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Monica Foster interviews Digital Playground's newest and youngest contract girl and porn superstar on the rise, Bibi Jones.
Monica Foster and Bibi discuss her career, her interests, the adult entertainment industry and what you can expect from her in the near and far future!

A new broadcast of Monica Foster at Home.



Monica Foster shares some information which has been reported by Mike South of www.mikesouth.com on who has been found to be involved with the Pornwikileaks project. Monica also gives an update on Kacey Jordan aka Courtney Nicole.
Monica shares how she feels Misty Stone has a talent that reaches beyond the porn arena and shares her views on how she wishes more African American performers would make it known what they're up to career wise.
Lastly Monica shares her thoughts on Digital Playground's newest contract performer Bibi Jones and shares some information in regards to some online attacks she's dealt with, which were reported to her by Bibi's friend @MichaelLetts (as he's known on Twitter)

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I was invited to do an interview this afternoon for The Static Hour on Blogtalkradio.com - it was fun :)

Please view my latest update on how I've noticed Mallcom Inc / Jerry Aharony may be profiting from the Pornwikileaks venture which has terrorized myself, family and countless others.

Though I have much more certainty and clarity as to where I can go with my future from here, I've continued to have a rough time emotionally as of late due to the consistent harassment from those who operate the Pornwikileaks project (my stress and anxiety is off the charts and I still am in fear for my safety and life).

I have to say I'm very disappointed in much of humanity (especially people I considered my friends, aquaintences and peers) being that I've had very little assistance and support through this rather dark period of my life, but I suppose it's a lesson learned. Those who have been there for me - I will always consider true friends and I'm very grateful for their presence.

Today I had a bit of a bright spot - someone, who I've never met in person who attacked me apologized.

Here is the link to the video apology: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fTe7QfKX-HI

I'm really surprised by this turn around, and I'm also very impressed. This guy showed a lot of strength and thoughtfulness. In this situation and at this time of my life I really needed such a peace offering.

On this installment of Monica Foster at Home , I discuss the most recent news in the adult entertainment (porn) industry - specifically Cal-OSHA's decision to implement a condom mandate (condoms are now required for sexual intercourse within porn industry ).

I also discuss the currently known details in regards to Kacey Jordan and her alleged rape and departure from twitter. I go over how her entrance, exit and thought process while working within the adult entertainment industry (porn and escorting) is not an uncommon one and how I feel many young men and women are conditioned by the media (adult and mainstream) into having unrealistic expectations in the "real world" - and how the porn industry (and entertainment in general) readily exploits young individuals who are naive and harbor far too much trust in people who are essentially predators.

I inserted Kacey Jordan's final twitter videos and photos of the bloody bedsheets of her alleged rape (which happened in the Aria Hotel in Las Vegas) into this broadcast (courtesy of her twitvid and twitpic accounts).

Towards the end of the broadcast I discuss how though I'm glad safer sex practices are being implemented into the porn industry, I fear for countless young men and women who will be lured out of the country to work in over-seas porn markets (where condoms are not mandatory and few things are regulated at all in regards to sex workers). I discuss the link between human trafficking and porn and provide tips and warning signs as to how to keep your friends, family and loved ones safe from falling unwittingly into a world that they may not be prepared for.

I also note the currently missing Lauren Spierer and how often women with her appearance and stats who go missing wind up either trafficked out of the country or in the domestic sex industry without anyone noticing.

Yesterday was a good day in Monica Foster Land.

As many of you who keep up with me are aware of - there has been a lot of debate and discussion within the adult entertainment and California legal/political arena as to whether or not condoms should be mandatory in the porn industry. Many of you know my views on the matter and FINALLY yesterday a conclusion (it may not be a permanent conclusion - but at least it is for now) was reached...read about it here:

Cal/OSHA advisors’ last public meeting on the adult film condoms issue

Mike South's take on the Cal-OSHA meeting

Yesterday's events, along with getting the chance to see an old friend of which I hadn't touched base with in a while, provided me with substantial conclusion and closure in regards to the past 3 years.

At this phase I feel very confident in moving forward in life, and I also feel that I'll receive a chance to regain certain opportunities and elements within my life of which I both lost and of which were essentially stolen from me.

At this point I have many enemies due to my choosing retaliation and retribution over "shutting up and walking away" - however I don't care, because throughout this journey I've learned not only that I have more strength than I was aware of, but that I'm a much better fighter than I'd ever imagined.

I've never been one to follow - I've also never been one to compromise. I'm an idealist (and can be a tad extreme in my views), however I'm always genuine and I speak and write from the heart (and of the truth as I know it).

At this phase I have a renewed sense of purpose and energy. I'm putting all of my time and energy into my uncompleted projects - mainly the character development of the many "off shoots" of "Monica Foster" - I hope that those of you who follow me, enjoy what I'll be manifesting between now and the end of the year.

I'll always look back at this stage of my life and remember that if you truly believe that something can happen, it will. I've learned that listening to yourself is the best option, because the Kingdom of God truly is within us all as both a united people and as individuals.

In the beginning of this installment of Monica Foster at Home, Monica shares another religious experience she had this morning in regards to God requesting that she return to the porn industry as a Christian adult actress / pornstar. Though she doesn't completely understand why God has prompted her to do this she doesn't question the path that she feels is set for her.

Later in the broadcast Monica Foster discusses today's press conference on CNN which featured Andrew Breitbart and Anthony Weiner. Monica shares her views as to why she feels the entire "scandal" was a minor issue which was blown out of proportion and questions why Breitbart took the actions against Weiner of which he did.

added note: Lenny Dykstra was arrested and jailed today :) Click here to read about it on the New York Times - karma is a bitch.....

Didn't expect to do a Monica Foster @ Home yesterday - but it was necessary.



Monica Foster gives a special report on some information Michael Whiteacre (producer of The Devil and Shelley Lubben) has recently brought to light on anti-porn Christian activist Shelley Lubben of the Pink Cross.
Monica shares her frustration in regards to the pro porn / anti-porn debate and relates how at this stage she is on neither side due to dealing with as much "Christian" harassment as she has porn industry harassment.
Monica speaks about how neither pro porn or anti-porn groups seem to get the point that they are 2 sides of the same coin which has serious flaws on each side.
At the end of the broadcast Monica Foster does a prayer / meditation session in effort for all the truths to finally come to light in relation to these issues and the people involved.

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It's amazing how adversity and hardship can really ignite your creative juices...

A new friend of mine asked me recently what would be a good way to make some extra money - I thought that was an odd question coming from her (her name is Michelle by the way) considering that she's a woman of such high stature, but she explained to me that times are tough for EVERYONE right now.

I explained to Michelle that my field of expertise is VERY limited - all I really know how to do is webcam, write, create blogs and websites, create graphics, take awesome photographs, edit video and build computers. I suggested that maybe Michelle should start some sort of online broadcast about something along the lines of fashion or being a mom on the go and that I could help her with it, but to my surprise she wanted to try out being a sexy webcam model!

Well - I decided to let Michelle take over my account on Streamate from time to time on
http://monicafoster.cammodels.com

I also set her up with a nice starter blog on


http://MichelleOxxx.blogspot.com

You can also catch her on twitter.com/MichelleOxxx - Who knows what she'll do from there...

***Update*** 

Decided in July not to do an adult parody/character of Michelle Obama - reserving it for something non-adult industry. The real Michelle Obama deserves something better than this.

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So the harassment continues from the losers behind pornwikileaks. This is the email that was sent through the contact form of my building's website to my apartment manager - at least now I have someone local who can vouch for this crap from these psychotic people.
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Hi ****

Here is a copy of the email we received. It came from the 'Contact Us' form from the building website.
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From: MF (note how they inserted my email in the from field)
Subject: Franklin Park Apartments
To: (removed)
Date: Thursday, May 26, 2011, 12:35 PM

Below is the result of your feedback form. It was submitted by
MF (MonicaF001@yahoo.com) on Thursday, May 26, 2011 at 15:35:07

Message: we have reason to believe (twitter comments) that *** in unit 118 is keeping several pets (birds, etc) in the apartment without paying the pet deposit of $250. she has just acquired a white dove and has tweeted several pictures of the animal.

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I hate linking to their stupid site, but here's the thread link on PWL that initiated this: http://www.pornwikileaks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=69231


You've Got to be kidding me - God sends me a dove (Phillip) and I took care of it and then released it. I have one little dog and another bird (a love bird) which my apartment manager has known about since I've lived in this building (since July of 2008). Luckily I live in a building with really good people who know what I've been dealing with since exiting the porn industry and speaking out.

When I think of all the stress, anxiety, pain and anguish that this has caused me and others - I want to scream but God is watching.

When I first recorded this and reviewed it I thought that this broadcast was a bit - well for lack of better terms "out of the realm of understanding" for most - but though it is edited - it's actually not and it's exactly how I feel. Enjoy - and to my enemies - you made a huge mistake tonight.




After you watch this I suggest you get to know someone who affirmed to me that I'm fine being exactly as I am : Shirley MacLaine - here is a recent interview with her on Coast To Coast AM - it is excellent! Click here to listen (you probably have to be a member of the site to listen).

There's something I feel the need to address tonight in written form - especially considering the content of my most recent broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com

The issue tonight I will be addressing is rape. Lately I've been having recurring nightmares about this incident again - so I feel that God is telling me that it's time for me to share this.

New Years Eve (2008 into 2009) I was raped in a bathroom of a loft/condo off Hollywood and Vine by a man by the name of Chase. I pushed this incident into the back of my mind and never blogged about it here (there are actually MANY things I have not blogged about here out of fear, and out of the selfishness of wanting to build a long term career for myself within the porn industry), but I am today.

I was invited out by Scott David of X-play / All Media Play to a party at Ecco Lounge - where I had a really good time. Then afterwards we went to an afterparty at the residence of a guy by the name of Robert Quinn in a beautiful loft/condo building off Hollywood and Vine. I wound up getting drunk - incredibly intoxicated in fact that night and wound up talking to a guy by the name of Chase in the bathroom. He seemed nice, friendly, etc - and I let my guard down being that he was a black guy (I've never had any black / African American males be aggressive with me in life - at least not up until that point).

Chase was talking about his son, and showed me a photo of his son from his wallet - and I told him that I thought he had a cute kid. Then he asked me if I did privates. He specifically used the term "privates" (meaning escorting/prostitution). I told him that I was working as a porn actress currently. Not even 5 seconds later Chase had me on the floor and raped me. I didn't know what to do because I'd never been pinned down like that before. It only took about a minute and I went into a mental shock/black out mode - I didn't know what to think, how to react or even what to do. When he got off of me, I got up, left the bathroom, tried to act normal and told Scott David what happened.

Scott became really angry and attempted to fight Chase - I yelled at Scott to stop (because I just wanted to get out of there asap) and we left the party.

After that night I didn't want to think about the event and I pushed it to the back of my mind. I know now thinking back that I should have gone to the police and to the hospital but I didn't and I'll tell you why. Shame - I knew that in the eyes of the law and in the eyes of anyone (in my view at the time) I would be seen in a negative light - especially being that I had sex for living as a "pornstar". I didn't want the issue to come up in the relationship I was in at the time, and I didn't want it to get around in the "porn industry" that I wasn't easy going. I wanted to just let the whole thing go.

In time I started having nightmares about the incident. I contacted Jeff Mullen / Will Ryder and asked him for Chase's number (I wasn't sure whether his name was Chase or Chance). He gave it to me and I called Chase and screamed at him and told him he'd better not ever do anything along the lines of what he did to me to anyone else ever again - then I hung up the phone. He called me back but I didn't answer the phone. That was a pointless thing to do, but it's all I had the courage to do at the time.

Chase is a piece of shit with a mentality the unfortunately isn't too uncommon for jerks like himself who are on the fringes of the porn industry. I'm not sure exactly how or why Chase was at that party, I don't think he works for any porn studios (at least I'd never seen him on any of the sets I'd worked on before) but he somehow tight with Jeff Mullen and his friend Robert Quinn. Men like Chase figure that simply because a woman does porn, it's OK to be sexual with her anytime anyplace whether she likes it or not. I truly wonder how many other women Chase has done this to who felt like I did at the time - ashamed and afraid.

It's most likely to late to do anything about the incident now, but I would like to track this fucker Chase down and at least file a formal complaint against him of some sort - so I'm going to investigate how to do so. It sickens me that men in the porn industry such as Jeff Mullen and several others maintain friendships with men like Chase who feel that it's OK to violate a woman's body and space.

As my reaffirmed relationship with God and Jesus Christ grows and strengthens, and I as develop more internal strength and courage, and as my mind clears of the poisonous energy I picked up through my interactions with certain individuals within the porn industry - I'm realizing that it's imperative that I share my experiences and tell the truth about the events I witnessed and the situations I was in over the past few years - because it might save other young women and men from suffering the same fate as myself.

Tonight when I tweeted via twitter that I'm actively searching for the contact info of this Chase jerk so I can at least try to file some sort of legal complaint against him - Jeff Mullen immediately sent me text messages stating that I am a "liar" and that he's "disappointed in me" and that "he's one of the good guys" and that I'm being "unChristian".


I decided to post photos of the texts I received tonight because I'm sick of people calling me a liar nowdays when I am being honest, telling the truth and not holding back (which I feel is nearly killing me).

I strongly advise that if you're considering entering porn, or if you currently are a porn talent (or even if you are not in porn) DO NOT work with X-Play / All Media Play because apparently Jeff Mullen not only attempts to portray depictions of children having sex in his movies as I outline in this youtube video here - he also maintains friendships with men who think it's OK to sexually attack women just because they may be sex workers to begin with.

I suppose this is what happens when you just can't live a lie and withhold the truth anymore. Tonight I'm just going to pray to God and Jesus Christ my lord and savior that things in my life will work out however it is that God has planned for me. I have to retain faith. I feel like I'm being attacked from all directions at this phase, but I truly believe that God is standing with me, and I know for a fact that nothing and no one can triumph over God.

I'm documenting all of this because I feel like there needs to be a record incase someone out there decides to attempt to hurt me. I'm not overly afraid, but I am aware.

***Update 1: I found out tonight from someone on twitter ( @xxxVIP ) that "he answers to Black Shrek. He shows up late to parties to scrounge for rufee'd porn girls." - hopefully law enforcement or someone will be able to put a stop to not only Chase - but this trend in the porn / adult entertainment industry.

****Update 2: I found out that Chase uses the last name Styles or Stylez and DEFINITELY answers to "Black Shrek"

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It's not even 12pm here but it's been quite a long day already. I had the opportunity to attend and speak at an LA City Council meeting this morning - quite the anxiety filled experience (I have no problem chit chatting with hundreds of people live online - but offline...that's another story...I'm shy) - but at the same time a much needed experience. I'll detail it all later. For now enjoy last night's broadcast of Monica Foster @ Home.






In the beginning of the broadcast, I share my thoughts on Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross and the lack of balance between pro-porn and anti-porn groups. I address why I was an active participant in Not the Cosbys XXX 1 and 2 though I disagree with the character of "Rudy" played by Nina Devon which I feel depicts the sexualized image of a child.

I go over why watching adult content can lead a person to a false view of the type of partner they feel they should be with and unrealistic expectations of standards of beauty. I also touch on why I feel older men (especially those who work in the porn industry) are as obsessed with young women as they are, which I feel is due to their stunted unhealthy psychological state - a part of the reason as to why the porn industry is consistently active in recruiting women as young as possible (for both adult content AND for the men who work behind the scenes who are addicted to sex).
I give a live prayer session with my live viewers and pray for those affected by the Pornwikileaks issue.

Later in PART 2 of the broadcast I discuss the shady recruitment methods of porn industry "professionals" via social networking sites and possible extortion tactics within the porn and adult entertainment industry that people (espcially youngsters) should be aware of.

This week's broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)

Part 1


Part 2



On this particular broadcast of Monica @ Home I discuss my faith in God being reaffirmed, AIM (the primary STD testing facility for porn talents - www.aim-med.org) shutting down which has left the current active talent in a very dangerous situation without a primary STD testing facility (and verifiable database) along with an aspect of the porn industry that has been bothering me for quite some time: the depiction of children in adult content (which is against the law according to chapter 110 sections B and C of title 18 of the United States code which governs Child Pornography).

The evening of April 29th, 2011 after attending the Free Speech Coalition meeting (which I had a hell of a time making it to) and grabbing some dinner, a new friend decided to come and stay with me for a while. He appeared on my patio wall and wasn't in the mood to fly away, so I brought him in.


Phillip

God speaks to us in interesting ways.

Dove, Pigeon, Power Animal, Symbol of Peace, Love, Maternity, Gentleness, Spirit Messenger

Arrest Of Jesus
Possible proof that a law in regards to Child Pornography has been broken in Not the Cosbys XXX 2
(read the comments)

For some of you out there who keep up with me, it's no secret that I've been experiencing some extreme depression from having to deal with the Pornwikileaks venture that certain "anonymous" individuals have decided to maintain and expand.

The venture has made myself, my family and countless others a target for quite a few angry, disgruntled and potentially dangerous individuals. Tuesday night, I was finally pushed over the edge after receiving a slew of hate filled messages online. I seriously contemplated ending my time here in this world.

I know even contemplating such an action is viewed as foolish and selfish by many, however my mindset at the time was in a place that it's never been before, due to my feeling that there may be no solution to the pain and trouble I've caused for those that I care for. At that moment I felt those I care for may be better off if I wasn't here.

Obviously I'm writing this, so I'm still here and I'm in a better mental place now with the help of a couple close friends who reached out to me after I tweeted my feelings that evening. I'm beyond grateful to these individuals - however I'm not ashamed of having felt as I did, because I'm only a human being and I can't retain strength and optimism indefinitely. I'm tough but I'm a sensitive creative artist at my core and the stalking and bullying has caused me to feel I've lost the one thing I had left - my pride.

The many actions people can take against others in our society that fall within the "loop holes" of the law really frustrate me. It's come to my knowledge that there ARE people who could have spoken up and put a stop to the PornWikileaks venture - but have not. Why? Probably due to fear or due to potential financial gain from the venture succeeding. Practices such as psychological warfare need to be evaluated by our society and there needs to be laws implemented to protect individuals from such tactics dished out by those with the know how to do so. Maybe in time that will happen - but then again maybe it won't.

In my view, anyone who KNOWS who has created and maintains Pornwikileaks but fails to speak up to stop the endangerment of countless people's lives, in my view is just as guilty as those who own/run the site. The truth always comes out and often when traditional justice does not prevail other forms do.

What people don't realize about "porn" and the issues affecting the "porn industry" as of current, is that there is a lot of money at stake, along with many people's freedom being at stake. I've come to realize that I'm viewed as a very dangerous person by many who want to unjustly retain their financial status and freedom due to what I've seen, where I've been and what I know.

I feel the "wiki" (that I suspect a fictitious and/or anonymous adult industry blogger who uses the pen name "Darrah Ford" wrote) was a warning shot to me that basically says "shut up and/or do as we say or we will hurt you and/or your family because we know where you and they live". I think most people would be both frightened and depressed if they had to deal with this classic Mafia style threat. I do not and will not cave to these threats however - what I've said and written over the years has been exactly what I thought or felt at that moment. Yes, my feelings and views have altered as I've evolved and continued to experience life, however I WILL NOT take back anything I've written or said that I currently BELIEVE IN.

Again I feel like I'm in a better, more healthy and stronger place emotionally now - today. It's difficult being that I have no immediate or extended family on this side of the country, don't have a boyfriend or husband or children and have very few close friends to lean on. By nature I don't like to lean on anyone which is probably a positive in many situations but probably a negative in this one. Come to think of it maybe that's why I've been used as an example by those behind PornWikiLeaks - they figured I'd back down due to lack of support.

Regardless I felt the need to share this part of my life with you all. I want many of you reading this out there to know that YES you should stand up for what you feel is right, speak out and try your best to facilitate changes when you can - HOWEVER I want you to know that it's a very hard and dangerous road to take - Malcolm X and Martin Luther King are good examples of this.

I know I still haven't released the first installment of my next book "Getting Into Porn - The Journeys" yet, but I will soon and I hope many of you read it (I will be setting it at a very very very low price) because it may be one of the only true accounts as to what dealing with people who view humans as no more than merchandise and sex toys really are like.

I'm still not anti-porn - but I am anti-porn industry until people with souls and a sense of responsibility toward their fellow man can take the reigns of this "porn industry" again.

Too many individuals in the porn industry as of current are OUT OF CONTROL in my view - especially when it comes to the current promotion of adult niches that in my view are making pedophilia and incest appear "normal". That shit is NOT NORMAL and it's not right that our youth that stumbles upon free tube sites are being indoctrinated into the sick dream worlds of people who could NEVER maintain a healthy relationship or life in mainstream society.

Well that's enough for today - thanks for reading and keeping up with me still after all this time.

No regrets - just amazement as to how an industry that can seem so "free" in actuality is a venue to enslave.

I found this video on youtube recently. Many of you know what I've been dealing with in regards to the PornWikiLeaks website. I'm glad that others outside of the adult entertainment world have come to realize that such a site isn't just dangerous and breaking several laws - it's a hate crime as well.

Those who have had knowledge of who is running this website but have said nothing are just as guilty in this situation as those who created and operate that website as far as I'm concerned.

Another fresh installment of Monica @ Home (04/01/2011)

Well it's been a while since I've last posted...life has taken a different pace as of late, however since I know you took the time to subscribe or check in, here's an update:

Everything is mellow and fantastic and that about sums it up! I made it through a brief nutritional detox program I put myself on and it was totally worth it - both my body and spirit feel much more energized. I'm going to make a solid effort to eat much better than I have in the past.

In other news, my websites are doing well, my book is selling steadily and I'm finally completing some projects I've had on the bench for a while. I'll admit, the woman who created "Monica Foster" has taken quite a few strides into a different direction in life which is why all things "Monica" have begun to taper off a bit. I'll keep you posted as to where my current interests are pointing towards on my weekly broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com (I'll get the most recent archives uploaded in time).

I'm very content with where life has me stationed as of present. It's been quite the journey and it's nice to now just simply sit back, laugh and smile.

Yet another Monica @ Home broadcast.

The past few days have been rather mellow for me personally, however quite a bit of turbulent activity is occurring on a world scale.

Rather than me write about myself today, I'm going to refer all of you to:

www.redcross.com

Donate a bit of money to them to help others in desperate need.

Monica Foster discusses Charlie Sheen , Lenny Dykstra , CBS & gives tips on Entering Porn

Another new broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com - don't miss tonight's live webcast on www.blogtv.com/People/MonicaFoster - LOTS and LOTS to talk about (plus a wine review of course).





Below is a re-upload of February 2nd, 2011 broadcast in regards to my concern of CBS continuing to run "2 and a Half Men featuring Charlie Sheen" - well it looks like CBS has shut down production of the show due to Charlie Sheen's recent public behavior and comments on an Alex Jone's radio show broadcast with none other than dumb ass Lenny Dykstra (yep, that idiot that I had the misfortune of meeting).

THANK YOU CBS for realizing that Sheen is a loser! 2011 is shaping up nicely.

Each time I think I'm getting close to the completion of my second book and am amidst the editing process, my perspective on many of the events of which have transpired within the California adult entertainment industry and the manner of which I want to share my journey changes.

I suppose that with each day we live, and with each new experience and encounter we find ourselves a part of, our perspective is broadened (while other times narrowed) and altered. At times this process can be exciting and enlightening - other times frustrating...especially when we (or at least I) struggle to grasp exactly what we're perceiving and processing.

Maybe that's why writers remain writers throughout their lives - writers are seekers, explorers, recorders and teachers - whether they want to accept the responsibility or not.

So I've been introduced to the raw food diet recently. It's not really a "diet" - it's how all human beings should be eating period - from birth. Initially I was wary and resistant to it (as I am of many things), but a healthier way of living (mainly eating) is something I feel I'm ready for at this moment. The more I've read about the raw food way of living and the benefits of such a lifestyle, I really can't find a reason why anyone wouldn't want to do it.

A new friend of mine introduced me to the "diet" and didn't really try to sell me on it...he didn't have to actually because he's a walking billboard for how it can enhance your life.

My initial thoughts on "raw food"....hmmmm....honestly looking at it - from the way it's prepared, to how it's served, to just the overall "raw" state of the ingredients, it DOES appears as though it was just beamed down from the Star Trek mothership. The taste is a bit alien as well...but why should I really be surprised really - California is like another planet in comparison to the east coast.

I'm not going to go cold-turkey raw...I'm going to do it gradually. I ordered a blender and a few other vitals to get started. The food in general doesn't cost more or less than "regular" food - actually from my perspective as of current I'll basically be eating nothing but fruits, vegetables, beans, lentils, and water. I'm sure there are a few other raw items included on the menu - I was given a book on this "diet" - so we'll see what happens.

Something I've noticed from the bit of raw-food I've had so far, is that it's very very filling considering how little you find yourself actually ingesting. I suppose that's due to it being chock full of nutrients that one generally doesn't get in processed "regular" food. This is a benefit to me because overall I see eating as a big waste of time and would prefer that I was never hungry...yep I'm weird I know but I've always found bodily needs to be annoying.

Of course I'll be documenting my thoughts and progress on how this way of eating and living works out via my blogs and what not.

If you're curious about the raw food diet and how to get started, here's a cool youtube video I found that gives a decent overview. I have a feeling that in time I'll be creating one similar once I'm all raw and ready - lol.

Another new broadcast of Monica At Home!

I read a wonderful book a few months ago entitled "Animal Speak". It was recommended to me by a long distance friend of mine who's very spiritually aware of the interconnectedness of life (on this planet and beyond) and how at times, due to ego and the day to day tasks we as humans create for ourselves, we can forget that it's in nature, that we can find all the answers to all the questions that have ever perplexed us.

I suppose it's because I've lived quite deeply in a world of artificiality and superficiality for such an extended amount of time, that I now find myself seeking a balance in a world which is the opposite of where I've been residing for the past 3 decades.

This year will be very exciting for me, because I've been given the gift to be able to explore a different way of living, that still is interlinked with where I've been.

As of late, I've been allowing myself to ride the tides, and it's been working out well. I've had quite a few interesting options, opportunities and individuals enter my life over the past few weeks - and I've learned a vast amount from each - whether it be for the negative or the positive.

Positive / Negative : I'm beginning to realize that in the end, it's the balance that's important - not either element singularly.

This is a very well put together documentary on Shelley Lubben of The Pink Cross (www.thepinkcross.org) by Michael Whiteacre and Julie Meadows (www.juliemeadows.com).



Take responsibility for your choices in life people and be pro-active in making a change if you need to - don't consistently re-hash the past, because it's just that - THE PAST

Amazing how things in a person's life can change so rapidly while living here in Los Angeles. The fast pace of life here makes things consistently interesting...that's for certain.

It looks like I'll be going at the webisode series I mentioned in my last blog of which I wrote alone, and I actually feel great about it. I'm much more comfortable working independently and I don't take very well to "creative input" that isn't very creative.

I swear, some people couldn't come up with an original idea by themselves if their life depended on it.

The primary individual I was going to collaborate with, along with a mutual friend really aren't the type of individuals I want to spend time around any longer. I'm sure they're both good people in their own way, but as I'm moving forward into a more stable life, I've decided not to continue to spend time with people who are dishonest, who are at consistent risk of falling into negative situations and who are a drain on my energetic resources.

I found an awesome location to shoot the majority of the webisode series however, and for a very low rate as well so I'm quite happy. I have most of the parts cast and I think I should be able to get the entire project produced very inexpensively.

I'm very fortunate to have made it through life to where I am right now. I've had to wade my way through a lot of muck, and have found myself having to sift through the people in my life and separate the genuine from the wastes of space...time and time again....but it's all be worth it. I'm happy.

So I decided to utilize most of my time this weekend to finally fine tune and complete the first few "webisodes" of a series I'm writing for a project I'm collaborating on with a couple of friends.

Writing a true script - especially a comedy with rather dark humor (my sense of humor could probably be equated to that of Larry David and Paul Mooney)- is weird and can actually be a bit uncomfortable. Primarily because (at least in my case) when you write characters, you tend to find yourself slipping into that character's mindset which can leave you feeling a bit unnerved as you allow your own mind to explore how a fictitious character's thought patterns may be.

I'm taking some of these characters I'm writing for this project pretty far when it comes to their dysfunctionality both in their everyday public personas and private personas so I'll probably need to go into seclusion for a while to reset once this production is over.

I'll be surprised if I don't wind up going completely schizophrenic before the end of this venture actually.

I'm actually very excited about shooting this project even though it will be a lot of work and will probably be frustrating for me being that I don't like working with other people very much, because it will be the first video project that I'll get to be primarily "in charge of". I suppose I'm not officially "in charge", but considering that I'm the person on the team who is the most organized and ADD, the role of producer basically falls in my lap by default (hey as long as I can perceive it this way at least, the situation is tolerable for me - luckily the people I'll be working with on this realize this).

After this projects first few installments are shot, I plan on shooting the first scenes of the adult parody that I want to complete by July of this year which will be based on one of my favorite works "Queen of the Damned".

Though I'm moving away from performing as an adult entertainer, I'm definitely someone who was destined to write adult material. It's odd too, because I really don't have sex too often anymore (and that needs to change).

A friend of mine brought over a bottle of Jack Daniels the other night - and I have to say it's been a very helpful tool. I hate to admit it but my best work pours out of me when I drink - I suppose because I allow myself to lower invisible barriers I've built up within my own psyche. I'm finally becoming comfortable enough with who I really am to lower those barrier without a stimulant, but it's still difficult at times.

I've just recently come to realize and have finally begun to accept that I have a certain "psychological twist" when it comes to what I find sexy, so I'm going to have to work that out a bit - I find that the band Muse really helps with that for some odd reason.

Well, back to work - I just wanted to take some time to update this blog. At this stage I really wish I could clone myself - if I could I'd get so much more done so much quicker. Being impatient has always been my fault.

Monica Foster at Home on Kacey Jordan, Charlie Sheen, Melanie Rios and Montana Fishburne

Another new installment of www.MonicaAtHome.com !



Monica Foster discusses her new favorite band Muse, the OhMiBod sex toy her new book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook, the recent interview between Shelley Lubben and Michael Whiteacre and how it touches on a lot of the current politics in porn.
Later in the show Monica touches on the recent accident Kimora Klein was in and how sexy cora passed away.
At the end of the show monica discusses american apparels racey new porn inspired ad campaign and congratulates Tee Reel and Tori black on
their new maintstram project of which Half Moon which will be realeased on DVD.

When you decide to enter porn, you also have to decide how to EXIT porn when (if) you decide to.

I'll go more into detail about this another day, but what I will say is that I'm fortunate to have had a "pre-adult industry" skill set - I can honestly say that it's helped me avoid a lot of depression that I would be experiencing otherwise.

My best advice would be while you're still working in porn - whether it be via being a porn actress, webcam model, stripper, etc - start developing your career (I suggest your own business) in your spare time.

I've found that much of the marketing efforts that I put into developing "Monica Foster" easily translate into the business I'm planning on launching and running. Often times you might even find that your adult industry persona may even ADD to your next business venture or phase of life. For example adult super star "Lupe Fuentes" just launched her own clothing line of which she also models for (click here to check it out).

If you stay positive and maintain a certain level of drive you can accomplish anything in life - no matter what you've done or where you've been. All that really matter at any point is where you are GOING!

Last Friday's www.MonicaAtHome.com broadcast.

My most recent 2 broadcasts of www.MonicaAtHome.com - enjoy :)

Well I'm a solid day into being 32 years old and I feel like a solid "adult"...finally :) I've definitely ridden a full 360 degree upward spiral from 3 years ago.

Through out all the ups and downs (personal and professional), friends made, friends lost, loves found and loves lost I feel I've been given such a wonderful opportunity to really develop as a person (I'm a much better version of who I was prior) and gain a fantastic knowledge as to what's really going on in the world and in our society.

I feel that over the next 8 years I'll be able to create a pretty prosperous, positive and fulfilling life. I don't think it will be easy, but I'm willing to put in the hard work.

I'm afraid this blog will probably begin to become fairly boring now being that Monica Foster will primarily just be my "webcam girl" personality from here on out, but hey - that's who Monica Foster was initially to begin with.

I uploaded 2 new live broadcasts of www.MonicaAtHome.com to http://www.youtube.com/MonicaAtHome

Below is the broadcast from last night, and probably one of my best broadcasts as of late - I've added a new live Call-In / Skype-in feature to the show! My skype ID for the show is "MonicaAtHome01"

I've been waking up very early lately - that's one of my resolutions for 2011 - to wake up early everyday. I'm not sure if waking up early really makes a difference in your quality of life or not, however being that most successful people in life seem to do that one thing, I figure that's a good start in my attempt create a successful personal future.

To those who read my blog - you should feel pretty good about your own lives, because I seriously doubt your lives are anywhere close to being as embarrassing as my own. I'll be 32 in 2 days and though I'm not 100% pessimistic or depressed about my own situation - I'm not exactly feeling like sunshine or rainbows about it.

Another 2011 resolution - not to be living in Los Angeles any longer by the summer. I want to move away from here and simply disappear into another phase of existence. Living here has felt like a lifetime in itself - an exciting one yes but not a fulfilling one.

The final 2011 New Years resolution (and birthday resolution) I'll share with you is that I'm staying away from all situations and people who can bring trouble or uncertain outcomes into my life. By nature I'm a typical "sure footed" Capricorn, but due to my propensity to become bored I've tended to seek out ways to walk on the wild side. Well...no more of that - EVER.

The one good thing about all the events that have led up to my present over the past decade is that I've learned that you can't get anything in life without hard work (at least I can't) and that the only person you can really rely on is yourself.

A while ago I wrote a blog on the French phrase "Force de Frappe" - it's a phrase my Dad familiarized me with. Both of my parents have given me such good advice and knowledge of concepts and the world in general through out my life, much of which I truly didn't understand until much later. I had no idea how much the concept of "Force de Frappe" would play into my life...until now.

For those of you who have been keeping up with me, you all know about the Monica Foster / Lenny Dykstra "scandal"...I'm not so certain it is really a scandal - it's just a situation I never should have gotten myself into - however hindsight is indeed always 20/20.

Since deciding to speak out publicly about the situation I've been on a rollercoaster ride that has taken me into some of the deepest pits of hell and back again (I suppose it's a good thing I'm already familiar with the upper levels of hell).

Last night I nearly lost my sanity due to an internet stalker I've attracted who fixates on pornstars (but who I've fought back against) who is a Dykstra "supporter" along with being someone who really hates when women (especially black women) don't keep their mouth shut.

Force De Frappe...yes - that phrase defines Monica Foster because no, I can't win or triumph over an entire group of people, way of thought, way of life or industry alone - but I can bring to light and damage the ideals of such people, industries and screwed up practices somewhat. I may be rendered depleted in the end, but I will always stand up for myself and defend others when I'm able to and when it's necessary. My birth name Alexandra, means "defender of man" and that tells you everything you could ever need to know about the woman behind Monica Foster.

Let this be a lesson as to what one little single woman alone in her one bedroom apartment at her computer can do in regards to fighting back against many with thousands if not millions of dollars.

A big thank you to RadarOnline.com , DealBreaker.com , BusinessInsider.com , BlogTv.com , Youtube.com , Google.com and my friends at Desire Street Productions.com

The above links are to mainstream news articles about my most recent situation. Shove it up your ass Dykstra and those in the adult entertainment industry who attacked my family because you were too afraid of me.

Don't miss www.MonicaAtHome.com LIVE tonight at 10pm PST on www.blogtv.com

Welcome to 2011 - enjoy my 2010 Monica Foster @ Home wrap up below!

Well for those of you who keep up with the happenings in "Monica Foster Land", you know I've been in the news a bit lately. A part of me feels like "oh shit, should have made a different life choice once again", but another part of me knows that I did the right thing in speaking up, because though I personally am not looking any longer for anything of which I initially felt was owed to me a few days ago, I definitely saved countless women from falling prey to a true predator.

I may wind up with legal issues due to the tactics of which I took to ensure that Dykstra's days of conning escorts are over (or at least more widely known), but I feel that on a universal and spiritual level I quite possibly evened out a karmic embalance for myself and many other women who have taken a path similar to my own.

Since dealing with my current situation, I've found that many people within the adult entertainment circuit will become quite angry if your actions don't fall in line with their agendas. I've been asked to post the bounced check in regards to my current situation online on a certain adult industry forum. Initially I would have if I had a copy in my possession (I have to wait to receive a copy from my bank at this stage - the particular bank I have an account with doesn't provide you with an online scan when you cash it directly with a teller), but after rethinking the situation...absolutely not. I will only be posting my proof on my own venues or via a mainstream news source.

Interestingly since the individuals who moderate that particular forum haven't gotten their way, their true colors have shone through. The mainstream media has labeled me as a "hooker" yes - it's a harsh term but I can deal with it. In contrast however, a few within the porn arena have decided to let their true confederate flag flying nature show (of which I've written about in the past on my blog http://gettingintoporn.blogspot.com) and have called me a "nigger", "black bitch", etc - oh and of course posting various photos of monkeys and labeling them as "Monica Foster" as well (as I've said in the past, if you're a black considering entering porn - please wait till I open my own ethnic content studio before coming out to LA - too many KKK rejects are running loose in porn valley as of current, and much of the ethnic populace here is too intimidated to speak up about it).

People who I thought had similar views to myself (and simple common sense) have turned on me. It's very telling, and disappointing - especially being that it's been revealed to me who really owns and runs the adult industry's most controversial online discussion forum ( yep the one that gives porn stars real names and addresses if they don't follow the owners' agenda of creating a "new world order" in porn).

If this particular forum continues to attack me (as silly and childish as the attacks are) I will provide the name of who really runs it (and it really is not who most people think it is...you'll be as shocked as I was to find out - though in many ways it makes perfect sense)- But then again I may not have to, the 2 individuals who informed me have much more reason to out the names than I do.

LOL.

One thing I've learned over the past year, is that in our society, women like me are consistently silenced and labeled as "dumb", "a loudmouth", "too outspoken", a "man-hater", "a slut", etc. I suppose on some level all of those labels fit, but guess what? I'm just the first major wave of such a woman. I will not back down, I'm not afraid of pain, I will not be silenced, I will continue to live independently, I will continue to set my own price/worth, I will continue to enjoy sex with hot men (of my choosing) and I will not ever give up on my dreams, ambitions or goals.

The most shocking part of having worked in porn and the world of adult entertainment was to learn that it's many of the individuals (specifically certain men) who work behind the scenes who are most threatened by women such as myself. I think mainstream America in actuality is much more prepared and ready to embrace the "type of woman" that I am (because the numbers of women like me are rapidly growing) , then the adult industry, which is who has the real problem with women like me.

The false image the porn industry creates (which in reality is nothing more than a controlled "doll"), which they own and portray as being a "free sexual spirit and self possessed" has been outed as a sham at this stage. Really take a good look at the lives of MANY of the "adult star's" images you see splashed all over adult trade mediums and pranced around at conventions...really LOOK - the facade of success, wealth & security these adult actresses display quite often is totally false and is manufactured by their "keepers" behind the scenes . Porn videos are not the true money maker of the "porn industry" - it's the activity that I'm currently being condemned for that's the true cash cow for many in adult entertainment.

It's the uncontrollable independent women of which the porn industry truly fears and encourages America to fear, because without that fear, the adult entertainment industry wouldn't still be trucking along (though it's currently rolling down the road with at least 2 flat tires).

Actually the adult entertainment industry would make far more in the future and have less of a stigma attached to its female talents using the image of a woman who embodies qualities similar to my own, but it would take a population of women behind the scenes for that to happen. Unforunately these beta males currently running the show aren't going to disappear until they are forced too (or just die off). Why, because they're like drug addicts, and their "drug of choice" is the small population of adult industry actors and actresses of which they currently hold under their thumb (I'll explain more in my next blog).

So all in all though my holiday was tainted by me taking an unforeseen side trip down a path I hadn't imagined I'd ever experience, other elements of my holiday worked out well. I visited with my wonderful mother, sister and nephew. In a couple of months I will make an effort to visit with my father too (we connected via phone this holiday and I shared with him lots of photos and video i took with my phone).

I decided to repaint and decorate my nephews room while visiting. It was hard work but worth it (plus drinking wine while painting is always fun). It's amazing that regardless of what life throws at you, when you reconnect with where you originate from - nothing else seams nearly as important as you may have initially thought it was.

So to conclude, I feel the rest of this year and 2011 will be great! I've learned more in the past 2 years than many learn in a lifetime. Ive sesen so much and done so much...and I'm just getting started....

Don't miss the live broadcast of www.monicaathome.com on December 27th at 10pm pst :)

Sometimes in life we make mistakes. Other times we're simply too trusting. Regardless none of use deserve to be treated like crap by people who believe their better than others or "entitled" to whatever they want because they are or were wealthy.

I'm standing up for myself and other women who have found themselves in my situation in this video.



Never be afraid to speak up and fight back. You messed with the wrong woman Lenny Dykstra!

Well it appears that the person who screwed me over financially either doesn't have enough respect for others to pay me what he owes me, OR he simply doesn't have the money. Regardless I'm going public with this because I'll be damned if this asshole jerk cons any other women.

I invite you all to read http://lenny-dykstra.blogspot.com/

I've kept me mouth shut about many things on many occasions but I will not in regards to this situation and individual. I know I may be possibly incrimnating myself by coming forward and speaking up about what happened on Deceber 13th, 2010 but I have nothing to lose at this point being that my holiday has been ruined.

Be careful of who you fuck over in life people - sometimes the least likely of people will be the ones who rip your head off. No one is more dangerous than someone who has nothing left to lose and now, I'm in debt and have no holiday. Lenny Dykstra - suffer my wrath.

2011 is just around the corner and I'm very excited! I know that this year will be GREAT because I'm going to make it great.

I haven't written a blog in quite some time, mainly due to my other projects being as time consuming as they are - so here's an update.

*My first book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook (which is available on Amazon.com) is doing very well. Simply completing it and managing to put it out there for sale was an accomplishment in itself and a fantastic way to conclude 2010. My next book Getting Into Porn - The Journeys (well, more like the first installment in the series) is nearing completion and I will most likely look into turning it into a screenplay mid 2011.

*My little broadcast www.MonicaAtHome.com is doing well too! I have a few surprises of which I'll be implementing into the show in 2011 so keep watching.

*I'm working on a joint venture with comedians Thomas Ward and Brittany Blaze. I rarely am willing to work with others on much of anything, but these to individuals are so talented, that I feel it would be a huge mistake not to create something wonderful with them.

*This is an odd point to make, but I recently bought some bindis, and will be sporting them this year :)

*I'm in the process of revising my script for the first adult feature/parody I hope to be able to release 7/7/2011. All I need now is the capital to get production rolling.

*On a negative note, someone who I thought initially was trustworthy has attempted to rip me off. I'm pretty upset about this being that it's heavily effected my holiday plans, but I have a feeling that the power of the internet will assist me in getting back what I'm owed. The person only has 24 hours before I name them and they have much more to lose than I.

So that's about it. I feel great and if you check my last www.MonicaAtHome.com broadcast I look great as well :) I'm heading back to Florida for Christmas in a couple of days. It will be nice to see my family, however I will be very glad to get back to California to continue my work, and life.

I've learned quite a bit this year - about myself, about others and about how the world really works. Since learning certain key life elements, I find myself waking up in the morning (or evening - depending upon what sleep schedule I'm on at the time) with a zest for life like I've never had in the past. I actually wish I never had to sleep at times (unless it's with a sexy 21 year old who looks like Justin Timberlake of course) and I'm much more accepting of myself and others who I feel are worth it.

I no longer feel guilt when it comes to telling people who are not worth it to get the fuck out of my life and not to bother me anymore. I had to do yet another "cleaning house" of my social circle recently. I do give people chances, but if they can't (or won't) get it together I will not expend my energy on them any more.

I've come to realize that I'm a "certain type" of woman. As of current I have to define myself as a "Single Swinger" - yea yea, I know that sounds weird, but it's who I am. I wish I'd realized that about myself actually prior to entering the adult entertainment world - but actually when I think about it, maybe the adult entertainment world is what helped me in discovering certain qualities within myself of which I was initially afraid of embracing.

A good friend of mine, Julie Meadows, touches on certain annoying things that anti-porn activist Shelley Lubben preaches - one of those phrases being "You were meant for more than porn". I think that's an interesting statement, because it's all about perspective.

What is "more" than porn? What is "less" than porn?

Another good friend of mine Brittany Blaze brought up an interesting point to me when we were discussing my book on video for her youtube channel. I brought up my thoughts about how I feel you need to enter the porn industry with a financial "cushion" or a bit of money saved in case things don't work out - and she countered with that for many women - entering the porn industry is one of their ONLY options for survival and that is a girl is coming from "the boonies with brown teeth getting fucked in her ass everyday by her dad", that a decent looking guy offering her $1000 to do the same thing is like hitting the lottery for the girl.

I hate to say it, but I agree with Brittany, and if you look closely at a few of the "top" performers in the porn industry - they truly were once the girl the Brittany described (whether they want to admit it or not).

I've come to realize that in life I've been a bit "spoiled". Not in every regard - but due to my background, personal taste, and methodical way of thinking, I've tended to be able to always put myself into situations of which I can walk on the wild side, but have the luxury of experiencing only the mildest aspects of the wild arenas. My life has been difficult in some ways, but really never that bad - I'm quite fortunate.

If I'd known more about acceptably open relationships and lifestyles (but how could I have being that it's more of a west coast thing from what I can observe), I probably never would have done porn. Porn really was just a venue for me to be more of an exibitionist than I already was, fuck a lot (I hadn't fucked much prior to doing porn in all honesty) & lay some ground work to make some money.

I admitted to my Dad in an email recently that I think I require 100 times more attention than most people. I personally don't think anything's wrong with embodying that quality, because we're all different...but one thing I do know now is that due to me needing so much consistent interaction with the opposite sex, at this stage of my life I most likely can't be in a single monogamous relationship (and frankly I DON'T WANT TO BE). I'm reaching my peak psychologically, mentally and sexually as a woman and I feel that I need about 12 boyfriends in order satisfy my needs - in other words a "reverse harem".



12 would be a perfect number of men for me because I could see each 2 to 3 times a month without the relationship with any of them ever growing stale (at least not for about 7 to 8 months). Ideally I'd like to find a group of men of varying ages and ethnicities - however I'd prefer for at least 6 of the men to be around 21 years old and REALLY cute (as I'm approaching 32 years old, I'm starting to understand VERY well why older men date women as young as they can get away with dating - Just call me black Demi Moore).

Yea, it's POSSIBLE there is ONE man out there who has the strength of 12 men (I personally believe it's Theo Theodoridis), but I haven't met him yet.

Well that's about it, I need to get back to work now recruiting for my reverse harem and continuing to progress my other projects. See you on December 27th on www.BlogTV.com/People/MonicaFoster for the next live broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com

Check out my latest broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)

Doesn't my hair look pretty :)

I'm feeling great!

Another new broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)

On this broadcast I discuss the recent closure of AIM by California (Los Angeles) health officials, Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers), my views on adult and mainstream talent agent's responsibilities to who they represent (their clients) and my new book Getting Into Porn - The Handbook which is available on Amazon.com

Well, here's my first "mainstream" role in a short film by director, actor and comedian Thomas Ward of www.Twardcomedy.com

A special Monica Foster @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com) - I share thoughts on Derrick Burts (aka Cameron Reid aka Derrick Chambers) latest stance on condoms being mandatory in porn since he's contracted HIV.

Another new broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)