Diane Duke - Executive Director of the Free
Speech Coalition (FSC) - Is her goal to extort the
public and pervert the minds of children all in the
name of PORN and MONEY? Seems like it.

Update: 1.3.2012 - Donny Long was utilized a a scapegoat for PornWikiLeaks. Click here for the truth.
On July 21, 2010 I wrote a blog entitled PornWikiLeaks 2.0 could happen including the names of pornstars AND porn VIEWERS. I was right (I hate being so darned accurate about the future of porn at times).

Porn companies and those with interest in the porn industry such as the FSC (Free Speech Coalition) over the past few months in the USAhave kept their attorneys busy filing lawsuits to "stop pirating" - but not against the file sharing sites (many of which the porn studios actually own). Instead against the end users who download the content. These lawsuits of course are all intended to be "settled" .

In the US, lawyers have issued tens of thousands of letters of demand to people accused of illegally downloading explicit content in the past year. Typically, these letters suggest that if the case were to go to court, the alleged downloader could, if found guilty, face fines of up to $150,000, plus costs.

Alternatively, they are told, the case could be settled immediately for a small fee, generally just a few thousand dollars. Many pay up rather than face the possible expense and humiliation of a court case. A similar approach has also been used with some success in Britain.

One of the primary attorneys handling these lawsuits in the US (Los Angeles - Porn Valley) ironically is Michael Fattorosi - the EXACT same attorney who advised Donny Long and other operators of the PornWikiLeaks website which terrorized, harassed, stalked and released the personal information of countless adult industry performers and professionals.

Looking back at the pornwikileaks issue - I still believe that it's intent may have been to eradicate adult performer's anonymity simply so lawyers representing porn studios would have justification in exposing the personal info of the end users the porn studios were planning to sue later if the user chose NOT to settle out of court.

Apparently this "extortion" trend the financially broken porn industry has begun to utilize just hit Australia. An Australian company trying to sue people for illegally downloading Hollywood movie Kill the Irishman has extensive links to internet pornography, raising suspicions that the legal action may in fact be a stalking horse for a larger assault on behalf of the porn industry.

As reported by Fairfax this month, Brisbane law firm Lloyds Solicitors, acting on behalf of the Gold Coast-based Movie Rights Group, has written to internet service providers including Telstra, iiNet, Internode and Exetel seeking the details of thousands of people alleged to have illegally downloaded the crime thriller Kill the Irishman in May.

An investigation by Fairfax has since revealed that the New Zealand-born brothers behind Movie Rights Group (Matthew Clapham and Richard Clapham) are major players in the internet porn industry, raising the possibility that their real motive is to sue thousands of Australians who have downloaded porn without paying for it.

Read more: http://www.theage.com.au/technology/technology-news/porn-link-tipped-in-net-piracy-case-20111017-1ltex.html#ixzz1b5XieOib

Richard Clapham

What I find interesting about this situation is that an organization here in the United States called the Free Speech Coalition (the FSC) while in support of these anti-piracy tactics (at one point in time Michael Fattorosi attempted to be a board member on the FSC), is AGAINST the implementation of the .XXX extension which would help to protect children from accessing porn online AND has gone as far as to grant membership to the FSC and support pornographers who depict children having sex in adult content.

Matthew Clapham

Amazing how completely disrespectful the so called "professionals" in and attached to the porn industry are in regards to the public. Porn professionals virtually invade your home, tempt you with "free" downloads, pervert your children, and then extort you later under the threat of humiliation.

Porn fans, you're far better off dealing with a LIVE and INDEPENDENT webcam girl in my opinion than bothering to support the unethical con-artists and extortionists which make up the traditional "porn industry".

opinion / editorial by Monica Foster

Having fun and laughing more while beetles stop by and say hi (from www.AlexandraMayers.com)

As I move forward through life (as if I or anyone else really has a choice - I still haven't seen any time machines on Yahoo shopping) I'm finding far more things comedic and entertaining than I used to.

I laugh at myself much more. I also find my negative feelings in regards to events and people from my past funny now days - primarily due to my realization of having placed far too much importance on things that really don't matter when it comes to the "big picture" of life.

This is an interesting phase to reside in.

Maybe I'm reaching true happiness. Who knows...at least I'm smiling more and am having some fun.

The only thing missing is a partner to be happy and have fun with.

From the Animal Totem Dictionary...
Although there is naturally a great attraction to spiritual matters, June Bug/Beetle will show how to balance and remain grounded. His wisdom teaches to navigate what is hidden in the sub/unconscious realms. Pay attention to nocturnal activities: dream time, journeys, and moments of waking, along with meditational impressions. Expect emotions to come to the surface as well as being emotionally tested in order to clean and clear the way for new and better things. Mental, spiritual, emotional movement appears in sets of 3.

Pay attention to synchronicities. He demonstrates exterior strength and fortitude and the use of a tough outer shell when needed. June Bug/Beetle demonstrates a higher intuition connection and a keen sense of discernment in all areas. He will show how to dig for answers to reveal the truths you need. He shows how to move with a sharp sense of timing. His medicine represents opportunities to recycle, reinvent and repurpose what you have, know, think and act. This self-reinvention may include participating in larger groups to expand knowledge and awareness. A balanced diet includes plenty of fruits, vegetables and grains. May or June is a significant indicator of events. The time period for June Bug/Beetle has various stages. Take notice of circumstances, dreams, wishes and encounters that may happen within the next two to five days. In 3 to 4 weeks lessons will be coming to swift manifestation. Be ready. In the last two to three years, have you been inspired to do something, have unfinished projects or endeavors that have been delayed? He will show how to progress forward as it is time to emerge.

The cause for .XXX domains gained ground today due to the Sesame Street porn incident. 
(from http://gettingintoporn.blogspot.com)

On October 16th, 2011 some idiot decided it would be fun to add porn clips to the Sesame Street youtube channel (click here to read about it on Cnet.com). I suppose it's not enough to add adult rated content to video games that teenagers have access too. Certain people are out to PERVERT the minds of children as well (I've been saying for a while now that quite a few porn industry "professionals" have an abnormal fixation with the merger of SEX and CHILDREN and keep trying to depict child themed situations in their porn movies - porn director Will Ryder sure did in that damn Not The Cosbys XXX 2 movie. )

Fortunately the operators of the Sesame Street youtube channel caught the incident within 22 mins of the clips being posted - however the channel did become unavailable.

In my view, this incident most likely will assist in the .XXX domain coming into effect and shortly being MANDATORY for all adult content to be placed under. Certain "porn professionals" have bitched and moaned about the cost of the domains, but perhaps that's PUNISHMENT for the lack of professionalism and responsibility the porn industry has displayed over the past decade.

The availability of adult material to youngsters is reaching a level of being out of control, and since a centralized internal regulation system which should monitor, control and account for such incidents and individuals is not in place - the government most likely will have to step in and create new laws.

When an internal system doesn't exist or fails, and external system will step in. Either conform or DEFECT (in other words get the fuck out the USA you unprofessional porn industry DEGENERATES)

Porn Wiki Leaks and projects of the like are a form of Gang Stalking.

If you are or were a victim of the Pornwikileaks project (or something similar) and are seeking understanding - I strongly advise you visit:

http://www.targetedindividuals.com

Also watch the following video (and it's associated part 2, 3, etc):

Also click the following link for resources on youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=Countermeasures+for+Gang+Stalking&aq=f

My latest art piece entitled "Remembering" is available online for purchase on:

www.Etsy.com/shop/AlexandraMayers

Get a webcam show from me this week! I'm going to try to be online 24/7 !(yea, we'll see how that works out - LOL)


I've noticed a few commenters on certain adult blogs and forums having issue with my continuing to discuss the adult entertainment industry (along with my continuation to work within it independently) since my departure from the Los Angeles porn circuit. 
To those people, I have the following thought to share:

You can’t abort a baby once it’s born.


You can ask your brother or parents to raise it and never let that baby know you’re the parent, yes. You can put it up for adoption – sure. You can put it in the garbage even.


The thing is no matter what you do, that baby still will be around and still will be a part of you and still have your traits. You’ll ALWAYS be aware of it and that’s simply the punishment and burden you can’t avoid in such a situation.


Even if you KILL THE BABY, that baby still was there at one point and you’ll never forget it, and more than likely someone else will remember that at one point you were indeed pregnant with it and if that baby isn’t around after 9 months – questions will be asked.


The best thing to do with an unwanted baby – especially if you don’t want that baby to grow up, seek you out and turn on you once it realizes how much it was unwanted – is to ensure that baby is taken care of in the BEST way possible and that it’s allowed to grow and develop in such a healthy and happy fashion that you, the irresponsible selfish and incapable parent almost NEVER cross the mind of that (now grown) individual.


It’s also a great idea to stay as far away from that baby as possible once it becomes an adult being that you didn’t have the nerve to kill it when you could.


That baby deserves to live their life in ANY WAY THEY WANT – and most likely since that baby carries your genes – some things they do in life may be similar to things you’ve done…BUT that baby has someone else’s genes too, so they’re not exactly LIKE you and most likely are better and stronger than you being that they survived your rejection. I suppose that’s just how evolution works…


So to conclude, remember – you gave that baby up so you no longer have any right to dictate what that baby does or how that baby lives. My suggestion, is to always use birth control in the future so you don’t have to deal with such pain ever again.

Monica Foster on Dollhouse Radio - hosted by Sexy India

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As of today, I've come to the conclusion that it's time that I forgive Donny Long aka Donald Carlos Seoane - an ex pornstar , porn director and studio owner who was heavily involved in the Pornwikileaks project.

From December of 2010 to the present date, I've learned much more than I ever cared to about each and every individual who was involved in the Pornwikileaks project ; along with those who claimed to be against it, but in actuality stood to gain much from it's presence and closure.

I will never forget Donald's actions, however I do forgive him. I wish he and his family the best and I hope he in time is able to be a good father to his child.

Update: 1.3.2012 - Donny Long was utilized a a scapegoat for PornWikiLeaks. Click here for the truth.

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My final thoughts (for now at least) on the

Daisy Dare vs. MarcFromTheDark situation.

I'm glad I'm not the judge of "Pornstar Court"
Click the above link to read my thoughts - I made a separate page for my thoughts considering
how lengthy they are (as usual).

Monica Foster of MonicaAtHome.com, interviews pornstar Tucker Slain in effort to gets to the root of some recent issues within the porn and adult entertainment industry.
This video piece begins with footage of the Tucker Slain / Daisy Dare / Kenny webshows (footage provided by Marc / MarcFromTheDark ). Monica then interviews Tucker and he relates his experiences, thoughts and observations in regards to the very serious MarcFromTheDark vs Daisy Dare allegations (links can be found on MonicaAtHome.com )

Then Tucker Slain goes on to share his experiences and thoughts with pornstars Chad Diamond, Alana Evans and her husband Chris, Grace Evangeline, Beverly Paige, Scarlett Fey, Kendra Secrets, ChristianXXX, and the late Hunter Bryce.

Tucker Slain discusses his involvement with the August 2011 HIV case in the porn industry of which initially a performer allegedly tested positive, but has since tested negative.

Tucker also shares how he hopes that porn legend Tabitha Stevens does not believe what Alana Evans has been stating in regards to him, as he greatly admires and hopes to someday work with Tabitha.
Tucker Slain explains how his goal is not to be a pornstar - but rather a musician in time, however while he is in porn he will strive to be as professional and considerate as possible being that he loves being a part of the industry not just as a performer, but as a webcam model, entrepreneur and driver for performers without vehicles.

(side note: I have additional "Tucker Slain thoughts" that I will be editing together in the future in another video. Due to this video already being very long I had to leave them out).

Part 1


Part2

1-2-3-4 do I detect a twitter war? Maybe it should be more like 1-2-3-4- I declare a pimp war!

Recently a young lady who decided to take the plunge into the Los Angeles adult entertainment ( porn ) industry wrote a rather disturbing email / manifesto to a friend of mine who runs www.TheRealPornWikiLeaks.com. Daisy made several very serious allegations against a man by the name of Marc Drescher who whom brought her out to Los Angeles and who she worked with upon arrival.

Though I had the chance to speak with Daisy and set up an interview to get more details from her side of the situation, I have was notified at the scheduled time of the interview without prior notice that she now has legal council and has been advised not to do interviews.

I was contacted shortly after by Marc Drescher who wanted to share his side of the situation so the same day of Daisy's canceled interview, I interviewed him. Please watch parts 1 through 3 of this interview set featuring Marc Drescher (@markfromthedark), Britany Blaze (@Brittany_Blaze), Amanda Blow (@Amandablow), and last but not least Tucker Slain (@tuckerslain ). All individuals share their thoughts and perspectives on what is a rare look at a rather common situation in the adult entertainment sphere.

This particular situation is a rather dramatic one - however I personally feel all parties of whom I've spoken with are incredibly talented and intelligent individuals ( though they've taken an unconventional road in life ) and have been sincere.

Links:

Daisy Dare 's initial post / manifesto on TheRealPornWikiLeaks.com

Marc Drescher 's official website: www.MarcFromTheDark.com

Marc on Youtube.com

AdultTalentRegistry.com

AdultTalentRegistry on Youtube.com
Brittany Blaze 's official website

Amanda Blow's blog

Brittany Blaze and Amanda Blow on Youtube.com

Daisy Dare on Twitter

TuckerSlain on Twitter

Information on the Porn Industry - www.GettingIntoPorn.com and http://GettingIntoPorn.blogspot.com

Just added my latest painting to my Etsy.com online art shop.  If you'd like to own a piece of me feel free to purchase it by clicking here.

"Nerfertiti sees Jina in Akhenaten and likes it"

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For those of you interested in purchasing my art, you can do so on my Etsy.com online store: http://www.etsy.com/shop/AlexandraMayers 

(under my real name obviously).

I uploaded my first piece "Interdimensional Fertilization" tonight.

I'm still on Summer hiatus but I couldn't resist doing this Skype Interview with Misti Dawn of www.MeowMistiDawn.com





On this Interview Edition of Monica Foster at Home, I interview the incredibly intelligent and creative pornstar, model, and self described nerd Misti Dawn of www.MeowMistiDawn.com

This interview covers Misti's introduction to the adult entertainment world, her thoughts and experiences as a pornstar, some mainstream projects she's been a part of, the history and meaning behind her tattoos, along with how she's stayed true to who she is rather than allowing herself to be "remade" by the porn industry.

Misti shares her point of view in regards to an issue she had with Burning Angel ( Joanna Angel and Michael Fattorosi specifically ) and tells why she's since parted ways with the company.

Misti Dawn relates how much she enjoyed working with Belladonna and appreciates her performance style and shares what her ideal project would be to produce.

Misti explains how her technological background has assisted with her continuing to market herself independently and shares news on her upcoming independent and joint projects with other studios.

Misti finally shares how her video game (gamer girl) skills just landed her a new role in an upcoming feature from New Sensations.

On break from this blog, but I'll be back around September.

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Monica Foster interviews Digital Playground's newest and youngest contract girl and porn superstar on the rise, Bibi Jones.
Monica Foster and Bibi discuss her career, her interests, the adult entertainment industry and what you can expect from her in the near and far future!

A new broadcast of Monica Foster at Home.



Monica Foster shares some information which has been reported by Mike South of www.mikesouth.com on who has been found to be involved with the Pornwikileaks project. Monica also gives an update on Kacey Jordan aka Courtney Nicole.
Monica shares how she feels Misty Stone has a talent that reaches beyond the porn arena and shares her views on how she wishes more African American performers would make it known what they're up to career wise.
Lastly Monica shares her thoughts on Digital Playground's newest contract performer Bibi Jones and shares some information in regards to some online attacks she's dealt with, which were reported to her by Bibi's friend @MichaelLetts (as he's known on Twitter)

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I was invited to do an interview this afternoon for The Static Hour on Blogtalkradio.com - it was fun :)

Please view my latest update on how I've noticed Mallcom Inc / Jerry Aharony may be profiting from the Pornwikileaks venture which has terrorized myself, family and countless others.

Though I have much more certainty and clarity as to where I can go with my future from here, I've continued to have a rough time emotionally as of late due to the consistent harassment from those who operate the Pornwikileaks project (my stress and anxiety is off the charts and I still am in fear for my safety and life).

I have to say I'm very disappointed in much of humanity (especially people I considered my friends, aquaintences and peers) being that I've had very little assistance and support through this rather dark period of my life, but I suppose it's a lesson learned. Those who have been there for me - I will always consider true friends and I'm very grateful for their presence.

Today I had a bit of a bright spot - someone, who I've never met in person who attacked me apologized.

Here is the link to the video apology: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fTe7QfKX-HI

I'm really surprised by this turn around, and I'm also very impressed. This guy showed a lot of strength and thoughtfulness. In this situation and at this time of my life I really needed such a peace offering.

On this installment of Monica Foster at Home , I discuss the most recent news in the adult entertainment (porn) industry - specifically Cal-OSHA's decision to implement a condom mandate (condoms are now required for sexual intercourse within porn industry ).

I also discuss the currently known details in regards to Kacey Jordan and her alleged rape and departure from twitter. I go over how her entrance, exit and thought process while working within the adult entertainment industry (porn and escorting) is not an uncommon one and how I feel many young men and women are conditioned by the media (adult and mainstream) into having unrealistic expectations in the "real world" - and how the porn industry (and entertainment in general) readily exploits young individuals who are naive and harbor far too much trust in people who are essentially predators.

I inserted Kacey Jordan's final twitter videos and photos of the bloody bedsheets of her alleged rape (which happened in the Aria Hotel in Las Vegas) into this broadcast (courtesy of her twitvid and twitpic accounts).

Towards the end of the broadcast I discuss how though I'm glad safer sex practices are being implemented into the porn industry, I fear for countless young men and women who will be lured out of the country to work in over-seas porn markets (where condoms are not mandatory and few things are regulated at all in regards to sex workers). I discuss the link between human trafficking and porn and provide tips and warning signs as to how to keep your friends, family and loved ones safe from falling unwittingly into a world that they may not be prepared for.

I also note the currently missing Lauren Spierer and how often women with her appearance and stats who go missing wind up either trafficked out of the country or in the domestic sex industry without anyone noticing.

Yesterday was a good day in Monica Foster Land.

As many of you who keep up with me are aware of - there has been a lot of debate and discussion within the adult entertainment and California legal/political arena as to whether or not condoms should be mandatory in the porn industry. Many of you know my views on the matter and FINALLY yesterday a conclusion (it may not be a permanent conclusion - but at least it is for now) was reached...read about it here:

Cal/OSHA advisors’ last public meeting on the adult film condoms issue

Mike South's take on the Cal-OSHA meeting

Yesterday's events, along with getting the chance to see an old friend of which I hadn't touched base with in a while, provided me with substantial conclusion and closure in regards to the past 3 years.

At this phase I feel very confident in moving forward in life, and I also feel that I'll receive a chance to regain certain opportunities and elements within my life of which I both lost and of which were essentially stolen from me.

At this point I have many enemies due to my choosing retaliation and retribution over "shutting up and walking away" - however I don't care, because throughout this journey I've learned not only that I have more strength than I was aware of, but that I'm a much better fighter than I'd ever imagined.

I've never been one to follow - I've also never been one to compromise. I'm an idealist (and can be a tad extreme in my views), however I'm always genuine and I speak and write from the heart (and of the truth as I know it).

At this phase I have a renewed sense of purpose and energy. I'm putting all of my time and energy into my uncompleted projects - mainly the character development of the many "off shoots" of "Monica Foster" - I hope that those of you who follow me, enjoy what I'll be manifesting between now and the end of the year.

I'll always look back at this stage of my life and remember that if you truly believe that something can happen, it will. I've learned that listening to yourself is the best option, because the Kingdom of God truly is within us all as both a united people and as individuals.

In the beginning of this installment of Monica Foster at Home, Monica shares another religious experience she had this morning in regards to God requesting that she return to the porn industry as a Christian adult actress / pornstar. Though she doesn't completely understand why God has prompted her to do this she doesn't question the path that she feels is set for her.

Later in the broadcast Monica Foster discusses today's press conference on CNN which featured Andrew Breitbart and Anthony Weiner. Monica shares her views as to why she feels the entire "scandal" was a minor issue which was blown out of proportion and questions why Breitbart took the actions against Weiner of which he did.

added note: Lenny Dykstra was arrested and jailed today :) Click here to read about it on the New York Times - karma is a bitch.....

Didn't expect to do a Monica Foster @ Home yesterday - but it was necessary.



Monica Foster gives a special report on some information Michael Whiteacre (producer of The Devil and Shelley Lubben) has recently brought to light on anti-porn Christian activist Shelley Lubben of the Pink Cross.
Monica shares her frustration in regards to the pro porn / anti-porn debate and relates how at this stage she is on neither side due to dealing with as much "Christian" harassment as she has porn industry harassment.
Monica speaks about how neither pro porn or anti-porn groups seem to get the point that they are 2 sides of the same coin which has serious flaws on each side.
At the end of the broadcast Monica Foster does a prayer / meditation session in effort for all the truths to finally come to light in relation to these issues and the people involved.

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It's amazing how adversity and hardship can really ignite your creative juices...

A new friend of mine asked me recently what would be a good way to make some extra money - I thought that was an odd question coming from her (her name is Michelle by the way) considering that she's a woman of such high stature, but she explained to me that times are tough for EVERYONE right now.

I explained to Michelle that my field of expertise is VERY limited - all I really know how to do is webcam, write, create blogs and websites, create graphics, take awesome photographs, edit video and build computers. I suggested that maybe Michelle should start some sort of online broadcast about something along the lines of fashion or being a mom on the go and that I could help her with it, but to my surprise she wanted to try out being a sexy webcam model!

Well - I decided to let Michelle take over my account on Streamate from time to time on
http://monicafoster.cammodels.com

I also set her up with a nice starter blog on


http://MichelleOxxx.blogspot.com

You can also catch her on twitter.com/MichelleOxxx - Who knows what she'll do from there...

***Update*** 

Decided in July not to do an adult parody/character of Michelle Obama - reserving it for something non-adult industry. The real Michelle Obama deserves something better than this.

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So the harassment continues from the losers behind pornwikileaks. This is the email that was sent through the contact form of my building's website to my apartment manager - at least now I have someone local who can vouch for this crap from these psychotic people.
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Hi ****

Here is a copy of the email we received. It came from the 'Contact Us' form from the building website.
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From: MF (note how they inserted my email in the from field)
Subject: Franklin Park Apartments
To: (removed)
Date: Thursday, May 26, 2011, 12:35 PM

Below is the result of your feedback form. It was submitted by
MF (MonicaF001@yahoo.com) on Thursday, May 26, 2011 at 15:35:07

Message: we have reason to believe (twitter comments) that *** in unit 118 is keeping several pets (birds, etc) in the apartment without paying the pet deposit of $250. she has just acquired a white dove and has tweeted several pictures of the animal.

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I hate linking to their stupid site, but here's the thread link on PWL that initiated this: http://www.pornwikileaks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=69231


You've Got to be kidding me - God sends me a dove (Phillip) and I took care of it and then released it. I have one little dog and another bird (a love bird) which my apartment manager has known about since I've lived in this building (since July of 2008). Luckily I live in a building with really good people who know what I've been dealing with since exiting the porn industry and speaking out.

When I think of all the stress, anxiety, pain and anguish that this has caused me and others - I want to scream but God is watching.

When I first recorded this and reviewed it I thought that this broadcast was a bit - well for lack of better terms "out of the realm of understanding" for most - but though it is edited - it's actually not and it's exactly how I feel. Enjoy - and to my enemies - you made a huge mistake tonight.




After you watch this I suggest you get to know someone who affirmed to me that I'm fine being exactly as I am : Shirley MacLaine - here is a recent interview with her on Coast To Coast AM - it is excellent! Click here to listen (you probably have to be a member of the site to listen).

There's something I feel the need to address tonight in written form - especially considering the content of my most recent broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com

The issue tonight I will be addressing is rape. Lately I've been having recurring nightmares about this incident again - so I feel that God is telling me that it's time for me to share this.

New Years Eve (2008 into 2009) I was raped in a bathroom of a loft/condo off Hollywood and Vine by a man by the name of Chase. I pushed this incident into the back of my mind and never blogged about it here (there are actually MANY things I have not blogged about here out of fear, and out of the selfishness of wanting to build a long term career for myself within the porn industry), but I am today.

I was invited out by Scott David of X-play / All Media Play to a party at Ecco Lounge - where I had a really good time. Then afterwards we went to an afterparty at the residence of a guy by the name of Robert Quinn in a beautiful loft/condo building off Hollywood and Vine. I wound up getting drunk - incredibly intoxicated in fact that night and wound up talking to a guy by the name of Chase in the bathroom. He seemed nice, friendly, etc - and I let my guard down being that he was a black guy (I've never had any black / African American males be aggressive with me in life - at least not up until that point).

Chase was talking about his son, and showed me a photo of his son from his wallet - and I told him that I thought he had a cute kid. Then he asked me if I did privates. He specifically used the term "privates" (meaning escorting/prostitution). I told him that I was working as a porn actress currently. Not even 5 seconds later Chase had me on the floor and raped me. I didn't know what to do because I'd never been pinned down like that before. It only took about a minute and I went into a mental shock/black out mode - I didn't know what to think, how to react or even what to do. When he got off of me, I got up, left the bathroom, tried to act normal and told Scott David what happened.

Scott became really angry and attempted to fight Chase - I yelled at Scott to stop (because I just wanted to get out of there asap) and we left the party.

After that night I didn't want to think about the event and I pushed it to the back of my mind. I know now thinking back that I should have gone to the police and to the hospital but I didn't and I'll tell you why. Shame - I knew that in the eyes of the law and in the eyes of anyone (in my view at the time) I would be seen in a negative light - especially being that I had sex for living as a "pornstar". I didn't want the issue to come up in the relationship I was in at the time, and I didn't want it to get around in the "porn industry" that I wasn't easy going. I wanted to just let the whole thing go.

In time I started having nightmares about the incident. I contacted Jeff Mullen / Will Ryder and asked him for Chase's number (I wasn't sure whether his name was Chase or Chance). He gave it to me and I called Chase and screamed at him and told him he'd better not ever do anything along the lines of what he did to me to anyone else ever again - then I hung up the phone. He called me back but I didn't answer the phone. That was a pointless thing to do, but it's all I had the courage to do at the time.

Chase is a piece of shit with a mentality the unfortunately isn't too uncommon for jerks like himself who are on the fringes of the porn industry. I'm not sure exactly how or why Chase was at that party, I don't think he works for any porn studios (at least I'd never seen him on any of the sets I'd worked on before) but he somehow tight with Jeff Mullen and his friend Robert Quinn. Men like Chase figure that simply because a woman does porn, it's OK to be sexual with her anytime anyplace whether she likes it or not. I truly wonder how many other women Chase has done this to who felt like I did at the time - ashamed and afraid.

It's most likely to late to do anything about the incident now, but I would like to track this fucker Chase down and at least file a formal complaint against him of some sort - so I'm going to investigate how to do so. It sickens me that men in the porn industry such as Jeff Mullen and several others maintain friendships with men like Chase who feel that it's OK to violate a woman's body and space.

As my reaffirmed relationship with God and Jesus Christ grows and strengthens, and I as develop more internal strength and courage, and as my mind clears of the poisonous energy I picked up through my interactions with certain individuals within the porn industry - I'm realizing that it's imperative that I share my experiences and tell the truth about the events I witnessed and the situations I was in over the past few years - because it might save other young women and men from suffering the same fate as myself.

Tonight when I tweeted via twitter that I'm actively searching for the contact info of this Chase jerk so I can at least try to file some sort of legal complaint against him - Jeff Mullen immediately sent me text messages stating that I am a "liar" and that he's "disappointed in me" and that "he's one of the good guys" and that I'm being "unChristian".


I decided to post photos of the texts I received tonight because I'm sick of people calling me a liar nowdays when I am being honest, telling the truth and not holding back (which I feel is nearly killing me).

I strongly advise that if you're considering entering porn, or if you currently are a porn talent (or even if you are not in porn) DO NOT work with X-Play / All Media Play because apparently Jeff Mullen not only attempts to portray depictions of children having sex in his movies as I outline in this youtube video here - he also maintains friendships with men who think it's OK to sexually attack women just because they may be sex workers to begin with.

I suppose this is what happens when you just can't live a lie and withhold the truth anymore. Tonight I'm just going to pray to God and Jesus Christ my lord and savior that things in my life will work out however it is that God has planned for me. I have to retain faith. I feel like I'm being attacked from all directions at this phase, but I truly believe that God is standing with me, and I know for a fact that nothing and no one can triumph over God.

I'm documenting all of this because I feel like there needs to be a record incase someone out there decides to attempt to hurt me. I'm not overly afraid, but I am aware.

***Update 1: I found out tonight from someone on twitter ( @xxxVIP ) that "he answers to Black Shrek. He shows up late to parties to scrounge for rufee'd porn girls." - hopefully law enforcement or someone will be able to put a stop to not only Chase - but this trend in the porn / adult entertainment industry.

****Update 2: I found out that Chase uses the last name Styles or Stylez and DEFINITELY answers to "Black Shrek"

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It's not even 12pm here but it's been quite a long day already. I had the opportunity to attend and speak at an LA City Council meeting this morning - quite the anxiety filled experience (I have no problem chit chatting with hundreds of people live online - but offline...that's another story...I'm shy) - but at the same time a much needed experience. I'll detail it all later. For now enjoy last night's broadcast of Monica Foster @ Home.






In the beginning of the broadcast, I share my thoughts on Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross and the lack of balance between pro-porn and anti-porn groups. I address why I was an active participant in Not the Cosbys XXX 1 and 2 though I disagree with the character of "Rudy" played by Nina Devon which I feel depicts the sexualized image of a child.

I go over why watching adult content can lead a person to a false view of the type of partner they feel they should be with and unrealistic expectations of standards of beauty. I also touch on why I feel older men (especially those who work in the porn industry) are as obsessed with young women as they are, which I feel is due to their stunted unhealthy psychological state - a part of the reason as to why the porn industry is consistently active in recruiting women as young as possible (for both adult content AND for the men who work behind the scenes who are addicted to sex).
I give a live prayer session with my live viewers and pray for those affected by the Pornwikileaks issue.

Later in PART 2 of the broadcast I discuss the shady recruitment methods of porn industry "professionals" via social networking sites and possible extortion tactics within the porn and adult entertainment industry that people (espcially youngsters) should be aware of.

This week's broadcast of Monica @ Home (www.MonicaAtHome.com)

Part 1


Part 2



On this particular broadcast of Monica @ Home I discuss my faith in God being reaffirmed, AIM (the primary STD testing facility for porn talents - www.aim-med.org) shutting down which has left the current active talent in a very dangerous situation without a primary STD testing facility (and verifiable database) along with an aspect of the porn industry that has been bothering me for quite some time: the depiction of children in adult content (which is against the law according to chapter 110 sections B and C of title 18 of the United States code which governs Child Pornography).

The evening of April 29th, 2011 after attending the Free Speech Coalition meeting (which I had a hell of a time making it to) and grabbing some dinner, a new friend decided to come and stay with me for a while. He appeared on my patio wall and wasn't in the mood to fly away, so I brought him in.


Phillip

God speaks to us in interesting ways.

Dove, Pigeon, Power Animal, Symbol of Peace, Love, Maternity, Gentleness, Spirit Messenger

Arrest Of Jesus
Possible proof that a law in regards to Child Pornography has been broken in Not the Cosbys XXX 2
(read the comments)

For some of you out there who keep up with me, it's no secret that I've been experiencing some extreme depression from having to deal with the Pornwikileaks venture that certain "anonymous" individuals have decided to maintain and expand.

The venture has made myself, my family and countless others a target for quite a few angry, disgruntled and potentially dangerous individuals. Tuesday night, I was finally pushed over the edge after receiving a slew of hate filled messages online. I seriously contemplated ending my time here in this world.

I know even contemplating such an action is viewed as foolish and selfish by many, however my mindset at the time was in a place that it's never been before, due to my feeling that there may be no solution to the pain and trouble I've caused for those that I care for. At that moment I felt those I care for may be better off if I wasn't here.

Obviously I'm writing this, so I'm still here and I'm in a better mental place now with the help of a couple close friends who reached out to me after I tweeted my feelings that evening. I'm beyond grateful to these individuals - however I'm not ashamed of having felt as I did, because I'm only a human being and I can't retain strength and optimism indefinitely. I'm tough but I'm a sensitive creative artist at my core and the stalking and bullying has caused me to feel I've lost the one thing I had left - my pride.

The many actions people can take against others in our society that fall within the "loop holes" of the law really frustrate me. It's come to my knowledge that there ARE people who could have spoken up and put a stop to the PornWikileaks venture - but have not. Why? Probably due to fear or due to potential financial gain from the venture succeeding. Practices such as psychological warfare need to be evaluated by our society and there needs to be laws implemented to protect individuals from such tactics dished out by those with the know how to do so. Maybe in time that will happen - but then again maybe it won't.

In my view, anyone who KNOWS who has created and maintains Pornwikileaks but fails to speak up to stop the endangerment of countless people's lives, in my view is just as guilty as those who own/run the site. The truth always comes out and often when traditional justice does not prevail other forms do.

What people don't realize about "porn" and the issues affecting the "porn industry" as of current, is that there is a lot of money at stake, along with many people's freedom being at stake. I've come to realize that I'm viewed as a very dangerous person by many who want to unjustly retain their financial status and freedom due to what I've seen, where I've been and what I know.

I feel the "wiki" (that I suspect a fictitious and/or anonymous adult industry blogger who uses the pen name "Darrah Ford" wrote) was a warning shot to me that basically says "shut up and/or do as we say or we will hurt you and/or your family because we know where you and they live". I think most people would be both frightened and depressed if they had to deal with this classic Mafia style threat. I do not and will not cave to these threats however - what I've said and written over the years has been exactly what I thought or felt at that moment. Yes, my feelings and views have altered as I've evolved and continued to experience life, however I WILL NOT take back anything I've written or said that I currently BELIEVE IN.

Again I feel like I'm in a better, more healthy and stronger place emotionally now - today. It's difficult being that I have no immediate or extended family on this side of the country, don't have a boyfriend or husband or children and have very few close friends to lean on. By nature I don't like to lean on anyone which is probably a positive in many situations but probably a negative in this one. Come to think of it maybe that's why I've been used as an example by those behind PornWikiLeaks - they figured I'd back down due to lack of support.

Regardless I felt the need to share this part of my life with you all. I want many of you reading this out there to know that YES you should stand up for what you feel is right, speak out and try your best to facilitate changes when you can - HOWEVER I want you to know that it's a very hard and dangerous road to take - Malcolm X and Martin Luther King are good examples of this.

I know I still haven't released the first installment of my next book "Getting Into Porn - The Journeys" yet, but I will soon and I hope many of you read it (I will be setting it at a very very very low price) because it may be one of the only true accounts as to what dealing with people who view humans as no more than merchandise and sex toys really are like.

I'm still not anti-porn - but I am anti-porn industry until people with souls and a sense of responsibility toward their fellow man can take the reigns of this "porn industry" again.

Too many individuals in the porn industry as of current are OUT OF CONTROL in my view - especially when it comes to the current promotion of adult niches that in my view are making pedophilia and incest appear "normal". That shit is NOT NORMAL and it's not right that our youth that stumbles upon free tube sites are being indoctrinated into the sick dream worlds of people who could NEVER maintain a healthy relationship or life in mainstream society.

Well that's enough for today - thanks for reading and keeping up with me still after all this time.

No regrets - just amazement as to how an industry that can seem so "free" in actuality is a venue to enslave.

I found this video on youtube recently. Many of you know what I've been dealing with in regards to the PornWikiLeaks website. I'm glad that others outside of the adult entertainment world have come to realize that such a site isn't just dangerous and breaking several laws - it's a hate crime as well.

Those who have had knowledge of who is running this website but have said nothing are just as guilty in this situation as those who created and operate that website as far as I'm concerned.

Another fresh installment of Monica @ Home (04/01/2011)

Well it's been a while since I've last posted...life has taken a different pace as of late, however since I know you took the time to subscribe or check in, here's an update:

Everything is mellow and fantastic and that about sums it up! I made it through a brief nutritional detox program I put myself on and it was totally worth it - both my body and spirit feel much more energized. I'm going to make a solid effort to eat much better than I have in the past.

In other news, my websites are doing well, my book is selling steadily and I'm finally completing some projects I've had on the bench for a while. I'll admit, the woman who created "Monica Foster" has taken quite a few strides into a different direction in life which is why all things "Monica" have begun to taper off a bit. I'll keep you posted as to where my current interests are pointing towards on my weekly broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com (I'll get the most recent archives uploaded in time).

I'm very content with where life has me stationed as of present. It's been quite the journey and it's nice to now just simply sit back, laugh and smile.

Yet another Monica @ Home broadcast.

The past few days have been rather mellow for me personally, however quite a bit of turbulent activity is occurring on a world scale.

Rather than me write about myself today, I'm going to refer all of you to:

www.redcross.com

Donate a bit of money to them to help others in desperate need.

Monica Foster discusses Charlie Sheen , Lenny Dykstra , CBS & gives tips on Entering Porn

Another new broadcast of www.MonicaAtHome.com - don't miss tonight's live webcast on www.blogtv.com/People/MonicaFoster - LOTS and LOTS to talk about (plus a wine review of course).





Below is a re-upload of February 2nd, 2011 broadcast in regards to my concern of CBS continuing to run "2 and a Half Men featuring Charlie Sheen" - well it looks like CBS has shut down production of the show due to Charlie Sheen's recent public behavior and comments on an Alex Jone's radio show broadcast with none other than dumb ass Lenny Dykstra (yep, that idiot that I had the misfortune of meeting).

THANK YOU CBS for realizing that Sheen is a loser! 2011 is shaping up nicely.

Each time I think I'm getting close to the completion of my second book and am amidst the editing process, my perspective on many of the events of which have transpired within the California adult entertainment industry and the manner of which I want to share my journey changes.

I suppose that with each day we live, and with each new experience and encounter we find ourselves a part of, our perspective is broadened (while other times narrowed) and altered. At times this process can be exciting and enlightening - other times frustrating...especially when we (or at least I) struggle to grasp exactly what we're perceiving and processing.

Maybe that's why writers remain writers throughout their lives - writers are seekers, explorers, recorders and teachers - whether they want to accept the responsibility or not.

So I've been introduced to the raw food diet recently. It's not really a "diet" - it's how all human beings should be eating period - from birth. Initially I was wary and resistant to it (as I am of many things), but a healthier way of living (mainly eating) is something I feel I'm ready for at this moment. The more I've read about the raw food way of living and the benefits of such a lifestyle, I really can't find a reason why anyone wouldn't want to do it.

A new friend of mine introduced me to the "diet" and didn't really try to sell me on it...he didn't have to actually because he's a walking billboard for how it can enhance your life.

My initial thoughts on "raw food"....hmmmm....honestly looking at it - from the way it's prepared, to how it's served, to just the overall "raw" state of the ingredients, it DOES appears as though it was just beamed down from the Star Trek mothership. The taste is a bit alien as well...but why should I really be surprised really - California is like another planet in comparison to the east coast.

I'm not going to go cold-turkey raw...I'm going to do it gradually. I ordered a blender and a few other vitals to get started. The food in general doesn't cost more or less than "regular" food - actually from my perspective as of current I'll basically be eating nothing but fruits, vegetables, beans, lentils, and water. I'm sure there are a few other raw items included on the menu - I was given a book on this "diet" - so we'll see what happens.

Something I've noticed from the bit of raw-food I've had so far, is that it's very very filling considering how little you find yourself actually ingesting. I suppose that's due to it being chock full of nutrients that one generally doesn't get in processed "regular" food. This is a benefit to me because overall I see eating as a big waste of time and would prefer that I was never hungry...yep I'm weird I know but I've always found bodily needs to be annoying.

Of course I'll be documenting my thoughts and progress on how this way of eating and living works out via my blogs and what not.

If you're curious about the raw food diet and how to get started, here's a cool youtube video I found that gives a decent overview. I have a feeling that in time I'll be creating one similar once I'm all raw and ready - lol.

Another new broadcast of Monica At Home!

I read a wonderful book a few months ago entitled "Animal Speak". It was recommended to me by a long distance friend of mine who's very spiritually aware of the interconnectedness of life (on this planet and beyond) and how at times, due to ego and the day to day tasks we as humans create for ourselves, we can forget that it's in nature, that we can find all the answers to all the questions that have ever perplexed us.

I suppose it's because I've lived quite deeply in a world of artificiality and superficiality for such an extended amount of time, that I now find myself seeking a balance in a world which is the opposite of where I've been residing for the past 3 decades.

This year will be very exciting for me, because I've been given the gift to be able to explore a different way of living, that still is interlinked with where I've been.

As of late, I've been allowing myself to ride the tides, and it's been working out well. I've had quite a few interesting options, opportunities and individuals enter my life over the past few weeks - and I've learned a vast amount from each - whether it be for the negative or the positive.

Positive / Negative : I'm beginning to realize that in the end, it's the balance that's important - not either element singularly.

This is a very well put together documentary on Shelley Lubben of The Pink Cross (www.thepinkcross.org) by Michael Whiteacre and Julie Meadows (www.juliemeadows.com).



Take responsibility for your choices in life people and be pro-active in making a change if you need to - don't consistently re-hash the past, because it's just that - THE PAST

Amazing how things in a person's life can change so rapidly while living here in Los Angeles. The fast pace of life here makes things consistently interesting...that's for certain.

It looks like I'll be going at the webisode series I mentioned in my last blog of which I wrote alone, and I actually feel great about it. I'm much more comfortable working independently and I don't take very well to "creative input" that isn't very creative.

I swear, some people couldn't come up with an original idea by themselves if their life depended on it.

The primary individual I was going to collaborate with, along with a mutual friend really aren't the type of individuals I want to spend time around any longer. I'm sure they're both good people in their own way, but as I'm moving forward into a more stable life, I've decided not to continue to spend time with people who are dishonest, who are at consistent risk of falling into negative situations and who are a drain on my energetic resources.

I found an awesome location to shoot the majority of the webisode series however, and for a very low rate as well so I'm quite happy. I have most of the parts cast and I think I should be able to get the entire project produced very inexpensively.

I'm very fortunate to have made it through life to where I am right now. I've had to wade my way through a lot of muck, and have found myself having to sift through the people in my life and separate the genuine from the wastes of space...time and time again....but it's all be worth it. I'm happy.

So I decided to utilize most of my time this weekend to finally fine tune and complete the first few "webisodes" of a series I'm writing for a project I'm collaborating on with a couple of friends.

Writing a true script - especially a comedy with rather dark humor (my sense of humor could probably be equated to that of Larry David and Paul Mooney)- is weird and can actually be a bit uncomfortable. Primarily because (at least in my case) when you write characters, you tend to find yourself slipping into that character's mindset which can leave you feeling a bit unnerved as you allow your own mind to explore how a fictitious character's thought patterns may be.

I'm taking some of these characters I'm writing for this project pretty far when it comes to their dysfunctionality both in their everyday public personas and private personas so I'll probably need to go into seclusion for a while to reset once this production is over.

I'll be surprised if I don't wind up going completely schizophrenic before the end of this venture actually.

I'm actually very excited about shooting this project even though it will be a lot of work and will probably be frustrating for me being that I don't like working with other people very much, because it will be the first video project that I'll get to be primarily "in charge of". I suppose I'm not officially "in charge", but considering that I'm the person on the team who is the most organized and ADD, the role of producer basically falls in my lap by default (hey as long as I can perceive it this way at least, the situation is tolerable for me - luckily the people I'll be working with on this realize this).

After this projects first few installments are shot, I plan on shooting the first scenes of the adult parody that I want to complete by July of this year which will be based on one of my favorite works "Queen of the Damned".

Though I'm moving away from performing as an adult entertainer, I'm definitely someone who was destined to write adult material. It's odd too, because I really don't have sex too often anymore (and that needs to change).

A friend of mine brought over a bottle of Jack Daniels the other night - and I have to say it's been a very helpful tool. I hate to admit it but my best work pours out of me when I drink - I suppose because I allow myself to lower invisible barriers I've built up within my own psyche. I'm finally becoming comfortable enough with who I really am to lower those barrier without a stimulant, but it's still difficult at times.

I've just recently come to realize and have finally begun to accept that I have a certain "psychological twist" when it comes to what I find sexy, so I'm going to have to work that out a bit - I find that the band Muse really helps with that for some odd reason.

Well, back to work - I just wanted to take some time to update this blog. At this stage I really wish I could clone myself - if I could I'd get so much more done so much quicker. Being impatient has always been my fault.