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Today is a typical bright, sunny and low humidity Los Angeles day (and I'll tell you, it's SO motivational to wake up to so many days like this). I'll be doing webcam and website work until the late evening so I won't be actually going out to "enjoy the day", but it's nice to look at the window and know that it's THERE.

I spent a nice couple of hours by the pool yesterday after getting some website templates completed for a friend of mine's site I'm building. Then in the evening I was scheduled to participate in the "Not the Cosby's XXX" commentary along with Will Ryder (director), Misty Stone (Denise) and Thomas Ward (Cliff). It was good to see Will, Misty and Thomas again - I actually hadn't seen any of the cast in quite some time.

Though I'm not going to say much in this blog about the contents of the movie itself (as it should be a surprise), it is FANTASTIC! Everything in the movie is far above the typical "porn bar". From the truly comedic (and slightly ironic) writing, to the constancy with the era it is staged in, to the wardrobe and set design, to the video quality (composition and lighting), to the editing, to the casting, to the actual ACTING (Misty Stone, Thomas Ward, T-Reel, and Tyler Knight REALLY stand out), to the quality and energy of the sex scenes - EVERYTHING in this movie is great. I haven't seen EVERY porn spoof, but of all of the ones I've seen, this one is THE BEST. Oh, and I'm not just saying that because I'm in it - well - maybe I am - you'll have to buy it and see it for yourself :)

Not the Cosby's XXX is being touted as becoming the "most popular interracial sex movie ever". Well if so, that's great, because I'm beginning to wonder if interracial sex porns are a gauge as to how "America" views the acceptability of interracial relationships. Many people are unaware of this, but within the porn industry there is a certain "stigma" attached to a Caucasian performer, working with an African-American performer.

Many Caucasian women AND men in the business specifically request not to work in the "interracial market" and if you read some of the adult industry forums like www.xxxporntalk.com you'll start to see pretty quickly that many Caucasian performers, directors, studio owners, etc have a very negative view and outlook on African-Americans - I personally feel this mentiality has nothing to do with my ethnicity's "sexual or hygienic practices", but that this negative out lash has more to do with the attacker's feeling of self inadequacy.

It's actually very disappointing to learn that many agent's feel their Caucasian performer's value will "go down" by him or her working with African-Americans. I suppose this way of thinking has been a primary factor as to why I will be very rarely (if ever) shooting any adult scenes for any other website or DVD with the exceptions of those I put out independently.

I'm actually starting to wonder if race relations are truly getting better with time, or worse with time...especially in recent times. I have a friend on the east coast that I speak with regularly - she works as an exotic dancer. She's currently in NC and has had one hell of a time finding a club to work in. She's very attractive with a great body. Being that she's a chocolate brown African-American woman however, 3 of the major clubs in the area have turned her down for work. 1 club in particular had the hostess tell my friend that the manager wasn't available, but then when 2 more (Caucasian) girls came in to audition, he was magically available.

I suggested to my friend that she allow me to interview her for my website: www.redtback.com so that we can document the names of these clubs and her experiences. The adult entertainment loving public NEEDS TO KNOW.

The longer that I'm officially in the "porn business", the more I'm understanding why you don't have that many "upscale" or "non-ghetto" African-American women bothering with the business.

I was contacted recently by an "industry verteran" who inquired as to whether I would be interested in being booked for an hour long fetish shoot which would pay a rate that is FAR below even the "minimum" industry standard rates. I wrote back to this individual and explained that I would need a bit more money. This person BLASTED me with a reply/retort which ended in the typical phrase "I can get girls of your TYPE off the street all day for this money but I figured I'd offer the job to you". I say that this phrase is "typical", because I've heard it 3 times from various "established" yet broke porn directors (and I strongly suggest that no one buys the DVD series "Black Cheerleader Tryouts" because the director of this series has used this phrase with me).

I feel like this, if the clients of these directors and studio owners just want ANY black woman, then yea, PLEASE people, find a girl "off the street", but the truth is, that I, and other black women in this business who have made it into the "high-end" porns simply are NOT "street girls" , so yea, while the skin color may be the same as your 100 dollar whores, it's not really the skin color that your clients are after...

Anyways at present, I'm only taking on a few select adult projects that really appeal to me (am LOVING working with DT wrestling) and am producing original content for my own network of websites. I'm very happy with this choice and actually have decided to take Monica Foster into a bit more of a "softcore" and "mild erotic" arena.

The showtime audition I mentioned in a previous blog, I decided to cancel - after reading the script I realized right away that the part was not for me. Not only did the characted role not have a name other than "female worker" but it also had me acting in a way and saying things that I was ENTIRELY not comfortable with. Yes - acting is acting, but as I mature, I'm finding that only doing things in life that I REALLY feel good about doing and want to do is all that's important.

Well I've been on a solid camshow schedule for about a month now and I feel good about it. I like being on a routine. I'll be on cam a bit today and then later tonight so I'll see u all online!

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It's only about 3:45pm and I've already had a pretty full day. This morning I had 2 wrestling matches with a company I work with as a "sexy female wrestler" from time to time called DT Wrestling. Whew! Working with DT is a workout every time. I love these peeps.

Today my opponent was miss Akira - I'll post some photos of the match. Actually if any of you guys want to see me wrestle you can always request a custom match from the company featuring yours truly :)



Looks like the lil wayne music video I was in is out. I'm only in the video for about 1 second towards the end (pause the video at 4:33 and look at the bottom left of the screen - I'm wearing a pink, purple, black and white dress that ties at the neck and I'm dancing by the car). I'll take a screen shot of where I am and circle myself later :)

Lil Wayne Feat Young Money - Every Girl / NEW
by PeteRock

Looks like this Tuesday I have an audition for recurring character in a mainstream series set to air on the Showtime so wish me luck :)

Today at 2pm (PST) I had my 3rd weekly Club Monica members webcam show for the week (yep, Club Monica members get 3 free 1 hour shows a week!). After my nap I'll be on cam tonight to TTYL!

Not much to blog about today. Actually I will say "thank you" to those who sent me a few notes of encouragement considering my most recent "pity party" blog. At times I need to vent and being that I live in an apartment with thin walls where I can't (or at least won't do so out of consideration to my neighbors) scream and throw dishes , I resort to ranting about personal trials, situations, feelings and other things in my "Monica" blog. Probably not the BEST way to save myself from personal embarrassment overall, but oh well :)

Since I'm really psyched about doing this massage therapy course (I decided against the cosmetology for now) as soon as possible I wrote yesterday about being in search of a "regular job", so I can pay for the course find my "regular job employment" within that field. After taking some time out last night and really thinking about where to search for employment, I'm thinking that since I need to keep up with all of my online stuff, my best bet is to find bartending gig (preferably in walking distance because I can't see myself having to drive in this LA traffic on a 3 to 4 day a week basis). I've responded to a few want ads so I'm sure I'll hear at least something from 1 place by the end of the weekend.

Almost forgot, today I'm meeting with a girl I know about getting her website together, she's already fairly "established" in the porn world so I'm looking forward to doing her site, she definitely needs new photos so I'll throw that in with the package I put together for her (it'll be nice to have the shots for my portfolio as well).

Well time to get to work, will be on webcam tonight, other than that I think it'll be a good day.

Well it looks as though I've had 2 rather eventful weekends in a row...actually in this case I've had a busy week in general. In the beginning of the week I had a couple house guests for 2 nights - the (yes and I will use the term "famous" because at this point it's apropriate) Famous biologicial mother and daughter of porn...Elli and Desi Foxx - actually I encourage all you readers out there to visit their website www.TheFoxxs.com

Elli and Desi get a lot of criticism from the adult industry out here in Los Angeles - probably because Desi has been intelligent enough not to allow anyone to get enough of a foothold in their world to be able to "own" them, like myself, but unlike many adult industry "icons" out there. I have a lot of respect for these 2 ladies - they are definite bold, beautiful and strong risk takers - so having them spend a couple days in town at my place is always welcome change of pace in "Monica Foster land".

Friday night was rather mellow and Saturday was a great webcam show day thankfully, so Saturday night I decided to venture out a bit with a friend of mine and hit up an adult industry sponsored party that I was invited to courtesy of my agency Type9models at a club called Opera here in Hollywood, CA.

It was a nice event, it was more of a "mainstream populace" rather a than a "porn party" but truthfully that made it all the better. Jayme, one of the agents from Type9 did a really good job making sure everyone from Type 9 who showed up had a place to hang out and feel comfortable in the club. I saw a few familiar faces of whome I've worked with and haven't worked with - notably Rayne Rever, Naomi Banxxx & Jenny Hendrix - all of which (including myself) somehow look better in person than in photos. It's so ironic how mainstream actors and actresses usually look worse than their publicity photos where as adult actors and actresses often are much better in person than their photos and videos.

Sunday turned out to be a beautiful "California dream date" day with my boyfriend. We wound up checking out the beach near where I live which I hadn't really spent much time exploring. That evening we had dinner at a nice restaurant and at the end my take home leftovers got wrapped us as a tin-foil bunny ... only in Los Angeles :)
Today it's back to work, but after such a nice weekend, I'm very energized and motivated.

Oh, by the way - all Club Monica members starting tomorrow will have a chance at the "pre-release" of my comic book porn scene for sexedupsuperheroines.com !

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I feel totally rested and recharged (for about a month) after this past weekend. I and my boyfriend went to a a concert festival called Coachella in the Palm Springs area and it was GREAT! Check it out here: http://www.coachella.com

The music was great, the crowd had a VERY positive vibe, the friends we went with were a lot of fun, and of course, I had a good amount of drinks so that made the evening a ton of fun as well :)

Since Saturday was so "action packed", after sleeping in this morning and having breakfast, I spent a nice day by and in the pool. I'm exhausted from the sun, but I suppose summer is now officially here - about time :)

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Well, the "Not the Cosby's XXX" trailer is out and here it is :)

Today (Wednesday - yes I'm writing this blog a little late) was "hangover recovery" day, because Tuesday night was one hell of a party night :)
In the beginning of the day, my agency (Type 9) sent me a text message about an industry party to raise funds to "save porn" (truthfully I don't think the porn industry is in any danger - it's just going through a restructuring phase like just about every other industry in this country right now). I'm not one to turn down an invite to a good party and since I try to get to 1 to 2 social "events" a month I figured this would be fun thing to go to, plus industry parties are always a great networking venue as well.

My boyfriend and I wound up getting to the party at around 10:30 and about 3 vodka redbulls and 1 vodka shot later I was TRASHED (but at least I looked good). It was really cool to see so many people from the industry that I've worked with before and it was also nice to meet some new people. I ran into a few girls that I'd never met who are with the same agency as myself, but I've gotta say that London Keys stood out the most - she is a BILLION times hotter in person than her photos (and her photos are very pretty).



Tomorrow I have a video shoot as a "strap on domme". Yes I know I said that I wouldn't be doing many more xxx videos, but hey, I'm not getting fucked in this one :)

This weekend will be eventful, I'll be going to a concert series called Coachella for the first time and I'm very excited. I'll take lots of pics and videos while at the event to post here when I get back.

It's technically Tuesday morning, but for me it's still Monday night - today was a much more busy day than I'd expected, but I feel like I'm on a good track.
This morning when I woke up I realized that my apartment was becoming much to dirty, dusty and feathery/hairy (due to my bird and dog) and the little floor sweeper I'd purchased when I moved into this apartment simply wasn't cutting it, SO I decided that it's about time I get a regular vacuum.

Of course, being the broke (but thrifty) girl that I am, I logged onto Craigslist.com and checked the "for sale" ads for someone possibly moving and looking to unload their old vacuum fairly cheaply. Well lucky me found a really good Hoover vacuum for only $40! After picking it up from the seller, I came home, drank a RedBull and went on a cleaning spree :) It is SOOOOO nice to have a fresh looking, smelling and feeling apartment again.

By time I finished cleaning, it was about time for my first bi-weekly hour long webcam show on the new webcam network I've joined and I think it went pretty well. I really love the interface of the new system I'm on.

I had a bit of a surprise and change of pace this evening - my good friend Powder of www.powderxxx.com called and asked if I'd sub in as co-host for Ebony Nights, a show on RudeTV.com which I've sub co-hosted for in the past, so though it was last minute, I was happy to fill in.

Unfortunately my drive home SUCKED due to an accident on the highway right before the exit of where I live, which delayed traffic (and me) for about an hour - ugh. I was both starving and very tired by time I set foot into my apartment.

All in all it's been a nice and fairly productive day though so I'm glad. Either tomorrow or Wednesday I'll be checking out a few vocational schools so that should be exciting :)

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Yesterday left me with a very strong feeling of "accomplishment". I FINALLY have relaunched my online talkshow Real Exotic Dancers Talk Back (www.RedTback.com)! I will be hosting the show every Thursday at 3pm PST / 6pm EST and I'm actually contemplating making it a bi-weekly show - we'll see...

Next thing on the agenda is to launch www.GettingIntoPorn.com - I've decided that this particular show will definitely need it's own webhosting, so I will get that together this weekend.


April 9, 2009 clip- Broadcast your self LIVE

Ok, well today could have been a day of camshows but it wasn't. Mainly because I've been slacking on getting me online show Real Exotic Dancers Talk Back (www.RedTback.com) relaunched so I figured I'd dig into that.

In my attempt to make the show much more professional than it was when I initially started it, I decided to implement my "green screen" technology - ugh - what a freakin task - my main delay in getting the screen to work properly with my webcam graphics software has to do with my lack of a proper lighting system. After tinkering with different lighting techniques and camera techniques for over 2 hours I finally got it working about 70% properly - once I have a little extra dough I will head over to IKEA and try to find something along the lines of hanging or ceiling mounted halogin lights to get a good continuous lighting effect.

Back when first launched RedTback I was broadcasting through Nowlive.com - well for whatever reason, now I can't get their interface to work with my webcam setup SO I've decided rather than going back and forth endlessly with their tech support to migrate the show to BlogTV.com - I will probably set up the weekly live show for GettingIntoPorn.com on BlogTV.com as well - we'll see...

I'm reading a new book - "the Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren - I've only gotten through the intro being that I don't have much spare time to really read a lot of books nowdays, but I'm totally hooked into the book just from the first page so I'm sure I'll have more to say about it later as I read more. The author of this particular book suggests that you only read 1 chapter per day (which will be hard for me to do because when it comes to anything I get into in life - I have a severe lack of patience). There are 40 chapters so getting through the book will take 40 days - the author mentions in the intro that "40 days" may be a spiritually siginificant amount of time (ie: the great flood in the bible being 40 days, Moses spending 40 days on Mt. Siani , etc) so I'll probably need to get into another book simultaneously while reading this one so that I'm not tempted to read ahead.

It's funny - when I was younger (especially from around age 10 to 16) I was a "book-aholic" - I'd read 3 to 4 books per week - I suppose I have my parent's intellectual natures to attribute that towards.

Though I'd have liked to upgrade my video and photo equipment prior to beginning the development of another website I'm hoping to launch to showcase other beautiful ethnic women in a "softcore erotic" style - I've decided to take the bull by the horns and just use the technology and know how I already have to get started. I've met a few women in the biz I'd have liked to work with but unfortunately they are all beyond unmotivated and flakey SO I put up a few ads to try to find some women who are interested in working with me - hopefully I'll find a few - realistically I only need 6.

Well time to get back to work on relaunching Real Exotic Dancers Talk Back - hopefully I'll get everything setup properly tonight to be able to relaunch the show tomorrow.

Yesterday was a cool day. I received a "pre-releasse" copy of the scene I shot a few months ago for http://www.sexedupsuperheroines.com - it looks fantastic - thanks Steve Steel!

I wrote the following yesterday but am posting today - if it puts off certain Monica Foster "fans" I'm sorry but I'm sick of the bullshit:

As I’ve stated on my blog before, with the possible exceptions of creating content for my Official website: MonicaF.com and the few exceptional projects within the porn “industry” itself that may come my way, I’ve made the decision to try to move my life into the fields of Wellness and Beauty (via cosmetology & massage therapy - of which I’m hoping to start school for in the summer). Of course I’ll continue with the online talk shows that I’m working on (and TRYING to re-launch) in regards to informing people within and outside of the adult industry as to “what’s really up” - but I know that as I age, cosmetology and massage therapy are 2 fields that I can excell in, will find satisfaction in and inner completeness in and have a bit of longevity in.

It’s amazing how when you try to do what you know is the right thing for yourself, the “devil” tends to rear his head to try to throw you off.

You would THINK that my blog readers, website members, cam show viewers and myspace “friends” would be supportive of this choice - WRONG. Instead you have a bunch of self serving, shady, weird assholes out there who try to instead of saying “go girl !” , say “hey that’s great - how about you fly up for a weekend and “hang out” and I’ll help you pay for your school”. Yes - this blog is specifically pointed towards you piece of crap readers out here who made the ILLEGAL “offer” and you’re lucky I don’t publish your name and phone numbers on this blog so people know who you are and what you’re about. Hell, oneday I still MIGHT!

I’ll tell you, you would THINK that considering all the crap happening with our countries economy and world as a whole that people would have learned by now that attempting to take advantage of a situation when you know damn well you shouldn’t is WRONG! Apparently some people just can’t stop OR they simply refuse to LEARN.

Right now a lot of adult industry professionals - namely porn performers and strippers are having a VERY hard time and many are being VERY TEMPTED to ILLEGALLY work as a prostitute. I’m not against anything that is LEGAL - however in 99% of our country prostitution is NOT LEGAL so it truly shouldn’t be done unless in a LEGAL enviroment. Many porn girls and strippers are feeling FORCED and PRESSURED into doing something ILLEGAL by the “JOHN’s” themselves and it needs to stop.

Don’t be fooled - these JOHN’s are not willing to pay in the HIGH HUNDREDS or THOUSANDS for women and men they normally wouldn’t ever have a chance with - they are essentially paying PENNIES on the DOLLAR for girls who rates were once 1000 plus an hour. I urge women out there who work in the adult world, but who don’t want to do anything illegal to SEEK OUT OTHER OPTIONS! They DO exist (webcam shows, creating your own website, finding a job outside of the adult biz for now to supplement) .YES you’ll have to work harder than maybe you are used to but it is WORTH IT!

Recently someone (a girl I know AND fellow “pornstar”) who I thought was smart AND a friend who I offered to build a website for and assist in getting started on webcam shows blatently told me “I’d rather just go fuck some guy for half an hour and make $200 than sit at home on my webcam to make money”. What a total and complete dumb ass and disappointment - glad I found out what she was about sooner than later though.

Hell - I think true pornSTARS who are working for rates well below the norm should stop working until the economy improves because eventually it will and when it does - the stupid bullshit that people try to bait you into to make chump change will seem COMPLETELY not worth it.

So in conclusion : DO NOT contact me to try to bait me into being your in person prostitute, because through life experience, I’ve learned that I am WAY better than doing anything ILLEGAL. If I wanted to be a LEGAL prostitute I’d probably just go to the Bunny Ranch.

Also do not contact me to say “hi” via IM unless you are in an active camshow from me because just like how you have a job and don’t like your time being wasted at work , and just like how you don’t go to work for free NEITHER DO I. Respect that.

If this peals away the “illusion” that I’m your “girlfriend” then oh well - apparently you don’t live in reality anyways.

Right now I’m pissed because I do work hard and I’m seeing very little reward for my work and effort right now. I know damn well if I were to do ILLEGAL activity like many adult industry professionals are right now I’d be sitting pretty financially but I’ve chosen not too.

Whether people want to acknowledge this or not - porn IS acting - it’s physical and verbal ACTING - it is NO different than being an “action hero” AND it’s out there for everyone to see. I’m starting to think that the biggest reason prostitution IS NOT legal in the USA is because the providers are nearly forced to “out there” via their advertising and websites and such where as the “Johns” are able to remain a bit TOO annonymous.

I say if you wanna pay for sex - then be like a porn-star and put your name OUT THERE so that people (including your girlfriends or spouses and or co-workers) KNOW what you’re about. If you’re willing to pay for sex, why are you trying to hide mother f*****s?!?!?! The government should probably legalize prostitution at this point, tax it and then create a public registry for providers and the John’s and issue licenses of some sort to both parties.

So in conclusion , I'm simply saying - respect that I'm ONLY a pornstar and cam girl - if you want to chat then you shouldn't have a problem paying per minute. If you have a problem with this - don't bother me or find someone else - better yet get some social skills and find an ACTUAL GIRLFRIEND - not sure how? - Call me and I'll TELL YOU HOW as long as you pay per minute. My free time is for my boyfriend and friends and family - my PAID time on cam - which I'm glad to give when I'm able to - is for you.

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Well yesterday I was on RudeTV yet again - check out the archive here: http://www.rude.com/tv/archive/id/80238

I shouldn't have worn that turtleneck sweater but oh well...I actually had a good time - the host and hostess of the show were both really cool and into the adult biz "gossip" so that always makes for a fun convo - PLUS I totally kept my clothes on - no titty or booty flashes at all.

Today is going to be my house cleaning day because my apartment is a wreck - how this happened I'm not sure, but it's time to fix it.

Tonight I'm going to try to do a few run throughs with my online talk shows because I have to get those up and running again by the first few weeks of this month so we'll see...

Online tonight I found something that proves my point as to how not only are black women VERY limited in the adult biz - we are also painted in the worst ways possible 9 out of 10 times:

http://www.cumbang.com

I would never be on that website or shoot for that studio.

I have a feeling that I've been cast in the better roles my short time in the adult biz. I'm glad.

Last night I had a nice evening. I had a chance to visit with a very good friend of mine and her father who is visiting from out of town. I'm very lucky to have met a friend who's such a down to earth girl. Her father made an INCREDIBLE home cooked meal - it's so rare I get one of those now days.

On a recent broadcast of Coast to Coast AM Glynes the "numbers lady" - a numerologist - was a guest on the show - I always enjoy listening to this woman not so much because of her world predictions based on her numerology system, but because she is very optimistic and full of good ideals to live by.

The last time she was a guest on Coast to Coast, she summed up 2009 as being a year of clarification and truths - in other words if you've been pulling the wool over people's eyes for a while, you're going to get called out whether you like it or not.

So far, interestingly enough, that has been a very prevalent theme in my life so far this year - and hell, we're just beginning...

What I've come to realize is that lying never works out. Telling a lie (or living a lie) isn't just defined as falsifying information though (at least in my opinion) - a lie can be the WITH HOLDING of information as well.

We've all been guilty of lying at some point in our lives, but I think part of life's lesson is to learn that it doesn't work, and to correct that behavior.

When I first entered the adult entertainment industry back around 2002 as an exotic dancer I lied to many people in my life about what I did for a living. It made it easy in the short term but in the long term my lies broke or injured friendships, romantic relationships and family ties.

When I took the leap into the world of porn, I decided not to repeat the pattern from back when I was a stripper - I was honest with everyone in my life about my "occupation" - the honesty definitely hurt some of my relationships with friends, family and others for a while - but in the end - everyone in my life who really loves and respects me "got over it" and accepted my choices - so being honest was well worth it and much less stressful in the end.

The really shitty thing about being lied to by a person, is that it's very difficult (and sometimes impossible) to trust them later. The shitty thing about being the liar is that once you tell the person something false (or with hold certain important information), the longer times goes by, the harder it is to tell the truth - yuck what a vicious cycle.

To sum up this blog, DO NOT LIE TO PEOPLE YOU CARE ABOUT and/or WHO CARE ABOUT YOU because nothing good can ever come of it.

Recently I was essentially lied to about something MAJOR by someone in my life. I can accept and forgive, but unfortunate short of a lobotomy, I can't forget. I wish I could.

Lately I've found I can trust so few people in my life, but I am very grateful to those few trustworthy people that I do have in my life - I feel fortunate for them.

If there's one thing I've learned about the porn industry, it's that you can trust NO ONE. Being kind to people really doesn't mean much at all to individuals who have allowed themselves to become consumed with hate. Actually speaking of the porn biz, I'm STILL working actively on GettingIntoPorn.com - everytime I think I'm close to it's completion I realize that there's a ton more I need to add. As I'm slowly but surely nearing it's completion, I can't help but wonder why so few women (and men) who have been active in the biz, haven't put together too many resources to aid newcommers...

I'll be doing cam shows tonight/this morning straight through to Monday, so once again - I'll see you guys online!

Here's a cool pic I forgot about - not relevant to this post, but enjoy :)

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Today was definitely a lazy day - primarily because it's finally starting to get sunny and warm outside here in Los Angeles and I took the opportunity to take a walk, visit with some friends and just soak up some sun on my terrace - it was nice.
I'm working all night tonight though on my webcam. This recession has hit my income pretty hard and though I'm trying my best to remain optimistic, peppy and driven - at times I find myself slipping into depression due to my lack of finances.
One thing about Los Angeles is that 99.9% of the people you meet either lie to you or make promises that they can't keep or don't follow through with - I hate that and I've grown very tired of the pattern.
At this point I'm pretty much being forced to explore other avenues to maintain my cost of living (and I'm talking BASIC needs) so hopefully some of these other avenues will work out.

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Well, though I didn't do as many webcam shows as I'd have liked to, I still had a very productive weekend.

Beginning Friday, my fantastic boyfriend made a KILLER new intro video for my website. I can't wait to upload the footage to my editing computer to edit/compile it. I think that some of that footage will be included in the launch of my Clips4sale.com store.

This economy is soooooo horrible and truthfully, being that I'm an adult industry performer who doesn't go beyond "B/G" work, probably doesn't help. Considering that I've done under 40 scenes I see no reason to expand my "menu" of what I'm available for. I don't fault my agency at all - they seem to try and their new asst. agent who's from one of the largest adult agencies really seems to be on the ball.

I'm simply one of those "porn bitches" who thinks their shit doesn't stink (it does but I won't admit it) and who feels she should get the same rate as the white girls. When I see white women who's body's aren't half as good as mine getting more than 3 times the work as myself, I simply don't feel like even bothering, and I'll tell you this, when my test expires 5 days from now, if I haven't had a shoot I will not be re-testing anytime soon because I don't have $120 to just fork over to AIM without a guaranteed return on my "test investment".

Don't get me wrong, I don't just have beef with the white porn bitches - many black, latin and asian porn bitches are fucking over women like me too by doing scenes for $500 and lower. How is ANY woman who halfway values herself in the biz supposed to get work at a decent rate when you have this cut rate shit going on?!?!?!

Argggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On another note, tomorrow my dog Panda will be getting a bath and a much needed haircut. Right now she looks like a wookie - which is cute but probably not the healthiest state for her to be in.

Los Angeles is cold - both in attitude and climate. I'm from Florida and am tropical and warm blooded and hearted by nature. I am beginning to feel as dead as the plants and grass around me.

Today I received yet another email from this character in the porn industry named Donnie Long who I haven't met but I've heard more than my fair share about. Apparently this man has created a site called XXXfilmjobs.com - now I'm all about there being online job databases for every industry, BUT here's the problem. This man is obviously trying to undercut the adult agencies and/or cut the adult agencies out of the picture completely. This is not good or right for agencies or people like me who have an agency.

I feel it's fairly important to have an agent/agency in this industry of some sort, at least when you're new because the agency/agent acts as a "filter" to screen out the psychos and fake or unreputable studios that may try to contact a talent. They also ensure that if something isn't right when you arrive at a shoot, it is made right - otherwise they will at least ATTEMPT to get a cancellation fee.

Now if you're someone like Sunny Leone, or Brianna Banks or Tera Patrick, of course you're on a level of which you don't need an agent really, but someone like me does. If porn studios stop using agencies that leaves me and other professionals like me up the creek.

I suppose I'd give this Donnie Long's site a chance if there wasn't so much negativity encircling him, however a few months back he really drug another talent's (who's with my agency) name through the mud, and needlessly so, which really affected her bookability and peace of mind. Anyone who attacks this weak and defenseless just for attention/publicity isn't OK in my book at all. Also I feel he targeted this young woman because she's a woman of color and he knew he could get away with it being that though we're in 2009 the adult industry is indeed very racist.

Oh, "the industry is NOT racist" - you might argue? Well then how come when a white woman does a black guy it's such a big deal and her first "interracial" yet when I do a white, latin, or asian guy (though I've never had an asian guy) it's not? Also why are black women always pressured into doing ANAL (which I decided from the beginning is totally off limits for me) where as white women are not? Also where the fuck are the BLACK CONTRACT STARS?!?!??!?! There hasn't been one since HEATHER HUNTER! Why is my look to ETHNIC for Suze Randall's clients?!??!! Suze.net was a website I DREAMED of shooting for - I'd rather hear that I'm TOO OLD OR TOO UGLY over being TOO ETHNIC. Until I have an answer to these questions I will not shut up about RACISM IN THE PORN WORLD - just take a look at a forum called XXXporntalk.com - these are industry pros and if you read some of the threads and see how racial slurs are thrown you'll see just what I mean.

Interesting how a black woman is good enough to be first lady of our freakin country but not good enough for a major porn label to promote. Oh well, goes to show I've made yet another stupid life decision.

Speaking of the first lady - what the hell is Obama doing wasting his time going on a late night talk show. Considering all the time (and wasted secret service dollars) that went into the trip to the show, the prep for the show, etc - couldn't Obama have been on the Leno show remotely via webcam? Do we NOT HAVE THE FUCKING TECHNOLOGY? Also shouldn't he be spending EVERY WAKING MOMENT on fixing the damn ECONOMY that he ran his mouth about having a plan for rather than trying to be young and hip (and coming off as thoughtless and arrogant) on a damn ENTERTAINMENT TALK SHOW? I'm starting to get pissed beyond belief.

Well my broke and weak and I suppose pathetic overly ethnic black ass better get back to my cam shows before I'm entirely defenseless and homeless as well. See you online peeps.

The video below pretty much outlines how I feel about L.A. at the moment.

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Today will be another cam show day!!!!! It's good to finally be back into a bit of a daily "work routine". Slowly but surely I'm getting all my ducks in a row so that I can launch my 4 (possibly 5) new websites all at once at the end of this month. I'm excited, but I'm trying to put my new project launches as close to the release of my first feature "Not the Cosby Show XXX" as possible.
Speaking of that, I suppose I better get ready for a bit of "backlash" from that project - check out this video someone posted about the upcomming flick:

I might post a video response, not sure I want to take the time though. It's amazing to me how many people just to "get it" when it comes to what is important in life to be concerned about....ugh.

Actually I received a nice myspace email from someone who found another "anti-Not the Cosby Show XXX" blog posting. Here's part of the note:

I happened across a blog regarding your upcoming 'Cosby Show' spoof and it was one of the most idiotic rants I had ever read online. I posted an angry reply only because it was so ignorant; and I noticed afterwards that you had replied as well!

Well, here is my rant at the blogger and those who left comments (apologies for the language and extremely hostile tone, but I got extra-annoyed and I'm a writer, sooooo)

his post is the most hyper-sensitive, ridiculously unfounded piece of race-baiting bullsh*t I have read in a while. Porn parodies things ALL THE TIME!!!!! The Kennedys, TV sitcoms, popular movies, Bill Clinton and Monica Lewinsky and countless other things have been parodied by the adult film industry. It’s PORN people! We trivialize our own struggle when we bitch and moan about harmless stuff like this. And Alexis, you sound ignorant as hell. It’s a damn sitcom! Are we as a people so LOST that we turn a 30 minute TV show into a sacred cow? It wasn’t even a very GOOD show past the third season! Watch ‘SNL’ or ‘MadTV’ and you pop culture parodies all the time, just like in porn. It will only be seen by people who want to see it, anyway–so why do you care so much? This is what they do! Like Monica Foster said, you’re complete and TOTAL hypocrites. We make our selves look really stupid sometimes.

And I’m sorry–I didn’t realize ‘The Cosby Show’ saved the black community. I must’ve missed that one, because I remember a show that aired during the HEIGHT of crack and the AIDS epidemic, at the HEIGHT of gang violence, at the HEIGHT of un-wed mothers in our community, and at the HEIGHT of high-profile police brutality, yet NEVER addressed any of these social ills. It was pure escapism, so to hear my people talk about that show like it was the March on Washington makes me want to puke. I loved that show as a kid, and it was a very important show–but it was just a SHOW! Stop turning everything into a sacred piece of Black history and recognize entertainment for what it is.

I’m sorry, this is my last post, but I re-read this ‘article’ and got pissed all over again. ‘Defamation of character?’ These ARE FUCKING FICTIONAL CHARACTERS! Are you stupid? I don’t understand this—do you think that Theo Huxtable is going to file suit with the film’s producers? Cockroach is going to go on Larry King? It might sadden you to know that Batman isn’t real, either. God, I can’t stand psuedo-conscious, psuedo-intellectual idiots. And this isn’t MAINSTREAM–that’s the point! If a mass of people get mad about this, it will only affirm my worst fears about where my people are at: That this generation is so lost and so enamored with the pro-activism of the Civil Rights era, that they will manufacture superficial ’causes’ to rally behind; make a big huff, and disappear after a week. Idiots like this are just further discrediting the struggle that we fight everyday. There are FAR more important things to rally about than a damn porno.

It's good to know that some people actually take the time to think and do a bit of research before they pass judgment. Thinking and the ability to research and investigate things in life are probably 2 of our greatest God given tools. I've certainly come to realize that.

It's been a while since I've really blogged and/or webcammed (I needed a bit of time to myself I suppose) but I'm back :)
Though I enjoy performing in the adult world I'm going to work very hard over the next few months to upgrade my photography lighting equipment and take some makeup artistry classes. I want to be a bit of a "one man band" (or should I say one WOMAN band) when I am able to launch my studio, which I really hope will be by the end of this year. I think if I can wear the hats of photographer, makeup artist, web designer, and whatever else when I first begin, I'll save a lot of money and ultimately feel more fulfilled and in control.
Recently I was contacted by a pretty good photographer who's local to me, and I contemplated doing a sort of "barter" with him (me create his website in exchange for him creating additional content for my site) but though it would have been a cool deal, realistically I just don't have the time and overall I wasn't sure the trade was exactly fair. Also I could tell that this person may have been emotionally draining, needy and had the potential to become annoying- hate to say that but it's my blog, so I might as well be honest. I suppose I just am not interested in getting locked into anything that may not be beneficial to my personal growth or a hassle to get out of professionally anymore.
I think overall March is still shaping up to be a good month. One thing about living in Hollywood though is that your life truly can change in an instant, so I hope I continue of a relatively positive track.

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Today has shaped up to be a fairly productive day and I'm glad because yesterday I was a bit down in the dumps.

I've resolved not to fall back into the "quitter" pattern that I worked so hard to dig myself out from years ago, and am staying with my agency Type9 after all.

Why? Well this morning I woke up with a fresh perspective on my booking mishap from yesterday. I'd have to say that over 80% of the time I've worked with Type9 it's been a positive and professional experience. I really like the owners Kelly and Kevin, and I feel like they work hard which is great and quite rare in the adult industry. I can't fault them for the mistakes of others that they realistically can't monitor 24/7.

Plus Type9 models has a very well rounded selection of all types of performers and I like that. When an agency's girls all look like clones, it makes me wonder a bit.

In other news, I took out my old weave last night, washed my hair and this morning I really debated putting my new weave in. I love MY hair. Lately it's been getting really healthy and when I wash it and let it air dry and becomes so soft and fluffy. In the entertainment world, I think it's better that I have a consistant and "glam" look which the weave provides, but I think 2010 will be the year of only MY hair.

A good girl friend of mine will be moving from FL to Los Angeles AND into my building in the beginning of April. I'm pretty excited because it'll be great to have a good friend close by.

Well tomorrow morning I have a shoot with the famous Lexington Steele. I'm looking forward to it as he seems to have built a really good reputation and business for himself within the adult entertainment world - it's always exciting to meet others who are driven.

I've been keeping this blog fairly positive lately but I can't always look on the "bright side" - no one can - it's part of being human.
I have been trying very hard over the past few years not to be a quitter anymore with things I do and to stick out my situations, goals and tasks to completion. However today I reached a breaking point.
What is the job of an "agency" - hell, of ANY sort. To seek out work for their clients, book them, relay the correct and complete info of the job to their (the agency's) client they represent, and then (in the end) collect a commission for their hard earned work from their client that they supposedly WORK FOR and REPRESENT. Right?
Well apparently in the adult entertainment world that is NOT the case, at least not in my situation. My agency has booked me successfully on a few gigs, but allowed too many screw ups - not due to the owner most likely but due to a certain couple employees.
If I were a woman in porn who showed up to gigs late, or on drugs, or not at all, or bitchy, or without wardrobe, or if I didn't pay my agency their commissions even, that would be one thing, but that's not the case.
I'm professional, a decent performer, I drive myself to shoots, am on time, don't show up on drugs or high, promote myself, have the required wardrobe always, keep myself well maintained physically, etc. I suppose that's just not valuable enough to agencies though - at least not to where they'd care to give you the correct info about shoots and the correct amount of pay to expect.
So now, for the first time in my fucking life (thanks to my lack of financial savvy, my stupid move out to Los Angeles, the fucked up economy, and my fucked up ex agency leading me to believe I could expect to make a certain amount of money today when that wasn't the case) I will be late with my rent and some other bills and now have to find an alternate source of income ASAP.
Luckily I have my website and cam shows but I gotta go "hustler gangsta" now not to end up on the street.
Fuck you "J" of Type9 - and not in the good way.

Now that I've written this I feel a little better. I don't want to be a quitter when it comes to the porn industry. It's something I actually enjoy and I don't have much else. I don't know how I'll continue now but I will try.

Yesterday I had the pleasure of working with Bluebird Films again which was GREAT, I encourage everyone to join www.bluebirdfilms.com if you'd like to see the footage with myself and Mr. TeeReel :)
In the evening I stopped by RudeTV.com and was able to guesthost with the sexy Flexxx on "Ebony Nights" - view the video archive of the show right here : http://www.rude.com/tv/archive/id/77063

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Above is the flyer for the party I'll be signing at and co-hosting this Saturday - I'm totally looking forward to it!

Tonight I'll be co-hosting "Color Blind" with PowderXXX of RudeTV.com again, I'll post a link to the archive over the weekend.

Well it looks like I get to work for one of my new favorite adult video companies at the start of next week: BlueBird Films. I'm looking forward to it, however that means that I have to AIM today, which is ok but it's no fun getting your blood drawn so often - yuck.
Later in the week I get to make an appearance in X-plays next flick set to launch after Not the Cosby's XXX (which I star in) - Not Married with Children XXX - so I'm looking forwards to that as well.
I encourage many of you out there to check out www.RoyKarchProductions.com - this guy is a long time adult industry vet who continues to produce some awesome features to this day.
Also check out www.MPHvideography.com - it's one of the hottest cameramen in the industry's websites, hopefully he'll have some samples of his work up soon.

Today will be a cam show day/night, but I always enjoy chatting so it's a good thing. I acquired a new domain for my adult video theater gateway through AEBN: www.MonicaFosterVOD.com - check it out :)

Here are a couple of recent interviews with Harley of Harleyxxxtv.com

Super Hot Adult Star Monica Foster Harleys XXX TV

PT2 Adut Star Monica Foster Hott Harleys XXX TV

Though California has a tremendous amount of opportunity for anyone with a drive and a will to work hard, I'm looking forward to when I've "made my fortune" and can leave this state. Where I'll go next, I'm not sure, but most likely I will either return to the east coast or simply relocate to another country. Primarily because I'm just not one for the "land of make believe" mentality on a long term basis.

I have learned since living here I'm much more based in "reality" than I initially thought - mainly because I have an aversion to shrinking away situations that are hard, where as many people who have lived here on a long term basis seem to deem that mentality as acceptable.

Though Cali is progressive in many ways, in other ways it's not. Though we are in the year 2009, have a technically "black" president, and are well beyond the sexual revolution - I find backwards and/or hypocritical mindsets around every corner and under every stone here in Hollywood, CA - ironically especially in the MAINSTREAM entertainment industry. It is sad, the situation angers me, and overall I'm disgusted.

The adult entertainment world still needs a lot of progression, but I see the progression and needed changes being easily rectified whereas in mainstream I do not. I strongly prefer being identified as an "adult entertainer" over a "mainstream actress" and probably always will.

On a happier note, I'll be co-hosting RUDETV.com's show "ColorBlind" again on Friday and will be co-hosting and signing at an industry event at a club called CineSpace on Saturday.

I hope and pray the coming of March brings me better luck and work opportunities my way than I had in fucked up Feb.

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Through an interesting turn of events, the music video I was set to be in which I mentioned in my previous post wound up shooting last night afterall. Since it was a "night scene" for the video, I was on set from about 12am to 6:30am this morning. WHEW! Between the freezing temps, my tiny outfit wardrobe put me in, and the late hours I slept most of the day today.
Today/tonight I'm back to doing cam shows for the remainder of the weekend.
Happy Valentines Day everyone!

I haven't had the chance to blog in a while, so I figured this rainy afternoon in LA is the day to do it.
I hit up my first adult industry party this week at a club called "Blue Moon Nights" - a "fetish party" with a few friends of mine and it was great to see a lot of industry people of which I've worked with there.

Actually the more involved in the industry I get, the more I realize how much of a fan I am of certain performers. I've always thought Tommy Gunn (the blond one - and in the background of the above pic - hehe) is really hot, so it was cool meeting him in the VIP area of the party. CLICK HERE for more pics from the event.
I also auditioned for a Lil Wayne music video this week of which I was cast for which was supposed to start shooting tonight but unfortunately was canceled due to the rain :( Hopefully I'll get cast for another one because I've always wanted to be in a music video to see how one is put together.
I'll be doing cam shows most of the weekend as usual. This recession really sucks hard. If I'd entered the west coast entertainment scene a few years ago, I'd already be much better of financially, but because of ex-prez Bush, I'm not. I hope karma really bites him in the ass for what he's done.

Though primarily what may make an adult video performer is what he or she looks like, what really sets the forerunners apart from the masses is how one presents his or herself or what he/she does on the back end of the business that aids in their success. In other words, it's their mind (and drive) that makes all the difference.
I'm definitely far from being the most intelligent woman out there in the business, but (especially as of late) I've utilized a lot of my tech savvy and business know how to capitalize on what I've done so far, and I'll continue to try to expand my knowledge base to continue my current trend.
I think I set a record for myself today in designing a website for someone in the biz, actually the only thing preventing this particular site from being complete is having to wait on additional media which will be provided by the client (I hate waiting for stuff - so impatient).
Well it's another weekend of cam shows. The great thing about doing shows is that at least it's an interactive activity - well what's even better is hearing immediate feedback from my viewers, fans, and friends on what they think of my XXX scenes, camshows, website, etc.
I love my work, but I can't wait to get more into the production end of the business - that to me is where the true excitement lies.

Well yesterday was an interesting day. I received a booking with a new adult vid company called Blue Bird Films. I would say to definitely keep tabs on what they produce this year as I expect a lot of great things from them. The shoot went fairly smoothly without any issues and their staff, from the owner to the makeup/wardrobe crew to the camera crew, was very welcoming, kind and fun to work with.
I suppose my only criticism of the scene I shot with BlueBirdFilms was that it was set to where there was a lot of emphasis on the "racial element". I don't understand why when something is obviously interracial it has to be verbally expressed and at times in a way of which one race is somehow dominant to the other. Oh well...in time hopefully this will change as out society does.
When I got home I was SOOOOO tired, so after texting a few friends I pretty much hit the sack. I expect to mostly do camshows over the weekend and hopefully get some grocery shopping done :)
One of my goals for February is to make a few purchases related to getting my media business in Cali off the ground...cross your fingers.

This morning was truly a historic day. I am watching the Presidential Inauguration this morning of Barak Obama on CNN.com and I am so happy that I'm crying - I never anticipated that I would be this emotional over this, but I truly am. I completely understand today, at this moment what a historic and monumental event today is - not just for african-americans/blacks, but for all people in this country and world as a whole.
Yesterday on a local news broadcast a black woman in around her 50's was interviewed, and she stated that she didn't think in her life she'd witness a black president - well I wasn't sure that I would either and I'm 30.
I didn't think that there wouldn't be a black president ever because of racism in our country and in the world on a large scale, but on a small scale...meaning that there are simply just a few people who still harbor and promote very "old fashioned" and overall "hateful" mindsets in attempt to retain power - a power which they don't truly have to begin with.
I talk a lot on this blog about racism, in the adult industry especially (because that is the industry of which I work and it's what I'm familiar most with), and I will continue to do so - why? Because I'm going to try my best to implement changes in this industry. I feel like if Mr. Obama can make such a huge step for the country and the world, the least I can do work hard to make changes for other women like myself in an industry that counts on not being looked at too closely.
Today is my true independence day and today I am a woman in the adult industry who demands equality, equal opportunity and equal pay not just for myself, but for EVERYONE, regardless of what you look like.

I'm going to start a list of XXX studios and DVD's which I feel people should boycott due to racial issues I have PERSONALLY encountered because it's time to cut the crap.

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Though it's only Tuesday I've been incredibly busy so far this week - mostly with the work that I do from home though. Along with doing a record number (at least for me) of webcam shows for all of my awesome Monica Foster fans, I've been working on updating all of my online presences - from my websites (which is a job in reality for about 4 people), to my MySpace page (I know myspace might seem like a waste of time but in reality it's one of the best networking and promotional tools an adult performer could ask for), to editing my new photosets, to editing my first installment of my POV series, etc - the list goes on and on and on.
It's been well over around 2 years since I've aggressively updated my "image" online. A big part of the reason that I've decided to do it, is because I feel that as a performer (and overall person) I've matured, and I want my image to reflect who I am today, not who I was yesterday.


The great thing about working so hard though is that you appreciate the rewards that much more and you take for granted that much less....
In other news, the AVN/AEE awards have ended - honestly I'm a bit disappointed that certain studios and pornstars didn't win or even get a mention (and for once I'm not talking about myself). Amazing how even the porn world is so political.
Well I've been up all night so time to hit Burger King for breakfast. See you online!

I suppose a part of me DID want to go to the AEE/AVNs but in all truthfulness, I'm glad I didn't because I would have ended up spending money needlessly, and wasting valuable time. Instead by staying home and working, I've managed to:
*almost have my upcoming site launch of GettingIntoPorn.com done
*update my bio's for Monica Foster on every networking site I'm a member of
*do a bunch of cam shows
*and edit some photos.


On top of all that I had a really good workout today as well :) I have been keeping up with the AEE trade show and awards progression though via the AVN website and a few adult industry related blogs I like to read. I really hope that one of the XXX movie nominations that I'm featured in (Breast Meat & Control Freaks) wins - that would be a good thing.

Ok, well back to the grind - see you all online :)