out a spot at the bar and have at least one drink prior to the social scene getting into full swing.

The theme song for the evening could have been Britney Spears' song "Circus", because I'll tell you, the adult industry is JAM PACKED full of some of the most entertaining, friendly and fun characters you'll ever find - I think mainstream entertainment WISHES they had even 10% of craziness and fun that the adult entertainment world has.

I had a chance to visit with the beautiful "Ultimate Cougar" Magdalene again, I said hello to the "World Famous" T-Reel (another Not the Cosbys XXX costar of mine - he played Cockroach - we've also done a seen together for BlueBird Films) and his beautiful GF Tori Black (I'd never seen Tori in person before - she is just as pretty in person as in her photos - a true Victoria's Secret supermodel quality girl).

Both Tommy Gunn and The Real Tommy Gunn were in attendance, I met super sexy Nick Manning for the first time (another performer who looks just as good in person as in his photos), I had a chance to say hello to adult industry legal expert Michael Fattorosi, and I hung out with probably THE MOST TALENTED wardrobe and set designer Scott of SitCumZ.com (that's who made Not the Cosbys XXX, Not the Bradys XXX, and a multitude of other adult parodies from SitCumZ look as good and true to the original series as they do) along with his partner in crime, the writer/genius/director/creator of SitcumZ.com Will Ryder (check out the photo of me and Mr. Ryder below!).



2 of my favorite adult event photographers were at the party, Rick Garcia and the beautiful incredibly cool Miss Gia Jordan (Thanks Gia for your suggestion on some additions to the "Where will your Look Fit In" section of GettingIntoPorn.com - I'll be updating that shortly). I could go on and on about all the adult biz peeps I rubbed elbows with throughout the night, but instead I'll just refer you to the "Event Photos" category of the AVN website.

Due to the fact that I like to wake up at a decent time in the morning, I left the club at about half after midnight.

After getting home, I called that taxi company to report the driver (turned out that I'm not the only person he's unleashed his wrath upon) and went right to bed.

Today wound up being a pretty productive day even though I did have to go struggle a bit in the beginning (no more than 2 drinks per party from now on - maybe - lol). Ran some errands, treated myself to Mc Donalds, and have had a fun webcam evening so far.

Tomorrow will be a busy day again, so stay tuned :)

For those of you as lucky as I am to live in Los Angeles, Club Les Deux will be THE place to be tonight if you want to hang with myself, or your other favorite hot adult actors and actresses. The event starts @ 9pm.

Les Deux will be ground zero for the LATATA.org "This is our industry" fund raising event. Currently AIM is under fire and they need your help. Visit the LATATA.org website for more info.

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I suppose that with the coming of Halloween tomorrow, the holidays are officially upon us, and I'm glad being that I LOVE the holidays - the food, the drinks and of course - the parties!

Last night I psyched myself up enough to leave my apartment and hit my first party of the season - it wasn't a "holiday" party - it was an adult industry event celebrating the birthday of Lee Bang (a male talent who also runs an adult talent agency - you can catch a scene I shot with him in "Milf Chocolate #3") which was hosted by his lovely and sexy wife Sophie Dee.

The party was great. I went solo, but saw quite a few friends. Notably D Snoop, Candice Nicole, Magdalene, my awesome new publicist James Bartholet, my favorite adult industry event photographer Rick Garcia and one of my favorite adult industry product entrepreneurs Lou of CreepsSellingGarbage.com (check out the skateboard deck he created of me below - if you'd like to buy one, let me know).

I had a few drinks, smoked a few cigs, danced to a few songs, took a few photos, and then found my way home around midnight. Luckily Opera, the club the party was held at, was less than 10 blocks from my apartment so it was only a $5 cab ride there and a $5 cab ride home.

I'll try to find some party pics later next week to post. Saturday I'll be hitting the Heaven and Hell Halloween bash hosted by All Media Play (the studio that produced Not the Cosbys XXX) - I'm excited about it.

I'm working on becoming a bit more social this party season. I don't have many friends (VERY few who actually live here in LA), so getting out to parties and events - especially this time of year when most who are single (such as I) are prone to find themselves a bit "lonely". Since moving here to Hollywood, it's been a struggle - actually moving here from FL has been one of the hardest things I've ever done - financially and emotionally - but it's also been one of my greatest accomplishments.

Something I've learned as of late is: when something isn't working and you've tried your best to fix it, but it just refuses to be fixed - you just gotta let it go - that goes for items, goals, dreams and relationships - of all sorts. I'm becoming much better at letting go of items, certain goals, and certain dreams (though I still have plenty to work with and on), but letting go of people is still very difficult - but I'm learning that to maintain my sanity, self esteem, self worth, drive and overall happiness - I have to and will do it when necessary.

To conclude this blog, I want to send out a lot of hugs and thanks to everyone out there who has sent me words of encouragement in regards to some of my recent blogs and to those who consistently send me positive feedback on my work both in front of and behind the camera. It means a lot.

Have a great Friday!

Well today has started off with a bit of a surprise. Not anything directly relating to me I suppose, but it definitely made me re-evaluate my view of someone I've recently known.

A while ago I shot a scene with a girl who I would bump into here and there socially. She seemed fairly "into" the adult industry lifestyle and I think made a decent amount of money in it. I know she started to run into some trouble a few months ago, but I lost touch with her. Well apparently she's doing a complete 180 and has joined (is getting help from) The Pink Cross - here's the article.

Now I know 3 people from the porn industry who have turned to the Pink Cross. Interesting.

I really don't buy into the fact that anyone needs to turn to a religous based organization that suggests that you completely repent your adult industry actions in order to move on with and/or get a fresh start at life. Maybe some people do need such help - I personally feel that inner strength and a firm decision as to what you want to do is all you really need.

I wonder how much money this organization gives the people that they help. I wonder if they really do help you with getting a generic 9-5 desk job. I question a lot about the motives of this organization - I hate being such a skeptic of an organization who's goal really is to "do good", but considering the personality types of the women who I know have turned to the pink cross - these women I think would repent at the drop of a hat if they knew they would be getting a decent sum of money out of it.

Lately I've been forced to question via my family's words and some other individuals life actions as to whether me having entered the adult industry was that "bright" of an idea, and the possibility of my actions having "ruined" my life and future prospects.

Well, after much questioning, I've come to the conclusion that yes, some doors are closed, but others, that aren't available to most people, have opened. I'm comfortable with where I'm at in life. Yes I could be doing better, but I think I will with time.

That's enough writing for today. I'll be on webcam today, so see you all online!

Well I'll be on webcam again tonight - no bars or clubs for me :)

I've been looking at cars lately because by the end of January I'd like to get a new, yet used car - I'm thinking either a Nissan Altima or a Volkswagen Passat.

We'll see.

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Most things in life that most people generally hire others to do, I do myself - I built and maintain my own website, shoot my own promotional photos and pictorial photos with an interval timer, shoot many of my own videos for my website, create my own graphics, do my own wardrobe/styling, hair, even hair cuts and weaves, write my own press releases, provide my own tech support when my computers spaz out, schedule my own webcam shows etc.

Between all that and exploring any and every avenue I can find that's available to me in regards to finding work on camera as a model and adult actress, I'm stretching myself a bit too thin, so I've decided to take the step in hiring some help...

I'm currently exploring the different adult industry PR companies, and I think I've found the one which is best suited to my needs, so I'll be meeting with them this Tuesday. Yes, it's spending money I don't have right now, but hopefully in the long run the investment will pay off. Mainly I'm hoping that this company I'm choosing to work with can assist in landing me some magazine work and help guide me to the right industry events to "be seen" at.

On a side note - I feel very accomplished in regards to being organized. I finally after months of staring at a mountain of un-filed papers and receipts of epic proportions, have sorted through and filed them away. I also weeded through my closet and cleared out all the clothes I no longer wear. Everything in my apartment, which is essentially my world is now as it should be. YES!

I'd planned on mainly doing webcam shows today but realized that I needed to shoot some new photos sets being that I'm wearing just my hair nowdays in my cute little pixie cut. Below are some stills from the first set. After I finish this blog I'll be shooting one more set before getting on webcam for the evening.

Enjoy.

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It's been a busy week so far and I deeply apologize to my Club Monica members for missing my 1 hour live Club Monica webcast on CamZ yesterday. I couldn't get home on time. However I have rescheduled the show for today (4pm PST / 7pm EST).

Here's a little clip from Black Bottom Girls 5 an adult DVD I was featured in, shot in 2008. This scene ALMOST makes me want to throw my hair extensions back in :)